Note: because season 3 is when I really fell in love with these two, and season 4 is when they finally got their shit together, and I'll take any excuse I can get to watch them fall in love over and over again.
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If he had it his way, he wouldn't be spending his summer tracking Stefan's ripper binge all over the country. If he had it his way, he'd be on some island somewhere with a bottle of bourbon and a beautiful woman. But the whole reason Stefan's following Klaus around like a lost puppy is to repay him for saving Damon's life. (Why his baby bro can't just let him die, he'll never understand.) He fucking hates being indebted to anyone, so he'll keep searching.
If he's honest with himself, though, he knows he's not searching for himself. In fact, if he's going to be brutally honest, Stefan was the only thing standing in the way of Damon getting everything he wants, so he should be happy he's gone, right?
Wrong. Because Elena's miserable.
He knows she thinks she's hiding it. She thinks he doesn't know how much she's hurting, how much she misses Stefan, but how could he not know? She loves Stefan. It's always gonna be Stefan for her. (Fuck.) He up and left without even saying goodbye, and he's leaving a trail of bodies up and down the eastern seaboard. Honestly, he'd be more worried if she weren't miserable.
He doesn't want her to know the extent of what they've found. He won't let her tag along on any of their searches, in case Klaus is lurking, so it's pretty easy to keep her out of the loop and lead her to believe they're all dead ends. He hates lying to her, but it's for her own good. If she knew what they'd found, what Stefan's been up to, she'd be even more miserable than she is now. And he doesn't want that, because contrary to popular opinion, he's not completely heartless.
He's trying to protect her. Really. He just wishes it didn't feel like he's kicking a puppy every time he comes home empty-handed.
... ... ...
She keeps searching for Stefan because she refuses to give up on him. It's the only way she can keep herself from falling apart, the only thing that gets her out of bed in the morning.
With each new lead, her heart fills with equal parts hope and dread. Hope, because this could be the lead that proves he's still out there, even if Klaus is controlling him. And dread, because this could be the one that proves he's dead, and he's never coming back.
She can't bear the thought of the latter, so she pushes it from her mind and chooses to be optimistic. If he's still out there, she'll find him, and she'll bring him back to her. To them. She's sure of it.
... ... ...
She wakes up on her birthday wondering how she found herself right back where she started.
Last year, her birthday was just weeks after her parents died, and it was without a doubt the hardest day she's ever had to get through. She spent most of the day in bed, crying, and she had hoped that this year, things would be better. She thought she'd spend the day with Stefan, maybe have dinner with their friends, and just be happy. Just a day of happiness; that's all she really wanted. She supposes after the way this year's gone, she should've known it wouldn't be that easy.
All she feels this morning is a familiar ache in her heart. She wonders if she'll ever have another birthday without it.
... ... ...
His house is fucking crawling with drunk teenagers. He'd be a little more pissed off about it if he didn't know it was for a good cause.
She's been putting on a brave face all day, but when he finds her in Stefan's room, staring at her reflection, he knows she's struggling to keep it together. I'm not going to lose it, she says, and he almost believes her. (Almost.) But she will lose it at some point, so he's gonna do everything he can to make sure that doesn't happen tonight.
The necklace makes her smile, just like he hoped it would, because she deserves to be happy on her birthday. She deserves to be happy all the time, but especially today. He knows it hurts that Stefan's not here, but at least this way she can have a piece of him with her, to remind her that he's still out there somewhere, that there's still hope.
(He doesn't know if he really believes that himself, but if it'll help Elena get through this day, he can pretend for a little while.)
... ... ...
It's not like he was in love with Andi or anything, but he did actually enjoy her company, and he never wanted her to get hurt. So that sucks. Then he gets home and Elena found his closet of tracking supplies and got herself all worked up and he had to break her little heart and yeah, this night just fucking sucks.
Stefan's gone. He saw it in his eyes. He's probably flipped his switch to cope with committing mass murder. He doesn't care about Damon, he doesn't care about Elena, and they won't be able to save him, because he doesn't want to be saved.
