Dear Rogue,

I've just held you in my arms, our lips were so close, an inch away from each other, but I knew deep inside we were worlds apart. Our troubled feelings, our insecurities. Then I watch you go and leave me here alone with thoughts swirling in my head. I feel I have to put them down and share them with you, because I want to share with you all of me, ma princesse. I remember you flying away from the window in repeat in my head and because you haven't come back since I'm left here, broken-hearted, thinking about you, us, and everything that happened here today.

You have no idea how I felt as I made it to Belle's room earlier this day, I had the most devastating sight, the Tithe Collector holding you and Bella in his arms, telling me how Candra had ordered him to kill everyone I care about. That fils de pute then goes and gives me the right to choose which one of you two I wanted to see die first like he said he would in a letter he sent me. I wanted to throw a thousand cards blasting right at his odious face but I had none left. He probably realized that, and laughed aloud at me causing my blood to boil with anger inside my veins. How could the evil monster dare to threaten the lives of Bella, my childhood sweetheart, and you, you, Rogue who's brought sunshine back to my life, who makes my heart sing whenever you're close? Bella has called me a sadistic for wanting you, my brother called me a crazy bastard for loving you. Yes, chére, I love you. Everyone seems to be sure of it, but you. I know you still doubt my feelings for you. Believe me when I say it, s'il vous plait. I know I haven't shown it in the right ways lately. Leaving you with Bella was a mistake and I apologize again for that.

When the Collector used his energies and attacked both of you, that's when I was pushed over the edge. I remember your supplicant voice, chére, begging me not to listen to his taunting. You know I'm a gambling man, but with both your lives, it was not a gamble, but an easy decision to make really, when I decided on charging up the Tithe Collector's trench coat.

I knew he'd be scared and would drop you and Bella Donna. I also knew I would have to act fast, so I kicked him out of the window, knowing he would explode on the fall down and you two would be out of harm's way. He got what he deserved. No one messes with my girls. Oh before you hate me, this is a joke. I don't own either of you, je sais. I wish I did own your heart thought.

Anyway, now the pact is broken and Candra won't ever honor it again.

I remember the exact moment when I first broke your heart tonight. With the Elixir safely with me, I started mixing the vials when you came closer. I was so concentrated, the contents which I held in my hands had cost me so much effort, bloodshed, your own pain, that I was completely focused on what I was doing and didn't give you the attention you craved, and deserved. I remember you getting up and speaking to me. I asked to you to wait, your confessions, they could come later, besides, I got your letter, I knew what that was going to be all about. But of course, you and your stubbornness didn't pay me any attention and went on saying something about how you accidentally absorbed Belle's memories, when foolish Julien breaks in, threatening me with a sword, wanting the Elixir for himself.

I tried to talk some sense into that idiot. I never liked that homme, but for Belle's sake I thought I could go easy on him, but l'idiot didn't listen and stabbed me through my hand and broke the Elixir. Then, you know all the mayhem that ensued. He tried to kill me, I tried to kill him, and in the end his own father kills him. Marius may hate me and my family, but he knew that I did my best for his daughter and thanked me for that. Never thought I'd see the day when he expressed any gratitude to a thief. But even so I couldn't accept the thanks, as at that time I felt I failed Marius and, more importantly, Bella Donna. You know, chére, how I deal badly with failure. So I asked him to kill me. Sorry, chére, but at the moment, you might think I was not thinking about you, but I did. I thought about my utter inability to make anyone around me happy and that maybe, you too would be better off without me. Look at what happened to Bella, I didn't want you to find misfortune as well.

When hateful Candra appeared, congratulating me on the fine act I had just played, I got so irate. I wasn't playing any act and would rather die than to hurt those I love more than I had already done, I could die even if it was as a Thief. Maybe it was the way it had to be, I was never to find redemption and happiness with the X-Men, with you, chére. But I'm glad I was able to make them see, Thieves and the Assassins, what happens if they continued to take orders from Candra. The best thing that came out of all this, surely. The old ways are over now, Candra had to accept defeat. I won, especially because in the end, Bella was saved. I saw some contents of the Elixir fell onto her blanket, shredding it off and dropping the contents into Belle's mouth, the seemingly impossible happened and she awoke.

I was so happy, so relieved that it wasn't all in vain, that I immediately hugged her, but to my utter surprise, she didn't hug me back. She didn't remember me at all either. And, crazy as it might sound, I was even happier for her. She never took very well what happened between us, our broken marriage that has never even started and now she's free of it all.

When she walked away with Marius, I stared out of the window. Then, I saw the look you gave me, the look that has me completely unguarded, at your mercy. Your eyes were inquisitive and I couldn't tell you at the moment all that I've just written in this letter. I couldn't tell it then because all I could think was how I love you, and how those green eyes of yours show me passion and promises of happier days. So that's why I told you not to look at me that way. It was all too much, too fast, all that happened, saying goodbye to Bella forever, I was overwhelmed, chére. I am only human.

We shared that quick smile and I remember telling you that we had won the day. And I couldn't have possibly done it all without you, I was feeling so in love with you, chére whe I grabbed you in my arms. How I wanted you then! I just wanted to seal our victory with a kiss. Then you asked me if I still loved Bella. Part of me always will, I said and that's true. I wish her well, and I guess .you got what I meant because you allowed our lips to get closer to each other. But then, you panicked and flew away, telling me you couldn't do it.

