Chapter Two-Avoiding the Truth

LexiePOV

There probably wasn't enough foundation in the world to cover up my puffy cheeks and the redness around my eyes. I had been crying for about three days now. I had recently found out that I was pregnant. This wasn't my plan. This was actually the very reason that Mark and I were having problems before we broke up. He had a daughter already but after she left I thought that we would be okay until the dropped the bomb that Callie was carrying his child. It was all too much for me to handle. I was only a resident and I was a long way off from wanting to start a family and be a mother. I mean just months before I was practicing sutures on myself and living in an apartment filled with stolen items from the hospital. I was in no way ready to have the kind of life that Mark was about to be involved in, and yet here I am; pregnant with Mark's baby.

I've haven't been asked if I was okay so much since the day my mother died. My mother….just the person I needed to talk to and yet the only person that I couldn't talk to. I needed her to crawl in my bed and hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay. The fact that I wouldn't have my mother at all to share this experience with was even more heartbreaking and made the tears poor from my already red and puffy eyes even more. I guess I could talk to Meredith but she would tell me to do the one thing I didn't think I was ready to do yet and that was telling Mark.

"Grey? Lexie? Hey Lexie!" Meredith shouted. I hadn't even realized that she was talking to me. Then again I'd been spacing out more than usual.

"Yeah?" I replied.

"Are you all packed to head out in a few days? I know that it is still a few days away but we need to be ready so we aren't late." Meredith said, reminding me that in a few days we had to get on a plane and travel to separate twins.

"Yeah I'm all set. Been packed since last week." I told her, even though my bag was still sitting in the closet of my bedroom. I haven't really had my mind on traveling to do this surgery. My mind had been on my own baby that was currently taking up residency in my stomach. That sounded bad. And selfish. I know.

"Are you okay? You've been a little bit weepy and spacey the past few days and I just wanted to make sure that you're in the right frame of mind before we go off and operate on children." Meredith said. She was trying to be a good sister and she'd actually been getting a lot better at being sisterly and acting like we were related.

"I'll be fine. I'm actually going to go and try to grab something to eat before I go into surgery." I told her while I hurriedly ran in the other direction. I was just about to stop running when I ran into Alex and tripped making me drop everything in my arms and also made the remaining pregnancy test in my pocket fall out. Why had I forgotten to take that out?

"Hey watch where you're going and slow down." He said and turned to walk away when he saw the test lying on the floor. He looked around and grabbed it off the floor before anyone else had the chance to come across it.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to bump into you….can I have that back?" I asked him pointing to the test the he was staring down at. He looked at it and then looked at me and then looked back at the test.

"Is this yours?" he asked. I couldn't keep it in any longer.

"I could lie to you and tell you that it isn't but I haven't told anyone and I don't know how much longer I can keep this a secret and keep my sanity….yes it's mine and I would appreciate if you didn't go and tell anyone because im still processing this myself. So please give it back and don't tell anyone." I pleaded. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted. It was still a secret but I had someone to talk about it with even it was Alex.

"I'll keep your secret but I think you need to talk to someone, even if its me. Stuff like this can be emotionally traumatizing and can make you go crazy. So I'll be around if you need to talk." He said. I was actually surprised. Alex Karev wasn't the mean and uncaring person that everyone, including me, made him out to be. Maybe I could get through this. I finished picking up the things I had dropped and turned around to have Mark staring at me with a blank face and walking towards me.

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