Okaaay this is my very first fic. Please forgive my english for it's not my first language. Most of characters belongs to Cheritz and some other are my lovely imaginary friends.. Emm... maybe I play a little bit with MC. I like it when she has a background story and isn't just an eyeless chara.

Note 1 :This fic contains spoiler about deep story and secret ending

Note 2 : Rating may changes in the future

Prologue

I didn't know how everything could be like this.

As I gazed out through the window, I saw the gloomy winter sky. It felt so far away when I held him close to give comforts as much as I could.

His body trembled. I could feel it. His arm wrapped around my waist as firm as a statue. It kind of crushed my bone but I just let it be, knowing that he would retreat himself back into his stone hard shell if I showed even the slightest discomfort. I know He would shut himself down once again and this time I could never be able to reach him anymore.

"Why…?"

A muffled sound of his reached my ears. He still buried his face in the crook of my neck, refusing to look straight at me. I felt something cold near my pulse and wondered if he was crying. The hoarse in his voice made it even more suspicious.

"Why what?" I asked him after some times had passed and he just left his sentence hanging in the middle.

"Why did you come back?" asked he, "Why didn't you just stay on Jumin's place? You'd be safer there. Away from me."

Something stung my heart and left me breathless.

Did he really want me to stay with Jumin? Or he just didn't want me to be near him? Why? Was it because he was dangerous? Did he do this to protect me?

"I have a bad feeling," I replied bluntly, "I feel like I would never see you again if I didn't come back."

His body stiffened a bit before he let out small bitter chuckles.

"Then at least you have a good intuition. I should have been gone before you returned."

"Then why didn't you?"

He didn't reply immediately, still buried his face in my neck. I nuzzled my cheek to his soft red hair, feeling his ragged breath hitting my skin.

"I.. I.." He stuttered. I waited as he tried to repress the shaking in his voice and failed, "I don't know."

I tightened my hug around his neck. My hand kept on caressing his head.

This man would really become the reason of my death, I thought in defeat. I could never leave him, and sadly, all he wanted was just me to disappear from his life.

Or that what he said before.

What should I do? Our lives were both dangerous. There were a lot of bad guy after me and so were him. Could two dangerous worlds unite and become one? Or maybe I should just follow his unwavering will to get away from his side as far as I could. Maybe it was the best way for both of us.

But...

It was only nine days since I first knew him, and yet he'd owned the biggest part of my heart. It would break me if something dragged me from his side.

If only I didn't answer Saeran's chat on that day, everything would be just fine. I would be in the hotel, waiting for Haruka to arrive in Korea and then we would just go to England to meet our older brother and everything would happen as usual.

We wouldn't be a mess like this.

I still remember that messages from Saeran like it were only yesterday. The messages that started all of this chain of event.

The messages from unknown.