I do not own the rights to DBZ so please refrain from suing.

Warnings: Total A/U!!!! ChiChi is OOC...but not like most of us yaoi fans care right?

This is m/m relationship. If you do not like this form of fanfiction, please leave now! Last warning.

Forgotten tears of a Warrior by Star Spangle Mistress



Green grass and blue skies stretched for miles, as far as the eyes could see. This was the place where the earth's savior was now hiding out at for the moment, away from family and friends alike. His eldest son was now married with a daughter, and his youngest son was now in his teens, and undoubtedly in love with a certain lavender haired prince. As for his wife, the woman that had made his life a living hell when he was around, she still lived in the house with Goten that they shared since being wed so many years ago.

It was hard thinking back on such things, his life in general. He wanted to be around until Goten had finally flown the coop so to speak and then he'd leave without regrets. But it wasn't the case now. He had to leave or face his living nightmare day after day until either he died again, or the woman that he had called his wife passed on. But he came back home occasionally to check up on his children and granddaughter.

Just looking at the gentle giant, people would think he was always happy go lucky with that grin plastered on his face whenever they saw him. It was one of his trademarks that set him aside from the rest. But what they didn't know, outside of the public eye, Goku was miserable.

You ask how such a powerful, cheerful man could be so miserable? That was easy for him to explain to himself. To others, they hadn't a clue what was going on really. No one did, not even his closest friends or sons. Heaving a heavy sigh, Goku felt a chill race up his spine as he thought back on some of the most recent memories. She had tried to drug him again, to keep him home where he belonged in the first place. But with his carefree spirit calling him to train and enjoy the simple things out away from civilization, he couldn't be kept home for long. He fled before the drugs could take their desired effect while he was still at his home. This time it took days for the drug to wear off enough for him to feel half way decent.

She was controlling, manipulative, cold and in every sense of the word psychotic when it came to the gentle saiyan warrior. Everyone saw the 'happy' couple as just that. None of them knew what she had done to him over the years. Mentally abused, drugged, and on occasion he would be physically abused while in a drugged up state. If his youngest son or anyone knew how Goten was conceived…he couldn't think about such things. It only tore more at what was left of his sanity.

It all started back before his brother Raditz came to earth searching him out. Goku a new father was happy and in awe of the small child that he himself help create. Oh how he loved Gohan, the chibi that would put a smile on his face no matter what was happening. Goku spent his days training by himself not far from the Son home, being ready to defend his family and dearest friends against any threat made to them, even to mother earth.

His wife grew tiresome of the day long training quickly. She took on the tasks of running the home, keeping Gohan studying all the time and making sure there was enough on the table to feed her family. There were fights often, ChiChi demanding that Goku get a real job and live a normal life and help around the house. But everyone that knew Goku also knew that he didn't really have the skills to actually work someplace. Fighting was in his blood. He couldn't drop fighting even if he wanted to.

There was a heated verbal fight one afternoon, Gohan was sent to his room to study while the battle was fought in the kitchen. Goku ended up walking away from the fight first, going out deep into the dense forest that surrounded their mountain home. He returned later, around dinnertime, his thoughts and emotions cooled off. He had eaten his dinner with the same vigor as he did with every meal he ate, but this meal was different. The side effects didn't show until Gohan was tucked into bed safely. His limbs felt heavy and strained like he fought against a massive army all day long. Then the dizziness set in making it hard to keep himself on his feet. The world around him swirled fast against his vision. Never in his wildest dreams would he think that his wife would drug his food with a sedative.

When he awoke the next morning his body was weak, he could barely move without his body crying out in pain. That's when his fear of needles came to be. When he was down, not able to defend himself the sweet charming wife would inject him full of muscle relaxers and other kinds of heavy drugs to keep him there in the house.

When ChiChi thought she had him under control she would lessen the drugs so he was able to do some things. That's when Goku would disappear for days at a time before returning back. He wasn't returning for her, only for his son. He was fearful that she could take out her anger on the young demi saiyan and he couldn't live with himself if something happened to the little boy he loved so much.

This continued until the first time that he died at the hands of Piccolo. It was mutual; he had sacrificed his life to rid the world of Raditz. The year that he spent in Otherworld he would soon not forget. He didn't have to worry about being drugged, or fearing when the next time he'd find himself so weak that he couldn't lift his head. He didn't need to worry about Gohan either, seeing his one time enemy Piccolo took the boy under his wing to train.

The years that followed were the same. He fought Nappa and Vegeta. Went to Namek and fought against what seemed like all of Frieza's armies and the Ice-jin himself. He was gone for two years then, only returning when the boy from the future came to warn them all of impending doom. He stayed away from home with his son to train to defeat the androids, only to return home the day they arrived with the starting of the heart virus that was predicted to be his downfall in the future.

