Misunderstood

Chapter 24

AN; I'd like to thank everyone for reading and for taking their time to leave a review. This will be the last chapter of Misunderstood and I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Thank you to sheepish for encouraging me from start to finish :)

When both women woke the next morning Olivia was in for a surprise. She was woken up by sweet little kisses on her lips and neck, fingers tracing every curve on her body and deep blue eyes studying her smooth chocolaty skin, memorizing every imperfection, every freckle, every scar. The innocent kisses had quickly turned into passionate and hungry ones and, before the detective knew what was happening, Amanda's hand had found it's way down, sliding through her heated sex, stroking her up and down. It didn't take long for Olivia to come, her juices seeped out of her while she called her lover's name out loud, the echo bouncing from wall to wall.

They fell back to sleep after that, tangled together in a sweaty exhausted mound of limbs. Next time Olivia woke it was just after ten am and Amanda was still sound asleep next to her, hair toussled, cheeks flushed from sleep and mouth slightly open, allowing for soft snores to escape. She smiled and gently brushed a stray lock of blonde hair away from her face, relishing at the softness that this woman possessed.

She kissed the smooth forehead and felt the body in her arms stir from the sudden contact and blue eyes fluttered open, staring at Olivia, full of sleep. "Morning, sweetheart." Liv whispered and kissed her lightly on the lips, smiling as the small form shifted close to her, burrowing her face in the crook of her neck, stretched and let out a squeal.

"You're too cute for your own good. You sound adorable." Liv chuckled.

"I bet I don't look adorable." the blonde grumbled and stiffled a yawn. "I feel sticky and sweaty."

"Well... I wonder why? Could be our amazing, breathtaking and earth shattering sex we had last night and a couple of hours ago. Wanna take a shower together?" she winked and cupped a soft breast in her hand.

Amanda gasped at the contact and instantly felt aroused. The things this woman did to her was out of this world. One single touch and she was wet and ready. The shower ended up to be the longest shower Amanda had ever taken. Pushed up against the cold tile wall, one leg flung over Olivia's shouler while the brunette showed her the skillful movements of her tongue again. Another powerful and mind blowing orgasm washed over her as Liv licked her shamelessly, supporting the blonde's weight the best she could as she felt the petite legs tremble.

"Shhh baby, I've got you. I've got you." she soothed as Amanda collapsed into her arms, panting and struggling to get her breath back. When she came back from her high, it was her turn to return the favour and sent Olivia into ecstasy two times before the hot water ran out.

It was sunday and they planned on doing nothing for the day, just relax, watch tv, eat junk food, snuggle and have sex over and over again. They couldn't get enough of each other and found themselves always touching whenever there was an opportunity to do so.

"I haven't had a nightmare in almost a month now." Amanda said, smiling softly as they sat on the couch, snuggled up together, watching a comedy.

Liv tugged her closer and kissed the top of her head. "That's great honey. I'm happy that you feel more relaxed and comfortable in yourself. You've come a long way, my love, and I'm so proud of you."

"Thank you. You've helped me a lot and I can't even begin to tell you how grateful I am that you're here and supporting me through all this." she teared up hid her face against Liv's collarbone, sighing deeply.

"Hey, baby! I will always be here for you, no matter what. I love you so, so much. Don't ever forget that." she ran her fingers through blonde hair and peppered light kisses onto her forehead. The soothing motion lulled Amanda to sleep while Olivia continued to watch the funny movie, chuckling and giggling to herself and cuddled Amanda as close as she possibly could. She felt calm and at peace for once in her life. She couldn't remember the last time she spent a whole day inside her apartment, just relaxing, watching tv and eating comfort food. Having someone here with her just made it even more special and amazing. Having someone to share her life with made her complete. Eventually she joined Amanda in her slumber, a smile ghosting her lips even in the deepest of sleep.