... ... ...
It's him. She knows it's him, it has to be. He won't speak, but she can hear him breathing, can hear the hitch in his throat that means he's on the verge of tears. It's him, and he's alive, and she knows Damon's wrong. He's alive, and whether he's flipped his switch or not, there's part of him that still cares, and that's enough for her.
Damon might have given up on him, but she can't.
... ... ...
He can't believe he didn't see this coming, honestly. Her persistence is grating on his last nerve. What the hell does she think is gonna happen? She's gonna find Stefan and he's just gonna run into her arms and flip his switch back on and the world will be all sunshine and rainbows and butterflies?
She's fucking ridiculous and he doesn't know why the hell he puts up with her.
(He knows why. Because he's in love with her, goddamn it.)
... ... ...
Apparently, even ripper Stefan has a hero complex. How convenient.
... ... ...
Yes, I worry about you. Why do you even need to hear me say it?
Because when I drag my brother from the edge and deliver him back to you, I want you to remember the things you felt when he was gone.
She doesn't know what he means by that, but he's standing so close to her and her head's a little fuzzy, so maybe she's just not thinking straight.
Even after he walks away, she can still feel his hands on her cheeks, can feel her heart beating too quickly in her chest. He has a way of making her feel like she's standing on the edge of a cliff, and just one wrong step could send her tumbling over the edge. She wishes she knew what falling over the edge would mean, but she knows with Damon, it can't mean anything good.
... ... ...
Okay, so, impromptu trip to Chicago? Probably not the best idea he's ever had. Especially since he comes back without his brother and Elena comes back with a broken heart.
See, the thing about Elena is that when she's trying to avoid her grief, she finds something to focus on to distract her. And apparently, Damon's her new project.
He's a vampire. It may have taken him over a century or so, but he's accepted what he is. Stefan couldn't handle it (oh, the irony), but Damon's gotten pretty good over the years at practicing moderation and discretion when necessary. He's fucking annoyed that everyone suddenly thinks he needs some kind of intervention. He's never needed Stefan to keep him in check. If anything, Stefan needed Damon to keep him in check. He's not gonna go off the rails just because baby bro went rogue.
Really, it all comes down to the fact that he loves her, and he wants her to love him back, but he won't change who he is. He can't. She wants a replacement Stefan, and he won't be that for her. He doesn't know where that leaves them, but it doesn't really matter, because if there's one thing he knows, it's that it'll always be Stefan for her.
(Fuck.)
... ... ...
She watches the light go out of his eyes, watches his humanity vanish, and her heart shatters into a thousand pieces.
Damon brings her necklace back (again), but she can't wear it anymore. He was right - it's a symbol of her bond with Stefan, her Stefan. But her Stefan is gone, and so is their bond, at least for now. Every time she looks at it, it feels like her heart's being ripped out of her chest, and she just… she can't. Not anymore.
She knows he's trying to help when he offers to help her forget, but she needs to remember. She can't let herself take the coward's way out, no matter how much it hurts. If she's ever gonna bring him back to her, she has to remember everything. And she will bring him back to her, even if she dies trying.
... ... ...
Everything about this situation is fucking annoying. Like a weird vampire freaky Friday. For over a hundred years, Stefan's been the good brother and Damon's been the dangerous one. If Stefan's gonna be the evil, sarcastic brother who treats humans like blood bags, then what the hell is Damon supposed to be?
Not to mention Elena's gone all Buffy the Vampire Slayer and spends her time lifting weights and fighting dummies. He appreciates that she wants to protect herself. Really. It would make his life a hell of a lot easier if he didn't have to worry about her safety all the damn time. But Elena's ruled by her emotions. Always has been, always will be. He doesn't trust that when it comes down to it, she can do what needs to be done without letting her humanity get in the way. That's what she has him for, because he can do what needs to be done without thinking twice.
(It's like everyone's bucking the system, and he doesn't know where his place in all this is anymore.)
(He can't say he'll mind if she keeps wearing those little workout outfits, though.)
... ... ...
