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cinderella

cullen home

forks, washington

jasper

chapter five

I never wished there was two of me more than the moment I left to take Juliette to Angela's house. Maybe I should have taken Peter with me or something. I knew it was killing Bella that she had killed two people in order to soothe the burn in her chest and I knew she'd do it again as soon as I left. It's only natural. The burn turns you into something unrecognizable, and it's enough to make you want to kill yourself, but I was so utterly in love with her already that I didn't want to let her down. As much as I wanted to ignore that feeling, I couldn't. She literally made my heart beat again. I wondered if she felt the same. We kissed, sure, but was it a kiss or a transference thing. I couldn't be sure, and it drove me insane. I turned on the radio in attempt to drown my thoughts. I couldn't deal with that right now.

"Jasper?" Juliette's little voice asks.

"Um, yeah, what's up?" I turn the radio down and look at her in the review mirror. She looked so much like Bella, it was amazing, but she also had a lot of Edward in her too. Her hair was that same weird reddish- copper color, and she had Edward's cheekbones and nose. I knew that had to kill Bella, how much Juliette looked like Edward. I bet he's all she saw in her.

"Are you my daddy?" she asked. I blinked a few times before my brain could actually process her question. I needed to say no. No, Juliette, I'm not your daddy. But, I didn't want to. I wanted to say yes. Yes, Juliette. I am your daddy. I wanted nothing more than to tell her I was her daddy and I wished Edward wasn't her daddy. She deserved so much better than him, regardless of if she knew him and he wasn't around or not. And I didn't know why. Was I feeling this way because her mother was my singer? Was there some sort of piggybacking when it came to singers? All I knew was I wanted to protect this little girl with everything I had. I wanted to keep her safe and away from the Volturi, Edward, and everything bad that could come her way. And I already knew I loved her like she was my own.

"Jasper?" she asks again.

"Uh, yeah, sorry," I say.

"You didn't answer me," she pouted.

"Right, what did you say?"

"Are you my daddy?"

"Oh, right, sorry," I say. "Um, why don't we figure that out later. What grade are you in?"

"So, you're not?" She asks. Wow, Charlotte wasn't lying. She was smart for her age.

"No…I'm sorry."

"It's okay." She says softly. "I was just kind of hoping you were. I've never met my daddy before. All my friends have one and mommy says I don't need a daddy, but I feel like I'm missing out because everyone has one except me." Wow.

"How old are you, again?" I ask.

"Five and a half." She smiles proudly.

"Are you sure you're not 20?" I tease.

"I would be so old!" she giggled.

"What does that make me?" I tease.

"Old," she giggled. I didn't have the heart to tell her I was over 100 years old.

-rm-

I was expecting a fight with Bella's friend when we got to her apartment, so I didn't know why I was surprised when Angela started copping an attitude with me. I hated that I was still associated with Edward. I guess I would be until this town forgot about me in 80 odd years. 80 years, that's not so bad, right? I roll my eyes at my thoughts and knock on the door, holding Juliette's hand.

"Jasper," Angela said, opening the door and folding her arms. She didn't really look that much different than the last time I saw her. Sure, her cheekbones and jawlines matured but she had the same whispy light brown hair pulled in a clip at the top of her head and rounded glasses. She was taller now, but I would have recognized her even if I wasn't here on some weird quest.

"Hey," I said. Juliette let go of my hand and ran into Angela's apartment.

"Juliette, there are fresh cookies on the counter," Angela called into the apartment.

"Okay!" Juliette yelled back as Angela pushed me outside and closed the door.

"What are you doing here?" She put her hands on her hips.

"Shouldn't you be watching her?"

"Why are you avoiding the question?"

"I'm just concerned about her," I say.

"So now you care?" Angela asks, adjusting the clip in her hair.

"Look, I just want to make sure Juliette is safe." I sigh.

"Not that I owe you an explanation, but Jessica is in there."

"Wait, Jessica? I thought you and Bella hated her." I say, remembering just how big of a bitch Jessica was in high school and how mean she was to Angela and Bella.

"Why does it matter to you? Your brother left Bella…pregnant…with his kid, and now you come back and want me to believe that you all the sudden care?"

"I'm not Edward," I say, leaning against the railing.

"No, but you're just as bad."

"Explain."

"You knew she was pregnant, and you let him leave."

"No, I didn't."

"I'm supposed to believe that?"

