If you haven't read my main story When I look Into Your Eyes you will not understand who these characters are and what's going on so maybe go read that story first but if you want to be daring and try and figure out what's going give it a try…. For those of you who have read my main story welcome to Ryland's life! It's gonna get crazy and i'm super excited to get this story moving and see how his life will turn out I know a lot of you are worried this story will spoil the other one but trust me I stayed far away from spoilers so we won't really get to see his brothers or sisters until later just to keep away from spoilers but if we do see them I won't give much away from where they all ended up

Huge shoutout to Bravery4664 for helping me with the title of this story!

Disclaimer: This story will have a lot of mentions of drugs, sexual situations, mature language, and some other things I can't really think of right now

Ryland's Pov

My head was killing me when I woke up I knew I shouldn't have let Max talk me into going out last night, we just came back from a three month tour and he wanted to go out and celebrate another tour I didn't want to go but when I got home and seen that my girlfriend Brittany was home I did not want to stay home with her lately she's been more annoying then anything. "You're awake." She said from the doorway I lifted my head up nodding. "Can you help me with something?"

"Yeah." I rolled out of bed and followed her downstairs. "What do you need?"

"There are some bags in the car can you get them for me?"

"You went shopping?" She didn't answer me so I just went outside to the car and was greeted with more than four bags all gucci I sighed and went back inside.

"Where are the bags?"

"Where did you get the money?"

"What baby?"

"I said where did you get the money?"

"I had your card."

"You had my card? How did you get my card?"

"I took it."

"What the hell Brit?"

"Well it's not like you've bought me anything nice lately."

"I'm sorry have you seen the fucking car you drive or where you live?"

"I don't see what you are getting so worked up over."

"What i'm so worked up over? You took my credit card and spent god knows how much money on clothes and shit you don't even need you have a closet full of clothes that i've never in seen you wear."

"Because they are so out of style now."

"Out of style?"

"Yes baby out of style." She said putting her purse down on the counter it was new i've never seen it before.

"Is that one of the things you bought?"

"Uh-huh it's a Soho leather hobo."

"It's ugly."

"It's gucci Ryland and it's one thousand, nine hundred eighty dollars so-"

"You spent that much money on that ugly thing?"

"Why does it matter?"

"Because it's my money! I work for it, and if that's the price of one thing and you have a trunk full of shit- oh i'm gonna freak out."

"Don't freak out."

"How much did you spend?"

"Uh…" She went into her ugly purse and pulled out a receipt looked at it and then back at me. "A little over fourteen thousand."

"I'm gonna scream."

"Oh come on Ryald it's not like you don't have the money."

"That's not the point. The poi-"

"Look at my bracelet." She held up her hand showing off a gold bracelet. "It's 18k yellow gold isn't it beautiful."

"Definitely gonna scream."

"I think you need some time outside, I got a new outfit i'm just dying to wear, go get dressed."

"I don't want to go out."

"Well i'm hungry."

"I can cook."

"I want to go to urasawa."

"That's like an hour away and not to mention it's the most expensive place to eat the last time I went alone it was over six hundred dollars."

"Well we are going."

"No we are not."

"Why can't you just give me what I want?"

"Because it's ridiculous to go there and eat when it's an hour away not to mention you already spent enough of my money today."

"It's always about the money with you."

"My parents taught me how to save money sure I might go out once and while and spend more money than necessary but never have I spent over a thousand on something as freaking stupid as a purse that you will be probably not like in a week when the new and improved bag comes out."

"Maybe i'll go and stay with a friend."

"Good, you go do that."

"I was kind of hoping you asked me not to go."

"I'm tired of this I really just want you to leave."

"Like for the night?"

"Like forever, just go, you wanted me to date you so that your stupid model career would take off but here we are six months later and what? What the hell are we doing? This isn't a relationship this isn't love."

"Who said anything about love? I let you go be a 'free' man on tour so you get to have all the fun you want with your one night stands all I want-"

"Is to use me to become famous?"

"You didn't seem to have a problem with it in the beginning."

"Because in the beginning you actually cared about me now it's all about money."

"Ryland-"

"Please just get out of my house."

"Don't."

"Brittany i'm serious, get out."

"This is as much my house as it is yours." She screamed I sighed Max always said she was gonna go crazy one day i'm pissed that he's right.

"Don't make me call the cops."

"You want to play it that way? Fine." She stormed out of and went up the stairs slamming the door in the process I laughed humorless and went into the living room falling down onto the couch.

I watched a movie and made some chicken fettuccine by the time I was done I was gonna go upstairs and see if she was packing all her shit when someone rang the doorbell hopefully one of her friends to get her the hell out of here but I was greeted with two cops. "Uh hi? Is something wrong?"

