Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Date A Live as much as I'd like to, this work is strictly my own and how I wish to portray this story and complete works of fiction. There will be Lemon or sex in this story. So be advised.

Sorry i havent updated in a while i had a quarter of what I wanted in the story around a few thousand words and my computer just restarted and didn't save anything which i had saved in a document but it crashed and deleted it and I've been super busy with fixing my truck and work. 10 to 16 hour days yay. But here we go thank you for my reviews and I have a plan that I'm sure you'll like so just stay posted and thanks for the input I'll keep going and getting better.

Its been two whole weeks of really nothing but normal, and that to shido wasn't normal. His life had turned into a chaotic mess of dating girls who are spirits and make them fall in love with him and keep all of them happy all the time which is very strenuous for shido who is a hormone raging teenager. As much as he had to make them fall in love with him and make them happy he started to fall for all of them and it dawned on him that he depended on all of them as much as they depended on him. Even though he's been nearly killed by all of those girls he still couldn't imagine his life without them, they've all progressed and made it into society and have even been getting along quite nicely into everyday life.

But soon shido was going to need a breather and that's why on this Saturday he was going to go shopping for tonight's dinner and try to take as long as possible and hope none of the girls decided to follow him and pester him like origami always does, but usually she is unnoticeable and lingers behind. But that just means if anything happens to shido he knows he'll have back up to support him always, but at the same time it unnerved him, oh well, pros and cons of woman who are just crazy in love with you... or just crazy.

Shido shook his head to get those thoughts out of his head trying to not think negative about any of those girls. But shido thought about what he could make for dinner and what he would enjoy making as well as what everyone would like to eat so he made a mental list of all the things the girls liked. Tohka would eat anything shido would put in front of her, he's' even caught her trying to eat her pillow once. miku liked to watch her figure so she tried to eat healthy so salads and chicken, while kotori was still young and could eat anything but her favorite was her deluxe kids meal from Danny's but he can't serve that here at this restaurant of shido itsuka, but he could make her breakfast to cheer her up or make burgers with fried eggs on top. Yoshino and yoshinon who was her little rabbit puppet that she always had on her left hand would always appreciate anything shido made for them but he noticed she really took a liking to curry, a simple plate and was always good. The Yamais would always prefer any kind of meat and could eat and eat almost as much as tohka but would run and run or do some kind of competition to burn all those calories off. Lastly origami who was the strangest of them all really liked fish for some reason but he was ok with that, fish and rice always went good together.

Shido pondered this while sitting up in his empty bed which was only empty because he told the girls specifically to not sneak into his room last night so he could actually get some sleep and not be woken up every 45 minutes to another girl sneaking in or moving or him waking up from a really weird occurring dream where he was burning alive in a furnace only to wake up and know why. That was just one of things, another was they all would wear pajamas and their button ups would always come undone somehow and he'd have to go to the bathroom to fix himself so he wouldn't take his raging hormones out on these beautiful and ripe young girls. Shido also wanted to relax and just get some alone time because what goes up must come down and there's always the calm before the storm.

"Damn kotori" for getting him into this shido thought to himself while sitting in an empty bed, it was kinda nice but also lonesome. His life had literally become like one of those mangas where he had a harem of woman who only loved him and even lived with him and his life would only get more interesting by the next event which he was sure had to happen to be a new chapter. It was like someone was behind the scenes writing his own life out before his day even began. Shido thought it was funny but thought he'd better get up to get his day started and make everyone breakfast, which reminded shido that tohka had been trying to learn how to cook but has done terrible and almost burned down the house a couple of times. He thought maybe he should teach her since her favorite thing was food and maybe she could become a chef later on in life if they could all make it.

But a dark expression came over shidos face as he realized this life would end sooner rather than later and a few reasons to boot were DEM, the CEO Mr. Westcott was after these spirits and wanted to inverse them and make the world go into chaos, another was simple, their school life would end and they would all live a normal life, at least that was the hope anyways for Ratatoskrs mission of letting the spirits become normal girls among society. Lastly tore shidos heart strings enough to make his chest hurt, they would get into society and would then live a happy life and not need shido anymore and function fine on their own and he would be forgotten and just a place to store their powers, or worse, find someone else to love.

