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Special thanks to my dear friend Sam for randomly finding and reading this story and talking with me about it over a couple of beers in our favourite bar in P-Town.

To Nini, who just started watching Supergirl and will read this at some point in the future. I'd love to see the surprised smile on your pretty face, when you realize that I mentioned you here :)

To Sarah, the most wonderful companion anyone could ever wish for. I treasure every second with you (even though it doesn't seem like it most of the time). You've shown me that love trumps even the darkest corner of our minds and that it can be so much more than just a romance. I'm glad you found an interest in this story. Please remember that I deeply love you, in the darkest of hours and the brightest of days.

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Kara was nervous. She lay next to Lena on the couch, it was shortly before midnight and they were watching a horror movie, but Kara just couldn't concentrate on it. A part of her deeply hoped that it would be a quiet night, that Supergirl wasn't needed. The thought kept pulling at her over the last few hours, a constant expectation that her phone would ring any minute.

"You're awfully nervous.." Lena asked, slowly stroking her abdomen while her head was rested on the blonde's shoulder. Being this close to the brunette was, of course, thrilling enough.

"Sorry... It's... I'm really not used to having a night off..." She replied. She enjoyed the closeness, revelled in the feeling of the warm body next to her, but she couldn't help but feel restless. Something was just not as right as it should be. "I'm just afraid we get interrupted again."

"It's not like we're doing anything special right now..."

Lena's face was directed at the television, but just a second later their eyes met and Kara knew exactly where they were heading. She felt her heart beating like a drum and wasn't sure whether it was a good sign or a bad one.

"I'd hate to go now..." she whispered, leaning in despite the unwell feeling in her chest. Their kiss was deep and passionate and none of them cared for the movie anymore. Lena's hand moved around her waist to pull her closer and just as Kara felt the need to straddle the brunette, she felt the panic rise in her chest again. She pulled away a bit too fast.

"I uh... I need to go to the bathroom..."

Alex and Maggie lay in the dark, naked and fully entangled under the covers. They'd fallen into an easy silence, only listening to their still laboured breaths.

"Alex?"

"Yes?"

"I'll need an extra office room..." Maggie whispered against her girlfriend's neck. Her nose was deep in the agent's hair, smelling her unique scent. "And a balcony. Separate kitchen and a window in the bathroom."

"As long as we share a bedroom, I'm fine." Alex chuckled. Her hand was already back on Maggie's breast. It was something that Maggie had to get used to at the beginning. Alex would sometimes just touch her intimate zones without any sexual intention. Being touched this casually was an odd feeling, but she grew to like it very much. It had changed the way she felt her body, it was casual, but sensitive and deeply soothing.

"So... we're doing this, right?" Maggie asked while her nose stroked over Alex's cheek. She placed soft kisses over the agent's face, always enjoying the feeling of their mixed breaths. "We're building a future for us? A real one... with the possibilities of marriage and kids and stuff?"

Alex felt herself still for a moment, but she got out of her shock before Maggie could notice. Marriage and children... those were things she hadn't thought about before. At least, never seriously enough. But with Maggie, those things seemed less scaring and more appealing to her.

"Some day... maybe..." she whispered back against Maggie's lips before placing a determined kiss on them.

"Sounds good to me..."

It was the way Maggie smiled at her that always got her hypnotized. She couldn't believe the beauty in front of her, the tenderness that radiated from her and the fact that all of it was hers and she would give herself to this woman as well. She would give everything she had and hoped that it would ever be enough.

"Okay, so... you've been practically running away from me over the past few hours. May I ask what's wrong?" Lena asked in her usual direct way after the blonde had returned from the bathroom.

"It's not your fault Lena..."

"I know. It's your problem, but we're a couple now so it's mine, too."

"You really wanna know?"

"I asked, did I?"

