"Ugh... these books piss me off, I swear," I said throwing my so called birthday gift, aiming and throwing it at my best friends, Juana's, head while she was laughing at my stupidity.

Here I am on my 21st birthday pretty drunk to numb the fucking pain of the 3 new tattoos on my body.

"Dude, this is the fucking present you get after all those tattoos I just paid good money for." She said still laughing at me.

"Bitch I'm not cheap. Who the fuck you think I is?" I said chuckling and trying not to fall asleep.

"Aurora-Alesana Solis, I swear if you fall asleep on me I'll start pinching all those new tattoos. We have a tradition to uphold and this might be the last one I'll actually be here physically to participate in."

"Girl shut up, I don't want to talk about that right now. Plus, we'r-"

"A, we need to talk about this. I love you but I refuse to go through chemo again and I'll probably be hospital ridden in just a couple of days and you know that I won't allow you anywhere near me when that time comes. So I am going to try to live the rest of the time I have left with you. My best friend!"

"Ok, fine, whatever. I'm up now." I said trying to dodge the subject, and thankfully it worked.

"Ok, so now why do you hate the books so much?"

"That bitch Bella."

...

"Bitch what the fuck?!" Juana said laughing her ass off.

"Ok, Ok..." she said trying to stop laughing, "now explain your thesis." She said genuinely intrigued after she completely stopped laughing.

"Ok. She's so manipulative. Have I told you that I actually imagine myself in the story with her? As a new girl as well or maybe a distant cousin who Charlie adopted after her parents, who left her a lot of money, died. As its plainly obvious, if you compare the two of us, that we are the complete opposite. I have my beautifully tanned skin with tattoos and piercings all over my body, and you know also amazingly hidden places," I said winking at her watching her giggle, "but I'm my own damn woman while she's completely submissive. I'm a bold, fearless and unabashed, while she's so timid and sheepish. I mean come fucking on, I have a beautiful black new 2011 Ducati Multistrada Marzocchi Forks. (Just to let you guys know this /. is taking place in 2011). I love showing my body off since I'm so god damn curvaceous body, while she so shy and self-conscious. Hell, a random person can ask me anything and I'll be completely honest."

"Bitch you're getting distracted. Now let me ask you a question. How would you be better for both Jacob, Edward and the Cullen family?"

"I know I know. Any who let me get back on track. Jake would be friend/family zoned so fast it'd give him whiplash. Secondly, Edward would have someone who can challenge him both physically and mentally, plus he would have to work hard for me and all of this goodness. Hell, I would not be happy if Mr. Misery and Gloom decided to treat me as if I was any other girl because that sure as hell is not who I am. Now last but certainly not least the Cullen family. I mean they would be lucky to have me as a new sister/daughter. I am loyal and will always be loyal until ultimate demise, no matter what family over everything and anyone. Plus, I feel like Rosalie would be my best friend, that is if I had never met you. We're too alike." I finished, trying to hold back my rage towards everything in my past. As I got past it I added. "Plus, they never really had anyone with Mexican dissent so that'd be pretty bad ass. Especially with my chola anger and attitude." I said laughing.

"Well, I think Jasper would benefit the most. Alice, she'd be able to see so much yet so little, and Edward would constantly have a headache just by trying to read you." Juana said.

"How so? Explain your thesis"

"Well, I feel like from knowing you for however many years I have known you that you'll let him have such a new experience, just by how strongly and raw your emotions are. With Alice, I think it's pretty obvious. Well come on, your imagination is out of this fucking world. Take for example the way you're already making choices on a hypothetical, even an alternative universe. She would see all your choices. Even though they could mean nothing. And even in this reality, your mind takes in every scenario. I bet she'll hate yet love every second of that beautiful imagination. Then there's Edward. I bet after all those years of closing yourself off to everyone sure will come in handy with him. You'd probably have such a strong wall up he or anyone trying to come into your mind it would give him/them a headache." She said with such certainty.

"Well this speculation is all fun and games but come on. Why does it seem that this conversation goes beyond some jest at the book and my amazing self?" I asked while looking at her determined eyes that also held a sparkle of mischief.

"Now let me ask you another hypothetical question or two, hey maybe even three, let's go crazy. How would you feel if you were 16 again? What would you do if you were stuck in the series of books? And would you want to be stuck in there forever and let that be your world and new life or just for the trilogy of the books?"

"Dude, you're taking this hypothetical way too far. It seems that you're talking about a reality that doesn't, at least not in our universe, exist. Are you trying to write some fanfiction about me? Because if you are you better make me a naughty girl (*wink wink*)."

"Yup now answer the damned questions woman. But answer them as if they were genuine." She said chuckling.

"If I was 16 again, I would love it. I had most, if not all, of my piercings by then and a couple of tattoos. Plus, if I ever went there I would want to go but keep all my memories so I could have the wisdom I have today. Then there's that question about time. If you're not in my life, I will want to stay there and never return to stay there and never return to an existence without you. Now to answer the last question, I would take that life by the horns. Heck, I would like to be there before Bella got there just so that I could get to know them without her."

"Ok, so now that we're done with that let's continue with our tradition. What movie is the longest one you have and that we can have a drinking game?"

"LORD OF THE FUCKING RINGS!"

"Let's get this bitch started then!" She said taking out the bottle of vodka.

That's how it all started. How would I know that a conversation that I thought we were just having fun with would turn into my life? I mean I guess there were some red flags but I was just too drunk to see them.

...

Now it's a month after my birthday and here I am with Juana at the hospital laying right next to her in the crappy hospital bed.

"A, I thought that I told you I didn't want you to see me like this." She said looking down as if ashamed that I was seeing her at her worst.

"Juana, I love you and whether you're here, in some mental asylum or anywhere in this world I will be there to keep you company and through every step of the way," I said going for her hand and just holding it.

That's how we've been for the last week now. She's gotten progressively worse and it seems to us that the reaper is coming soon to visit her and knowing this, I was terrified. It was the first time in my life I was actually scared of death. It wasn't for me, though, I didn't care if I died ever, it was towards losing the only friend and family I had left.

"Juana what am I supposed to do without you? I can't deal with this life without you. I just... Where do I go from you?" I said crying but just staring at the celling trying to hold it all in and be strong for her.

"A, there is going to be an amazing life ahead for you. A life that you're going to have so many opportunities and open doors that you will have. I'm not saying forget me at all, hell I paid for that tattoos with my money for you to have my name on your body. I just want you to celebrate my life by living your life to the fullest, loving and if you have a kid add my name in there somewhere." She said trying not to start chuckling or she'd have horrible chest pain.

"I guess; I just don't think that I can see you dead. I just..."

"Don't worry you won't have to."

That's when everything went black and, unknown to me, my life started over.