Name?: The Fall

Summary?: Rin saw no way out, he couldn't run, the Vatican would kill him, he didn't want to be killed, not by someone else, no, he was going to die by his own hand.

Rating?: M

Pairings?: None but Yukio x Rin if you want to see it that way (not that I blame you XD)

Warning?: Attempted Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Coma, Bullying, Death Threats, Major Angst, Isolation, Loss of Friends, Life Support and Medical Tests (also tube down throat and removal scene), Needles, mention of Seizures, Happy Ending, Swearing.

Nicciomimi96: Okay, I'm so sorry for all of you who have had to wait for this for so long but I kind of lost my groove for the story a while back but hopefully the chapter was good and this is the final chapter I am doing.

"Fucking Demon."

"He deserves to die."

"I can't stand being in the same class as him."

"He shouldn't even be here."

"I can't wait until someone kills him."

"Leave us alone demon!"

"You don't deserve to live."

"Your trouble to everyone."

"End your life and make everyone happier."

Bon had said all these things, behind Rin's back and to his face but he didn't care why should he? Rin was the one in the wrong, he shouldn't even be alive, everything about him was wrong and he was only making sure that the blue haired demon knew this. It was just what everyone was thinking, it's not like demons had feeling anyway.

However, his whole world was tipped on its head when one day Yukio came into the classroom, everything about their teachers appearance was stressed, messy and exhausted. It was his next words that broke Bon out of his angered thoughts of Rin making his own brother that way because it couldn't be anyone else, "Rin's in a coma, he's in the Exorcist hospital on life support, yesterday, he tried to take his own life, no one knows when he is going to wake up or if he ever will."

There was dead silence in the room, Bon felt like he had been punched in the chest, he didn't know what to think, he had never heard of a demon trying to take their own life before, it just wasn't in their nature to do something like this. However humans did it all the time, when pain and anguish got to them they took that step towards their death but Rin wasn't human…but he was half-human...

That fact seemed to have been forgotten until now and Bon felt his heart sink, he looked around the room at everyone's horrified faces, Sheimi was sobbing into her hands and Yukio seemed out of it, Izumo seemed shocked before she turned her face away. Konekomaru seemed horrified before looking down at his hands, Shima seemed to take it the worst, his guilt ridden face looking out the window and Bon knew he was crying.

Bon looked down and thought of everything he had said to Rin, just yesterday he had said that he would kill him while on the trip, it had seemed the right thing to say and do before this but now he wasn't so sure. He felt guilt rise up inside him and no matter how much he tried to push it down it lingered as everything he had done rose in his mind and he was forced to face the fact that he had been the main one to push Rin to do this.

Yukio left after that, seeming to want to stay by Rin's side and Bon looked away, so much was going on inside him, one side said that Rin deserved what he got but another side said that he had been wrong and pushed someone as bright as Rin had been to suicide. He sighed and looked up at everyone, Izumo took this time to speak and said, "I'm half demon myself, yet no one bats an eyelid at me and yet you all thought that Rin was some monster, you're the monsters."

She stood and walked out of the classroom, Bon watched her go as her words struck him inside, was that true? That Rin, though a half-demon who shared the blood and fires of Satan had been less of a monster than Bon himself? It seemed right thinking that, he thought over everything Rin had done for them, saving them, putting his own life on the line and being a good friend before all of this, a good competition.

Rin had said that he himself wanted to kill Satan, something about Satan killing him real dad and ruining his life, however Satan hadn't been the monster to push him to killing himself, it had been Bon, it had been everyone in the class. He looked to Sheimi who stood and ran out of the classroom, she seemed to be taking this the hardest and that left Bon, Shima and Konekomaru who sat in silence for a while.

"You know…I wanted to be friends with him, I just…I followed you when I shouldn't have, now this." Shima said and Bon looked to his childhood friend and saw his eyes were red but no tears were falling down his face. Konekomaru shuddered before saying, "But he's the son of Satan, the one who killed people during the Blue Night, he's a monster, he's just as bad as Satan and he can't control himself."

