Date: June 18th 849

I continue to live in this living hell. It has been almost nine years now since I had fled and made my way to this land. If it weren't for this journal I'm sure I wouldn't even remember how many days have passed. I continue to head East in search for humans, but in my many year journey, I still turn up with nothing. Only the unwanted walk the land.

They continue to stumble around like idiots trying to catch me when they see me. If it weren't for my skills, I'm sure I would've been killed by now. At this point there have still been some close calls as noted in previous entries. An entire limb was lost due to one of those bastards, but no matter, I'm fine. It did hurt like hell though.

I still wonder where they come from, what they are looking for. Are they like me? Unwanted by their own people and cast out unto this land? No matter, I will continue to observe them and attack when necessary.

So far, I have managed to keep the usage of my gift to a minimum. I don't want to rely solely on that. I want to be able to fend off for myself using my other talents. Although, when using my gift I have gotten used to it more in emergencies, but it still takes a toll on my body afterwards. I have to hide in the trees when I can, to be as far away from the Unwanted as much as I can be. Hence why I want to be able to strengthen my other skills.

Date: June 19th 849

I kept moving east. I came across some more unwanted today, but there really is no surprise out here. However, something was strange in the sky. It was almost like colored clouds. I figured that this couldn't be natural, so I ran after them as fast as I could. Granted I ran into the middle of a wide open field, but it was worth it to see what I saw. Horses. I haven't seen horses since living back with the troupe. They were sacred frantic and covered in blood. An unwanted was nearby and began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could towards the horses. They had saddles and reigns on them and the blood was not of their own. People, people where near me today. I didn't see them, but I am sure of it. Who knows when I will see them again?

After grabbing one of the horses, I took off in time to escape the unwanted. I ran into a forested area. Now was the time to make a decision. Keep moving or wait for their return. I decided to stay.

Date: July 3rd 849

It has been almost a month since I saw the colored clouds and since I've made camp here. I wonder if they will ever return. I still remember the pretty green and reds in the sky. Maybe it was just a dream. Maybe I'm going crazy from loneliness. Has it really been nine years?

I wonder what the others are doing. Or even what had happened to them. Those traitors. I will never forgive them for what they have done. I just wanted to know who I am.

I still have Hope with me, she has become a great companion. I don't feel as alone anymore now that I have her here. I also named the horse Hope.

Date: November 20th 849

I've given up on living in the trees. I moved on from the colored smoke. I rode Hope East. It was very cold today. I've stopped fighting off the unwanted. I don't see the point anymore. I just keep getting injured. It's more worth it to just run, like how I used to. With Hope it has become a lot easier to get away from them while avoiding combat.

Date: February 8th 850

I feel like as the days go on, I tend to write less and less in the journal. What am I even writing about anymore? It's not like I'm writing down anything new. It's not like anyone is going to find the journal, or me for that matter. I've written down everything I've learned about the unwanted just in case someone does find me. I feel like there is something more to these things than what is let on. Like I have said before, they did start appearing around the time that my people began mysteriously disappearing back in the village. Could these answers tell me what happened to my real parents and why those men have been after me all these years. At least now that I am in a different land I wouldn't have to worry so much about those men coming after me. I can fight off these idiotic unwanted creatures, but those men. Knowing and seeing them slaughter the ones I cared about the way that they did scare me the most. They are the real monsters.

Date: April 13th 850

Today was strange, very strange. I came across manmade fixtures today. A wall almost 50m high. I was hesitant due to the un-wanted being present and in such a large open space. I observed from afar. That's when I noticed a large opening within the wall. It looked like it was destroyed. Something happened here. I feel that the unwanted were responsible. But if this is one step closer to finding people then so be it.

I mounted Hope and we ran. Of course we attracted the attention of those idiots. I had to fend them off especially for the sake of my trusty stead. I'm thankful for the painful archery lessons now. They may have saved my life many times. I was even lucky to have enough arrows to make it through the hole.

