Hi everyone!

I finally decided to write something and this is what I got, I hope you like it.

English is not my first language, so if you see any mistakes please forgive me.

Time for a change

Breathe in...

Breathe out…

Breathe in… Breathe out…

…

Okay, this doesn't work. I think I'm about to throw up… I'm too much nervous.

Why was that I decide to do this? What if I just jump out by the train window? That would make things so much easier, right…?

NOP, that wouldn't help at all!

Be realistic Annie, I'm not thinking clearly, I just need to calm down myself and relax. I'm just going to a new town, far away from the city, to be the new farmer and start a new life.

Far, far away from everything you know…

What does it matter that I don't know anyone there and that I will be living alone for the first time in my life? I mean, I'm already 21 years old. I'm supposed to start living on my own by this time.

But I can't help it! It really scares me to death the idea of meet new people…

When I saw the poster for the first time one month ago and decided to postulate for the job, I didn't really think that they would choose me. I did want the job and the letter that I sent was really passionate, don't misunderstand me, but I also thought that my letter would pass unnoticed among the large number of letters that they should have received. I mean, I'm just a city girl who knows nothing about farming and animal care. My only good points are my love for nature and big spaces and my stubbornness against the problems, if I'm honest…

I really wanted the job. The landscape that showed the photo on the poster was so beautiful and bright, That I could feel how my heart and all my being told me that postulating was the right decision. That's why when I received a letter from the mayor of Oak Tree Town I was really surprised. I was so excited and happy! finally I could live in the countryside. I started to sell all the things that I couldn't take with me and stay with only the fundamental and necessary to start my new life, saying goodbye to the few friends that I had in the city, and the most important, tell my brother Johnny my decision.

Two weeks ago…

"Are you insane!? You can't go to live by yourself to the countryside! What if something happens to you there?"

"You're overreacting, I'm very capable to live by my own and I will be perfectly fine. The town has a clinic and a doctor who lives there, so you should not worry about my health"

"But… you're my baby sister. How could I do not worry about you…? I'm just worried about you being so far away"

"I know, but I need you to trust me and support me. You're the only family I got and I don't want to leave in bad terms, so could you just be happy for me and help me with the preparations? Pleaseee?"

"Ugh, I hate when you make the puppy face… Fine. I'm still not happy about this decision, but I will help you with what you need. Just promise me that you will write constantly, ok?"

"Thank you Johnny! You're the best brother in the world!"

"Yeah, yeah… now, what do you need me to do?"

The last two weeks before my departure passed without any problem and I was able to prepare everything for the move. The day of my departure arrived and Johnny decided to come with me to the train station to help me with my things and say goodbye. Everything was perfect.

Until the moment I got in the train and started to have a panic attack from the fear of change. I was so happy and busy with the preparations for the move that I forgot about a tiny problem that I have, my social phobia and anxiety disorder.

Yeah, I know, I should have been seen this coming. You may be asking yourself how Johnny didn't refuse to the idea of me moving out to a new place when I have these problems. The answer is easy; he doesn't know. I tried to tell him a few times in the past, but in the end I never did it because I didn't want to worry him more than he already does. All these time I have been hiding it from the people, because I don't want to worry them. I learnt how to hide the emotions of fear, so people could see me and no one of them would know that I was scared. I just hate the idea of worry the people I love.

Back to the present, I'm in the middle of a panic attack as I realize that I'm approaching to my destiny. Remembering why I decided to do all this has helped me calm down a bit, but I'm still pretty nervous.

I sigh as I look at the landscape that made me leave everything I knew. The sky is so clear and blue, and everything in the horizon line is from a vivid green color. It´s so beautiful that makes me want to cry sometimes.

"Excuse me miss but, are you alright? You look a little pale" Says to me a man in a blue suit with a worried expression

"Oh! It's nothing, don't worry. I'm just a little dizzy from the train movement" I say while I smile to reassure him

"I'm glad is just that. If you need anything don't hesitate to call me, I'm the train manager. Could you please show me your ticket?"

"Of course, just a moment… here is it"

"Thank you, we are going to arrive shortly in the Oak Tree Town station, so please gather your belongings. I hope you have a nice day"

"Thank you, have a nice day you too"

The train arrives with no problems and I got out of the cabin quickly. The station is very small and only a few passengers get off. It's finally the moment to start from scratch.

I ask for the shortest route to the city hall to a couple next to me and with no problem I arrive to a large building with a sign outside indicating that I have reach my destination.

Pump, Pump, Pump

I feel like my heart is going to explode, but still I gather all my courage to knock the door.

"Please, come in" Says the voice of a woman.

Now there is not turning back.