Journal Entry 8

Breakfast this morning seemed to be almost too rushed. Everyone of my friends wanted to come over and check up on me. Of course I sat with the girls (which made Miranda a little happier about me blowing her off last night. She's not a morning person to begin with anyway). Luckily Perry came over to sit with us as well meaning that there were no more seats left at the table for any handsomely devilish werewolf or fae to sit.

Agh, I wasn't prepared to have to leave them again. I wasn't truly prepared last time either, but I did it anyway and I can do it again. This time I won't ask for anyone's help. I'll do it on my own so there's not another chance of me getting caught.

Walking back to the cabin was feeling like it would be forever again before I even got there. Hanging behind the girls a little bit I was trying to figure out a way in my head that I could get out without anyone noticing. I could go up and out through the falls. I'd just have to walk around the perimeter and back towards the gate so I don't set anything off. Yeah, easier said than done I guess.

While I was thinking I didn't notice the other presence that had been tailing me the entire time. So I walk a little to the side, getting closer to the woods. I pick up my pace. I can hear him mimic my pace so I sprint. Sadly, the next thing I know I'm being grabbed by the ankle and am pinned down by none other than - you guessed it, Lucas. One of the ones I was trying so desperately to avoid.

"You didn't think you could actually leave without saying goodbye did you?"

"I can try that's for sure." He slowly moves off of my back leaving me room to push myself up out of the dirt. I rub my face to make sure there wasn't any dirt left from my little swan dive there then turn around to sit facing him. We stare for what seems like hours before either of us speak. Almost as if knowing this is how it was going to end up Lucas stands up and offers me his hand. I push it away and get up by myself. I start to walk back towards the cabin but am swiftly grabbed again and am in a tight embrace.

"I can't lose you again Kylie. When you left I looked everywhere. I didn't think you would even want to go back home knowing what you are, but I guess I was wrong. Please stay, and we can try and work things out." I could see tears starting to form around the sides of his eyes but I know all too well that he wouldn't share that type of emotion with me.

"So that's why you think I left? Because of what you did? Ha. It's always has to be about you doesn't it. You and your pack, you and your dad, you and your fiance!" I slowly start to yell.

"Oh come on Kylie. We've been through this! I wasn't going to do it!" I huff and stomp off.

"Yeah, well you could have at least told me! At least I have the decency to let you know what's going on in my life! Oh ya that's right. YOU'RE TOO UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT IT TO CARE!" I scream finally and walk off. Tears are streaming down my face now. Knowing all too well that it'd be too hard to come back after what you'd both said. I can feel him staring into my back, but as soon as I felt it, it just as quickly went away. I stop dead in my tracks and fall to my knees. Maybe I was overreacting. Maybe I was tired of being lied and cheated to. Whatever it was at that moment, I don't regret it. It had to be done. Gripping myself in a hug, I stand up and wipe my eyes.

I have to get out of here, and soon. Or else I don't know what I'm going to do to myself if I hurt anyone else.

I don't like to do these author note things because it takes out of the story, but I wanted to apologize for the shortness of this chapter. I am trying to make them longer. Thanks!