She doesn't know why it bugs her so much, watching Damon flirt with Rebekah. It was her idea, after all. But he's being very convincing, almost like he's not pretending at all, and she knows enough about him to know he could thoroughly enjoy seducing her if he really wanted to.
She's not jealous. This part of the plan is necessary. Rebekah's a wild card, but they know she's loyal to Klaus, and they can't afford to have her getting in the way of everything. She's not jealous, she's annoyed, because Damon's over there trying to get laid while she's singlehandedly trying to save his brother.
(Okay, so maybe she's a little jealous.)
She loves Stefan, she reminds herself. Stefan is the whole reason they're using this plan in the first place. They have to find a way release him from Klaus' compulsion, to bring him back to himself. She won't give up on him, no matter how many times he calls her a blood bag or accuses her of being pathetic. (That one hurt, she won't lie.) Because it's not him. It's not her Stefan, it's ripper Stefan, and they might look the same, but they are not the same person.
She needs her Stefan back so she can stop being annoyed by stupid things like Damon flirting with Rebekah.
... ... ...
If there's one thing she learned from the ghostly invasion of Mystic Falls, it's this: she needs to move on.
Her Stefan is gone. Maybe he won't be gone forever; she still has hope that one day, he'll break through, and he'll be the man she loved (loves) again. But right now, he's gone, and she cannot let herself be consumed by this any longer. She has so many other important people in her life who need her - Jeremy, Bonnie, Caroline, Alaric. (Damon.) People who care about her; people who are actually there.
I won't love a ghost for the rest of my life.
She still wants to kill Klaus, wants to make him pay for everything he's done. But she's not doing it for Stefan, not to save him, not to bring him back to her. Not anymore. Now, she's doing it for herself.
... ... ...
His brother may still be a dick, but he saved his life (for the zillionth fucking time), and Damon's about 99% certain he saw a tiny little flicker of humanity shine through. So he'll keep pushing, because no matter how much he hates it, he still owes his brother. (For saving his life. He's lost track of which time that was.)
When it's all said and done, there's nothing more important than the bond of family.
He thinks maybe Elena's right. Maybe he's the one who can bring Stefan back from all this, and not her. Maybe they've been going about this all wrong. He'll never be a hero, but maybe Damon can finally do something right for once in his goddamn life.
... ... ...
The irony of this whole situation is not lost on her. She's conspiring with Damon to keep Stefan from messing around and getting in the way of their plan. Reverse those two names and you've got her entire junior year of high school.
Turns out, they were worried for good reason. And Damon is livid, not just for himself, but for her.
This is the first time she feels like she and Damon are truly on the same page, that they're in this together. Over the last few months they've gotten closer; they've learned more and more about each other, learned to see past their differences and focus on what they have in common. It started out as just a mutual goal to find Stefan and bring him back. Now Stefan's back, he's free of Klaus, and she's not really sure why she's still keeping Damon so close to her.
But that's not really true, is it? Not if she's being honest with herself. Because all this growing closer has just confirmed what she already knew - that Damon's not the heartless, sadistic monster he wants everyone to think he is. Sure, he's selfish, and hot-headed, and impulsive, but he also cares. He cares about everyone around them. He doesn't like to show it, but she knows better. She can see past his flippant, sarcastic deflections and understand who he really is. When other people look at Damon, they see the monster who kills for sport, who doesn't care about anything that doesn't serve him.
She sees someone completely different.
She sees the man who took her to Atlanta to take her mind off things when Mystic Falls became too much to handle. Who stepped up and danced with her at the Miss Mystic Pageant when Stefan abandoned her. Who brought her necklace back to her not once, not twice, but three times, despite what he knew it meant to her. (Stefan.) The man who stood by her all summer, who helped her and protected her and comforted her when her boyfriend couldn't be bothered.
Anytime she's ever needed him, he's been there, without question. He might have a twisted way of showing it, but he cares, and that makes him worth keeping around.
... ... ...
Damon thinks that when he finally bites the dust, his tombstone should read: Here is where Damon Salvatore would lie if Stefan would ever just let him die. (Hey, that rhymes. Maybe he missed his calling.)