"Yes." I say.

"Why?" She asks.

"Because I didn't know. Edward didn't tell us. Our father would have not allowed Edward to run away from this." I say. She was silent for a while.

"Carlisle was always nice…"

"Yeah. He was."

"So, why are you back now?" she sat down in the lawn chair by her door.

"It's complicated," I say.

"Yeah, that's what Bella said." She pulls the sleeves of her hoodie down into her hands.

"She did?" I ask.

"Yeah, when she called earlier. So, what's so complicated? If you didn't know she was pregnant then why come back now. Is Edward here?"

"Edward isn't here," I tell her. "I don't know where he is. I don't really care."

"What do you mean?" She asks.

"When the rest of the family moved to Italy, I moved to Texas. My family has a ranch there that my brother has been taking care of." I explain.

"Wait, I thought you guys were moving to New York because Carlisle had a new job there and aren't the Cullen's your family. Isn't Edward your brother?"

"I was adopted," I said.

"But, you look so much like the rest of them, especially Carlisle."

"I know."

"That is complicated," she leans back and crosses her legs. "But it still doesn't explain why you came back."

I hold my breath, "can you keep a secret?"

"What does that mean?" She sits back up again and I know I have to tell her or there's no way I'll be able to stay near Bella, and I just don't think my heart could take being away from her.

"It means exactly what it means," I get up and sit on the step at the front of Angela's door, so I don't have to look at her when I tell her I'm a monster, and worse, that I made her best friend one too.

"I guess," she said. "Yeah, I can keep a secret. Why?"

"I'm a vampire," I say quietly.

"What?"

"I said: I'm a vampire."

She laughed, "yeah, sure you are. Now, really what's so complicated?"

"I'm telling you the truth."

"Sure, you are," she rolls her eyes. "I'm glad you brought Juliette here. She doesn't need to be around someone who needs serious medical help."

"You think I'm that insane?"

"Yes. I do." She says.

"Well, it's the truth."

"Oh, really then why are you outside? I thought vampires burst into flames if they were in the sun." She scoffs.

"Well, first off, it's dusk, and secondly that's a myth." I say.

"Okay, fine then where are your fangs?" She asks.

"Oh god," I roll my eyes.

"What is that some 'myth' too?"

"No, it's not. My fangs are retracted so you can't see them." I say.

"Retracted? So, un-retract them, if you're a vampire. Prove it."

"I can't," I said.

"Yeah, that's what I thought," she stands up. "I think we're done here."

"Look, it's not that I can't, I'm just not going to put you in danger like that." I say.

"What do you mean?" She asks.

"Usually our fangs retract when we're hunting as a reflex. Most of the time we don't even know it happens, but we can force them out." I explain.

"Hunting? You mean murdering?"

"Well, traditionally, yes. Vampires like the Cullen's are what Carlisle calls vegetarian." I say.

"Vegetarian vampirism?" She laughs. "Wow, you really have lost your mind, haven't you?"

"It's your choice if you want to believe me or not, but I'm telling you the truth."

"Sure, you are, but enlighten me. Please, go on." She says.

"I'm trying to protect you," I said. "If I force my fangs out, instinct will take over, and a hunt will start. I'll go ravenous. It's like when you feel like you have to sneeze, you can't stop it."

"So, you're saying they only way to prove to me that you are a vampire is that you'd have to kill me?" She asks.

"It'd be easier if you just believed me." I say.

"Fine," she sighed. "So, why haven't you?"

"Because I don't want to be a monster. That's why I'm a vegetarian."

"What the hell does that mean?" she asks.

"It means I survive off the blood of animals."

"That's not vegetarian at all." She folds her arms.

"I know, but for us it is. If we don't feed at all, it will kill us. If we don't feed on animal blood, then we go to humans as instinct, and if we go long enough, it will turn us into monsters, and if we manage to control the thirst even further, it will kill us. The venom in our bodies will overtake and freeze our bodies solid. It's one of the only two ways you can kill our kind."

"What's the other way?" She asks.

"Beheading."

"That's a little 15th century, don't you think?"

I laughed, "I do, but it's the only other way."

"Why are you telling me this?" She asks.

"Because you wanted to know why I came back."

"You came back because you're a vampire?" She asks.

"Well, sort of. Some vampires have gifts," I said. "We get them when were undergoing the change. No one knows why some of us get gifts and others don't."

