Numb

by thepeacockandthebutterfly

He felt his heart freeze. An ice that had been creeping over him for years. Every time he saw her smile it was like a stabbing pain in his chest, and the ice continued to cover his heart. But he never thought it would lead him to here.

"Why do I always feel like I need you?" he cried into the darkness of night. Her blue eyes that captivated his soul and those sweet pink lips as they curved upwards in a smile. Her mask which shielded her from the world, yet opened her to him. They filled his mind, forming dreams and hopes and wishes. All of them out of his reach.

But unbeknownst to him, he was destined for another. One who shone like the sun she was, the same blue eyes, but she was cold like him. Frozen to the world because of an unrequited love.

His other half.

Adrien...I'm so sorry.

I never imagined that I was a burden to you, but now I see I've only been dragging you down.

I knew you always looked beyond me, idolizing Ladybug-me, my other half! But I could never tell you. There was never the right moment nor the right reason.

-Flashback-

"Leave me alone!" Adrien screamed, holding his head in his hands.

Marinette stood next to him, tears in her eyes, hands outstretched to him. "Adrien, please..."

Adrien, looked up at her, furious tears in his eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?! I...I was your boyfriend!"

Marinette froze at the past tense and fell to her knees, the world spinning around her. This wasn't possible. This couldn't be happening. "I'm so sorry, Adrien, I didn't mean for this to happen."

She stayed near to him, hoping, pleading to whatever God there was that this was just a dream. Adrien got to his feet and began to walk away. He shot a withering glare at Marinette. "You know, I never really liked you. You were just the closest thing to Ladybug I could get."

"All you were was a burden."

Marinette...I didn't mean it.

But I can't lie to you, I am broken. I don't love you. I feel like I never did. I projected my love for Ladybug on you, and that was unfair of me.

It wasn't your fault.

-Flashback-

"Chat?" Ladybug asked uncertainly as she watched her partner rock back and forth on the balls of his feet.

He cleared his throat suddenly, seeming to come to a conclusion. "M'Lady, will you be my girlfriend?"

"We both know that I'm not the only person, Chat," Ladybug laughed, not taking him seriously.

Chat dropped to his knees, "Ladybug, I love you. There is no one else who holds my heart like you do."

Ladybug's eyes softened, but not with love, with sympathy. "Chat...I'm sorry...but you are not the one who holds my heart." Anticipating his heartbroken next words, she continued, "I'm not saying you aren't my best friend. I would date you, truly, but it would be a lie. I don't want you to always feel like you are second in my heart when you should be first."

Chat dropped to his knees in desperation, pleading with her. "My Lady, please don't!"

"Goodbye, Chat," Ladybug pulled out her yoyo and soared away from him.

He watched her go before curling up in the fetal position and crying.

A/N: Kind of a crack fic, kind of a beautiful story of two broken people. Short and sweet but worthwhile.