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~Inside the office

I close the door behind me and lock it shut, thankfully the walls are almost soundproof so I doubt Kana and Sakura will have to hear me get angry. I turn and see some forty-year-old garbage sitting in my chair. He was smoking a cigar and blowing smoke all over my office, disgusting.

Completely ignoring his existence I walk right past him and turn on the fan to try and clear some of the smoke out. I could tell this was pissing the guy off because he let out an annoying sigh and sucked his teeth. I pause, walk over to my mini-fridge and grab myself a drink, open it up, and pour it into a glass. Taking my sweet-ass time by the way.

More noises emerge from the man and I could tell he was getting angrier as time passed. The man gave me an even dirtier look and settled deeper into my chair. I knew he was testing me just as much as I was testing him. I glance over towards him for a brief moment and let out a quiet chuckle. Fucking bastard I think to myself noticing his dirty hands rubbing all over the arms of my chair.

I guess that chuckle did the trick because he turned towards me, blowing smoke my way. "So are you going to say anything? Or are you going to continue to be rude to your own guest?" He says in an arrogant voice making me want to snap his neck. But I have more self control than that, I know when to hold myself back and wait for the right time.

"Last time I checked…" I take a few steps toward the man, taking another sip out of my glass, "You weren't MY guest. You were just some guy in MY chair." I finish the last of my drink and wipe my mouth clean. "So if I was you, I'd get the hell out of MY office and you're lucky I don't kick your ass for disrespecting my assistant."

The man's eyes became wide as I finished my sentence. He wasn't shocked though, he was angry. The man slammed his fists again my desk trying to assert his dominance. "Who the hell do you think you are? Fucking brat! I am your client so unless you want to lose a good connection I suggest you apologize quick! As for your 'assistant', that bitch had it coming! Giving me an attitude, telling me to leave as if I'm the problem. You're the problem! Spoiled brats like you are the problem!"

The man stood up and to my surprise actually got in my face. With his finger poking my chest he continued on. "This is what happens when a whore raises a son alone! I don't blame your dad for dying though, if I had to be around you and your slut mom all the time I'd probably kill myself too." He then let out a big laugh and pushed me aside as he walked towards the door.

With my head facing away to avoid eye contact, I let him go. Despite the fact that I wanted to skin him right now and leave his body for the maggots, I still didn't fight him. All I could remember was Sakura sitting outside the office. I didn't want her to see that side of me, I wanted to continue the illusion that I was this nice person, incapable of murder. To make her stay with me, to keep her from fearing me, I let the scumbag go.

I clenched the glass in my hand as hard as I could without breaking it. I take deep breaths to try and control my anger but something pushes me over the edge. It's Sakura's squeal. I quickly turn to the doorway to see Sakura on the ground. "Out of my way, filthy bitch." The man says literally walking OVER Sakura's body as if she were worth less than dirt. My eyes widen and for a moment. I can't move. Anger was completely taking over my body and I know if I were to move even an inch, I would lose it.

Just so happens that's when my left index finger decided to twitch and in an instant the warm hearted, loving Syaoran was gone. Still clenching onto the glass I launch towards the man, screaming at the top of my lungs. It happened so quick that no one even had a chance to understand what was going on. With my hand full I punch the glass into the the man's head causing him to fall to the floor.

Immediately everything started to go black. All I could hear was Kana screaming for me to get off of him. My hands felt wet, but I couldn't tell what the substance was. I could feel four arms trying to pull me off but I was too strong, too heavy, too angry. I begin to lose all feeling and my mind goes numb before I become unconscious. Last thing I hear is Sakura crying and screaming my name. Something I never want to hear for the rest of my life.

After what only felt like a few seconds I see a bright light before opening my eyes. I'm in my room, laying in my bed, with no memory of how the hell I got here. I slowly sit up to realize I have a massive headache and feel a bit dizzy. Was it all just a dream? I think to myself before my eyes shoot open and I panic. "If that was just a dream then that means!" I quickly bolt out of bed and run towards my door.

Please, I don't care what the consequences are! Please don't let it be a dream! Please don't take her from me, not when I'm this close! I frantically try to get a grip of my mind as well as my doorknob before it magically opened on its own. I pause to see who is at the other end.