"Do you have one?"

"I do. I can influence emotions, and I can feel them from other people. For example, right now I can tell you trust me even if you don't want to." I say.

"How do you know?" She asks.

"It's in your aura. I can see it."

"And what do you see?" She asks.

"Your aura is yellow, pink, and light blue, even if there is a little black around the edges." I say.

"What does that mean?"

"Well, the biggest color is yellow. It means you're smart and logical which is probably why you're having a hard time believing me about vampirism. The pink is close to your heart, and it's glowing. I'm guessing it's because you're so concerned about Bella and the reason I am here. It's a wonderful color to have. I don't see it enough in people." I smile softly.

"What about the black?" she asks.

"Black shows long-term unforgiveness and trust issues, but what's weird is that the color is settling at your hips," I say, closing my eyes when I feel her shift.

"My hips?" She asks.

"I feel grief…Angela," I ask, opening my eyes. I saw black the most in women in that area at the hospitals. "Did you have a miscarriage?"

"You can tell that?" She asks quietly.

"The black is moving to your heart. Bella doesn't know, does she?"

"You can't tell her." She says.

"Angela, why doesn't she know?"

"Because I didn't want her to. Please, it's not important." She stands up.

"Why didn't you tell her?" I ask.

"Because don't you think she has enough on her plate as it is? She needed someone strong to get her through everything, and I couldn't be weak."

"Wow," I said. "You're an amazing friend. I'm glad she has you."

"Thanks," she says softly.

"You know, if you leave black for too long in your aura, it can become permanent, and it will draw all the other colors into it."

"What does that mean?"

"Depression," I said.

"I don't want to talk about it with you." She said.

"I understand, just try to find someone you can. You have pink in your aura. I don't want to see you lose it."

"You don't? Why?"

"Because you are obviously very important to Bella."

"You really do care about her, don't you?"

"You have no idea," I say and explain to her about singers and how I changed Bella to save her life. The news was a bit much for Angela to take in, but I answered everything she wanted to know, and she promised to keep quiet about our secret. When I left, I felt a lot better knowing that at least one person in Bella's life didn't hate me anymore even if they weren't a hundred percent cool with me yet. I understand that these things take time.

-rm-

I drove as fast as I could to get back to the house in Forks. I hate that I had to leave Bella for so long by herself. I know she can take care of herself, hell she's been taking care of herself and her daughter for so long, but this was a different story. I wanted to be responsible for my creation, just like Carlisle. I wanted him to be proud of me for 'raising' Bella right, just like he did for us. I wanted to save her. I wanted her to be my Cinderella even if she didn't need a Prince Charming, I wanted to be one for her. Bella came out of the house when I pulled up and sat on the front steps.

"Hey," I smile at her.

"Welcome back," she smiles back and the blood shifts in my body again causing me to gasp softly. I wonder if I am just losing my mind or if this is just how singers work. I'd have to call Carlisle as soon as possible to make sure I wasn't dying.

"Thanks," I sit down beside her on the steps.

"How'd it go with Angela?" She asks.

"As expected." I say.

"What do you mean?"

"I told her about us."

"About us as in vampires or as in…us?" She draws a line in the air between herself and me.

"Um, both?"

"Why?" she asks.

"I wanted her to trust me, to know you and Juliette are safe with me around. I knew she wouldn't unless I told her the truth." I explain.

"Is she okay?"

"I think she will be," I say, keeping the miscarriage to myself. I figured Angela would tell Bella when and if she was ready.

"Thanks for taking Juliette over there. I know it couldn't have been easy for you. Angela holds a grudge. Sometimes more than me."

I laughed, "I noticed, but I think she's okay with me. I made it clear Edward wasn't here, and I wasn't a dick like him."

She lays her head on my shoulder, "you're not."

I smile and kiss the top of her head, "are you thirsty?"

"Oh, god, yes," I hear her close her eyes.

"Are you okay?"

"No. I don't like how I killed those people…when you were gone, I almost did it again." She says.

"I know, we all have. That's why I want to teach you how to be a vegetarian too."

"You can do that?" She asked.

"Of course, want to go for a hunt?"

"Absolutely." She laughed and stood up.

-rm-

I took Bella to one of my favorite spots to hunt while we were in Forks. It was in this beautiful meadow that had a million white daisies and sunflowers. The meadow became visible once you got out of the tree line. You could see every star in the sky there and down the hill was a lake where the moon shined like a spotlight.