Shido could not avoid that all of those things had a very high chance of happening, but he had to keep going, even if it hurt him he had to make sure they were happy and taken care of no matter the cost.

Shido looked at the clock on his night stand and it read exactly 8am, time to make a break for the bathroom before everyone knows he is up and start to make his life interesting with each passing moment they stay together. Shido gets up and walks to his door and one door down to the bathroom where he does more thinking as he does his morning routine of brushing his teeth, using the rest room and changing, getting ready for the day. He thought about everything under the sun and how he was running low on his actual money that he made doing part time jobs and earned by doing tedious tasks and chores for the neighbors that would always give him funny looks wondering why there were so many girls in his house and only him being the other attendant of the household. Everything was afforded through Ratatoskr who was the organization made to help the spirits live among humans and learn about living among society, all of the girls had been given a credit card with no limit but sadly it did not get passed to shido, not that he would buy much with it anyways. The thought of that organization to defend the worlds greatest catastrophe is something he didn't understand making him wonder what their real intentions were

"How could my life been different had I not been able to seal the powers of spirits? What are they even, they look like normal girls but with amazing abilities and how did my sister of all people become a spirit and I didn't even know? How the hell am I the only one that can seal spirits, or actually am I the only one who can seal them?" All of these questions and more went through his mind as he walked out of the bathroom and headed downstairs where he entered the living room and walked towards the kitchen before he stopped in his tracks looking at all of the girls sitting on the couch and floor with tears in some of their eyes.

Kotori, kaguya, yuzuru and yoshino with yoshinon on her hand going from left to right on the couch, were all huddled close to each other lightly crying with their eyes fixated on the television. Miku and tohka were sitting on the floor, tohka had her stuffed chicken that shido and her won at an arcade game in her lap while her eyes sparkled watching the TV and occasionally slapping away mikus advancing provocative hands trying to get closer and closer to her while her attention was on the movie. Shido looked at the TV and realized why they were all teary eyed and why shido wasn't disturbed, they were watching the notebook that came out back in 2004 where a poor yet passionate young man falls in love with a rich young woman, giving her a sense of freedom, but they are soon separated because of their social differences, directed by Nick Cassavetes.

Shido looked at the scene and couldn't help but to smile to himself as he walked towards the kitchen and said aloud " What do you guys want for breakfast?" To which he got a very sharp SSSSSSCCCCHCHHHHHH! and a piercing glare from all of them except kotori who looks at him through the corner of her eyes and a sucker in her mouth. But Yoshino turns around on the couch on her knees and says in a quiet voice "can you make some eggs and hash browns please", to which shido walks over and places his hand on her head and pets her while smiling and says "anything for you yoshino". Her face immediately begins to shine bright red and radiates heat, shido and yoshino receive harsh glares as they all begin to get jelous, but before anyone can say anything yoshinos rabbit puppet pipes up to make matters worse like usual, "That means he likes us more than he does any of you! Even give us a good kiss in front of everyone." This makes everyone turn red but not redder than shido who wants to strangle the puppet.

The tension was thick but to shido that was all cut threw with the soft voice of yoshinos as she asks "w-w-would y-you, ki-kiss me?"

Shido turns bright red but reflexively does what his body wants and to make her happy leans in and touches his lips to hers, drawing it out for a couple of seconds and where she even boldly kissed him back. This surprised shido and he brought his face up away from hers where she was as red as a tomato. Then shido realizes what he did and that to everyone else that meant she meant more to him than everyone else, shido quickly wiped around to look at the girls who didn't look hurt at all but angry that yoshino got the better of them and why they hadn't thought of it first, all except tohka who did in fact look sad but was angry to.

"I-I-It's not what you think! I-I don't like her more than any of you... but not that I like any of you m-more than her...o-o-or any less than her... I-I-It's... awww hell" shido said that last bit and really all hell broke loose where all the girls tried to dog pile onto him trying to steal his lips away from the other girls only to have his lips miss theirs.