"Is that really true?" Shima said with a hard voice and Konekomaru flinched, looking up at the pink haired boy as Shima continued, "He's the son of Satan sure but does that change the fact that he was brought up human? Does that change the fact that he was once our friend, our friend who saved us from a demon king and almost died?"

"But…" Konekomaru said but seemed to be stumped for words, Bon looked to him and noted the scared look on the boy's face, Shima scoffed before saying, "Hold on to your prejudice all you want but if he survives this I'm going to do what I should have done all along, I'm going to be his friend if he will take me and I won't let you two bully him any longer, if you're scared or angry keep it to yourselves, if you can't change then I'm done."

Shima stood and walked out of the room, Bon watched him go with a numb feeling, he had just lost a friend…no, he was going to lose a friend if he didn't change his ways but some part inside him still told him he had done the right thing. Rin was Satan's son, though he had been brought up human what did it matter? That he had acted like a human and…Bon shook his head of those thoughts, the more he thought about Rin and who he really was the more what he had done didn't seem fair.

He looked to Konekomaru and knew that he was the only one on his side, who thought that Rin should be dead, that he shouldn't be allowed anywhere near humans and wished he would disappear. However Konekomaru said, "Do you think we did it? Pushed him to this?"

Bon didn't know what to say, he could say no and bring up some excuses about how Rin had always been this way but that would be a lie and not a very good one as everyone remembered how Rin used to be. He sighed and leaned back in his chair before saying, "Yeah, I think we did but it doesn't matter, he's not human and I would have killed him anyway, this is just him taking control and not letting himself be killed by anyone else, his pride mostly did this."

"That's…" Konekomaru looked to him with wide eyes and said, "You…you don't care? We did this, it wasn't his pride, Rin isn't the type to do this, he was always to happy and nice, then we found out what he is and we turned on him even though he was such a good friend, he's going to die because of us, how can you not feel guilty?"

"Says the person who used to quiver and shudder in fear every time they were anywhere near him, the one who has nightmares of him going out of control and burning everything, you should be happy now." Bon bit back and immediately regretted it when he saw his friends face, Konekomaru said, "Yeah, maybe I should be happy, if he really did all those things but he didn't, he didn't do anything wrong and I blamed him for what his father did even though he didn't even like his own father, I judged and was scared but that doesn't make me feel good about this."

"If he dies, if after everything he's gone…I won't be able to live with myself." Konekomaru said, tears falling from his eyes as he squeezed them shut and shook his head, Bon frowned and looked to the door, he wanted to leave, he needed to clear his head. He stood and walked out of the room, why couldn't everything just be simple, like he thought it had been, he thought that Rin was exactly like Satan and so should be put down but now…now he knew that Rin was Rin, someone who was the polar opposite of Satan…someone who had been pushed to the edge.

Then his mind went to the fact that Rin could die, any moment now, where would he go if he was to die? Would he go to the realm that Satan ruled over and be tortured for the rest of eternity or would he go to a nice place, would he be happy? Bon stopped and put his head against the wall, he felt so out of control, so confused, he didn't know what to think anymore and slowly made his way out into the fresh air and walked for what seemed like hours trapped in his thoughts.

That had been six months ago.

Bon had been thinking in that time, even though he had thrown himself into work and tried to ignore the feelings inside him he found himself wandering over to the Hospital, he hadn't been here before and didn't know why he was there now. At the desk he asked for Rin's door number and walked there feeling like he was walking to his execution, knowing that maybe Yukio was there, he probably was but didn't let himself think too much and spotted the door.

He found his stride slowing and he came to a stop meters from the door, he didn't know why he was doing this, what he was going to say or even if he would say anything but he needed to see what damage he had caused. He took a deep breath and walked closer to the door, he stopped outside and reached for the handle, he opened the door slowly, he was afraid of what he was going to see inside…

The first thing he noticed was Yukio, he froze for a moment but seeing the slow up and down of his sensei's chest indicated that he was asleep, which was good, he didn't want a fight and knew if the other boy was awake he would get one. The second thing he noticed was the bed, white crisp sheets covering a figure, the slow beeping of a heart machine was filling the room along with harsh breathing through a tube.