When Olivia woke about forty minutes later, her arms were empty and Amanda was nowhere to be seen. "Amanda? Honey?" she looked around the sitting room and the kitchen but she came up empty. "Amanda?" she yelled, louder than the first time.

"In here." came the faint reply and Liv followed her voice to the bedroom. When she opened the door she saw Amanda sitting on the bed, legs crossed, a notepad in her hands and busy writing something Olivia couldn't make out from where she was standing.

"Hey, I got a bit worried when I woke up and you weren't in my arms. What are you writing?" sitting down next to the blonde she kissed her cheek and rubbed her back lovingly.

"A letter." Amanda said, her voice etched with sadness.

"A letter to who, sweetie?"

Sighing deeply, Amanda didn't know how to explain why she was writing this letter in the first place but decided to just tell Olivia about her idea that had come to her while she was sleeping. "I... I had this... this thought that I could write a letter to my..." she paused for a moment, her throat closing up at the thought of just saying the word, "...my baby. Maybe it's stupid. I just thought that... that if I told my baby girl how much I love her and what she means to me and then burn the letter, then maybe, just maybe, she will somehow get it, wherever she is, and then she'll know."

Amanda blushed slightly. Just hearing herself, explain to Liv why she was writing her dead baby girl a note, sounded completely insane and down right weird but Olivia just smiled gently kissed her gently on the lips. "I think it's great idea, honey. You seem pretty sure that you were having a girl." Liv stated, "A mother's intuition?"

The blonde shrugged and folded the note twice. "I guess. I mean, I know it probably sounds ridiculous but I just know. I just know that I was having a girl, I just know."

Liv placed her hand underneath Amanda's chin and guided her head up so she could look her in the eye. "It's not stupid at all, sweetheart, not at all. For what it's worth, I think your baby girl knows exactly how much you love her, no letter needed. But it's a beautiful and thoughtful think to do, sweetie."

Smiling faintly, Amanda gave Olivia a quick hug before sliding off the bed. "I'm gonna go up on the roof and do this. I won't be too long."

"You take all the time time you need, sweetheart. I'll be right here when you get back." Liv leaned forward and placed a soft sweet kiss on the blonde's lips, lingering longer tha usual.

Standing on the roof top, looking out over the city lights, she held the handwritten note in shaky hands and a small box of matches in the other. It was freezing outside. The air risp and clear so high up above the ground, no garbage, no fuel exhausts and no cigarette smoke. A strong gust of wind ruffled her hair and she shivered against the bitter cold, wishing she had taken a jacket with her.

Sighing, she lit a match and let the small flame lick the corner of the folded paper. "This is for you, my sweet. I'll always love you and I'll always be with you just like you'll always be with me. One day I know I will meet you."

Watching the paper shrivel up in her hand, she said a silent prayer before dropping the burning note down the building, the smoke and ashes scattered in the wind as it disappeared into nothing. She broke down in sobs but somehow she felt relieved and surprisingly peaceful. It felt like she had a chance to say a proper goodbye, a farewell and a promise that they would undoubtedly see each other somehow, somewhere.

Just as another powerful wind passed, causing her to shiver, she felt a thick blanket being placed around her shoulders and strong arms wrapped her waist from behind and Liv rested her head near Amanda's ear. "I realized that you never took your jacket and I figured you must be freezing about now." she kissed the nearby cheek. "And I was right, your absolutely freezing, honey. You okay?" she rubbed her hands up and down Amanda's trembling arms.

"Yeah, I'm okay." her voice was soft but full of tears as she turned around and buried her face in Liv's chest. "It's just hard." she admitted after a while, feeling Olivia's arms tighten around her middle.

"I know, baby, I know. We'll get through this, okay? I promise you that, sweetheart. Now, come on, it's Baltic out here and I'm about to freeze my ass off."

"We wouldn't want that, detective. I quite like your ass the way it is." she chuckled as they together headed back inside the warmth and safety of Olivia's apartment.

The End.