Shido scrambles out of the mess as best as he could and ends up in the kitchen on one side of the table while the rest of them were all staring at him as if he was a nice juicy steak and they had been deprived of food for two weeks. He tries to look for a way to get himself out of this mess when he finally asks a simple question in hopes someone will pipe up and save him from the wrath of any of these beautiful young girls ripe for the taking.

"S-so who wants some breakfast!" shido all but screams and his voice cracks which to this his face turns red from embarrassment.

Tohka immediately cries out "OOOHHHH I DO! I'M STARVING!" holding her stomach and you can clearly hear her raging stomach from not eating this morning.

"Ok good, hehe" Shido says while chuckling knowing tohka came to the rescue yet again in their time together. Tohka jumps in joy and pushes her way towards him where shido pets her head making tohka blush but then smiled, making the tension disappear from the room.

"Would you like to help me tohka? I can teach you, so then you can cook your own meals when you get hungry" Shido asks while turning to wash his hands in the sink putting on his cooking apron. All the girls looked on with jealousy in their eyes as they went back to their movie.

"Oh Really! You would do that for me!?" tohka says excitedly

Shido nods his head and proceeds to show tohka how to make omelets and cooked rice for breakfast, tohka did a decent job even though she broke two omelets of the 7, she and kotori agreed to take the basically scrambled eggs. Shido finished up his own omelet and rice and sat down at the table where everyone surrounded around, they all seemed to have drew straws or something for the two spots across from him and the two next to him. Shido seasoned his meal and waited for everyone else, then together they clapped their hands and bowed their heads saying "thanks for this meal" and began to eat.

Obviously tohka was the first to finish and everyone else not to far behind her, shido proceeds to do the dishes before he asks the girls what they wanted for dinner."I want curry" Said one "ooo how about a great big burger" said another "nothing to fattening, I do have to watch my figure darling" miku said, "suggestion, what if you surprise us with what you want to make so I will know your favorite meal and then be ahead of all these mindless air heads" said yuzuru. All the girls gasped at that while shido blushed immensely. Tohka was the one to say something "hey! who are you calling an air head!" everyone went silent again for a moment to look at each other then all of them burst into laughter.

Well I'll be going then shido says as he walks out the door and stops on the front the porch taking in the distant city and soft breeze while the sun grew warmer and higher In the sky. There was only a few scattered clouds wondering about aimlessly in the sky but they were dark as if they wanted to rain on someone's day because they wanted to rain on someone's parade. "Everything will be ok" Shido said to himself not sure if he really believed it, taking this simple moment to enjoy himself, seldom would he get time alone like this, so he would make the most of what he had for the rest of the day. So shido began to walk, going to the fresh foods market and see what he could find and make something with what he got, he already had an idea of what he wanted to make, and knew it would take just over an hour to get the supplies and head back to the house, but he wanted to take his time and wonder around which he hadn't done in a while.

Shido was walking through a busy street with lots of business going on, as he was listening to the sounds of his surroundings, he looked to the right to where a few store fronts were and could hear the peoples scuffling feet and their chatters amongst themselves, and if you listened closely you could hear the sizzling of food being made inside some of the restaurants. If he looked off to his left he could see gift shops selling cheap jewelry and stuffed animals, their was even a few pet shops and a street performer.

Shido heard laughter all around him and saw the sun shining on peoples lives as if they could be no happier, it was quite different from what he felt inside seeing so much happiness, it wasn't so much that he despised it and truly felt happy himself when he was around the girls but, they couldn't fix something inside him that had broke long ago. Whatever broke in him turned him into someone that was hard to describe and was almost as if he was bi-polar but wasn't because he was of a sound mind, he couldn't even make out his own feelings of loneliness. It's as if he had a pit in his heart that he didn't know how to fill it, but he knew he had to sacrifice everything for these girls as they were his everything, his life, even if they weren't his to call his very own.

This put a slight frown on his face as he thought about it all turning him a little gloomy, and to reciprocate one of the small angry clouds covered the sun. Shido looked up at the cloud, watching it pass over while the rays of what little light escaped its darkness skimmed across his face, making him look ever so sinister with the look he had of anger on his face, hating what his flawed heart would mean to those girls if they found out. It would destroy them, for them to find out that the hero of those girls had more problems than a cat stuck in a tied sack that was thrown into the river when it came to feelings. He had to put those dark thoughts away and focus on the task at hand, and that was to find food for dinner and maybe some extra groceries so shido could have a lazy day tomorrow being sunday and all.