He cannot fucking believe this whole mess happened because Stefan couldn't bear to let him die. (Again.) And just when he was finally starting to let go of the guilt. If there's one thing Damon hates, it's feeling guilty. It's a fucking pointless emotion that can cripple you for no reason at all, and he can't stand feeling it, which is why he doesn't. (Much.) He thinks he's felt more guilt in the last few months than ever in his life, because this whole time Stefan's been out there, paying for Damon's life, Damon's been hanging out with Elena, growing closer to her. Falling more in love with her when he knows he can't have her.
But see, that's where the guilt comes in, because technically, he could. It's become clear to him in the last few weeks that what he feels for her might not be totally mutual, but it's not totally unrequited, either. He thinks if he put a little effort in, he could start to turn the tides in his favor. He wants to. Fuck, he wants to. But he fucking can't, because she's his brother's girl, and since Stefan is perpetually saving his life (asshole), he can't screw him over that way.
Once again, guilt is fucking pointless. It just keeps him from getting what he wants.
It's Elena's I don't know what I would do if you weren't here that changes his mind. Because if Stefan wanted Elena, he could be here. He's free of Klaus, so there's nothing stopping him. If Stefan really wanted to, he could be the one on Elena's front porch on the receiving end of all her thanks and praise. But he's not, and Damon is, and he feels guilty about it and it's fucking stupid because he hasn't done anything to warrant it. So he changes his mind.
If I'm going to feel guilty about something, I'm going to feel guilty about this.
... ... ...
She watches him walk toward her, and she knows what he's going to do, knows she should stop him, but she can't. She wishes she could say she's shocked, or appalled, or some other emotion that implies that she didn't see this coming. But the second his lips touch hers, she knows just how long (how much) he's wanted this.
What does shock her is the realization that she wants this, too.
He cups her face gently in his hands, his thumbs resting on her cheeks, her hands gripping his wrists, and just when she starts to kiss him back, he pulls away.
She doesn't know how long she stands there in a daze after he leaves. She can't think, can't process, can't even register anything other than her lips still tingling and the cool air on her cheeks where his thumbs were. At some point she ends up in her bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering what just happened, how the hell she got here, and what the hell she's supposed to do now.
... ... ...
Protecting Elena is your problem now.
His brother is pretty damn good at proving a point.
He's fucking pissed that Stefan would put Elena's life in danger like that, especially with vampire blood in her system. (He vaguely recalls a similar argument in which the roles were reversed and he got a lecture about choices.) But the rational part of him knows it worked. Klaus gave in, and they got the upper hand.
He doesn't know what was said, but he's sure she had it out with Stefan on the bridge before he showed up. She's upset, understandably; her life is constantly hanging in the balance, with various players using it as leverage, and the guy she loves just used her in the worst way possible. And yeah, he's worried, because he keeps asking if she's gonna be okay, searches her eyes for signs of giving up (she never would, but he wouldn't blame her if she did), and she won't fucking answer him.
You can't kiss me again.
Ah. There it is. He's been waiting for her to say something like that. She might not have pushed him away, might have even kissed him back, but even after everything that's happened, Stefan's still not completely out of the picture. He might never be completely out of the picture, and Damon knows that. But one day, he and Elena, they'll get their shot. He has to believe that, because there's something here between them. He doesn't know what it is, or what it means, but it's something, and she can't ignore it forever.
It's not right, she says, but she's wrong, and he needs to make that clear to her.
No, it's right. It's just not right now.
He can be patient. He waited 150 years for Katherine, and even though that was a bust, he knows this - Elena - is worth waiting for.
... ... ...
He's back. She thought she might have seen a flicker of it on the bridge that night, heard a hitch in his voice as he walked away from her. But she knows for sure now. She saw it in his eyes when she told him she kissed Damon.
