SO THIS IDEA HAS BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD FOR AGES, THIS HAPPENS BEFORE STEF GETS HER IMPLANTS. SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS QUICK LITTLE TWO SHOT.

STEF

As I kissed up and down my wife's stomach licking and kissing every inch, I started at her breast then her stomach I couldn't get enough of her taste in my mouth she tasted so good. I kissed down to her trimmed mound and I lifted her legs to wrap around my shoulders but when I looked up at her she was crying and she had a look on her face.

"Love what's wrong," I asked her stopping what I was doing so I could see her face. She did not answer me but she kept on crying.

I dropped her legs from around my shoulder and I went to go lay on the side of her. I grabbed her hand and kissed it.

"Sweetheart talk to me, what's wrong," I asked my wife but instead of her answering me she dropped my hand from hers and she covered her eyes with her hands and sobbed more.

"Lena, your scaring me, talk to me please baby."

"Stef I... I umm... I don't know how to say this," Lena said crying harder now not looking me in the face.

"Say what, come on talk to me," I asked her again. But she just kept on crying.

"I mean was I not pleasing you right, if so I can try again," I said reaching my hands to go down in between her legs, but she quickly grabbed my hands to stop me. I knew my face turned into a frown.

"Lena can you..."

"I don't want to have sex with you anymore Stef," she said to me staring up at the ceiling but with her eyes closed.

"What," I asked her making sure I heard her right.

"I don't want to have sex with you anymore, I'm not attracted to you anymore," she said crying harder now.

"Lena, baby what, why are you not attracted to me anymore," I asked her and she looked at me then her eyes immediately went to my chest area. I looked down at my scared chest and I crossed my arms over them...

I jumped in my sleep and my heart was beating. And I had tears running down my face.

I turned around and looked at Lena and she sound asleep with her arms folded under her head and she looked so beautiful, how can someone look like an angel in her sleep.

I immediately looked down at my chest and I Iifted up my tank top and they were still bandaged up just like how I did it before I went to sleep.

It was just a dream I kept saying over and over again. But for some reason it didn't feel like a dream. And I looked over at my wife still sleeping. And I couldn't help the tears as they started to fall down my face.

I heard the alarm go off and I got a little irritated because I only got a few hours of sleep due to my dream/ nightmare last night. I turned around and Lena was already up I heard the shower running. Since I was still on medical leave, I went downstairs to start breakfast and start the coffee for myself and Lena. As I was starting the coffee pot I couldn't keep the images of my dream out of my mind. I knew it was just a dream, but for some reason it seemed so real to me. Was Lena really not attracted to me anymore. She has seen my scar already because she helped me change my bandages. But the thought of Lena not being attracted to me was so baffling. I really didn't know where these thoughts were coming from, we haven't even had sex yet since my surgery.

As I poured my cup of coffee and laid out bagels and fruit for breakfast, my mind was just on that damn dream.

I heard someone coming down from the steps and once the heels hit the hardwood floor, I knew it had to be Lena or Mariana.

"Goodmorning babe," Lena said to me coming to me smiling.

Lena looked absolutely beautiful coming in the kitchen. She had on a pink colored blouse with a black pencil skirt and a matching black belt that was around her waist. And some black pumps and her bushy curly hair hung down her back. She was so stunning. But for some reason I kept thinking why would this beautiful lady want me out of all people. I couldn't help but feel this lump in my throat.

Lena came over to me give me a kiss but I turned my head so she could only could kiss my cheek. She gave me a look and I avoided looking at her all together.

"Everything okay babe, she asked me.

I just couldn't stay down here and look at her without breaking down.

"Um, I'm not feeling well, I'm going to go back and lay down, kiss the kids goodbye for me. I said getting up from the table and rushing upstairs as fast as I could before Lena had the chance to say anything. I closed the door to the bedroom and laid down on my side of the bed and just cried more tears.

I must have feel asleep while crying because I felt somebody shift on the bed. When I looked over my shoulders it was Lena and she was rubbing my arm up in down in smooth motions.

"Hey are you feeling alright," Lena asked me with concern and worry in her voice and I could see it in her eyes as well.

"What time is it," I asked and I looked and it was 11:30 in the afternoon. "Lena what are you doing here so early.

"I'm on lunch break, I wanted to come and check on you. You was acting strange this morning," she asked me but I didn't want to tell her the truth.

"I was just tired, I couldn't sleep last night," I told her which was the truth.

"OK, and what else is bothering you," she asked me.

"Nothing Lena, I was tired and just wanted to lay down."

"Stef, please don't shut me out, What is going on in that pretty head of yours," she said to me rubbing her hands on my head.

"Don't say things you don't mean Lena," I said to her.

"What," she asked me a look of confusing look.

"You calling me pretty, don't say things you don't mean.

"Stef, what are you talking about."

I just looked away from her because I really did not feel like crying again.

"Stef look at me please," she said to me. I still wasn't budging to look at my wife. "Stef."

HOPE YOU ENJOYED THE FIRST PART. SECOND PART WILL BE UP SOON. SO PLEASE REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.

*NOT EDITED* :/ WILL EDIT LATER ON.