That's when sweet ChiChi took advantage of him to conceive their next son. He was oblivious to what happened and knew nothing of Goten until he came back seven years later for the World Tournament. The spitting image of himself standing shyly behind ChiChi when he arrived. He fell in love with the boy as soon as his eyes graced over the chibi form of himself.

The peaceful time was soon dashed with the arrival of Kaioshin and Kibito in warning of the biggest threat in the universe. They were right after all. That whole battle was nothing but heartbreak from the get go. He watched as his prince turned to the darkside, embracing all that was evil to fight it out with him. The emergence of Majin Buu, to the final battle on the planet of the Kais. After everything was said and done, Goku went back with ChiChi to help raise the boy he didn't know existed until he came back.

It wasn't long after his return did everything started once again. Gohan had moved out, and Goten was just as clueless as his older brother was at his age about what was happening to his beloved father. Why did he stay and live in that kind of hell? He wasn't sure himself. He would never strike down someone weaker then himself, that couldn't defend themselves. ChiChi fit into that bill. Besides, he was terrified of people finding out what was going on in his life, especially Vegeta. He wouldn't be able to live it down. He was already baka third class to the prince, and he didn't want to add anything else to the fire so to speak. No one was the wiser as to what was going on behind the close doors of the Son home. All except a certain Saiyan No Ouji that had a feeling something wasn't right.


Vegeta. Prince of all Saiyans knew there was something amiss with the younger full-blooded saiyan, but could not put his finger on it. He had found Kakarott on many different occasions far away from his home, sleeping in open fields to sleeping for days in caves in the far reaches of the north. The young one always seemed to be heavily asleep or brooding over something at the times he had tracked him down to spy on him. Kakarott's brain was closed off to everyone; the prince had no way in to see what his once enemy was thinking about.

There would also be times where he wouldn't feel or see the young warrior for weeks, sometimes months at a time. Goten would sometimes spend weeks at Capsule Corp. at the same time his father seemed to be missing. When questioned, the young demi saiyan would only reply with 'Dad was at home with mother.' 'They need private time to themselves.' Then out of the blue, the happy saiyan would make an appearance looking a little thin, or his color just off. Most of this went by undetected by most of the people if not all besides Vegeta.



"I know you're there Vegeta." Goku didn't have to look up from his rocky seat to see the prince behind him. He had known the prince was there for a while now, but he only chose now to acknowledge him. Maybe if he didn't say anything Vegeta would just go away, but he knew that was not likely to happen anytime soon.

"So tell me Kakarott, why are you all the way out here instead of being home?" The prince edged closer to the younger saiyan with a frown plastered to his lips.

"Training." Came the simple reply, Goku hoping that Vegeta would believe it.

"Training? I haven't felt you training in weeks Kakarott. Want to lie to me again?" Goku growled low in his throat, his head turning to look at the smirking prince. The dark eyes of Vegeta swept over the savior of the earth taking in the sunken eyes, the loss of luster to rich dark eyes, drooping spikes of chaotic saiyan hair. This wasn't the Kakarott he had known for so many years.

"You look like shit Kakarott." Blunt, to the point. The way the prince had always been before. Goku could only shrug, turning back to stare off into the distant mountain range. The young warrior wasn't up to talking, especially about himself at the moment. What would he tell his prince anyways?

"Have you eaten or had any sleep lately?" Goku remained silent, wishing Vegeta would leave him to his own vises. He cringed slightly as he heard the sound of Vegeta's boots coming near.

'Why won't he leave me alone?' Goku's mind screamed. He flinched when a gloved hand was placed on his shoulder. That was something he had never done before. He had just signed his own warrant for that little move. He would undoubtedly be questioned for that.

"Come with me. You need food, clean clothes and a shower. You reek Kakarott." Vegeta stated getting a better overall look at the younger saiyan. Goku swallowed audibly as he stood up slowly, his knees shaking with his weight briefly before they gave out on the larger warrior. Vegeta growled, catching the larger saiyan before he could hit the ground.

"What is wrong with you? Answer me! You're skittish one minute and falling over the next!"

"Nothing. I just need something to eat is all."

"How long have you been out here you fool? Why aren't you at home with that harpy and your carbon copy of a brat?"

"Ano, I'm not sure." Came the quiet reply.

"I should leave you here to rot, but since I'm being nice today, I'll make sure you get back to your modest little abode." Vegeta spat bitterly, clearly not happy that he was the only thing holding the large warrior upright. Goku's head jerked up, he didn't want to go back there. He'd escaped, if you would call it that from there a day or two before. But he wasn't sure how long he was out here for that matter. Time had escaped him completely. Vegeta had sensed his apprehension in Goku as soon as the words left his throat.

'The all mighty Kakarott scared to go home? Hell I would be too if I lived with a screaming woman like he does.'

"Something the matter Kakarott? Don't want to go home?"

"No. I…I just don't want them to see me like this."

"Fine, then you can come back with me. But don't start thinking that you're welcome anytime either."

"I won't Vegeta. Thanks."