"How about you tell us."

"I'm sorry?"

"Is your girlfriend home?"

"She's upstairs." I said I am so confused right now.

"Mind stepping outside for a minute?" I nodded coming outside one of them went inside while the other brought me over to the car. "How about you explain what's happening just before we got here."

"I was sitting watching a movie and eating."

"And the fight with your girlfriend?"

"She spent over fourteen thousand dollars I got mad and told her to get out, she wouldn't."

"And that's when you hit her?"

"I'm sorry hit her?" I laughed. "Is that why you're here because she told you I hit her?"

"Is that funny to you?"

"It's funny right now it's the funniest thing I have heard all day." I said he didn't look amused.

"I'm gonna need you to come with me."

"Are you serious?"

"Yes Sir."

"I didn't touch her." I said getting pissed the other cop came out with her she was crying he nodded towards his partner who pulled out handcuffs. "Are you fucking kidding me?"

"You have the right to remain silent-"

"I swear to fucking god when I get out if you are in my fucking house I will beat the fucking shit out of you with a fucking brick you dumb bitch you wanna tell them I hit you because I didn't want to do what you wanted?" I tried to pull against the handcuffs. "Come over here i'll really beat you so I can actually go to jail for doing something you dumb-" He pulled me away into the back of the car before I could finish I was more pissed than anything and I really wanted to punch someone or something.

Max's Pov

"Zach I swear you are the most bitchiest person ever." I said he looked over at me with noodles falling out of his mouth.

"What did I do?"

"You're such a mama's boy it's-"

"How does being a mama's boy make me into the bitchiest person ever?"

"Because you're a little bitch."

"Fuck you LightWorm." He said I glared at him I wish Ryland never told anyone about that because now it's all I hear is LightWorm this LightWorm that at least they call Ryland HeronDuck sometimes. "Eat your fucking noodles."

"Are you gonna go home and see mommy and daddy?" I asked in a baby voice.

"I'm gonna hurt you."

"Poor little Zachy Wacky misses his-" He punched me in the arm. "Ow! Okay i'm done." I said laughing.

"Sometimes you piss me off."

"Just sometimes? I need to step up my game."

"Do you remember that time when we were in Montreal and you took my drumstick in the middle of a song and threw it into the crowd and then stole Ryland's microphone and asked if I could do my drum solo with just one?"

"Ahhh the memories."

"I didn't have a back-up."

"Well whose fault was that?"

"Yours for throwing it in the first place."

"It was payback."

"It was you being an ass."

"You love me, we're like brothers."

"A brother who i'd like to beat to death half the time then yeah." My phone started to ring while Zach was talking about starting a new tour and not waiting too long because it felt weird to be at home and not on the road.

"Max's Taxidermy World, You Snuff 'em, We'll Stuff'em, how may I be of service?" I answered the phone.

"Really Max?" Ryland said I could tell he was holding in a laugh.

"Well you do know I never answer the phone with Hey or what's up, gotta keep it original."

"I need your help."

"Yeah I don't really do taxidermy."

"No shit Max."

"Oh someone's in a bad mood, what's wrong?"

"First let's get this over with, you were right I was wrong."

"I love being right. What was I right about?"

"Brittany…"

"She finally went psycho? What did she do? Kill a puppy? Torture-"

"I'm in jail."

"Oh shit…"

"She called the cops and told them I beat her because I told her to get out of my house."

"I can't believe you're in jail I mean it feels like it's been years since you've gotten arrested."

"Max come on I need you to get me the hell out of here."

"Alright, alright Max to the rescue."

"I'll pay you back."

"Well let's hope so."

Four and half hours later…

"My jail bird is free." I said to Ryland who glared at me. "Why the long face?"

"I don't even want to go back to my house because I have a feeling she is still there."

"What the hell happened?" I asked and he told me the whole story I felt bad for him I mean everyone knew she was a terrible person but Ryland actually had feelings for her.

"And it's not even the money that pissed me off it's the fact that she didn't tell me and she took my card without asking I had my card on me when we went out last night right?"

"Yeah you bought rounds for everyone at the bar."

"I don't even know how she got it…."

"So now you have to go to court?"

"I don't want to talk about it."

"How about we go out tonight get your mind off her shittiness."

"I don't think I have it in me."

"Dude that relationship was going nowhere, we had fun last night didn't we?"

"Yeah."

"We don't even have to go to a bar or anything we can go see a movie or something." I said punching him in the shoulder.

"Fine…."

"That's my boy."