Shido continued to walk around the streets that were filled with small shops and customers from every which part of town to visit the local shops to pick up anything from souviners to food to cloths, there was even a few pubs around the area. Shido could hear the cheer and joyous laughter coming from the crowds on the inside of one particular pub called the "Iron Jack" with the word in between a hammer and anvil as if this pub symbolized a rock and a hard place. Shido watched some of the people stumbling about but heard what sounded like live music coming from the inside of the bar, from where he was at he could just make out the stage and half of someone sitting on a bar stool with a run down piano sitting in front of them and a mic on top angled down towards their face.

The artist that was singing on the stage seemed to be pretty mediocre but still sounded somewhat decent somehow. Shido heard a mans voice come from the speakers inside the pub, and its attendants and all of their attitudes seemed to calm down from the rowdy bunch only moments ago as they listened to him sing on stage. The man seemed to be singing some song about how he was pretty good at drinking beer, and to shidos surprise, everyone was singing along and swaying to the music. Shido recognized the song, it was called pretty good at drinking beer by Billy Currington. Soon after he finished that song he went right into another song, people are crazy by Billy Currington.
Shido was so enthralled he hadn't realized he was walking to the entrance till he was standing in the doorway of the pub watching the man sing, and the whole crowd watching and singing along. The atmosphere was something he enjoyed, everyone was happy and in a care free mood with nary a care in the world except to sit and enjoy this mans singingit was somehow different from his normal life of hardship and stress from knowing what's going on and what's really behind the spatial quakes. It honestly felt great to relax a bit, but he wasn't sure where that comfort was coming from, and as the man stopped singing as he'd finished he looked towards the door towards shido and winked at him raising a beer yelling "CHEERS TO THE YOUTH OF OUR PAST" to the crowd but somehow felt like he was also talking to him.

Shido broke out of his enthrallment and bolted, turning on his heels speed walking away from there which felt so relaxing. He honestly felt shocked, like he'd been splashed with a bucket of cold ice water. Shido was down the street and the weather seemed to change slightly to more cloudy now and the wind had picked up some but that was ok with shido as he was covered with cold sweats and it made him feel better, shido realized though after he took off he kind of lost where he was but soon remembered a strange alleyway and decided to walk into the darkness that seemed familiar somehow. Shido walked closer and saw a white haired girl with short hair around her shoulders walk out of a small store hardly noticeable, more of a hole in the wall if you asked shido, but the girl seemed to recognize him and set down her grocery bag of random stuff and walked towards him. Shido took a step back unsure of who she was till she disappeared from view and suddenly he felt someone's presence behind him.

Shido tried to react but was to slow, and he realized all to late that the girl that took advantage of his situation until she pushed him into the wall and forcefully kissed him, holding herself as tight to him as possible, it was origami. Origami kissed him harder and harder, taking the initiative to stick her tongue into his mouth and slide her hands up his shirt all over his chest, making them both moan from the pleasure. Shido tried to push her away but the harder he did the more forceful she got and he knew better that she was much stronger than he was, so he opted for the best way to get out of the situation, he grabbed her shirt and ripped her button up shirt open and turned the table so she was now on the wall and he started to lick her exposed breasts.

Shido also bit and nipped along her neck up to her chin making her moan and grip the back of his shirt almost tearing it, shido had to get out of the situation so he reached down her blue skirt into her panties and began to play with her clit very roughly, to roughly he thought but he knew better than origami was a pure masochist and loved it from only him and would take it any which way from him. He fingered her hard and stuck his tongue deep in her mouth making their saliva drip along their chins and making her turn red from the sensation and embarrassment of being taken advantage of by shido who would never do this in normal circumstances. But too late did she realize what he was doing as he fingered her tight pussy harder and harder, rubbing her clit with the base of his palm as he fingered her. Their kiss got deeper and finally when she came shido quickly took his hand out of her panties and took the two fingers he used on her tight pussy he shoved them in her mouth where she looked him in the eyes and sucked it as sensually and hard as she could to let him know of her skill.

