Hey Guys, Lolo here. So I know that this isn't what anyone wants to see or hear from me after basically a year break from writing on this site (fanfiction net), but I don't know anything else to do. This fanfiction was originally something too get me away from the pressures I was facing in my real life with graduating in 2 years and feeling like I could be myself around anyone. And was just something that was never supposed to become popular, something I could half-ass and no one would care. Something that I could throw me into without any regard for myself as a person changing. Something that I could throw half baked headcanons and see how they fit. Something I didn't have to plan out and know what I was doing since I was reacting to the show essentially, all my planning was done for me and I could just have fun and try to get to know the characters for future stories.

But this story quickly became my most popular. Within a week it surpassed any other story I had previously written, stories that had taken years to get to the popularity it did were suddenly only a half of the views, and then a third, and then a fourth, until finally it hit me that those stories the ones I had poured my heart and soul and everything I could do at the time into. They weren't good enough, the fact that the one story I written to be bad and unpopular was more liked than anything else I had previously written. It hurt, and I am just starting to realize that. Basically two years later after I essentially abandoned it cold-turkey. I realized that this entire time I was hurt that the stories I put everything into wasn't enough for people. That the story I made just so I could vent and throw random things that didn't make sense or have anything to do with each other was considered better than those I spent months on planning and making characterizations and making scenes before hand.

I just recently graduated high school, I am also on top of that a certified medical assistant. In fact the only reason I am writing this is because I was awake at 11:30 the night before my first interview, and I was panicking enough that I didn't and don't think I will be able to sleep tonight without crying myself to sleep. I don't want to give up this story, at least not completely. I am thinking about rewriting it. About starting completely over with a completely different premise. I want to keep a lot of things the same such as the characters and my headcanons, but I as a person has changed from that girl I wrote myself as when I first started. I have learned many things about myself and about my friends and family since I first started this. So I want to make Lolo not me, but instead an actual OC based off of me. One that stays the same no matter how I as a person change. A full blown character with her own storyline and background and all of that. Her own design, everything.

But I don't know if I can do any of this without help. I want to keep this story and this story's fans alive, but I don't know how. I know I don't want to do it the same, where I basically do whatever the hell I want, but one where you guys get to be more involved in the planning of and making of. I don't know if I want to keep it as a 'characters reacting to their show' but I will if that's what you guys want. I have made a discord channel that any of you can join. Here is the link for that:

discord . gg / drZ2kFk

Just remove the spaces and you are in. Please guys, this is a chance for us to get to know each other, and for me to see what exactly my readers want in a story. I will not force anyone to join or to stay. If you find it isn't to your liking you are free to leave whenever you want, with or without warning or explanation. I just ask that y'all give it a try. I guess this is the end to this version of Sebastian's Future and Barry's Past. I will of course keep it up so that I can remember all the comments I have received, but I will be marking it as complete and this is the last post to this version. When I put up a new version it will probably be named something different but will be stated in the summary that it is the new version.

Thanks to all of you that have been with me since the beginning of this journey, and thank you to all of you have have joined since I started. I honestly don't know where I would be without this story, as this story (as much as it was supposed to be bad and what not) has made me a different person and has helped me realize things about myself and others. Thank You, I mean it. And once again, I Am Sorry.