Ryland's Pov

Two months after the whole incident I went to court but Brittany didn't show up she had apparently dropped the charges a few days after she had called me over a million times but I never answered the phone I changed my gate code so she getting into see me I didn't want to be around her I didn't even want to think about her, my parents had called me every day for the past two months to make sure I was feeling okay and that I was myself, all i've ever wanted was a love like my mom and dad's I grew up watching them fall back in love and always being together sure they fought but they were always so in love I wanted that but maybe that's not how my life would pan out maybe I was just doomed to forever be alone.

"Earth to Ryland." Gabe said it was his birthday and the guys and I went out to celebrate.

"To another year of fucking shit up!" Max said raising his beer.

"I'll drink to that!" Tyler said reading his drink.

"Happy birthday." We all said.

Everyone was doing there own thing Max was talking to a girl who I'm sure would be regretting that decision when she wakes up he's nowhere to be seen, I laughed to myself I felt someone tap me on the back. "Is this spot taken?"

"Nope."

"I'm sorry my friends left me so I'm stranded," I nodded. "Anyway I'm- Ryland?" That wasn't a oh wow you're Ryland Herondale that was a I know you. I looked over and my heart felt like it was gonna leap out of my chest.

"Kayla?"

"Hey…" She smiled softly.

"You look amazing." I said softly she blushed.

"So do you, tattoos look good on you."

"Thanks."

"What was your first one?"

"This one." I said pointing to the cross with the heart with my mom's name.

"That's beautiful."

"It's for my mom."

"I've heard a few of your band's songs."

"Oh?"

"You might be the Princes but you own that stage like a king." She said, I laughed.

"Are you a fan?"

"I may or may not have your new album."

"I wanted to say I'm sorry."

"For what?" Her clear blue eyes made me feel like I was falling into the ocean.

"After we broke up you said you wanted to stay friends you would still text me tell me happy birthday… I'm sorry I never responded."

"I did break up with you so I get why you wouldn't want to be friends me with me."

"Friends?"

"Friends."

"Speaking of friends, why did yours ditch you?"

"I didn't want to go to a club with them so I said I'd take a cab home, my friend Jenny has my purse so I'm stranded."

"Here's your drink." The bartender said sliding my beer towards me. "What can I get you?" He asked Kayla who offered a polite smile.

"I'm good."

"You sure?" I asked she nodded.

"I don't have any money."

"My treat."

"No Ryland reallys it's okay."

"To celebrate our newfound friendship."

She ordered something and promised to pay me back I rolled my eyes at that but agreed. "Dance with me?"

"If you insist." She said.

"I really do." I pulled her to the dance floor. "What do you do now?" I whispered to her. "Did you become an author like you've always wanted?"

"Unfortunately no but I work for a publishing company and I'm hoping to finish this child's book I've been writing for awhile."

"Well when it hits bookstores do tell me so I can get a copy or two maybe ten." I joked she laughed god I missed that I forgot how happy that laugh made me feel.

"Do you uh think you could give me a ride home?" She asked after a few songs. "I will give you gas money I promise."

"I don't mind."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm-"

"Never mind I can just walk." She said pulling away.

"Kayla." She didn't listen to me so I followed her outside. "Can you wait a minute."

"I want to walk."

"It's after one in the morning."

"I like walking."

"You just asked me for a ride I said yes why are you acting like this?"

"Because I don't want you to see where I live."

"What? Why?"

"You're what a millionaire? I barely have enough money to pay my rent."

"Money doesn't matter to me."

"Ryland-" I pulled her to me and kissed her I don't know why I did that I was gonna pull away when she wrapped her arms around me and opened her mouth for me. "This isn't a good idea."

"Shhh." I kissed her neck.

"Ryland." She moaned.

"Hmmm?"

"We can't."

"Why not? We're both adults." I said pulling back to look her in the eyes.

"This is a one time thing." She said I smiled.

"You don't mean that."

"I do, we cannot be in a relationship."

"I'm not looking for a relationship."

"Oh. Oh."

"Friends with Benefits? I can promise you will never complain." Her smile was wicked and made my heart hurt.

I took her back to her apartment and I was thankful she had her house key in her pocket because I don't think I can last much longer with the way she's been looking at me the entire way to her place. "I need to set rules." She said pulling away from me.

"Can't we do the rule thing after."

"No rules, no sex."

"Fine what are the rules?"

"Nothing romantic."

"No romance saves me money."

"No goodbye kisses."

"I think that falls in the romantic section."

"No spending the night."

"Okay…. Anything else?"

"You always have to wear a condom."

"Always do."

"Okay uh I think that's everything."

"I'm allowed to kiss you right now. Right?"

"Yes." She said pulling me towards her by my shirt.

Kayla will not be Ryland's 'end game' he will have a brand new person that we will meet in later chapters but Kayla will play a big role in shaping him into the man he will become and other things

The next chapter the boys are going on tour which means a lot of partying and crazy shit will happen