But shido quickly gained his composure and kissed her on the lips lightning quick and ran off, leaving her breathing heavy, red, and wanting more with her shirt open and her breasts exposed to the world and her sticky cum trailing down her legs. "Damn that shido, he left me wanting more then I ever have, and that look of a pure animal in his eyes, *Growls deep in her throat*" origami said softly to herself as she touched her wet lips then between her legs to the sore but throbbing region between her thighs. With her legs shaking she used the wall the steady herself to go back and grab her miscellaneous items from the infamous drug store, getting ready to head back to shidos house, thinking how she should take his virginity.

Shido was a few blocks away by the time origami got her senses straight and that's what shido had hoped for as he ran away from her, becoming more entrapped in his thoughts, trying to get focused on shopping, getting his mind off of anything that could be anything but those girls. He was lustful after them, he knew it, they knew it. Shido sometimes wished he could've had a normal life again, one of solitude and prosperity among his sister and friends, really though, the more he thought about it the more he realized he really didn't have any friends other than those two people. His parents were always away on business and his sister had grown up so fast within the past few years that she was almost like HIS big sister, his best friend wasn't someone he always hung out with and whenever they always did he would always talk about his virtual girlfriend. Ai, Mai, and Mii were just gossiping girls that only really hung around him to make fun of him because he didn't really have anyone to look out for him and he didn't really care about him being made fun of, he had his studies and he knew who he was. But the thing is even though he knew who he was, it never came into question until a little while ago when the head of DEM, Mr. Westcott, came into the picture, and even claimed he knew about his past.

Shido was thinking about all this as he walked into the fresh foods market, he walked over to the onions and decided on a nice sized white one, he next went and picked out spinach leaves, fajita mix and chicken breasts, even a little rice because they were almost out at the house. Shido went to his last ingredients in what he needed to complete their meals for dinner, bell peppers, yellow, orange, red and green. What kind of man was he? He kept walking around knowing what he needed but was lost, lost in his mind, and from the world itself, he couldn't find out why he was this way. He was social but not good enough to have more than one or two friends, wasn't even good with girls yet the ones in his life now flocked to him, he was lucky they cared about him, but he couldn't feel the love at all. Shido knew he loved them, but was locked in a lonely solitude of black and white, even though the world around him was vibrant colors like orange, yellow and red, like the bell peppers he stopped in front of looking at them.

This made shido shiver with contained anger, why did he have to be so different, so lonely even when he was a whole sea of faces around him. No matter what he did he felt alone, no matter how hard he tried to feel it was never enough, no matter how much he cared for others like the girls that are now in his life, he never could feel their love being reciprocated even though it was so thick and palpable you could cut their affection with a knife and have leftovers . It made him feel sick, he hated himself for not being able to feel or show how much he loved those girls and how much they meant to him. They could all see in those vibrant colors and he could only see the cold life of black and white, he couldn't hear the sounds of joy in his heart, he just played it all off pretty well no one ever notices, it hurts.

Shido shakes with rage and smashes down his fist hitting the peppers and breaking a few apart. The sudden outburst of shido in the isle of the fresh foods market startled a couple of older ladies next to him, they made rude faces as they scrunched them up and walked away, not to pleased with how this young man was acting. Shido sighed and picked up the bell peppers that he smashed, threw them away and grabbed one of each color and went to check out, still replaying everything in his head, It made him want to cry but he couldn't, his body wouldn't let him just like it wouldn't let him feel.

Shido walked out of the fresh foods store and decided to take the long way home, the sun had started to go down already but was not quite dusk yet, he walked along the waters edge and stopped to listen to the crashing waves hit the walls of the pier that he was walking along, it was calm and slow as if it didn't have a care in the world. But it was two things to shido, calming as it gave him a sense of peace, but then again it also reminded him of the world around him, how it felt like he was always beneath the surface of the water, drowning. The world was in black and white for shido because he always felt so alone, the waves dragging him down, drawing out the sounds filling his ears with a dull sound or no sound at all, drowning him.

