Beyond Forever: regenerated

You all must be thinking why I am regenerating this story. Actually, I was suddenly struck with this idea. I wanted to try writing this again, this time, with a different plot. Read to find the difference.!

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The girl was leading the boy. Where? She didn't know, not that it mattered. The boy was running along with the girl, hands intertwined, smile and happiness clearly visible on his face. Her actions didn't surprise her. He was following her without hesitation, without any question. It didn't matter where they were going, all that mattered was that he was with her, without any doubt or compulsion.

The girl had never witnessed freedom like this before, she felt democratic, she felt free. The clouds, shining due to the sun hidden behind it, was letting out a magnificent glow. There was a calm atmosphere all over, no extra sounds, no extra company, just the two of them.

The soft grass beneath their feets was making a soft, churning sound with every step. She could hear the sound of rushing water. She knew the waterfall was near. She, with a new found energy, dragged him towards the source of the sound.

The girl, standing close to the waterfall now, stretched her arms. The cold, swift water was a relief to her body, which was tired due to all the running she had done. She felt an arm snake around her waist. But she didn't move. She knew whose arms those were. She smiled. The boy turned her around and gently kissed her lips.

With a sudden stroke, she let him go. The boy stumbled backwards but managed his balance. She smiled at him, he found himself doing the same. She slowly closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

"Am ready," he told her.

She unbuttoned the first hook of the shirt she was wearing. The boy, unable to say a word kept on staring at her. She unbuttoned the second one and opened her eyes. The boy's eyes ere fixed on her. She knew what he was feeling. She was feeling the same. Love. Happiness. Nervousness. Lust.

With only one button remaining, the boy lunged towards her capturing her lips with his. He found his hands making its way to the hook of her skirt.

But then, she felt nothing.

She opened her eyes to see darkness all over. She quickly gathered herself and looked around. Darkness. Thick, impenetrable darkness. She ran towards the tree where they had scribbled their name before. The tree was gone. With fear filling her eyes, she looked around again, this time shouting,"Satoshi!"

Silence.

"Satoshi!" She cried again, at the verge of tears.

"Answer me Satoshi, please where are you!?"

No answer.

She slumped down where she was standing and let the tears flow slowly. She heard a faint voice,"Dawn... I don't want to die... Save me... I don't want to die..."

Dawn woke up with a start. She had the same dream again. She slowly turned on the light and grabbed a nearby tissue paper to clean her sweat. That incident had happened eight years ago,well sort of, but she felt like it just happened yesterday. She always relived those moments whenever she had those dreams.

She took a look at the clock. 1.29am. She lied down on her bed again and closed her eyes. After a while, she opened them. She looked at the clock again. 1.35 am. Sighing, she got up and went to the bathroom.

She washed her face and came back. Her eyes rested on a old, personal diary lying at the edge of her study table. Knowing she wont be able to fall asleep soon, she picked it up.

The diary was some what old, and its cover was a little torn at the edges. She opened it. It read S. T. She ran her delicate fingers over the initials. She smiled a little, but then a sad,gloomy feeling covered her face. Making up her mind, she turned the page, to read the first entry.

27th april, 2008

Dear diary, I know it's not normal for a boy to keep a diary to record his journal. But sometimes, we need it too, to pour our feelings. Well, I joined my new school , Rosewood High, today. The place was so big and humongous, I was really lost. I ended up in the girls toilet while looking for the auditorium. Funny! No it was not, it was humiliating. So I decided to wait for the students, I knew assembly was going to start in ten minutes so everyone will be heading there.

I saw a girl, with two of her friends coming towards me. I was looking at them curiously. The girl, with honey blonde hair and blue eyes waved at me. She was cute, I mean really really cute. I got up but then I realized she was calling someone who was behind me! I started walking in a different direction otherwise I was sure I would have made a fool of myself.

Not looking where I was going, I bumped into a girl. The girl, surely annoyed said,"Get your eyes checked up idiot!"

I just apologized.

"I guess you're new around here," she asked, looking at me sternly. I gulped. "Yeah." I thought it was going to come out as a strong voice but came out as a feeble reply.

"Follow me, I will guide you to the auditorium ," she said.

"But.."

"And no questions asked!" She said. I followed her reluctantly. What other choice did I have?

28th april, 2008

You remember, the girl who waved at me but actually waved at another guy? She is Serena, i learned. My friends, Gary , Paul and Drew told me. They said that she came from a conservative family, as if I cared. She had no siblings, what on world am I gonna do with this information. She had no love or relationship interests, my chances were gone before I even had them.

The girl who helped me to find the auditorium was Dawn. She appeared as a pain but she is really cool. Its only my second day and she is ready to help me with my studies, so she lent me her practical notebooks.

12th May, 2008

You must be wondering where I had disappeared. Well, I really had to catch up whatever I had missed.