She knows (and she's sure he knows, too) that she wouldn't have told him if it didn't mean something. She doesn't really know where they stand right now, and she knows at this point she's under no obligation to tell him when she kisses someone. But it's Damon, and she doesn't know what that kiss meant but she knows it meant something. No matter what Stefan's done, her feelings for him haven't gone away. Maybe it's selfish, but she needs to tell him, needs him to know that she didn't plan it, that she wasn't trying to hurt him.
But she can see it in his eyes. She may not have meant to, but she hurt him anyway. Which means… He's back. And that changes everything.
... ... ...
She walks into the Mikaelson party and takes his breath away. One, because she's fucking gorgeous. Two, because she's not supposed to be here. Elena Gilbert can be a royal pain in the ass when she wants to be.
The problem is, she's got him wrapped around her pinky finger. He and his brother, actually. He knows Stefan's humanity is emerging because all of the sudden he's throwing punches and thinly veiled hints that he's pissed off. (Shit, if he'd known all he had to do to pull Stefan away from the edge was to kiss Elena, he would have done it a long time ago. Multiple times, probably.) It's like everything's gone back to normal, except the roles are pretty much reversed. Now Damon's the one trying to protect Elena at all costs, and Stefan's the one going behind his back to get shit done.
He gets why she did it. That doesn't mean he's not pissed as hell.
I'm mad at you because I love you.
Well, maybe that's the problem.
Apparently, he cares too much. The irony of this whole situation would be funny to him if it wasn't so damn tragic. This is who she wanted him to be; this is the side of him she likes. Fuck. He honestly believed they'd turned a corner, but nothing's changed at all. He's still in love with her, and she's still in love with Stefan.
So does what he always does when he's pissed off. He indulges himself. He breaks someone's neck (since it was an Original, he doesn't have to feel bad), and he has mindless, drunken sex with a beautiful woman.
(He'd feel bad about that, but he doesn't owe Elena anything. She made that pretty damn clear.)
... ... ...
She doesn't know why she was so shocked to hear him say he loves her. She knew it already; he's told her before. It was something about the way he said it, like it's the only thing he's certain of, like it's the one thing holding him together. Like she's the one thing holding him together. She doesn't like that, because she can't promise him anything. She still loves Stefan, and he's coming back to them, piece by piece. She needs to sort all that out before she can even begin to unravel what's going on with Damon.
Still, she shouldn't have said what she said. She feels awful about it, because she cares about him, and she hates that she hurt him. He's done so much for her this year, and she honestly doesn't know where she'd be without him. She wants him to know that, wants him to know what he means to her. But apparently, he's coping just fine without her apologies.
She's not jealous. She's pissed off that he's sleeping with someone who tried to kill her. There's a difference.
(This whole situation is just so damn twisted that half the time she doesn't know which way is up.)
... ... ...
He turns Abby because someone had to do it, and since Elena doesn't want him and Stefan's on the mend, he figures this will restore the normal balance of things. Stefan gets to be the hero, Elena will hate Damon, and Damon doesn't have to be the good guy anymore. Everything will go back to the way it was.
You know, if you keep pushing people away, you're gonna end up alone.
Why the fuck does he let everything she says get under his skin?
He figures if he's gonna make amends with anyone, it should be his brother. His new diet (ahem) has got to be driving him crazy. Damon knows; he's watched it happen before. So he decides to take his little brother under his wing and teach him a little moderation. And it works, at least this time. It's gonna take some time and a whole lot of babysitting but he knows Stefan can get past this, and he's gonna help him do it.
Why do you care? Stefan asks.
(Of fucking course, the voice Damon hears in his head is Elena's: When it's all said and done, there's nothing more important than the bond of family.)
Because, right now, you're all I've got.
... ... ...
She doesn't blame Matt for not understanding why she's so hooked on the Salvatore brothers. She'd be lying if she said she hasn't asked herself that question a thousand times since they walked into her life.
She looks at him, her first love, and pictures what could have happened if they hadn't.
She might have reunited with Matt at some point. Or maybe she would have met someone else, someone human. She would have lived with Jenna and Jeremy until she graduated, then gone off to college. Maybe she would have met someone there, too. Maybe she would have settled down with that someone, gotten married, started a family. A nice, normal human life.