I thought that once we were through that everything would be ok. Was I ever wrong? What we had arrived to was in fact a village, but an abandoned one, crawling with the unwanted. It must have been five hours or so before it was dark enough. The unwanted began to grow weak enough for us to find a place to hide for the night.

There was edible food here at some point. The entire village smells of something rotten. After some rest, I'm getting out of here. It began to rain so I need to make sure I stay dry with my cloak.

Date: April 14 850

Hope and I had made it out just fine without any of the unwanted following after us. We made it out though another hole at the opposite end. It was like the wall was meant to keep things out. Probably the unwanted. We found shelter in a small wooded area where I couldn't see any unwanted. It was pouring rain again.

Date: May 20th 850

I wanted to rest up and gain my strength a little. I also needed to repair some of my weapons and make more arrows. To this day I still feel like I'm lucky that I was able to make it this far with my sword and bow. How I was even able to bring it with me is also a miracle. As if someone was looking out for me and placed it right before me. Then again it was all when they casted me out.

Date: May 25th 850

Incredible day today! They were back, I finally got to see them again. The colors were not clouds they were smoke! They shot out high in the sky. First it was reds, then greens. Sometimes a black was there. Eventually yellow appeared and more greens. And then they were gone. I made sure to follow them this time. Hope and I chased after them, but who knows how far away they really were. I could barely see them as it was. Once we got close there were many unwanted present. It's almost like the unwanted are drawn to these signals like I am.

I waited for night to fall before I could get closer. As I approached, there they were. People, but it was too late to exchange any sort of words with them. The unwanted have gotten to them first. There were only parts left. At this point I began to think, is it even worth it to find these people. They could just kill me right away or torture me. What if they knew I was gifted, then what would they do? I'm starting to think that it might be a bad idea to find these people. After all, people are the worst things that are out there. All they want to do is kill each other in the end or betray you. I might just be better off without them. I just hate the idea of being alone. Maybe when I find them, I'll find out where they come from and head there on my own. Then I can start a new life and just maybe continue my search for the truth.

Date: June 26th 850

A month had gone by before seeing the smoke and since I had left the gruesome scene. I had made my way through a few villages and towns. Each one filled with more and more of the unwanted. I had made my way to a forest like usual. Although now that I have passed through the wall, I have noticed changes in the scenery.

Not only are their towns present, but roads, land marks. People were definitely living here and fairly recent too. It is to my suspicion that it was the unwanted who drove them out and killed what couldn't.

This place I was in was called the "Titan Forest". I can understand why. The trees stand tall. Taller than what I could ever be. But it was a nice change for once. Although Hope was left far below, I was able to finally feel truly protected within these trees.

Date: June 27th 850

There they were again. This time they were closer. And fairly early in the morning too. I scaled down the tree but Hope had disappeared. My trusty stead was gone. I tried to whistle for her but she was nowhere to be seen. No matter, I had to continue on, on foot to find these people. So I ran. As stupid as it may sound, I ran out into the open like I used to back when I first arrived to this land.

I kept running as fast as I could, until I saw it. I stopped dead in my tracks. Up ahead there they were. Horses and with people on them. Alive people riding them. I stood there. I couldn't move. I was almost too scared to do anything. I missed my chance.

They rode right passed me. I turned around and watched them get farther and farther away from me. I began to cry, I couldn't believe it. I really was imagining it this time. They didn't even acknowledge me. At that point I began to even question on if I was even alive or not myself. Until I saw a large group of unwanted running towards me and the riders. Just as I was ready to finally let it go once more, someone grabbed me by the hood of my cloak. With me stumbling I was then placed on the back of the horse as we quickly rode away. Everyone stopped their horses and got off. Except for the one I was riding. He told me to keep riding into the forest until I found others.

Without any further hesitation like before, I kept riding the minute that he jumped off. I reached others but they were all preoccupied with whatever task. There were wagons nearby and so I left the horse and hid near one of them behind some bushes. The guy may have saved my life but I still don't know him or trust him.

As I sit here listening to them running around, they seemed to be very frantic. Something large is coming th~