Break ups are hard. Your love for someone going unnoticed is very hard. These pains aren't very different. Having your heart broken and feeling so much loneliness. It hurts, but expressing it somehow helps the pain. I understand about how Marinette's pain and love go unnoticed.
I don't own anything except for the ideas in my head. ML and any songs are my guilty pleasure.
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Marinette had never felt this pain before. It wasn't physical, but it would have better if it had been. News has been released that Adrien Agreste had a new girlfriend. Nonetheless, it was Chloé Bourgeois, who claimed to have changed since lycée. She had been going to charity events and even donated new clothes to local homeless. Chloé apologized to everyone she terrorized back then with an end of the year party after graduation. It is now collége and Adrien has the perfect girlfriend. It hurt how every moment she had with him from the gum on her seat to now with Alya and Nino's persistence and hope were for naught. They were perfectly happy together without her.
It was great to have her own apartment; she can now wallow in peace. Marinette walked over to her desk to open her laptop. She looked at her stained face framed with her straight, elongated ebony blue hair. She stayed the same while Chloé had grown so much as a person. She knew she couldn't compete with her competition now.
Turning on her laptop, she quickly chose her YouTube icon. She typed in a song she hadn't listened to in years. Hitting play she sat back to listen to her emotions spilling and the soft melody.
He's got navy green eyes but he only has eyes for her
The way that he talks it's not hard to hang on to his words
He's the boy of my dreams that's all he'll ever be for us
There's nothing that I wouldn't give
To know how it feels to have him just once.
Marinette pulled on her hoodie as she let her eyes water completely. Her love had gone unnoticed for years. It was time to forget about him she knew, but he was too perfect for her. She should have known from the very beginning. His eyes and his hair. It's too easy for someone of his gilded stature. How she sacrificed so much to get closer so much to try to be with him.
Am I invisible or invisible only to him?
And I hope she's everything,
Everything I could've been
And the roses he never gave me
I can rip all the petals I want
He loves me not
He loves me not
It's too obvious. She tried so hard, did she tried so hard? Or was she simply invisible to him? She can't say life was not fair. She has a wonderful life, but it was missing a wonderful person to spend it with. All the flower petals she picked and all the stars she wished on rewarded her with tears and half shredded hearts.
Quietly in the shadows, a cat figure dropped in from her open window. He wants to say something but she clearly needs a release.
She's got wavy blonde hair and her everything's nothing but sweet
Wish I could hate her but I see she makes him complete
The way he looks at her there's no doubt it's undeniably love
There's nothing that I wouldn't give
To know how it feels to have him just once
She cringed at the current verse. If only Chloé had stayed the same then she would feel bad for Adrien, not for herself. She wishes that they wouldn't look at each other like they're the only glasses of water on Earth. She wants to do anything to feel him in her arms. To wake up from a text telling her "Good morning" or the gorgeous boy hugging the life out of her. She would trade her fashion skills, her sight, her hearing, her own voice to be with him. But she can never be with him of course.
"I'm just stupid, plain Marinette. How could such a handsome, kind man love me when I don't have anything to offer but my own heart beats?" She cried aloud to no one. No one but Chat Noir.
Am I invisible or invisible only to him
And I hope she's everything
Everything I could've been
And the roses he never gave me
I can rip all the petals I want
He loves me not
He loves me not
"I'm so damn stupid for continuously loving him when it was so obvious he'd never love me back!"
She can now fully cry her heart out. She'll be comforted by Tikki and Alya for sure, but right now was her time to admit her faults. Right now it's time for her to be alone and show no one her true stress and feelings over Adrien.
He's broken my heart one too many times
But I can't love him less so I know that he'll never be mine
"I want to stop loving him…so I can move on and not feel pain anymore…I want to stop…"
Chat could see and hear all her sadness. He was like this too when he realized Ladybug was too far out of his reach, like a brilliant red sun too hot to touch. Too amazing to love. That was almost three years ago, yet he knows about the pain. He admits it's awkward to watch someone unknowingly confess their love to him though he knows all too well the pain.
He's going through a different pain currently which is why he wanted to visit his long time Advice Princess for a chat (Pun intended).
Am I invisible or invisible only to him?
And I hope she's everything
Everything I could've been
And the roses he never gave me
I can rip all the petals I want
He loves me not
"Please, I want to move on and find someone who will make me happy for once in my life. Not like a friend or family, but like a lover. Like a boyfriend. Like a husband, like a soulmate. Please, I want someone to love that's not stupid Agreste!"
Am I invisible or invisible only to him?
And I hope she's everything
Everything that I could've been
And the roses he never gave me
I can rip all the petals I want
You love me not
You love me not
With the final note, she released the dam. She collapsed against the desk. She has had enough and not enough. She wants his eyes on her and all the love he can give her so she can give equivalent exchange. No matter how kind and bashful she had been, she never received her equivalent exchange. Her love and a good six years have been used to declare her love over and over. Nothing came back. She wants to be done with Adrien as soon as possible, but now-
"It's okay Princess. I understand your pain." Chat said.
"Chat…? Get out. This is embarrassing. I can't let anyone see me like this." Marinette sniffled. This is humiliating. Even for her. "This…this is personal…"
"I know the pain, Marinette. I know the pain of knowing they'll never love you back. Don't you think it was hard for me to acknowledge Ladybug would never love me the way I loved her? Don't you?"