He walked around the bed to the head poking out of the sheets, he had never seen Rin this pale, this…he didn't want to say the word, Rin was like this because of him, because of his words which seemed right at the time. Seeing him now, he wondered how anything he had said could have been right, Rin's eyes were closed and could be closed forever because of his own anger and resentment of Satan.

He had been convinced that Rin was like Satan, evil to the done, a demon who shouldn't have even been born but now, now he saw his friend, the friend he had gotten to know months previous, the one who had always smiled and laughed. He was close to death and Bon had forced him to it, he had said he would kill him and Rin had tried to do it himself instead…he wondered how much pain someone had to be in to do this.

Pain…an emotion, something which he didn't think Rin had been capable of, he thought all those months had been a lie to twist things in Rin's favour because that is what a demon did, they got close to you and then ripped your life apart. Now…now he knew all those months had been the truth, Rin had just wanted friends and he would have died for them, now he was dying because of them, fate was cruel but not as much as people and Bon was one of those people.

He couldn't look anymore, he turned his eyes away and looked to Yukio who was slumped in the hospital chair, it looked like his sensei hadn't had a decent night's sleep since this had happened and was probably right. How could he have done this? It was eating him up inside, he had thought he was right, justified in what he had done and said but…it was all wrong, he had pushed a friend to the edge, someone who just wanted to be close to him and others.

He knew he wasn't the only one to blame but he knew he was the centre of that blame, if Rin woke up, he knew that the teen would accept his apology but that would just be because of Rin's character, he was forgiving. Would they ever be friends again? No, he knew they wouldn't, not as they had been before, he had broken Rin and that would forever be true, that would haunt him his whole life, forgiveness or not.

Sighing he turned towards the door and walked out of the room, he stopped outside and closed the door, he leaned against it and felt his eyes sting but he wouldn't cry, it wasn't his place to cry here over something he had caused. He rubbed his eyes and looked to the ground, footsteps stopped next to him and he looked up to see Sheimi, she was looking at him with shocked eyes as she said, "Suguro-kun? What are you doing here?"

"Nothing." He said and stood from his slumped position against the door, he turned and walked away, he knew she would tell Yukio he had been there but that didn't bother him, his chest felt heavy and his legs weak as he walked out of the hospital. He looked to the sky to see a clear sunny day, he felt angry that the world could be moving and people could be laughing when something like this had happened.

He turned to the wall and punched it hard, his knuckles scraped and began to bleed and the bones hurt but he didn't mind, he needed it, he needed to punish himself for what he had done, it was the least he could do. He straightened up and let out a breath before walking away from the hospital and back to the school, he didn't know if he could face anyone right now but he needed to do something other than feel like this.

For over a month nothing happened, no news about Rin, Yukio had stopped teaching their classes and they had Shura instead, they went on the trip which had been set up and it had gone smoothly which irritated Bon. He knew that Rin would have wanted to come, he would have wanted to show off his strength and skill with a sword but he was in hospital, in a coma and might never wake up, it made the trip sour for all of them.

Since his visit at the hospital he had thrown himself into school work, all his teachers were impressed with his scores, the level of his homework and even the extra assignments he had asked for but nothing helped. His mind always wandered to Rin during the night when everything was quiet, when he dreamed it was of Rin never coming back, he woke up in a cold sweat each time and couldn't get the funeral he saw in his dreams out of his head.

He walked into the classroom the next day after that dream and sat in his usual spot, Konekomaru and Shima both sat down with him, his stress and guilt must have been visible seeming as Shima was still talking to him. He sighed and leaned back in his chair trying to relax, something he hadn't been able to do since the news but it didn't hurt to keep trying, the bell rang and they waited for Shura to come through the door but she didn't.

Bon's stomach dropped, something was going on, something was wrong, Shura should have been here on time, she always was, the dream rose in his mind and he clenched his fists on his lap, he hoped it wouldn't be true. Shura came rushing through the door moments later and Bon felt the tension ease at the smile on her face, Bon felt his stomach rise to his throat as she said, "Rin's awake."

The whole classroom became silent, he hadn't noticed that people had been whispering before, Shura sighed as though in relief and said, "I know you all want to know how he is but all I can tell you is that he's awake and talking, Yukio called me just now and I know some of you might want to visit him but know he's in a fragile state right now and he doesn't need any more stress, if you're going, go with good intent."