"What is this place?" Bella asked.

"My favorite place in Washington," I say.

"It's beautiful," she smiles, looking down at the lake.

"Beautiful," I smile, still looking at her. I shake my head. "Anyway, ready for your first lesson?"

"I think so," she nods slowly.

"Don't be afraid," I say, "you can do this."

"I can? Are you sure?"

"I'm positive, I'm right here beside you."

"…alright…what do I do first?" She asks.

"Well, first we need to train your senses to tell you that you're thirsty before you go ravenous. That's what happened today after your change," I explain, keeping my thoughts to myself on how I should have been there like Carlisle was for me that first night.

"When you start feeding on animal blood, you'll need to feed more often than if you were on human blood, but it's worth it knowing you're not killing people," I say.

"I don't want to kill people," Bella said.

"I know, so let's train your senses to find and want animal blood. You're not going to want it, and your body will probably reject it a few times, but once you start on the animal blood, it'll be easier to stick to it and ignore the want for human blood."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure," I laughed. "The first thing you'll notice is that animal blood smells different than human blood, and every animal has a different scent. You're probably not picking up on it yet, but I'll show you how. Deer usually come up to this lake to get a drink every night. We'll wait here for them to come. I think it'll be easier to focus your vampire instinct on the blood of the deer if you're not distracted because you're actively trying to smell one."

She nods, "okay. I trust you."

"Thanks," I smile and lay down on my stomach at the top of the hill, so we were hidden by the grass but still had a good view of the lake. Bella followed my lead.

"Thanks for looking after me," she quietly says, laying her head on her folded hands, looking at me.

"You think I'd change you and leave you to figure out what you'd become on your own?" I ask, looking into her eyes. I know I've seen more than my fair share of newborn vampire blood red eyes in my life, but hers were different. They were so special. I could see her aura through them, and it was beautiful.

"It's happened before," she closes her eyes.

"I know," I say. "But I'm not like that. I promise."

"…I believe you." She softly says and opens her eyes again. I smile like an idiot I'm sure, but try to play it cool. I can't help but be captivated by her aura though, and I continue to stare into her eyes.

"What?" she turns her head back towards the lake.

"I'm sorry, have I made you uncomfortable?"

"No, just wondering what you're staring at."

"Your aura."

"My what?"

"Your aura, I can see it. It's shining so bright, and it's beautiful." I smile.

"Um, thanks?" She laughs.

"Trust me. It's a compliment." I laugh.

"Well thank you, I think." She smiles, looking back at me.

"Man, your eyes put the stars to shame."

"Now, that's a lie." She rolled her eyes.

"I wouldn't lie. Trust me," I smile and kiss Bella's forehead softly.

"About that, you would." She giggles and pushes me away playfully.

"Never," I promise as a deer stumbles through the clearing to the lake. Bella's head snaps towards the noise.

"Easy," I whisper. "You don't want to spook it."

"Right, sorry."

"Don't apologize. Now, do you hear the others coming behind her?" I ask.

"I think so. There's…three more?"

"Good job," I smile proudly. "Now, on my count, we will sprint towards them. Take a doe, they are easier and have a less gamey taste. Your body will know what to do. Ready?"

"I…I think so."

"You can do it, okay? Ready, go," we both stand and fly down the hill before the deer even realize we're there. I quickly take my deer down with ease and watch Bella struggle with hers.

"Find the jugular and bite down!"

"I got it!" She does and starts drinking. I watch her face twist in disgust.

"I know, it's not great, but just try to keep it down," I say, then start drinking my own deer.

"My god," Bella said once she finished. Her clothes were ripped, and she had blood splatted over her chest and face. "That was awful."

"I know," I said. "It's going to be terrible the first couple times. It'll get better. I promise."

"It better," she gags.

I laugh softly, "come here. Maybe this will make it taste better."

"What?" She asks, scooting over to me.

"Do you trust me?"

"Yes." She says/

"If this gets too much, tell me, okay? And we'll stop."

"What are we doing?" She asks.

"It's hard to explain, you'll have to trust me, but you're in control."

"…alright." She says, I brush her tangled, blood matted hair back and kiss her lips softly.