Expecting my mother or a police officer, my expectations are shot down when I'm greeted by my Sakura carrying a tray of food and painkillers. The both of us quietly stare into eachother's eyes, shocked of what just happened. Without a word I take the tray from her hands and place it on the floor. Before she even had a chance to protest I took her in my arms, holding her tighter than ever before. For a moment I thought I had lost my source of happiness, my sunshine, my Sakura.

"Syao-" Sakura tries to speak but I shush her and squeeze tighter. I know what she is going to say and I'm not ready. I'm not ready for her to leave me, to tell me how much of a monster I am and that she can no longer stand the sight of me. Tears begin to form in my eyes and I hide my shame in the crook of her neck. "I'm sorry Sakura, please...please don't leave me."

"Syaoran-" I stop her once again. "I know what you're going to say but again please." At this point I fall to my knees only holding on to her hands. How pathetic can I be? "Please don't leave, I need you. I'm sorry for what I did but I just couldn't stop myself...when I saw you on the ground I just...I just…"

"SYAORAN GET UP!" Sakura impatiently yells pulling at my hands to lift me off the floor. Hearing her yell did shock me for my head shot up quick to face her. She was angry. You could tell she had been crying a lot recently because her eyes were irritated and her voice was cracking. Not breaking eye contact I stand to my feet and face my love. Sakura swings her hand back and I clench my cheek waiting for her to smack me.

But it never came.

I feel her hand stop a few inches away from my face and slowly caress my cheek. My jaw drops a little considering she had every right to smack me into next week...but she didn't.

Instead she took a step forward, cupped my face, and kissed me softly on the lips.

I was completely dumbfounded. With no idea what was going on I only watched as she pulled back, picked up the tray from the floor and walked over towards my bed. She placed the tray on my nightstand, turning on the light that was next to it. Sakura then walked back over to me and grabbed my hand, walking me over to the bed and sitting me down. Still at a loss for words I simply obeyed her silent commands.

She pulled out numbing cream and began to apply it to my hand. Her doing that finally made me notice all the bruises and cuts on my knuckles. "How could you say something so stupid?" Sakura breaks the silence, I could tell she was annoyed but that was about it. I couldn't read her anymore then that. So I did the smart thing and just listened.

"Why would I ever leave you? I just got you and now you think I'm going to leave over something like this? Stupid." She says massaging my hands a little rough, probably due to her current emotions. Slowly she begins to rub them softer and softer until the cream has been completely absorbed and I can start to feel my knuckles go a bit numb. "But...you were there. You saw. You saw the real me…" I say with my head down, unable to face the only person whose opinion actually matters to me.

"Syaoran…" She says softly letting go of my hands, I feel her slowly move up to hold my cheek. "That back there was not the real you. You and I both know that." I feel her thumb stroking my skin, back and forth slowly and then it stops as soon as it comes in contact with something no one has ever seen in my life. My tears. I hear a quiet gasp escape her mouth and from mine as well. I'm just as shocked as she is at this point, both of our eyes quickly meet, wide open.

When I was bullied in school, no one saw me cry. When my mother and I fought every single day, no one saw me cry. When my father died, no one saw me cry. I always did it in solitude, always making sure to put up a front whenever anyone came to check up on me. I was so good I would ball my eyes out without letting out a single sound and now for the first time without hesitation I'm breaking.

"Syao-" She tries to wrap her arm around me but I get up too quickly almost startling her. "I think you should go." I coldly say, I didn't want her to leave but there was no way in hell that I was going to cry in front of her, especially in the same twenty-four hours of her witnessing the 'real me'. "Syaoran I'm not leaving." She firmly says standing up as well. She tries to place a hand on my shoulder and out of habit I smack it away now leaving both of us shocked.

Silence fills the room as I realize what I've just done. I can't live without her yet I've just attempted to push Sakura away, as if she was just like everyone else. We both stare at each other without saying a word. I quickly dry my teary eyes as my frustration takes over. "Why…" I whisper to myself. Sakura moves a little closer to me and reaches a hand out again but I back away covering my face with my hands. "Syaoran...it's okay…" She says softly but I immediately lash out at her.