"…I'm sorry. I'm not myself…"
Chat sighed before walking over to her. "I know. Take your time and cry as much as you want. You're lucky you have someone's shoulder to cry on. I had no one."
Marinette, for the second time, wailed in her apartment. This time on Chat's shoulder.
/ /
"I think I'm good. Thanks, Chat." Marinette yawned. She felt a pillow instead of a shoulder. "Chat…?"
He's nowhere. Like another guy in her life.
"Yes, princess?" Chat popped out of around the corner, presumably where her kitchen is.
"I thought you left."
"Never Princess. A knight in shining armor will never abandon his princess." He smirked with care. He walked back to her location with fresh cookies and milk. "This should help a lot."
"I thought knights were supposed to wear shiny metal, not leather." She said as she bit off a chunk of a cookie.
"Touché ma princesse. Silver and steel are too expensive nowadays and leather looks good on anyone. Especially me!" Chat, always being such a model he is, started to pose with a flashy smile.
Marinette couldn't help the laugh. Her partner always made her smile- outside of battle, during battle, during his visits as Marinette, during patrols. He never stops the comedy club acts. She could choke on her cookie from happiness and laughter.
That gave Marinette a thought. Ever since the first akuma, she's been denying Chat, telling him no, and pulled her hand back whenever he tried to warm it with his lips. Maybe she should finally give him a chance.
"Done yet, kitty?" she giggled as Chat Noir flexed his arms.
"Fine, ma princesse. I'm done. You're a lot better I see."
"Absolutely."
"Great! I believe this is when I make my-"
"You said you wanted to talk about something, kitty?"
"Oh. Yeah. I forgot." Chat felt anxiety bubble from his stomach. He hoped she forgot.
"If you don't want to talk about it, it's fine y-"
"IhadanarrangedgirlfriendwhousedtobesocrueltoothersbutnowsheiseverythingIwantedbutIknowshe'snothappywithmeandI'mnothappyeither!" Chat looked so panic and red, Marinette wasn't sure who was the one who was upset. The cat then stood next to her to lay against the desk leg.
"What?"
"I had an arranged girlfriend who used to be so cruel to other, but now she is everything I wanted. I know she's not happy with me and I'm not happy either. What do I do?" Chat explained. He seemed exasperated at the same time eased.
"I guess tell your parents to call it off then. I have to say it's hard to do that. I'm sorry to hear that, Chat." The ravenette through a cookie to him as she stuffed a cookie in her mouth.
He grimaced, then smile with sympathy. He ate the cookie in one bite."It was never your fault, princess. Thank you for the advice. It's high time then to talk to some people."
"Just know I'm here, Chat. You'll always be my kitty." Marinette started to rub his head like usual, with gentle hands and soft itching. This time, however, she started to feel an emotion that shouldn't be present now. Love. She hadn't meant for her confession to be of love like saying it to one's lover and it was for friendship, moreover, it could still count as love.
"I know. And you shall always be my princess." Chat paused her hand to capture her wrist in a sweet peck. "I'm sorry to say, but it's time for my leave now."
"Oh." That hurt. She grabbed another cookie for the pain.
"But I promise to be here tomorrow."
"Okay. Wait, tomorrow?"
"Yes, tomorrow. I'll visit after my patrol with Ladybug. Is there a problem Mari?"
Tomorrow will be their regular patrol. That means a mad dash before Chat Noir gets to her apartment. A challenge which should have been easy, if Chat hadn't become ever more so athletic and swift like a panther.
"No! N-no, just you know, exams and such. I suck at physics so I need to study a lot! Yeah, everything's so cryptic and I get distracted so easily, so, um yeah." So smooth Marinette, but it should help keep him away.
"A grand idea popped in my head! I'm great at physics, so I can help you with no problem. It will be as easy as gravity pushing an apple towards the ground, princess!" He removed his baton from his belt and flicked it to extend as a magician with a magic wand.
"Um-" Marinette chose another cookie to swallow the misfortune she's experiencing.
"Look at the time! 9:43 already? I must be off princesse, Bonne Nuit, ma princesse!" With a flourish of his staff, he vanished into darkness as he came earlier.
Marinette dropped her head into the plate of cookies. She needs some more cookies. While taking another cookie into her mouth, Tikki slowly floated over from her secret napping spot.
"So, what did I miss Marinette?"
"Trouble, Tikki, trouble. Cookie?"
/ /
Adrien reverted back in an alleyway near his apartment. Plagg flew straight into his shirt pocket for a nap. As he walked to his building, he dug his phone out of his jeans and dialed a number.
"Pére, we need to talk with the mayor and his daughter."
"I know. I believe we have a better candidate as your girlfriend and maybe future co-CEO. Familiar with Marinette Dupain-Cheng?"
I don't know if this will be a one-shot or become a story. Who knows?
THIS IS NOT MY SONG! IT BELONGS TO KATE GRAHN! MIRACULOUS LADYBUG SHOULD BE MINE BUT IT BELONGS TO ZAG TOONS!
Translations:
Ma princesse- my princess
Bonne Nuit- Good night
Pére- father
Song: Loves Me Not
Artist: Kate Grahn
Composers: Kate Grahn, Will Jay