So I just wanted to say to that my brother competed in the special olympics for the first time this past weekend. Our school has always declined our request to make a team, so my dad filled out all the paperwork officially certifying him as a coach and he trained my brother and other students that wanted to participate. So they went to a qualifying meet, but it was rained out so they drew names from a bin, and my brother was chosen for the softball throw. When the volunteer lined the kids up for awards and led my brother to the first place spot he immediately threw his arms inthe air and screamed "finally I'm a winner" which made me and my mom cry because to my family he's always been a winner, so I'm extremely proud of him.

Ash's POV

"Well I love you." He said it so simply and easily she envied to do it to, but it wasn't that easy. It wasn't that she had never said it before because she had told Lance on many occasions that she loved him, but every time he said it to her it was fake. She knew Johnny wasn't faking but something about saying these three specific words hurt her more than words can explain.

At the same time she felt Johnny deserved the simple reply back because he had been through so much with her and had not left her side. He proved along time that he truly loved her and she knew it but it didn't make the task any easier.

"Ash you don't have to say it back I just had to get it off my chest" he said quickly probably regretting that he said it in the first place, but ash wanted to tell him it was ok, actually she needed to. She inhaled calming herself before turning in her seat to face Johnny who was trying his best to focus on the road.

"But Johnny you don't even know how badly I want to say it to because I think you deserve that at least. I mean like I mentioned last night you dealt with so much since I've come into your life, and I feel like I'll never be able to repay you for it."

Now it was his turn to sigh because all he wanted to do was make her realize how much she really meant to him, so he could handle the challenges as long as she was there with him. "Honestly I don't think you realize how much you mean to me, I'm willing to be there for you because it means I get to see you happy in the end, and like I said last night I'm willing to fight and wait for you as long as you're happy" he said a small smile spreading on fis handsome face.

Ash blushed a bright crimson as he spoke letting his words sink, and letting herself believe them. Now she was positive she could say it, but she'd been positive for awhile now, but it had to be the right moment.

Johnny gazed at her from the corner of his eye hopefully waiting for her to say something, but she didn't she just looked out her window her blue eyes shining. He dropped his head which Adh realized and she instantly felt guilty. Here he was pouring his heart out to her and she just stringed him along.

She reached for his hand intertwining her small fingers with his larger ones. He looked a hopeful smile plastered on his face. Johnny now directed his full attention on Ash as she parted her lips.

"I lo..." She stopped as they approached a four way stop another car coming out to the left of them. Johnny pressed the breaks trying to make the car come to screeching stop, but it was no use. Ash screamed as she the world slowed and the car ran right into them. Everything not only slowed, but the once bustling noise that once filled her ears seemed to be muted. A crazy pounding erupted inside her as Johnny laid over lifeless, at the moment she seemed unharmed which made her regret her decisions more, this was her fault.

"Johnny" she croaked attempting to move, but seemed to be stuck. Soon sirens blasted through the outside world making her eardrums bleed. Again time slowed as firefighters ejected the two from the car. Soon she was walking along the road with help of a nurse.

Her arm was broken and she had a few bruised ribs, but nothing major. Johnny on the other hand hadn't even moved a muscle since the crash. Ash felt miserable if she would've said something as soon as he said it they wouldn't be here, he wouldn't be here.

The nurse eventually started shoving her lightly towards ambulance, as more doctors lifted Johnny into the ambulance. He was on a stretcher with a neck brace tightly wrapped around his neck. She climbed in wrapping her hand around one of his fingers worried that she could make his condition worse.

She couldn't help the tears that slipped from her eyes he might die and he never got to know the truth.

"Johnny I love you, I love you so much I need you please don't give up on me, please."