"Okay? Okay?! How the hell is any of this possibly okay?! I've probably nearly killed a man in front of you with my bare hands and you're saying it's 'okay'?! This is NOT okay Sakura and now I'm even pushing you away!" I yell getting angrier with every word, I take a few steps back and she steps forward. I can feel the darkness starting to close in again.

"Why does it always have to be this way?! Why can't I get close to anyone without pushing them away?! You are literally an angel in front of my eyes and I still can't control myself for ONE FUCKING DAY Sakura! I'm nothing but a monster…" I say with the coldest breath and darkness consumes me. Then suddenly I'm pulled back in an instant with something I REALLY didn't expect. The slap that I was due for earlier.

My eyes are clear again and my cheek is throbbing. Sakura is standing before me again, eyes full of tears, cupping her ears with her hands. I open my mouth ,"Saku-".

"SHUT UP!" Sakura screams falling down to her knees, closing her eyes tightly. Her breathing is shallow and every inch of her body is trembling. "SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" She yells between shallow breaths. "How could you ever say that?! Monster?! You dare call yourself a monster in front of me?! You don't even know what a true monster is! Don't you ever say that ever again Syaoran Li! You're not a monster! You're not a monster! You're not a mons-"

I fall to my knees and forcefully pull her to me quickly wrapping my arms around her tightly. I held her so tight I heard a few bones in her back cracking. I feel shaky arms wrap around my own back as well holding me just as tight and we sit there. Neither of us speaking but continuously cry together. Letting out our sobs and shallow breaths fill the room. I hear her hiccup from time to time and run my hands up and down her back to try and calm her down. Eventually she begins to do the same for me. I can still feel her hands still shaking and I pull back.

"Sakura…" She's not even sobbing anymore, she's in full blown panic attack. Her breathing is quick and very shallow, entire body trembling. I can feel her nails begin to dig into my skin and her legs fidget around. "Sakura relax!" I say rubbing her arms and removing hair from her face but it's no use. It almost sounds like she's gasping for air and tears are literally flowing out of her eyes. I can feel her heartbeating and it's very fast. I begin to panic as well as she simply starts gasping for air and clawing at her own arms and legs.

"Sakura calm down please! It's okay! We're okay! Everything is alright! Please just breathe!" I shout but then the strangest thing happens. I feel the floor start to shake almost like a mini earthquake and the lights are getting brighter and brighter before the bulbs begin bursting. "What the fuck is happening?!" I yell looking around the room frantically. I hear some white noise before everything stops all at once. Sakura's eyes close and she faints into my arms. I hear someone running down the hall outside my room and my mother bursts into my room.

"Syaoran! Are you alright?! What the hell was that?!" She shouts examining the room. She steps in and notices Sakura in my arms asleep. "Is she alright? Did she get hurt?! Do you need me to get an ambulance?!" Shaken up from what has just happened she drops her phone while trying to take it out of her pocket. I listen carefully and Sakura's breathing is normal again and I can feel her heart beating at a normal pace. "I think she's alright mother, we're alright. I don't know what just happened but yeah… we're fine. She just fainted out of fear I guess. I'll lay her down and let her sleep. Don't worry, if anything happens I'll go get you okay?" I say in a reassuring voice or at least as reassuring one can be at this time. She nods, carefully picks up her cell phone and turns to leave the room.

"I'm glad you're alright, Syaoran…" She says closing the door behind her. She might not say the right things but I know deep down in my heart that she does care for me. A terrible mother she is and an even worse wife but she does care for her only son...just in a very different way.

I let out a big sigh, carefully pick Sakura up and carry her to the bed. Gently laying her down making sure not to wake her I cover her with my sheets and pull a chair up next to her. I sit down and take my cell phone out setting alarms, one for every hour on the hour. As creepy as it seems I'm not sleeping tonight. I'm going to watch her until she wakes up, check her temperature, heart rate, breathing, everything. I don't know what in the hell just happened but I'm not letting it happen again. Not to her, not my Sakura.

Hopefully you guys are still enjoying my story! I have a few plot twists and lemons coming up in the near chapters so stay tuned and see what happens next time on "More than fate" *Dramatic music plays*