Wow, um...I did not think I'd be back again so soon but here I am! XD Anyways!~

Sasuke-Is-Badass; Hey, nice to hear from you again. :D Hmm, you find Ritsu terrifying here? Interesting.~ There's a reason behind it BUT...no spoilers for you~ :P Yeah, everyone is such an asshole to Ritsu especially Takano. -_- And LOL "Run, Ritsu, Run! DX" I think you'll find it is quite the other way around, dearie!~ Why? No~ Spoilers~ *zips lips*

Alright enough fan taunting, writing time!~

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How long have I been staying there now? I don't even remember. All I know is I needed to get away from all the chaos that plagued my daily life. I lay down on the two person bed tossing and turning. Augh, looks like I won't be getting any sleep again today. So instead, I just look up at the ceiling. How did I ever let it come to this? I am a grown man, I should be able to handle these things on my own. Yet here I am, sulking and refusing to get up to face the world that is just waiting for me to step outside again so it can greet me with more cruelty. I wipe some sweat from my forehead and look to the side table below me when I heard something playing. I blink at the mini radio, guess I left it on again. I considered turning it off but the song that played seemed awfully familiar. It was in english, but considering I spent a while in England it wasn't hard to make out the words.

I want my innocence back

And if you can't give it to me

I will cut you down

And I will run you through

My chest twisted at the lyrics they reminded me of my current situation and the desire I had to be stronger. I wanted to turn it off but I couldn't, it was...too similar to how I feeling. I choke on my dry throat as it continued.

With the dagger you sharpened

On my body and soul

Takano never stopped abusing me and he took advantage of my affection all those years ago.

Before you slit me in two

And then devoured me whole

I was serious back then, you know. But you only used me for sexual release.

I want my innocence back

I can never return to being such an optimistic person because of you.

I want my innocence back

I wasn't exactly happy, but at least I had my innocence.

I want innocence back

I might have never developed such a twisted personality if we have never met, even with my parents weighing me down.

I want my innocence back

I want my innocence back

I want my innocence back

I want my innocence back

And if you can't pacify me

I will break your bones

You think I'm bluffing just try me

I gripped my head, trying to block out the words playing. This is too much, everything seemed to be rubbing my misery in my face.

I will never forget

The words you used to ensnare me

He kept telling me I was his, I'm not.

Till my dying day

You'll suffer for this I swear

Why am I still here? Why do I always feel so helpless? I...I want...

I want my innocence back

I want my innocence back

I want my innocence back

I want my innocence ba-

"SHUT UP!", I turn off the radio roughly, almost damaging the tiny button on it. I pant, sweat dripping all over my face. Calm down, calm down. After a long breath, I stood (though a bit off balance) and began to change into outside clothes. I've been curled up like this for awhile now, the least I could do is try to help out, despite the sweet protests I'll receive. When I left the front door, the sun was already setting. Sigh. Well, like I said I've been lying there day in and day out. Putting those thoughts aside, I make my way to the convenience store. I check the list as I walked down the aisle, skimming the products. The words on the small sheet of paper appear blurry, due to either lack of sleep or stress I don't know.

I hope I don't end up needing glasses, it's bad enough I've lost a significant amount of weight but now my eyes are failing me. Lovely. I rub my lids, glad when they adjusted to the brightly lit store. I grip my head once again, damn my skull is killing me. Let me just get what I need and leave, I'd rather not faint in a public place. After getting everything and paying, I trudge out the automatic doors. My vision blurred for a second and that's all it took for me to bump into someone. I mutter an apology but felt my blood ran cold when I realize who I bumped into. The man before me glared, clearly not pleased in the slightest.

"So this is where you were, Onodera. I missed you after work.", Takano spoke venomously,"I thought I told you to come over tonight."

I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out, I just stared at the ground. I could just feel how empty my eyes are. He's the last person I wanted to see right now. Before I could do anything else I felt a hand grip my neck. I gasped, breathing for air as my groceries slipped from my grasp. "I warned you, didn't I? If you keep avoiding me I'll force you to come back to me."

"I...*cough*...never belonged...*cough*...to you. Just fuck off already! Why do you have to put me through this?! Please just go away!", I managed to get out of his grip. I wobbled a bit but caught myself. This was in vain, however, when I was suddenly pinned to the concrete. Takano gripped my hair and forced my head back, kissing me roughly. I could taste my own blood as we parted. His hands ripped through my coat. Is he going to do this in the middle of the side walk?! I have to fight back...but...what's the point? I-I'm just so tired. I should just give up...But, then what about them? They've done so much for me. Whatever, I'm just a burden anyway.

"Hey! What the hell do you think you're doing?!", A foreign voice yelled in our direction. I looked up to see some tall brown haired man with piercings. He was a complete stranger so it surprised me that he bothered to interfere. He honestly looked like a prince right out of a shoujo manga. He stormed over to us and grabbed Takano off of me. Unfortunately, Takano was fast and disappeared. The stranger called out for him but it was too late. He walked towards me and picked up my bags,"Here. These are yours, right?"

I just stared ahead, eyes blank and empty. He looked at me worriedly, and rested a hand on my shoulder. "Hey, you okay? Ah, you're bleeding!" He whipped out a cloth but I stood before he could tend to my wounds.

"Thank you...", my voice was robotic,"I'll be going now..."

"Hey, wait!"

I already turned the corner and started running. I just wanted to be back in that room, where none of the chaos could get me at least for now. I hate Takano! I hate my life! I hate everything! I wish the world would just go away!

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I watched sadly as he ran away, his tears visible on his cheeks. Damn, I shouldn't have let that asshole get away so easily. That poor guy. His eyes looked so...lifeless. And judging by how he acted this wasn't the first time he got hurt by that man. Man, people like him piss me off! They think they can do whatever they want because they're bigger! Well, I better get home. It's late. I just hope the little guy is okay.

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My, my.~ Would you look at all this blood. It looks like the neck is practically broken, and these red marks look like they won't go away anytime soon. I go over to the kitchen and poured a glass of water and opened a pill bottle that was labled "anti-depressants". I shook it until a pair fell onto my palm. I made my way to the couch in the living room and sat down.

This ends now.

I look to my left and back again before smirking.

It's time I change the rhythm...

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Aaaaaand CLIFFY!~ Muhuhahahaaha!~ XD Btw, Disclaimer; Song belongs to the beautiful Emilie Autumn!~ If you guys haven't heard her check her out, she's awesome! :D Anyways, review! Ja!~