I discovered why Drew, Gary and Paul had allowed me in their friends circle. They actually like me, not gay-type like, but they think they find me funny. Actually Drew kind of likes my old friend, May, so wanted to stay near me to come closer to her. Gary and Paul were his best buddies, so when Drew joined, they joined too.

18th may, 2008

I never thought I will do that.

It has only been three weeks since I joined this school, and I think I am in love. With Serena. So being the idiot I am, I proposed, feeling she would accept it. But, she hit me hard in my face, in front of my friends, cafeteria, the whole school. I wanted the earth to ingulf me and save from further embarrassment. If that would ever happen!

29th may, 2008

I finally got selected in the school basketball team. The experience is awesome. I really hoped I would have made it, and now, I have done it! I saw Serena and her friends watching us practicing from the bleachers. I don't know why she attracts me so much.

2nd june , 2008

Gary told me something impossible. He believes Dawn loves me. Why would on earth someone like her fall for someone like me! She is better than me in everything, studies, habits and way of speaking. Even if we date, I would look so inferior, so small. I just showed Gary my middle finger.

5th June, 2008

Do you know what today is? You don't! Huh.. I am hurt. Well it is my birthday. I turned 17 today! And you know what that means? Today My Mom is going to make everything I love. She even allowed me to call my friends over. So, Gary, Paul and Drew were in my room, sitting on my bed. Dawn had sent a gift for me, through Paul's hands. I quickly tore the wrapper and took a look at it. There was a nice, medium sized diary and a birthday card. She had written-

"Happy birthday Satoshi, yours Dawn"

Gary said he believed Dawn loved me but I brushed him off and placed the note in my shirt's pocket, close to my heart.

Dawn closed the diary and placed it in the bag. She wiped away her freshly formed tears. She looked at the clock, it was 7 am.

Cleaning herself up and then having a toast and a cup of tea for breakfast, she headed to the hospital, for her daily work.

She was greeted by Leaf at the counter. Smiling at Dawn, she handed her a letter.

"What is this Leaf?" She asked puzzled.

"The boy was discharged today. Since you were not there, he left this with me to give it to you," Leaf said, still smiling.

"Thanks anyways," Dawn said and headed for her cabin.

She had been treating this boy for over a month. He had broken his foot while cycling. The boy really liked her and sometimes created a scene if any other doctor tried to check him. He always preferred Dawn over the others.

Smiling at the memory, she opened the letter.

"Dear, dr. Dawn,

Thanks for helping me, thanks for everything. I really wanted to visit you before I was leaving but couldn't. I hope I would get to meet you some day. When people say they really like someone after they see a person for the first time, I never used to believe them. But now I do, after I met you. You're the sweetest doctor alive,

Yours Ash "

Dawn smiled at the letter where a five years old boy was talking about love. Love. A feeling she never thought would have guided her, but it still was, even after eight long years.

She took out his diary. Although there were no bookmarks, the page opened where she had left reading.

17th june,2008

You won't believe what I unconsciously did today. I sketched a picture of Serena, even when I didn't wanted to. I feel like shit. She rejected me, slapped me, humiliated me and what was I doing, painting her , wasting my time.

17th August, 2008

I know, i know, I am kind of late,actually very late. But life happened. My mid term exams just got over last night. I will pass, I surely will. As usual Dawn would top. She wants to be a doctor so of course she is working hard.

18th August, 2008

Drew told me that Gary had convinced Dawn to talk to Serena. So Dawn was going to tell her to meet me at the cafeteria. I really hoped she could convince her.

So, there I was, waiting at the cafeteria for Serena to come. When she arrived, there was a formal exchange of hey and hello's and then awkward silence. I handed her the sketch. Although she was unwilling to keep it, my constant nagging made her keep it. She asked me why I wrote S.T. at the bottom right corner. It was my signature. I used to right S horizontally and T vertically. It was my sign ,my symbol.

21st August, 2008

I saw Dawn in the class today, she sure looked different. She was wearing a pink skirt and a black tank top, with black studs and two-inch heels. I tried not to look at her but she looked so beautiful, so flawless. I had no idea what made her dress up like that, it seemed like a special occasion. I came to know it soon. It was her birthday and I, had forgotten it!

On seeing me, she came over and handed me some chocolates. I apologized as I had forgotten her special day but she just smiled. But before leaving, handed me a letter.

I opened it as soon as I reached home.

"Dear Satoshi,

I don't know if you believe in love at first sight or not. But I surely do.

I never thought a boy would dominate my life like this, you taught me the meaning of love. I truly understand what you had gone through because of Serena but I was unable to keep all this bottled inside me. You have to know.

I love you, and if you ever felt the same or feel anything for me, return this letter back to me. Don't write anything. If your love doesn't make you return it, don't let my words.

