It is a little bit shorter than usual. And sadly without that lemon. I will still write it but I can't keep my eyes open. Next time the chaper will be longer again. Enjoy!

The reaction Rose gave me was not anything I had expected. I had expected her to get angry at me or call me stupid. But she got mad at Tasha. Ranting while she walked through the living room. How it was not fair what Tasha was doing.

'You get me her contact numbers Dimitri.', she then says to me when she has called Tasha every swear word she could think of. It was a lot of names.

'And then what?', I ask her. I grab her hand and pull her next to me on the couch. She sits down with her legs pulled under her and her hands tightly in mine.

'I can try to sue her.', she says. I shake my head at her and she knows it. There is no case. 'Or I could buy it. Yes, Dimitri. Everyone has a price. That way you can keep your bookstore. And the cabin.'.

I pinch the bridge of my nose. I let Tasha buy me everything. Control my life. And now that I am finally free of her grip Rose wants to buy those things for me as well. Then it would just be the same.

'No.', I tell her then, stopping her mumbling how she is going to buy the bookstore and cabin from Tasha. She looks surprised at my sudden answer.

'You don't want the bookstore?', she then asks. Even more surprised now. It surprised even me but spending the whole day thinking about it I knew I couldn't keep it.

'It's not that I don't want it. It's that I can't keep it.', I tell her then. She frowns and I try to smooth the wrinkles of her forehead.

'Haven't you been listening. I can buy it for you if you want. Or some other place if you rather want that. Something more in the center of the city. You will do much better there.', she says and I can see the plans forming in her eyes.

'Roza. I don't want it.', I say. A little angrier than I meant.

'Than what do you want? You want her just to have it? Giving up everything you built inside that place to do what exactly?', she says. It doesn't sound upset or angry. She just wants to know what I want to do.

'I don't know Roza. But I let her control my life for a long time. It is time that I built something for myself.', I tell her. Trying to make her understand that I must do it myself.

'I promise you that if you let me buy you something I will put it on your name. I don't want to control your life comrade. I want you to be happy and I don't care about the money. I have enough money but there is only one of you.', she says a little more emotional than I thought she would. I pull her closer and wrap my arms around her.

'I don't want you for your money Roza. And that bookstore has been my dream for a long time but I can't go in there wondering if I could ever do that on my own. I need to do things on my own from now on. Or at least try.', I tell her. Feeling like that is something I must do.

'What will you do during the time where you are trying to find out? You just going to sit here and wait?', she asks. Still not angry or mean.

'I can get a little more classes at the university. They asked me a couple times but I have always refused because of that bookstore. I spent my days teaching until I figure it out. Or maybe I will be a teacher for the rest of my life.', I tell her. On Monday, I will see if I can get some more classes to teach.

'You can still take my offer Dimitri. And don't protest. I will stand beside you with every decision you make. Even if that decisions means that you will stubborn.', she says with a small smile on her lips. I lean forward and press mine against hers.

Her arms wrap themselves around my neck and she presses herself closer against me. I put my hands on her hips. Pull her onto my lap. Her lips are hungry. My hands can't get enough of her skin, wanting more and more until she pulls back.

'Talk.', she whispers, leaning her forehead against mine. I nod. We need to talk a little more before giving into this.

I stand up, taking her with me. If we are going to be talking a little more we can better get more comfortable. She wraps her legs around my hips, a smile lingering on her lips. First, I bring her with me to the kitchen where I put her on the counter. As I open one of the cabins she speaks.

'There won't be much talking if you pull out that bottle.', she says. As I look up she grins at me. I shake my head but pull a bottle of vodka out of the cabin.

'It's for afterward. I was thinking about drinking it out of your belly button.', I tell her as I stand between her legs. She moans, pulling the strands of my hair.

'Or maybe I will do it here. Kitchen is much easier to clean.', I tell, pushing her backwards. She giggles as I push her, my, shirt higher. She tries to push me away as I lean down.

'Dimitri.', she wants to make it sound like a protest but it sounds more like a plead. I bite right beneath her belly button. She shivers and moans. I stand up straight and lift her up again. With my arms around her I walk towards the bedroom.

'I can walk.', she tells me.

'Why would you if I can carry you.', I tell her, pressing a kiss on her forehead.

We settle on the bed. Both in the middle and with our heads on our own pillows. Our faces close together. She is only in my shirt and her underwear while I am still completely dressed. We both turned more serious when we lied down. While our hands are woven together.

'We are married for a month now and I feel like I have already let you down.', she whispers then. Both knowing that it is her time to speak but this isn't what I expected.

'We both needed to find our way into this.', I tell her but she shakes her head. Closing her eyes for a moment.

'You were made for this Dimitri. You were ready to be a husband. I thought I was ready but I didn't know what you would expect from me. I had thought it would be easier but I got scared.', she says as she opens her eyes again.

'After that busy first week, I had made plans to control my appointments more. I went through them with my assistant a couple times until we figured it out and we would celebrate our marriage that weekend. You were supposed to get the rings and cook me some food.', she says that with a grin but it soon disappears.

'Then when I got home my parents were here and they told all those things about you. Things I didn't know and I started wondering what else I didn't know. After you left they spoke more and I let my father get into my head. His words haunted me. It made me do the one thing I am good in. Hiding myself in work and parties while I should be talking to you.'.

'When I found you on that balcony yesterday and you started about children I got scared. So, so scared. It was just like my father knew what you wanted. I reacted wrong on your words. I get that now. Lissa talked to me until I got that. And when I finally got that I wanted to get back to you. Talk with you.'.

'I want this Dimitri. I want to be married to you but I don't know how to be a wife. And I will promise you that I will try my hardest. Today I talked business with Lissa. We made some agreements so we can both be more at home.', she finishes her talking. The last part she rushes out.

I grin and pull her closer. Our noses now touching. Softly I press a kiss on her lips as she pressed a leg between mine so we can lie closer.

'When I say I think about children doesn't mean that I expect us to get them right away. I will never do anything you don't want to Roza.', I tell her and she nods. This is probably the same thing Lissa told her.

'But I think we should get a new house. I hate that I have to take the elevator every day.', I tell her and she nods.

'I can live with that.', she says before she presses her lips against mine. This time we both have no intention to pull back for more talk. We both need to make this up between us in a different way.