Shido looked up and he could feel himself surrounded in water, the pressure pounding down on him, pulling him deeper to its depths of despair. It was like ice water being dumped on your head, the sudden muscle contractions from the cold, stealing your breath away and blowing out your light as if you were a candle, hardly burning and only using borrowed time. But shido can't help but remember as he listened to the waves, the one time shido felt any kind of warmth at all.

BackFlash:

Tohka stood over him with her sword drawn on him, ready to kill him but almost seemed as if she didn't want to, that she was just as alone as he was. The look of sadness in her dark purple eyes that could kill without remorse if it meant saving herself, to make that sacrifice and to deal with it, it was something defintly not anyone could do. Here this young maiden who was ready to kill in her purple dress like armor, a sword drawn against his chest, and it wasn't fear he felt, it was sympathy, and longing. Shido knew the look she had in her eyes was no different than his own, Her black and purple hair swaying in the wind as they looked at each other. As shido looked at this young woman he knew he would do anything for this girl, to never see this look on her face ever again, which is why he puts her and the rest of them for that matter first before himself. Shido could feel warmth in his heart as he looked into her eyes, something that he hadn't felt for a while, he had to get to know her, to save her, even though he didn't know why.

Back to the Present:

Shido continued walking and began to walk home, he looked down at his watch and saw it was almost 3 pm realizing that he had been standing there at the water front for close to an hour just going over the depths of his heart and why he felt the way he did, he needed some way to escape this feeling of hopelessness. He needed someone's help, and no matter how many times he cried out in his head for someone to come save him, no one ever did, no one would ever listen or give him the time of day to just be with him before. These girls that were in his life now, he knew as crazy as they were, they would give him everything if it meant that they could have his love, which all of them had it, and he knew he loved them, but he couldn't get himself to feel it all the way, he was just so lost he didn't know what to do.

Shido continued to walk and ended walking past the pub he visited earlier this morning, he saw the barkeep and the owner talking outside as shido walked passed them. On the door it said help wanted and talent is the only requirement. The two men noticed this as shido had stopped in front of the sign to read it and thought about trying whatever job they needed because he was low on money and didn't receive any from Ratatoskr like his sister and the rest of the girls did. Shido turned to the old men who were talking and smoking like a chimney outside watching the young man, they all locked eyes and the barkeep smiled a friendly smile at the young boy.

"So are you looking for a job?" Said the barkeep whos' voice sounded like sand paper with a deep echo from smoking his whole life.

"Yes I am sir but I don't know if I'm necessarily qualified" Shido says a little shyly and quite out of place and even nervous, feeling like he was under investigation.

"Hmmm, how old are you kid?" The owner asked next to him and to which shido replied immediately "I'm only 16 sir"

The barkeep scratched his chin and looked over at the owner, then turning back to shido asking him "Do you know how to play an instrument young man?"

"Yes, I know how to play the guitar and I'd like to say I'm pretty decent, and even some piano but I'm rusty with that one"

The old men looked at each other with a sparkle in their eyes, "Do you want a job... err-" the owner asked unsure of his name

"Itsuka, Itsuka Shido sir, nice to make your acquaintance" shido answers, "Yes I would love a job"

"You said you can play, so how about you come inside?" Said the barkeep "Show us what you can do and maybe we'll hire you, think of it as your interview." Said the owner pushing shido ahead into the pub where he sat shido on stage ontop of a wobbly bar stool and handed him an acoustic guitar.

Shido was quite nervous, there was a lot more people in here now than their was earlier in the day, but it was getting close to dark and on a Saturday there would be people starting to drink already. Shido took the guitar from the owner as the barkeep brought up a small table and set down four tiny glasses of something that had a dark brown color and smelled funny. The barkeep and owner stood up on the stage with a mic and began to speak to the crowd, and to what they were hearing caused a bit of a stir as they would get a good show by what the two older men juiced his story about being a famous musician to which made shido laugh but it was a very nervous laugh. Shido had been playing guitar since he was 8 years old and piano since 12 but it was still the thought of performing in front of a crowd, hell shido hadn't even told his sister he knew how to play and would always play when she was gone or asleep, so she didn't know he played the guitar, none of the girls knew.