Yours, Dawn"

He kept in reading it again and again. So, Gary was right. Now he had to figure out a way to say no to her without hurting her feelings. He stayed up all night thinking about it.

23rd August, 2008

You won't believe what I did today. I returned the letter to Dawn. Serena was out of my mind, she rejected me, so there is no use of crying over that. Moreover, anyone would be lucky to have Dawn. I realised ,'i don't deserve you' and 'you don't deserve me' donot exist in a relationship. She loved me and that was enough a reason to have me. Some people fall in love then date , I guess I had to take it the opposite way.

Dawn make me feel something which I ne'er felt before. With her, I never have to be something I am not. With her, I am the real me but with Serena, I stay nervous, self-conscious.

Today, while I looked at Dawn, I saw the nervousness in her eyes. It is her first time I suppose. I sometimes feel like a player as occasionally, I think about Serena. Truth be told, I donot know why I like her. I feel safe and secure around her, just like I feel around my mother.

30th September,2008

I won't be able to write soon dear diary. My family , along with me , is going on a vacation. I will really miss Dawn. I wish I could take her with me.

31st December, 2008

My mom allowed my friends for new year's eve party. They had arrived at 10 in the morning and stayed still 7pm.

The girls had to return to their hostel before 7.30. So we were walking back to the road, to see them off. Gary, Drew and Paul were walking ahead of Dawn and me. We were not talking anything personal but I loved the personal space they gave us.

Around a corner, when the boys had disappeared out of sight, she placed a kiss on my cheek and ran. I just stood there, watching her get into a taxi and leave. We just waved goodbye. I didn't even put a hand over my cheek, fearing the sensation of her lips would go away from there.

4th January, 2009

Final exams! These words can even horrify the dead. Although my preparation is not that bad, I am scared. Very scared.

29th January, 2009

Finally exams are over. Now, I can sit and relax. I wanted to go to a movie, but Dawn was busy. She had an appointment with a doctor. She forced me to go.

But the scene which I saw in the hall was not a happy one. I found Serena, cuddling comfortably against a boy in the seat before me. Although I knew I loved Dawn, seeing Serena with someone filled me with self-pity and disgust.

13th February, 2009

I had practically forgot that tomorrow is Valentine's day. I wanted to call Dawn at sharp 12 but according to hostel rules, no personal phones were allowed. I had to wait to meet her at school to wish her. I wanted to buy her a gift, but I decided against it. I know she would not accept it just because of the occasion. She looked for emotions, and I know how I could tell her I really fell .

14th February, 2009

I had to wait till lunch break to talk to her. Don't know why, on this day even the teachers become more suspicious. Stupid teachers. I really wanted to take her to a restaurant but decided against it. We spend our time, talking and walking her to her hostel. I gave a necklace as a gift. It was a heart shape locket, with S+D engraved at its back. I know she loved it as she hugged me in middle of the street, not scaring about anything.

21st march,2009

Finally,tomorrow was farewell party of our senior most class. We were arranging and decorating the auditorium. Serena was busy with lighting arrangement and Dawn had to go to the bathroom, which was in another building. So, she wanted me to accompany her.

After a couple of minutes when she came out, she thanked me for waiting for her. I kissed her cheek, I always wanted to since she had kissed me. She gave a sly smile and turned to imply we had to go. I turned her around and kissed her on the lips. I was about to break it thinking she was feeling uncomfortable but she kissed back.

We were like that for more than five minutes, occasionally breaking to take a breath. When I kissed her again, I felt her arm snake around my neck. Smiling, I slowly started caressing her hair. But before I knew it, my hands were already on her hips and I, on a impulse, pulled her closer. In that moment of bliss, I forgot how sexual it was. I thought she was hurt as she was running away but her sly smile and blushing face told me, she didn't mind.

12th april,2009

Can you guess my location? No? Well I am in the hospital. How? I had somehow caught dengue. The doctors language of speaking and my mom's sad face made one thing clear to me.

I was dying.

I just wanted to see Dawn and my friends. As if reading my mind, my mom told me she had already asked my friends to come over.

I don't know when I had drifted to sleep. But I woke up when I felt a kiss on my forehead. ' Serena' i mentally thought but I opened my eyes to find my mother, crying and sobbing. Before I could tell her I loved her too, I felt asleep again.

Dawn closed the diary. It was the last entry entered by Satoshi. When they had gone to visit him, he was already in pain. Seeing Dawn, a sudden, satisfactory smile covered his face and at the next moment, he was gone. He left her wondering whom he really loved, her or Serena.

She remember how much she cried that day. She had not cried when her parents were divorced. She had cried a little when her mother died due to heart attack. People always told her she was abnormal, as she always used to smile. Those people should see her now to believe how wrong they were.

Life without Satoshi was not easy. She felt useless and lonely. But she knew she had to achieve her dream, for him.