If you had asked her a year and a half ago, that's exactly what she would have wanted.
Now? Now, she doesn't know what she wants, but it's probably safe to say a nice, normal human life is not in the cards for her. To wish away the Salvatore brothers would mean to wish away two people she cares so deeply for. She'd be giving up Stefan, the man she loves, and regardless of how this all shakes out, what they had was amazing. It saved her when she was drowning in grief; it showed her what true love and happiness could feel like.
She's the kind of person who believes everything happens for a reason. Sure, the Salvatore brothers have brought all kinds of death and destruction into her life. But they also brought her the greatest love she's ever known and two people who are always there for her, no matter what. Maybe it makes her selfish, but she wouldn't give that up for the world.
... ... ...
She's not stupid. She's been around vampires long enough now to know that they can't live without human blood. She knows that no matter how hard Stefan tries, he can only resist it for short periods of time.
She also knows that if he's not in control, she's not safe around him, which means they can't be together.
She doesn't like that Damon pushed him to feed on humans, but she knows he was right. Stefan needs to learn moderation so that maybe he can fight off the ripper binges in the future. She wishes none of it was necessary, that he could just live on animal blood and that the urges would just go away, but she's seen too much to believe in that anymore.
She's still skeptical of Damon's plan, but when Stefan staves off his hunger to save Meredith, she thinks that maybe it's not a lost cause. Which means that maybe they're not a lost cause.
He loves her, and he tells her so. That's the good news. The bad news is that he knows she feels something for Damon, and the worst part is that she can't look him in the eye and tell him he's wrong.
... ... ...
He should've known getting mixed up with an Original was a bad idea. He can be a little (okay, a lot) impulsive when he wants something. He treated her like a means to an end, and now he's paying for it.
The fact that Elena shows up to save him should tip him off that he's hallucinating, but he wants so badly to believe that she would want to save him that he goes along with it. Which means it hurts that much more when the bitch pulls him out of it and Elena is nowhere to be found.
He knows better than that. Elena doesn't want him. Sure, she'll be sad if he dies, but she'll get over it when she and Stefan get their happily ever after. And he'll be just a damn footnote at the bottom of their epic love story.
(When his savior finally does come, it's Stefan. Of fucking course. He doesn't know why he ever expected anyone else.)
(He liked the hallucination better.)
... ... ...
She'll be honest, she doesn't think this trip to Denver with Damon is a good idea. But Stefan has it in his head that she needs to resolve her feelings for Damon one way or another, and she can't really argue with him. If she's ever going to be happy with Stefan again, she needs to figure out why Damon's under her skin so she can finally shake him.
But when she finds out what he did for Rose, it's like something clicks into place. Things that were blurry come into focus. Because that's the Damon she's gotten to know better than anyone over the last few months. That's the Damon who kept her from falling to pieces, who helped her bring the love of her life back to them. That's the Damon she loves.
Loves.
She doesn't know what it means, exactly. She's not in love with him. She knows what that feels like because she still feels it for Stefan. But it's more than just like, and it's something she can't ignore completely. It's something that's been trying to push to the surface for months, and now that she's finally in a place where she's ready to confront her feelings, she can see it for what it is.
He lays down beside her, and when their hands touch, it's like an electric shock zipping through her entire body and it scares the hell out of her.
She knew he'd follow her outside, but it's like she's standing on that cliff, on the edge of something terrifying, and she knows he can push her over the edge.
Don't.
Why not?
Why the hell not?
When he says her name, she falls off the edge, and he's there to catch her.
... ... ...
He knows this whole road trip soul search had to be Stefan's idea, because he knows Elena, and she'd never have chosen this herself. If she had it her way, she'd forget everything that ever happened with him (or she'd try - he can make things pretty damn difficult when he wants to) and go running back into Stefan's arms.