Shura looked straight at Bon when she said this and he felt his stomach roll in nerves, Rin was awake and alive, that was a good thing but Bon knew if he visited then something had to be said about how he had behaved. He couldn't go in there and act like nothing was wrong but also knew that he had to visit to see Rin awake and alive for himself, he needed to go there with an apology, something which would change the guilt inside.

For the rest of the day he didn't pay attention in his classes, instead he roamed over the words that he could say to Rin to make things better, even just a little bit, once school was over he found himself wandering over to the hospital. He stood outside the double doors which led inside and noticed his heart was beating fast, his palms were sweating and his breathing was hitching, he was panicking and he knew why but he couldn't back out of this.

He walked forward and the doors slid open as the sensor noticed his movement, he walked inside and passed the desk, he knew where he was heading, he had only been there once but remembered the way easily. He walked through the halls and thought about what he was going to say, he had an idea but he didn't know where to go with it, he spotted the door he was heading towards and his legs felt like led.

Stopping outside the door there was silence inside, it seemed that Yukio had stepped out for a minute, he almost hoped that Rin wasn't in the room anymore but when he reached up and pushed it open he saw a figure sitting up on the bed. Rin looked pale still but he was awake, he was looking out the window to the side and Bon felt his heart lurch forward when those blue eyes turned to him, "I thought you were talking to the doc-"

Rin's words cut off as he recognised Bon for who he was, those eyes widened slightly and darkened with some emotion, Bon walked in and left the door open, if Rin wanted to leave he wouldn't be stopping him. Bon looked to the chair next to the bed and wondered if he should sit down but immediately decided against it as his nerves made him restless and he walked over to the window instead before leaning against the frame.

The cool air of outside was softly breezing into the room and cooled his heated face pleasantly, Rin was still watching him, he locked eyes with the teen who only a few months ago he said he was going to kill. His stomach rolled and he looked down, he didn't know what to say, how was anything he said going to make things better, Rin however was the one to break the silence and Bon almost jumped when he did, "Why are you here?"

Why was he here? Did the teen not know? He guessed Rin wasn't expecting an apology of any sort, he might even take this as the wrong message and think that Bon was here to cause him more pain, something which wouldn't be out of character of who he had been. Bon took a deep shaking breath and said, "I…I came here to apologise for what I did, for what I said, I didn't know…I didn't know that you weren't…"

"A demon?" Rin asked and his voice was low, that wasn't a good sign, he looked up to the blue eyes and noticed that Rin was watching him with something he couldn't name again it made Bon's heart hurt. It was not the look he had gotten before all of this, the look he was getting now was dark and distrusting and it hurt to know he had been the one to put it there, Rin spoke, "Look, you might have recited an apology but…I don't need it."

Bon felt shock go through him, he didn't need it? Did that mean that he would never be forgiven? He understood if that was the truth but stopped thinking when Rin said, "I know why you did what you did, I get it, you wanted to protect your friends from a threat and to be honest I know I'm a threat to everyone who wants to become or is an exorcist and even everyday people but more so the exorcists because they all know about me now, there is no hiding and to be honest…I'm just tired of it."

Rin did look tired, his eyes were shadowed by his hair which made it hard to know what the boy was thinking or feeling, Bon knew this was his moment, he had to say something now or everything would have been for nothing. He cleared his throat and said, "Look, I did see you as a threat but only because I thought of you as just a demon, it was stupid of me because I didn't listen when people said you were also half-human."

"I was scared, I didn't want what had happened in the past on the blue night to happen again and I let my anger and resentment of Satan cloud my judgement." Bon said softly and Rin looked up at him through his bangs. Bon continued, "I understand now that your different, I…I'm sorry for being such a bad friend, I'm sorry I turned against you only for who you were born from which you had no say over, I dismissed all those months of friendship because I was too stubborn and stupid."