"Maybe, just maybe, I don't want you to be hurt. Maybe I value you so much, I'd like to have you by my side for the rest of my life. Maybe I'll be dead next week? Maybe you and I live a wonderful life for the next ten years and just find ourselves being strangers to each other one day. Maybe one of us falls in love with someone else someday or maybe some crazy psycho villain finds out about us and kills you just to get to me. You get my point?" Kara's voice was loud and anyone else might've thought it sounded angry, but Lena clearly heard the desperation in it. A part of herself was just devastated by the simple fact that Kara did it again. They'd promised to try and just 24 hours later, they found themselves in the same position again. Nothing had changed.

"Yes I do. I understand that your problem is that you live in constant fear of losing everything and everyone, except for your precious Alex, who seems to be like some goddess to you. Your thoughts are always in the future, but the future is unwritten. Worrying about it only makes you lose the present. "

Lena saw in slow motion how Kara's fist bumped into her dresser, effortlessly breaking the wood.

"You think I want to do this? What you're asking for is just not possible! Nobody can stay in the present! What do you expect from me? I lost my HOMEPLANET, my FAMILY! The good and normal life I would've had there. I would've been normal. And instead... Instead I cannot even be angry without breaking things into pieces. I literally cannot have sex without breaking the headboard or ripping the sheets, you know that? Once I broke a guys arm during an orgasm, sounds like fun huh? I can never be at ease. Do you have any idea how it feels to always have to control yourself?"

Kara's words hit her so hard that Lena had trouble forming a coherent sentence. Guilt flashed through her, filled her with a force she'd never experienced before. They were stuck in a circle of hurting each other and Lena desperately wished for breaking out of it.

"I didn't know that."

"No you didn't. You're not the only one with a cruel past and a constant curse on your back. And before you start blaming things on Alex again, let me tell you that she's truly the only one on this planet that has ever managed to make me feel normal."

Lena felt the hurt deep in her chest. The beauty of the evening shattered into a million pieces while she realized that they still had a long road to go. She deeply understood that trust issues needed time and the right person, but a trauma like the one Kara had been going through was something she didn't see coming, although it made perfect sense, now that the topic was in the air. Her anger had vanished and all that was left was the knowledge that none of them was alone anymore. They had each other and they would fight for the good thing they had.

"I'm sorry for blaming you..." Lena whispered after a moment of silence. She saw that Kara's face had changed. The anger was gone and instead she looked just like a helpless kid.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you... and for the dresser..." she finally murmured with sinking shoulders.

"Forget the dresser... you know... even I can't manage to stop craving things I don't have... To live in the moment... And your fears, all of them, are very reasonable. Such childhood traumas change us forever, but I think, we should try... at least... aim for the ten good years?"

It took her a moment, but Kara eventually looked at her again and her blue eyes were swimming with tears as she took a few steps towards the brunette.

"I lied when I said Alex was the only one who ever managed to make me feel normal..." A sad smile flashed over Kara's lips and it was all they needed at the moment. Lena's arms took her in a tight embrace and soon she felt the blonde relaxing into her.

"I'm not giving up on you." Lena whispered into her ear.

Lena felt the blonde's strong arms hesitatingly reach around her waist. She could tell Kara was afraid to hurt her and it was just another sign of the emotional chaos she must've gone through. Everything between them was so fragile, but she would protect and secure it.

Kara's lips pressed a soft kiss on her neck as Lena began to slowly ran her hand through the soft blonde hair, soothingly massaging the skin of her neck and just a second later, Kara's own hands began to explore the warm skin of Lena's back as her hands quickly shoved themselves under Lena's shirt. Still, it was far from being rushed. To Lena, the blonde's careful movements were just teasing and incredibly wonderful. Never in her life she'd been touched this carefully.

Kara's hands were on her ribcage as Lena eventually lost her patience and withdrew a bit to get rid off her shirt in one fluent movement. She'd half expected to see the flash of doubt in Kara's eyes that she'd seen so many times before, but the pair of blue eyes in front of her only showed a determination that was thoroughly new. They looked at each other like they'd never looked at anyone else before, deeply certain of what they were going to do and equally determined to lose themselves in it, because for the first time, they knew they could trust each other.