So there she was now, a doctor. She was broken out of her thoughts by the doorbell. Reluctantly, she opened it and found Misty waiting outside.

"We are going to Jubilife City," Misty cheerfully said. Dawn said no but Misty dragged her with her. Misty was getting married to Paul the next week, in jubilife city. She had already invited all her friends but except Serena. Since Serena lived there, they were leaving tonight to reach jubilife city.

Tired due to day's work and past memories, Dawn was sleeping comfortably in the back seat while Misty was driving. So when she woke up, they were already in front of Serena's house.

"Lets go in!" Misty enthusiastically said. Sometimes Dawn wonder why can't she forget Satoshi. Why did he still occupy his heart. She had choosen to be in love with him forever. And she was still keeping her promise, a promise which was breaking her from inside.

Serena opened the door and hugged her friends. Serena had married Clemont, her boyfriend since she started attending Rosewood high.

Sensing presence of new guests, her son came running from his room but stopped dead on his tracks, after he saw Dawn.

"Dr. Dawn ," he gleefully said and ran to hug her.

Hugging him back, Dawn asked Serena,"Ash is your son?"

Serena nodded.

Ash was in his room sketching, while the ladies were busy discussing Misty's marriage. Dawn wanted to ask about Satoshi but stopped. She didn't want to prick old wounds.

Before they were leaving, Dawn wanted to meet Ash for the last time.

Dawn found him staring at the sky. For a moment, a memory of Satoshi flashed through her head.

"Hey Ash, am leaving," she sweetly said.

Ash hastily turned and blushed on seeing her. He beckoned her to sit and went to his chest of drawers and took out a sketch book.

"I want you to keep it!" He said giving it to her.

She opened it and found a sketch. It looked just like her. She ran her fingers through it and noticed something. It had a horizontal S and vertical T.

Shocked, she asked Ash," Why do you do this? I mean why this symbol?"

He without any hesitation said," I always give this signature at the end of my painting. Do you know what it means, as I am clueless!"

"Its a sign of good luck, keep giving it okey?" She said, hiding the real reason.

When Dawn and Misty were gone, Ash fell asleep too. Serena was waiting for Clemont to arrive. She immediately hugged him and cried in his chest.

After she calmed down a little, clemont asked what had happened.

"Its about Ash"

"Is he hurt again?"

"No, and please, when I will speak, don't interrupt me."

Clemont nodded.

"Have you ever thought why Ash is such a great sketcher even he is just five years old? I have. Why he gives that weird signature after every painting? Why he never disobeys me? Clemont, don't tell me that he has to obey me because i am his mother, you're his father too, but he never listens to half of the thing you tell him to do. He, he is Satoshi Clemont, the same boy who proposed me when I was in Class 11."

Though Clemont found it impossible to believe he knew it was not improbable.

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Dawn and Misty were waiting in a balcony of a hotel, waiting for Paul and his friend Kenny to arrive. To Dawn's disgust, Misty had fixed her date with that Kenny.

So when they arrived, the soon to be married couple left them alone.

"Hey, the name is Kenny"

"Dawn"

"You're really beautiful Dawn"

"Thanks"

"I would love to have a wife like you!"

Dawn stayed silent. After a while she spoke,"Are you a virgin?''

"To be honest, I have done it two times. When I was 18, because all my friends had done it. And once when i was drunk. It was one night stand."

Dawn kept on staring at the sky. He asked,"Are you a virgin?"

"What if I say I am not?" She said without looking at him.

"I wouldn't believe you," Kenny said, unsure of himself.

"If virginity is about having a tissue in place, then I am a virgin. But my mind, soul and heart is already taken. If you can manage to stay like this, I don't have any problem," she said without any emotion.

"You dont want to get married?" He asked.

"If marriage is synonym for having sex, then no, I am not ready. I already told you, I had made my choice eight years ago. Even if he is gone, he was the one who seeded the feeling of love in me. No one can replace that."

Kenny said he will give her time to think and he left. Standing on the balcony, she looked down. She had already made a choice. She had given all her love to Satoshi. No boy could take his place. Her choice was clear, she knew what she wanted.

She stood up on the edge and glanced down. Closing her eyes and taking a deep breath, she made her jump.

When she opened her eyes, she felt nothing, no pain, no blood. She looked around and found Ash, who was crying. She closed her eyes and opened again. Ash was gone, instead there was Satoshi.

"I thought you were leaving because you wanted to get rid of me," he said.

"I left because I wanted to be with you."

"Why?"

"I had already made a choice, take me with you."

And with that, her soul left her body.

1year later...

Paul was waiting in the lobby of the hospital. After a few minutes, the doctor called him inside.

"Mr. Shinji," the doctor said," your wife Misty gave birth to a beautiful daughter. But there is one thing strange about her. She keeps smiling. You and Misty are really lucky I guess."

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And done!

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