This is the last songfic for my favorite Fairy Tail couple. I'm sorry for taking a while for me to write. Now I know what the deal is with that "Writer's Block" thing.
#1. Fairy Tail belongs to Mashima.
#2. This song is "It's Not Over" by Secondhand Serenade
Hope you'll enjoy this!
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My tears run down like razor blades
you know, I'm not the one to blame
It's you, or is it me?
[ Gray ]
I lost count after the fifth shot. I'm not even sure how I got home with my wallet and clothes on. It's all I've been doing ever since. Wake up. Get a job. Get wasted. Go home. Try to get some sleep if not hammered enough or empty the remains of my stomach in the toilet while crying like a baby. Blame Juvia for breaking up with me. Take it back and tell the 'Imaginary Juvia' that I am sorry and that I love her and beg for her to come back. And then wallow in self-blaming, self-pity, and condemnation. Pass out while thinking about all the stupid questions of 'what ifs', 'whatnots', 'could haves' and all that shit. It's been months already and I still feel like shit. I shift from being mad at Juvia to being mad at myself.
All the words we never say come out
Now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
[ Juvia ]
It's been months already, and I am living in quiet. I like it. The tree, skies, breeze… I need it. Why? Truth is, I regret it. I really regret leaving you. I need the quietness to think about everything. It broke my heart, but it was something that I should do. I knew that you were not ready for a relationship and I don't want to force myself to someone who is not ready yet. I knew that I may be able to do something to make you understand but it was too much for me already. I miss home. I do. I miss Fairy Tail. But I don't know if I am ready to come back and see you just yet, Gray.
Now it's over, it's over
Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
[ Gray ]
You could have told me. I could have changed. Or you could have made me understand. You always do that. I mean, that's where you are good at. You were always brilliant in making me understand things that I am not used to.
But it's over, it's over
It can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over
[ Juvia ]
I knew it was the right thing to do. I knew I had to do it, or we might end up even more destroyed. I knew I should have told you earlier and maybe… Maybe, this wouldn't have happened. Maybe, we were able to fix it. Maybe. Or not.
I lose myself in all these fights
So lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
[Gray]
We were unhappy. That's what I have realized. All the fights; All of my arrogance and insensitivity; All the hurtful words that I have told you whenever I'm pissed. Those little things that I thought were nothing but were actually something important to you. I thought that by winning the argument, I have won the fight, not caring if my words have hurt you… that each and every time that I have won kills our love little by little.
I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die
But I won't let it die
[Juvia]
I don't know what to feel whenever I think about you, which is, all the time. I try to forget about you. I just can't seem to do it. You're there whenever I close my eyes and when they're open, they try to find every single damned thing that would remind me of you. I left because I wanted to forget about all the pain that you have caused me, the grief that I brought to myself and the sorrow that all these would bring. I don't know what to think anymore, Gray. I don't know.
It's over, it's over
Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
But it's over, it's over
It can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
[Gray]
I miss you, Juvia. Please come back to me.
[Juvia]
Why do I still miss you, Gray?
I'm falling apart
I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be
Together we could be
Over and over we could be
Forever
[Gray]
I don't know what else to do. Everybody kept on telling me to be better and move on. But all I have done is to be bitter and get hung up so bad. I can't move on, Juvia. I don't care if you push me away again and again. I am coming to you and you can tell me to fuck off but I know that you're the one for me. I don't even know if you still live in the same town where I last saw you, but I will take my chance. I have to find you whatever it takes.
I'm falling apart
I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be
Together we could be
Over and over we could be
Forever
[Juvia]
I told myself that I would, probably, talk to you once I am ready, but for fuck's sake, you are here pounding at my door. I don't know how you found my house, but I don't know what to say. My heart is beating so fast. But I am very scared, Gray. I don't know what the future holds for both of us, but I know that I can't fool myself anymore.
It's not over, it's not over
It's never over?
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over
It's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over
[Gray]
This must be a dream. I thought no one is here. I pounded at the door and no one answered… then I pounded on it again, nonstop, until it broke and fell down and there you are, standing a couple of feet away from me, staring at me with those beautiful blue eyes, mouth slightly open from shock. You probably didn't expect that I would find you. I slowly walked towards you… Steps very careful, eyes locked on yours, as if I am approaching a wild deer that is ready to run if threatened. I reached out tentatively, unsure if you would let me touch you… But found relief when you didn't flinch as I brush my fingers lightly against yours.
[Juvia]
When the door broke down, I didn't believe my eyes that it's really you! I thought I was just imagining your voice calling me. I couldn't move. I don't know what to do, or what to say. I knew I have rehearsed countless times on what I will tell you once I am ready to see you again, but now that you are here, I can't recall any of the words that I have planned to say. I still couldn't move my legs. I'm afraid that if I do, they will give out. I can't believe that you are here! And your eyes are locked on me… I can't tear my sight away from you. You are coming nearer… And closer… And so much closer now that I can feel your warmth… the warmth that I have been deprived of in the past few months… the warmth that I crave for, yet I pushed away…. the warmth that I needed so badly. I can't help it, now that you are here, my tears are falling and I can't stop them anymore.
[Gray]
"I still love you, Gray," are the words that you said in a soft whisper. I didn't know what to say. I came here to tell you first that I want you back, and you beat me to it. You always beat me to it. I just can't win against you. I knelt in front of you and looked up at your tearful eyes, "Juvia, you have no idea how much I have longed to hear those words again," I held her hips tightly as I tried to keep my voice even, "I never thought I'd hear them again," but I know I am breaking, "or be able to have them again," slowly my walls crumbled down, "Juvia, I am so sorry," but I didn't care if she'd see me cry, "for not giving you the love you deserve. I knew that I promised to be better while you're gone… but I couldn't," I paused and wiped my eyes and looked at her again, "I can't think of starting life without you. Please, give me another chance. I love you so much. It's not over, Juvia. It will never be over for us. Come back to me, please."
[Juvia]
I pulled him up, and he stood in front of me, looking handsome and miserable at the same time. I knew I'm no better. The time that we have spent away from each other is evident with the bags under our eyes, the weight that we both have shed or the paleness of our skins. Neither any of us are doing any better. I touched his cheek, and he closed his eyes reveling in my touch. I knew that we're not perfect and that we still have a lot of things to settle between us, but he is right. I smiled at him and tiptoed towards him and kissed him on the lips. "You're right, Gray-sama. It's not over and it will never be over for us."
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So there! I had to give them a happy ending. Despite Gray-sama's cold facade in the manga, he was, well, a dork. Blushing at every moment he says something intimate (subtlely) to Juvia. Hope you liked it! *firefistbump*