Alex was about to catch up on the reports when she heard Kara talking to J'onn outside of the lab. A strange feeling tugged at her chest as she remembered the picture of her dream from the night before. It was a vague memory, but there had been one thing she just couldn't get out of her head anymore. In her dream, she had been lying in Kara's bed, looking at the sleeping silhouette of her sister next to her. She couldn't tell if it was a real memory from the past that she had just unconsciously remembered last night or if it really had been just a dream, but it kept haunting her the whole day.

The air felt different and her coffee tasted different and somehow she felt like everything was about to change, as if she had woken up to a strange parallel universe. She knew that she'd never be sleeping in the same bed as Kara. She just knew it, because their lives had begun to change over night. She knew it when Kara wrote her a text message the night before, confirming that she indeed was in a relationship with Lena. An then, just a second later, Maggie had taken her into a tight embrace, ensuring her of the bright future they would have together. Maybe everything was just as it was supposed to be.

"Hey." Kara whispered, closing the door behind herself. She was in her Supergirl suit, looking just like the superhero she was, all strong and beautiful and brave and, somehow, shinier than usual.

"Someone had a special night?" Alex winked. They shared a radiating smile as Alex couldn't help but share Kara's happiness.

They looked and smiled at each other like they hadn't done in a long time. It was a glimpse of their bond, this thing between them, that would always remain the same, no matter how much the world around them changed.

"Maggie and I are going to move in together."

"That's great Alex!" Kara said and Alex knew it was an honest answer, because deep down she knew they loved each other so much, they would always value the other's feeling more than their own. Always.

Kara sat down next to her on the desk and took her hand in hers. It was a casual gesture, something they'd done so many times before, but it was different now in a way Alex couldn't explain. There was a softness in it, something that felt like gratitude.

"Remember when I said I don't know how to trust someone again?"

Alex nodded and suddenly, she felt a great warmth in her chest as Kara's other hand came up to cup her cheek.

"It was you Alex. You showed me how to do that. You taught me all these years and I just wasn't ready to see it until now. Thank you. I can never thank you enough for being there for me. I don't even wanna know what kind of person I would've become if you hadn't been around all these years."

"Kara..."

"I love you. In all ways anyone could ever love anyone else and even though everything is changing now, we'll be together. Right?"

Kara's eyes were shimmering with emotions as Alex stood up and took the blonde's face into hers.

"We'll always be together."

Alex leaned down to place a kiss on Kara's forehead. She felt the blonde's hands clinging onto her, just as they used to do when she shared a bed with Alex after a bad dream. They would keep getting older, but Alex knew this side of them would always remain.

"I'm proud of you..." Alex whispered as she wiped away tears of happiness on Kara's cheeks. "You and Lena, you'll have a great future together."

Kara was about to answer something, but she couldn't remember her words as she heard Winn speaking in her earphone.

"I gotta go kicking some bank robber's ass." she chuckled.

"Go get 'em Supergirl!" Alex replied. They withdrew from each other with a smile and just a second later, Kara was gone, only leaving a slight breeze that tickled Alex's cheek.

Lena was still in bed as she heard Supergirl landing on her balcony and it caused her lips to form a smile.

"Morning Sunshine." the blonde said as she threw herself onto the bed and Lena couldn't help but chuckle at it.

"I've expected a lot things, but you sneaking out on me wasn't on the list."

"What can I say, I had to rescue a man that was about to get killed by the mafia, I rescued several cats and crashed a bank robbery and still manage to lie in bed with my naked girlfriend. I would say I nailed it." Kara said before leaning in to kiss the brunette. Lena's hands reached around her girlfriend's strong shoulders to pull her closer as their kiss deepened.

"This is exactly how I've always imagined it."

"Imagined what?"

"Belonging to someone." Lena whispered. She felt the blonde's lips curling into a smile against hers and it caused her heart to flutter wildly.

"Get used to it."

They stayed in bed, only feeling each other and the bond between them, that grew stronger with every second. It wouldn't be easy and hurt would go alongside with their love, but they would make the best out of it. They would take risks in order to be happy and they wouldn't be afraid of something as pure and wonderful as love.

The End

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