To Get Her.

Together
by iReii

"Together and to get her. Physically in a loved relationship, emotionally in a hated relationship."

BGM MJ [Sunnyside] - Feat. Jaram Project Lee Ah Ram [Lyric Video] on YouTube | Second Video.
Original title: MJ (써니사이드) - 우리 조금만 어렸더라면 (Feat.자람프로젝트 이아람) [Lyric Video]
A/N Same song as the first chapter, but with lyrics.

II.

If only we were younger, if only we still loved each other, would we still be together? Would we still love each other? I don't know how to love anymore. I only knew how to make you smile, how to make you happy, yet I don't even think I can do that anymore. I don't know how to.

The people that looked upon us, the people that looked at us with heart eyes, they all turned their backs against me.
Who's fault is this, is there even someone to blame?

Even if I grab you, you throw my hands away. Where did our relationship tilt? After misunderstandings piled upon each other, our relationship came to an end. I just want to go back, back to the days where everything was simple. To the days you loved me, and to the days I loved you.

The boy wandered around, his mind empty without any thoughts. He glanced around the busy street, it was filled with all the memories they shared.

Clothing stores― she loved wearing skirts. And he hated her wearing skirts. As clumsy as she was, the boy always had to cover her bottom clothing with a bag, with a blanket. Others would get tired of it, yet he wasn't. If he could protect her, he would do anything to.

Restaurants― she was afraid of spicy foods. The way she would gasp for cold air, the way she would search for iced water, he laughed. And so did she. They would sit, facing each other with a table crossing their way. Various conversations were thrown back and forth along with laughters, he missed those moments.

Karaoke― she loved to sing, no one can say she was an expert with it, but she loved to. Others would block their ears as they hear her high notes, yet he sat there. With a smile across his face, with his hands clapping down each beat, he would listen to her. And she appreciated that.

Movies― she was never willing to watch horror movies. Because of his selfish choices, he brought her along to go see a horror movie, and that night, she was unable to sleep. He had to reassure her, apologize to her with a playful tone, throughout the entire night. The way they fell asleep together, while clenching onto their phone, those days are gone now.

Everything he sees, his entire world, everything revolves around her. A girl he can't ever forget. A girl he can't ever erase from his world. Yet he's the one who released her, he's the one that trapped her for seven years, and finally freed her. It's a choice he regrets, but it's a choice that benefits her. He lost his values, yet she gained her values. This is better for her, even if it deeply hurts him.

Like a habit, he unlocked his phone to open the messenger app. Her default actually had a picture, he was quite surprised. Only to be surprised again, her profile picture was with her new boyfriend. Within five months after their breakup, she found another lover.

The gray, dull city started to pour as if it was telling the story of the boy's. The boy wandered even further into the city as the memories he shared with her passed by. The memories they had together, now will be refreshed with her new lover. She will now visit the places they spent together with her him.

Was it the rain or was it tears that was dripping down from his face? No one would know, except the boy himself.

She's not the same person he knew, the same person he wished for her to be. The Aisha he knew seven years ago is gone. Away. They started as strangers, and although ending up with lovers would become a happy ending, their love ended as a sad ending. They are strangers once again. Strangers with memories, strangers that cannot start new memories.

In one moment, everything ends. The memories we shared, everything vanishes in one second.
I want to erase the terrible memories we shared, those memories makes my heart ache.
All the things I regret, one by one they come rushing back to my mind and haunts me.
I want to go back, back to the days where everything was simple. Back to the days you loved me, and to the days I loved you.

The boy deeply regret ending their relationship, yet he did not want to trap her within himself. She wanted to be free, and he released her. Even though he knew he would hurt himself, he'd rather have someone else cure her blackened soul that has been contaminated by his wrongful actions.

The boy opened the messenger app once again and glimpsed at her profile picture. Her smile was bright as the stars, like seven years ago. Her smile was real.

He wanted to get her, yet they weren't together, anymore.