But he also knows his brother, and his brother is a goddamn martyr. Or maybe he's just smart, because he knows that if there's truly something there and Elena ignores it, she'll never be truly happy with him. So this is Stefan's attempt to exorcise the demons, if you will. He was probably hoping Damon would do something stupid and screw everything up, and it would prove to Elena that she doesn't want to be with him. Or maybe it's Elena who was hoping for that, hoping that he would make everything simple, turn the gray areas to black and white so she didn't have to think so hard anymore.
Well, screw both of them, because he's not going to make it easy for her, for either of them. When he thought it was all cut and dry, that she wanted Stefan and not him, it was easy to step back and take himself out of the equation. Now that he knows he has a shot, he's going to make it as difficult as possible for she and Stefan to have their happily ever after.
He's a selfish bastard and he always has been, but he's so in love with her he can't even see straight and after everything that's happened, he can't just let her slip away. So she has a choice to make, and he's going to make damn sure she has to think long and hard before she makes it.
... ... ...
She asks Stefan to the dance because Caroline's right. She's supposed to be figuring out what (who) she wants, and she can't clearly assess her options when her head is still clouded by what happened in Denver. It's not a fair fight, and she thinks a school dance with the man she loves is the perfect way to clear her head.
Considering her luck with school dances, she should have known better.
She doesn't know where they're supposed to go from here. She doesn't know how she's going to take care of Jeremy, to stay strong and keep going for him. She doesn't know anything anymore. All she knows is that when it all goes to hell, she's grateful that Stefan's the one who's there to hold her.
... ... ...
He knew he should've just snapped Ric's neck when he had the chance.
At least now they've gotten rid of Klaus so they only have one problem to deal with. And since Klaus was (supposedly) the sire of their line of vampires, they (supposedly) don't have to worry about dying anytime soon.
He finally feels like he and Stefan are in a good place. Like they've finally gotten past everything that's happened to drive them apart in the last 150 years and can finally just be brothers.
Kinda sucks, then, that Elena can screw that all up whenever she damn well pleases.
He doesn't know what's going to happen when she makes her choice, but he's not holding his breath, because the odds are never in his favor. These kinds of things never work out for him, so he's not gonna get his hopes up, especially now that Stefan is himself again. She fell for Stefan once, so what's to stop her from doing it all over again?
(Damon could, maybe, if she ever gave him the chance.)
(Like he said, he's not holding his breath.)
... ... ...
Klaus was right. (Words she never, ever thought she'd say.) She's being horribly selfish, stringing the Salvatore brothers along, refusing to choose between them. She's going to drive them apart if she keeps this up much longer. The only thing more terrifying than that is the idea that her decision itself could drive them apart just as much, if not more.
The problem is that she loves them. Both of them. In different ways, and for different reasons, but she loves them both. She's lost so many people in the last year and a half, and she doesn't want to lose anybody else.
So, selfishly, she doesn't want to choose.
(She's no better than Katherine, and she hates it.)
... ... ...
He never thought that he'd ever have to face his own mortality, but here he is, waiting to die.
He can't get back to Mystic Falls, so he's been spared of whatever brotherly goodbye he and Stefan would've had. And the second he answers her call, he knows he won't get to say goodbye to Elena, either.
He knows the answer before he even asks the question, but he figures if he's really gonna die, he might as well die knowing the truth. He knows what she'll say, but it still sucks to hear it.
Maybe if you and I had met first…
He's not the crying type, but fuck, he feels like he might cry now, because they did meet first and she doesn't even know it. Fucking irony. Story of his life.
... ... ...
This all feels like the worst case of déjà vu she's ever experienced.
But it's not a dream, or a hallucination, or a flashback. It's real. She's drowning.
Of all the ways she could have died over the last year and a half, she can appreciate the irony that she's right back where it all started.
... ... ...
He doesn't think he's ever wished one of his enemies back to life before, but with evil hunter Ric dying in his arms, he knows that can only mean one thing.
He breaks every traffic law on the books to get back to Mystic Falls, only to find out that not only is Elena dead, but she died with Damon's blood in her system, thanks to one Dr. Meredith Fell.
Fuck.
She is not going to be happy about this.