I know that as a thief I can't have loyalties or love. But I'd like to think that I am an X-Man now, and I can hope to dream of the future, our future, together, chére. I found my wedding picture of him and Bella Donna, as I was about to leave and I charged it up and threw it out of the window. The past is the past, and I have made peace with mine. I may have a sad look on my face, but it's only because you are having a hard time to figure us out. I know we'll find a way. I'm patient, chére, I'll stick around until we do. You can bet on that. I love you, chére. And that kind of love just doesn't go away with your tantrums. Besides, I love to watch you fly away, running away from me, it only makes me want you more. Your push and pull is a thrill, I just love it and always come back for more. I just can't wait to spend the rest of my life playing cat and mouse with you, chére.

With all my love,

Remy.

-O-

Dear Remy,

I hope you meet up with your brother before you leave, obviously you won't be reading this if you don't, so this first line is pointless. Anyhow, forgive me if I sound confused, that's probably because I am. Confused, overwhelmed, exhausted and… hopeful. If we've made it past this, the sky's the limit for us, sugar. We can go anywhere and be anyone we want to be as long as we stick together.

I know, I've just told you I can't do this, this meaning us. Just don't give me a hard time, you know me, as indecisive as one could possibly be. Besides, I was so confused back there, sugar. This is not about Bella, I swear. It's not because you said part of you will always love her. In fact, that made me admire you way more. You are this good, honourable, caring man, even if you don't believe it yourself. You went through all this trouble to save someone who was important for you once. That's the kind of person I want in my life, I want you, always.

When I said 'I can't do this', well, I was thinking of my powers, because I don't want to hurt you, don't wanna make you wait. But if you're up for this, then I'm in for it too, honey.

I wanted to give you some space. I've been walking around in these streets that are so familiar to you, and doing that I had the chance to organize these thoughts in my head. So this is it, honey, I'm sorry for running away from you. You must be used to it by now, anyway. I guess I'll meet you back in the mansion then.

I just can't wait for that date you've promised me.

Love,

Your hot and cold girlfriend

Anna Marie.

p.s.: Yes, that's my name. I think you didn't get the letter in which I told you that. I slipped it under your bedroom. You'll find it when you get home.

Secondly, please find a letter enclosed to this one. It is Bella's. I found it in her room when I was taking care of her. I thought you'd like to hear from her one last time.

-O-

Dear Remy,

I hope this letter finds you well. Despite all my suspicions, me fearing the doom that Tante predicted would come, despite all that, I've never been better and I'm writing you to let you know why.

I am free, Remy. I'm finally completely absolutely free. Free from you, from the ghost of our wrecked marriage. What's been is over, buried in the past and I feel I'm ready to be happy with someone else or alone. I don't need anyone to feel complete, I have me and I am enough. If someone cute and funny comes along, then, fine, but I won't be searching for a knight in shiny armour. I'm not that naïve anymore.

And I have to thank you for that, dear. Yes, you. You broke my heart, you moved on, you found that pretty lethal girl of yours. You fell in love. I've been thinking about it and came to the conclusion that if you can, I can too. After all I was always better than you at everything, wasn't I? Do I have to remind you how I kicked ass from the age nine?

I was always the faster learner, the quicker jabber, I could throw the fearless spear. Why was it that this time I was falling back? If you're ready, then I should be ready, right? Forget all the times you had me in my arms and you told me we'd be together till the day we both died, or when you made love to me under the sunlight telling me how you loved me. I forgive you. Man, you have no idea how long it took me to say these words to anyone at all. Go on, you can flatter yourself. You're the first person at whom I direct these words. I for-gi-ve you, Remy. I do, and it feels good. It feels wonderful, liberating. I should've done that before, but I guess it does take time to learn to let it go.

I wish you all the best your endeavours and all that. No, seriously, I do wish you well, baby. Go on and keep searching for your happiness, I'll go my own way and find it first just so I can beat you to the finish line. Gosh, I can picture you smiling at me teasing you. Also, send my love to your new lover, I hope she can make you pay, joking. I hope she twists you into being a good boyfriend, Remy. Yeah, at hindsight, I guess you always sucked, flirting with other women right under my nose? Yes, good luck to her! She'll need it, I'm sure.

If you ever need me, you can count on me, mon ami. I know I'll count on you too, be warned.

All my love to you, Remy.

Always.

Bella

-O-

Author's notes:

First of all, thanks to all of you who left reviews, favorited or followed and bought my idea of writing a fic with letters.

Yes, we've made it!

The inspiration to this fic came from the song Send My Love by Adele. It was a number one that week, I heard it so many times, then I thought that could be Bella Donna telling Remy. And the so-said letter is here, the very last one of the fic. I couldn't resist the temptation and included the 'send my love to your new letter' line.

And to close up, I'd like to leave you with the lyrics of Patience, by Guns N Roses. The verses I picked describe a bit of how I've left off Rogue and Remy here in this fic. Oh, and right now I'll be writing Converging. If you haven't, make sure to check it out.

"I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes I get so tense but I can't speed up the time
But you know love there's one more thing to consider

Said woman take it slow and things will be just fine
If you and I just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time 'cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, I'll never break it
'Cause I can't take it

I've been walking the streets at night, just trying to get it right
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in the crowd
And the streets don't change but maybe the names
I ain't got time for the game 'cause I need you
Yeah, yeah I need you"