Rain: Well hello Twilight…I never thought I'd be here before. Hello all, I am RainthelingeringSentiment and I am here to give my take on Twilight and my favorite pairing of all time.

Jasper and Bella.

But not just them. Oh no, I have many plans for our Twilight cast so I want you guys to sit back, relax and enjoy…The Crimson Eyed Drifter: Distance between Hearts

Mario: Here we go!

Summary: After Bella's eighteenth birthday, Jasper decided to make a choice that no one knew saw coming. Little did anyone know, this simple choice will change everything but will it be for the best?

Pairings: Jasper/Bella, Emmett/Rose, Carlisle/Esme and many more!

Rating: Rated T to M

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any Twilight accessories (like Life and Death).

The Crimson Eyed Drifter: Distance between Hearts

Chapter One

Disgust.

Shame.

Worry.

Sadness.

These were the emotions that were swirling around me as I sat upstairs in our fairly nice home, mentally going over everything that had happened last night.

Last night, Edward's girlfriend, Isabella "Bella" Swan had gotten a paper cut and in turn, I lost control of myself and endangered her life.

It took the combined strength of Emmett, Rosalie and Carlisle to keep me back.

At first, I questioned myself at how could I have been so weak to the temptation of her sweet blood but as I spent all night in thought, I realized that it didn't matter whose blood it belonged to in the end.

For decades under Maria's thumb, I had bathed in the blood of mortals and indulged in its sweet and sinful taste…No diet of animal's blood could ever replace the satisfaction I felt as I fed.

Regardless of my thoughts of the diet, I loved them all as my family so I had to give this diet a shot and I put one hundred percent into it but no matter how many years I could be around humans, anytime I got one little sniff, it sent me into overdrive and I had to have it…

As much as it sickens me.

But now as I sat here, I realized it more that as much as I wish it to be so, I am a vampire through and through.

No animal blood could replace what I truly need.

But did that realization have to come at the price of my family's relationship with the one human that my family and to some extent, myself, adore more than our own lives?

I had slipped up many times before this moment but while I would get a shameful look and a stern talking to and some amount of being banished to the overly pink shared bedroom that my lovely wife and I shared, they would soon forgive me and we continued on.

But this time…It was different now.

It wasn't some no-named human that we all did well to never interact with on this type of level.

It was Bella…

The very same girl I had told that she was worth it all during her moment of doubt in Phoenix. The very same girl who would let Alice dress her up or go on gaming marathons with Emmett or garden with Esme and Carlisle or even watched as Rosalie worked on her cars.

And most of all…She was Edward's girlfriend and greatest treasure...

In the end, knowing that I let her down stung more than knowing I let the people who had assisted in saving me from damnation down as well. A scowl formed on my face as venom welled up into my eyes as frustration built up within me.

They didn't deserve this…Not for someone like me…

It was then I managed to catch the emotions of anger.

But to my shock, it wasn't anger at me.

It was at Edward.

But why?

It was then I decided to listen in onto the conversation that was happening downstairs.

"No fucking way are we going anywhere!" Emmett's voice shouted out, the emotion of fury from my large brother catching my attention.

"Emmett, I know that you are upset. We all are but that doesn't mean you can swear," Carlisle's calm yet strained voice said.

"I can't help it when I here bullshit like this!" Emmett responded angrily.

"It would tear Bella apart…You know that," Alice's voice chimed in softly, sadness coming from her.

While Rosalie didn't say anything, worry and disappointment in Edward was flowing strongly around her.

And all I feel from Esme was anguish and if she was human, I would be sure that she would be crying her eyes out.

But their emotions were underneath the feeling of determination from Edward as he shouted "I love her too much to allow her to be near us any longer!"

I could feel the sadness flowing from Edward as he then said "You saw what Jasper had done...Even we all had to restrain ourselves from pouncing at the smell…Which probably caused Jasper to snap as well from feeling our bloodlust…She doesn't deserve a life of constant danger. We need to leave and let her live her life in peace."

A part of me was touched that Edward had thought about how I could have been affected by their bloodlust, which admittedly did play a part in me attacking but the rest of his words made me angry at him and at myself as well.

Edward was trying to convince all of them to leave Forks and leave Bella behind and it was all my fault.

My family loved her dearly and it was obvious that Bella loved us all as well…Anytime she came into this place, the feeling of love and gratitude for all of us would overwhelm me and I could feel them return her love and gratitude tenfold.

If we were to leave…She'd be broken and there would be no telling what could happen to her if this was to come to pass.

There is no way that can let this go down that path!

I couldn't allow them to hurt because of me but what could I do?

What could I say to them that would make them stay?

That I would try harder to fit their vegetarian diet and work on that control? That was laughable to me at this point.

And that was when another realization hit me.

I caused this because of my weakness…And because of it, I will stop them from making this mistake.

Cullen Clan

Alice Cullen

"Look bro, I ain't leaving my Bells behind!" Emmett shouted as he moved away from Rosalie, who had tried to calm him down from his anger.

I could understand why he was angry…We were all angry about this situation that we were facing right now.

And I wish I could tell them that everything would be ok but even I wasn't sure by this anymore. Any visions that I had seen swung in many different directions.

From us leaving and Bella becoming a broken shell, to Bella being a vampire with us and everything in between and despite vampires not being able to have headaches, having so many visions flash through my mind is a killer on the mind.

"It has to be this way!" Edward shouted at Emmett. "Bella needs to live in peace without the constant threat of us draining her!"

"But Bella is our family!" Emmett responded swiftly. "Bella is my baby sister. I can't leave her! Just how I can't leave Alice or you or Mom and Pops and especially Rosalie!"

I could see Rosalie smile briefly at Emmett's words but Rosalie then followed up her husband's point by adding "Edward…I can tell you now that if we leave…It will tear this family apart. And this is coming from someone that could care less whether she stays or goes."

I smiled at my sister's words as I glanced at her briefly, knowing clearly that Bella had wormed her way into the beauty's heart before I looked down at the ground.

I know that Edward meant well in wanting to protect Bella and any other time, I would agree but I…I am selfish…I love Bella like a sister and I want her to be in our lives and us in hers. I don't want to leave her he-

Alice's Vision

"Jasper, No matter what, I will show you that you are worth it!" Bella yelled out, her hands cupped around her mouth before she lowered her hands, a determined smile on her face.

"And when you come back…I'll be here waiting," Bella whispered gently as she watched the bike fade into the distance, her right hand gripping a black strand around her neck tightly.

Vision End

Cullen Clan

Alice Cullen

I blinked

Just then, I heard Jasper's voice say from behind us at the staircase "Well you guys don't have to worry about leaving…"

I turned around to face Jasper and saw that he was standing at the bottom of the stairs, wearing a rather simple faded blue jean/black shirt combo while wearing a very stylish Philip Plein black leather jacket.

But it was then that I noticed a single black gym bag hanging over his shoulder.

And suddenly the vision had made sense…

"Because I think it's time for us to say goodbye," Jasper finished with a small grin on his face.

He was leaving us…

Rain: And that is where I will end the first chapter. I hope I got everyone's characters right. This is new territory for me so I hope you guys enjoyed it. The second chapter will be out soon and should be a lot longer than this one so until then…

Mario: See you next time!