The two old men whispered in shidos ear "Here these two shots are yours, we could tell from you being outside that you needed them, you've had a rough day, we can tell. Just take these and drink them quick in one gulp and breath out. relax and play, you'll do great, even if you don't these people are all drunk anyways so anything will sound good them. Knock'em dead."

Shido thinking better of it decided to just go with it, so he did as the old men say and take a shot and felt like his throat was on fire, but he swallowed it, the crowd laughed knowing that it was his first time but raised their glasses as shido raised his second shot into the air and downed it like a pro. Shido did a quick tune of the guitar and gave the barkeep the songs he were going to play and the barkeep got the instrumentals to the song ready as shido tuned the guitar on stage. He could already feel the alcohol at work into his system making his head feel light and his heart flutter in excitement as did the crowd ready for a show. When shido played he played with everything he had, singing and playing as if his life depended on it. In fact it wasn't his life that depended on it, it was his own happiness that he really wanted, music saved his life countless times, now it was his turn to sing for those who needed it as well, to feel his depression and understand through music.

Always
Saliva
I hear a voice say "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all these things
That you would probably hide
Am I your one and only desire
Am I the reason you breathe
Or am I the reason you cry
Always, always, always, always, always, always
I just can't live without you
I love you, I hate you, I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
I feel, like you don't want me around,
I guess I'll pack all my things,
I guess I'll see you around,
It's all been bottled up until now
As I walk out your door,
All I can hear is the sound
Always, always, always, always, always, always,
I just can't live without you
I love you, I hate you, I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I left my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart
Always, always, always, always
I see, the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel, more like a man
Was it all, just a part of your plan
This pistol's shakin' in my hands
And all I hear is the sound
I love you, I hate you, I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor
And now I'm done with you
Always, always, always

As shido ended the crowd cheered very heartedly, and it felt amazing to shido but he wasn't done yet, they cheered for more so he was going to give it to them. So shido started on his second song.

Blurry

Puddle of Mudd

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
Everyone is changing
There's none left that's real
To make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to runaway
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to runaway
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to me
You take it all
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me

Every song shido sang had so much meaning he couldn't stop till he opened all his pain, this was one way he could express himself, and each time shido stopped to prep for the next song they would give him another shot, after he had finished the two shots which ended up being whiskey, they gave him some rum after his first song and just now they gave him fireball. With every song and every shot everyone seemed to love his singing, shido even drew in a crowd of people from outside, it made this place closed to being packed.

Fragile, Through the Darkness

I thought I was free of this darkness in me,
But more was lurking,
is this really happening?
This can't be true,
this can't be you,
Please tell me that I'm dreaming
We all fall down (down),
Searching for that meaning That no one will ever find.
We wasted (we wasted) youth worrying
about the little things.
I wish we had more time.
This pain is forevermore,
In my heart you're forever stored.
Every memory locked away in my chest,
is this the price we pay to feel?
I'll never forget the times growing up,
here and there gone so abrupt.
There is nothing as sacred as the times we shared,
I'm torn, I'm torn!
I'm broken, beaten.
Fighting to stand.
This can't be real,
I can't understand.
What can I do,
what can I say
To take this pain-to take this pain away.
We all fall down (down),
Searching for that meaning
That no one will ever find.
We wasted (we wasted)
youth worrying about the little things.
I wish we had more time.
We wear you on our skin,
We carry you on our backs.
We have you in our hearts,
We will never forget.
We wear you on our skin,
We carry you on our backs.
We have you in our hearts,
We will never forget.
I'm broken, beaten.
Fighting to stand.
This can't be real,
I can't understand.
What can I do,
what can I say
To take this pain-to take this pain away.
This can't be you,
Please tell me that I'm dreaming
We all fall down (down),
Searching for that meaning
That no one will ever find.
We wasted (we wasted)
youth worrying about the little things.
I wish we had more time.
Is this really happening?
This can't be you,
I wish there was a way
I could wake up and feel like everything will be okay.
The uncertainty that each day brings is just another battle we face.
We can face that darkness alone or we can face it side-by-side.
Fragile, we fall. But united we stand