"Stop." Rin said and Bon winced before looking down, he knew he was going to get rejected now and knew he deserved it, Rin was such a bright light and he had broken him, he had taken the light and smashed it beyond repair. Rin sighed and said, "I'm not going to forgive you but…well, I liked being your friend when we were okay, it was the happiest I had ever been…having friends, I never had them before…"

It broke Bon's heart as Rin's voice wavered as he said it, he hadn't known that Rin hadn't had friends before…but would that have changed anything? No, probably not and they both knew it, it was a cold hard truth. Rin threw back the covers and sat on the edge of the bed facing Bon, Bon didn't look up and waited, Rin said, "I…I guess if things were different, then we could be friends…I…I know we cant make things different but..."

Bon looked up at those words and saw Rin smiling at him, it was a soft smile and had some pain behind it, Bon knew what he meant by making things different, how could they possibly make things different? Rin chuckled and said, "I'm…well, soon I'm going to be out of the hospital, I have no lasting damage so it's looking good, when I'm out…I won't be coming back to classes for a while seeming as Yukio is determined to keep an eye on me."

"What I'm saying is…maybe, during the time I'm not going to classes we could…I don't know, meet up and have lunch sometimes, maybe you could even help me study…I'm not saying we might be friends again like we were but what could it hurt to try?" Rin said and Bon felt something ease inside him, he said, "So…your okay? I mean, what I did…I don't think I would have been able to look past it if it had been done to me…"

"I'm not saying I'm looking past it, I will probably always be on guard around you but I'm asking if maybe you want to get to know each other again and try and build something through that, outside of exorcism and me being half-demon." Rin said and Bon felt his stomach clench and his eyes sting, he knew that Rin was being too forgiving about this, like he had thought he would be, he said, "You don't have to, I know I hurt you more than-"

"No, it wasn't just you, that's my point, you might have been one of the worst ones but everyone was partly to blame." Rin said and Bon looked to him again and saw the dark look on his face, Bon didn't want him to look like that, it was the same look he used to have before he tried to commit suicide. He didn't know how to make things better but knew accepting Rin's offer might be a start and so said, "Okay, I guess we can try and if it doesn't work out because it's too much I won't blame you."

"Thank you." Rin sighed and seemed to relax before holding out his hand, Bon looked at it for a moment before reaching out his own and grasping it, Rin smiled and shook their hands, Bon felt his heart give a lurch. It was so simple, more so than he had thought it would be as Rin said, "I'm Rin Okumura, I like Manga and cooking, my favourite food is Sukiyaki and I am training myself to become strong enough to be someone who can protect my friends and family."

"My real name is Ryuji Suguro, I come from Kyoto and I like studying, running and hanging out with my friends, my goal is to help others and make sure no more tragedy like a certain night happens again." Bon said and Rin's eyes lit up when he had told him his true name, he had been hoping it would be a good thing and could be something they could talk about as a start, why he had changed his name for school and left his true name behind.

"I better go before Yukio comes." Bon said suddenly thinking of the time they had consumed talking, Rin nodded in understanding and Bon walked over to the door before stopping, he turned back and looked at Rin. He had to say something, he couldn't not tell him about everyone else, Bon said, "I hope you can get better soon, it's not been the same without you there, I'm not the only one who wants to sort things out."

"Well, hopefully I will see them soon." Rin beamed and Bon smiled before opening the door and walking out into the hall, he closed the door before leaning against it with a sigh, he was glad things had gone well. The guilt inside him was still there but had been soothed and he smiled slightly, he turned towards the door a felt his heart lurch into his throat as he froze, leaning against the wall staring at him was Yukio.

"I hope you understand something." Yukio said, his eyes like ice, Bon didn't know what to do, here he was with the one person he had been hoping not to run into and now there they were in the hall, he was just glad there were witnesses. Yukio seemed to notice this and smirked, Bon felt his stomach knot and gulped down his fear as Yukio stood straight and said, "If you hurt my brother again, no one will ever find you."

Bon nodded and Yukio smiled more normally before he walked past Bon and opened the door before going inside, Bon could hear the brothers speaking in light tones and felt his tension leave, he knew this was his last chance. He walked away from the door and to the outside, he stopped outside and leaned against the wall, he had one more chance at his friendship with Rin and he was not going to waste it.

Nicciomimi96: Hope you liked it and hope you have a good day! please review and tell me what you thought.