"I'm going to show you how to do this then you can do it to me. This is a kind of bonding singers share. Only singers can do it. I don't know why." I say and kiss her neck where her heart would be beating. I gently pierce my fangs into her flesh and drink some of the blood she had just taken from the deer. And it feels amazing. It tastes even better. The blood moves through my mouth and down my throat causing my heart to jump inside my chest. I gasp and seal the reopened wounds on Bella's neck with my venom. I hear her gasping too.

"What. Was. That?" She pants.

"Amazing is what it was," and I kiss her again, this time with more passion and lust than ever before, but she was kissing me back with just as much force. She finally pushed me away.

"Stop," she moans.

"I know," I quickly say, "I'm sorry."

"I just want to take this slow…you know…whatever we are."

"I couldn't agree more."

"No matter how amazing that was." She says, looking away.

"I know." I nod, "do you want to drink from me?"

"Next time?" She asks. "I don't know if I can control myself yet."

"If that's what you want," I smile, and she hugs me.

"Thanks for understanding."

"You don't have to thank me."

"Yes, I do." She stays curled into my chest where I hold her until the sun rises through the trees.

-rm-

The next morning, we took our time getting back to the Cullen house. As we were walking, Bella took another shot at taking a deer, and she excelled wonderfully.

"How'd I do?" She ran up to me like a kid to their favorite teacher, only wanting their approval.

"Amazing. You're getting the hang of it. How's the animal blood settling?"

"Okay, I think," she says.

"Good, let me know if something changes." I smile at her. She nods and slowly reaches over and grabs my hand. I squeeze it softly.

"Jasper?"

"Yeah, darlin'?"

"I…I don't think I feel comfortable with this."

"With me holding your hand?"

"What? No. Me learning vampirism by myself in such a big city. I don't think I'll be able to control myself. I don't know how." She says.

"I know, I'm more than happy to stay here with you until you are. I mean, if you want me too."

"I know you are, but that's not fair to you."

"I don't care," I say.

"I know, but I do." She says.

"Well…"

"What?"

"Have you ever wanted to see Texas?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean my brother and I have been planning on building a guest house on the property. You and Juliette could live there until you feel comfortable enough to move back to Seattle."

"I can't move to Texas, what about Charlie? And school?"

"You can do online classes," I suggest.

"That's true…and Charlie has Sue and the twins to keep him occupied now too. My dad got married, and he has two new babies to take care of since you guys left." She explains.

"Well, it's up to you."

"…let's do it." She smiles.

"Really?" I smile at her.

"Yeah, I've wanted to get out of Charlie's house for a long time now anyway."

"Great, I'll call Peter when we get back to the house and tell him we're on our way."

"Wait, I want to say goodbye first though."

I laugh, "of course."

"But what about my eyes? They're so red. I don't want to expose vampirism to him. He has enough on his plate."

"I bet Alice left some contacts somewhere in her room when they moved. I'll look for them." I say.

"Awesome," she smiles and leans into me.

-rm-

When we get back to the Cullen's house, I found that I was right about Alice. There was a pair of brown contacts in her desk, and Bella puts them in and takes a shower with the soap I brought from Texas. I let her borrow on of my flannel shirts and we find a pair of jeans in Rosalie's closet that fits her, and I am in complete aww over how amazing Bella looks in my shirt, like goddamn. Luckily the girls in that family had more than enough clothes to leave everywhere we lived. We take my truck to Seattle and pick up Juliette at Angela's, and Bella explains to her that she's moving to Texas with me. Angela tries to talk Bella out of it, but she promises she'll move home soon, which breaks my heart, but I try not to let that be visible. We head to Charlie's, and Bella unbuckles Juliette from her booster seat.

"Alright, Julie, I want you to go upstairs and start getting the toys you want to bring with us." Bella says.

"Where are we going, mommy?" Juliette asks.

"We're going to stay with Jasper for a while," Bella says.

"On my ranch in Texas," I add. "I have ponies."

"Can grandpa and grandma and Seth and Leah come too?" Juliette asks.

"I don't think so, baby."

"Why not?" Juliette asks.

"Because Grandpa and Grandma have to stay here for their jobs."

"But, I'll miss them," Juliette says.

"I know, so will I, but don't worry we're going to have a lot of fun at Jasper's house," Bella says.

"Promise?" Juliette asks.

"Pinky promise," Bella smiles at her and she leads us to the door. Charlie beats us and opens the door. With first sight of me, he punches me right in the mouth.