Carry Me

Dead by April

I am still alone, turning to stone*
Where did you go, what did you find?
Where did all this come to an end?
Carry me, embrace me,
What I win or lose,
This is not true
Carry me
Do you see me, do you see me?
As I see you, so many tears in me have fallen
So many steps, I have been crawling
Carry me, embrace me,
What I win or lose,
This is not true
I am falling, falling
I am crawling, crawling
I am falling, falling
(I am falling)
I am crawling, crawling
(I've had enough of this, I am falling and I can't hear the truth,
I'm in distrust, you are in my dreams and I just can't hear the truth)
Carry me, embrace me,
What I win or lose,
This is not true
I am falling, falling
(I am falling, and I can't hear the truth)
I am crawling, crawling
(I'm in distrust, you are in my dreams and I just can't hear the truth)
I am falling, falling
I am falling

Closer To You

Adelitas Way

As you walk my way
Do you see my face
Sad behind a smile
Fake it for awhile
Tell me what should I do?

Can I get closer to you
Tell me the truth
Can I get an answer from you
Show me a sign
Here I stand with my heart in my hands
And all I do
To get closer to you

As I stand alone
Sinking like a stone
You can save me now
I can't live without
Tell me what should I do?

Can I get closer to you
Tell me the truth
Can I get an answer from you
Show me a sign
Here I stand with my heart in my hands
And all I do
To get closer to you

If you walked my way
Would you see my face?

Can I get closer to you
Tell me the truth
Can I get an answer from you
Show me a sign
Here I stand with my heart in my hands
And all I do
To get closer to you

To get closer to you
And all I do
To get closer to you
And all I do
To get closer to you
And all I do

Backfire

Egypt Central

Get me out of this god forsaken city
let me start over somewhere new
all my friends have turned up missing
and I can't blame it on my youth
throw my heart in the well of wishing
pay my toll to just move on
ask myself to please forgive me
all my innocence is gone
Backfire
They backfire from all these choices you're scared to make
Cause they backfire
They backfire from all these choices you're scared to make
All the streetlights lead me to the river
All my ghosts not far behind
If I could leave this town forever
It seems like no ones on my side
duck your head and run for cover
cross that bridge and just move on
Save myself but lose another
All my innocence is gone
And I can't find a cure
Oh to fix me anymore
And all these things I've done
Have got me on the run
Got me on the run
Backfire
The backfire from all these choices
Get me out of this godforsaken city
Let me start over somewhere new

Shido stopped playing as he played so hard he felt like he was gunna pass out, shit he'd almost played a whole concert but with maybe five minute intervals between each song to take a shot and take a sip of water. By this time the whole pub was packed to out the door to hear this young man play and drink to their hearts content. It was almost six but shido was feeling pretty good from the liquor, he's only taken about 6 shots but of all kinds of different stuff. Shido felt like he had something to do but couldn't remember what it was as he was having such a good time, even a couple of random woman flashed them their tits and some bold enough to even climb on stage and stick their naked tits in his face burying him in them which only made him happy to a point but they only did it between when he was resting.

Of course it was embarrassing for shido but when your feeling that good with alcohol nothing else matters now does it. But theirs something he couldn't control and that was the time, which was getting pretty late, shido had two more songs to sing and then he planned on getting home but it was already just before six o clock and he knew his girls were getting worried. Shido laughed at that thought, his girls, do you know how ridiculous that sounds? he sounds like a pimp in control of seven women, kotori, origami, tohka, yuzuru, kaguya, yoshino and yoshinon( even though yoshinon doesn't count) and miku. All of them belonged to him and he belonged to all of them, if he had to choose between one of them he wouldn't know who to choose, none the less of breaking their hearts as he did, he wouldn't stand for that, he'd rather them lose interest in him and love someone else than choose one and them all hate him. Call him selfish but he couldn't do it and wouldn't because he loved all of them, Tohka maybe more than the rest but all of them the same, she was just the first and most important spirit but he still loved all of them the same as selfish as that was to say.

Sorry for the long wait in between like I've said I've been really busy, trying to get college started plus working on my vehicles and having other engagements. Plus I just found out I'm moving to japan so it may be a long while before I get the next few chapters going. Also I personally wished I could've wrote this a lot better but with everything going on I just got so much writers block and couldn't figure out how to lay it out there very well. So thanks for reading and I will update when I can.