I'm sorry for this taking so long to upload, a lot of shit has beeing going on in my life and I'm leaving for uni in a couple of days. Talk about stress. I'm sorry that it is shorter than the other chapters, this one has been difficult to write as I've completely forgotton what I've written for this fic, I'm having to go back an dcheck what I've already written so I don't repeat myself and make sure certain things are involved.

If any of you have read the whole thing recently I would really appreciate it if you could just recap it for me, or I'm going to have to reread the whole thing yet again.

Any way, I hope you like the chapter.

Lyna

"Did you know?" were the first words out of Sebastian's mouth when his father presumably answered the phone. Kurt couldn't hear the response Nathaniel gave; he just watched as Sebastian paced back and forth behind the couch.

"Did you know Louis was out of prison?" Sebastian clarified, his voice getting harsher and increasingly angry. His pacing sped up slightly as he listened to his father's response.

Kurt sighed, he wanted to hold his boyfriend again. Sebastian had cried in Kurt's arms for about an hour before his sadness had been replaced with anger. Anger because he had been betrayed, anger because those he'd trusted the most in the world had told him he was safe when his rapist and attempted murderer were walking free.

"Is he the reason why we moved to America?" Sebastian asked, this time his voice was full of hurt, he came to a stop as his father answered, the reply was evident on Sebastian's face. "Why did you lie? Why did you tell me he'd be in prison for a long time if you meant three fucking years"

"Don't tell me to calm down, I'll watch my language when you stop lying to me!" tears prickled in Sebastian's red ringed eyes once again as he shouted. Kurt immediately grabbed his boyfriend's hand and pulled him round the couch to sit down next to him.

"He came to the house" ~Sebastian's voice cracked as he spoke, and Kurt squeezed his hand tighter. "What if he tried to hurt me again? What if he hurt Kurt Père?"

"Kurt made him go away."

"I don't know whether he'll come back." Sebastian sighed.

"We can go home if you want Bastian."Kurt said quietly, but Sebastian shook his head.

"No, I'm not letting him ruin our holiday, we're only here for a few more days. I promised I'd show you Paris and that's what I'm going to do" Sebastian smiled softly at Kurt, the anger no longer apparent.

"No Père, I'll talk to you later okay?"

"Yeah, whatever" Sebastian sighed hanging up on his father. He sighed again and leant back against Kurt's shoulder.

"You okay?" Kurt asked

"I will be" Sebastian replied "It's you I'm worried about"

"Me?"

"He could have hurt you, he was here and he could have hurt you like he hurt me" Sebastian whispered hoarsely, "I've had so many nightmares about him, raping me again, hurting you."

"Angel..." Kurt began but Sebastian cut him off

"He could have got in do easily. I promised I'd protect you, but when you were in real danger I froze. A rapist and attempted murderer was at the door and I froze." Sebastian pulled away from Kurt, sitting up again.

"Yes, it was YOUR rapist, the person who tried to murder YOU. Bastian, you froze, so what, you're human. Hell, if I'd been through half of what you'd been through I'd freeze up too. I did freeze up, the first time Blaine tried to speak to me, even now I get tense and all he did was rough me up a bit"

"Don't say that, he tried to..."

"I know what he tried to do, but right now that doesn't matter. We're talking about you." Kurt paused a moment, before taking Sebastian's hands in his own and sighed "Look Bastian, I am safe, Louis didn't get in the house, he didn't hurt me. He's gone now, he's not going to risk coming back."

The tears in Sebastian's eyes once again began to fall.

"You promise? You promise he's not coming back?" Kurt's heart broke as his boyfriend asked him to keep him safe.

"Of course he isn't coming back, I threatened him with Santana, no one goes against Santana" Kurt tried to lift the mood, a ghost of a smile flickered on Sebastian's lips before he sniffed and the sadness reappeared.

"I don't want him there anymore..." Sebastian barely whispered

"Don't want him where?"

"Inside me, he's there, or at least his ghost is. He hurt me, he forced himself inside me and I can still feel him there. I want him gone" Sebastian whimpered

"How do we do that, Angel? How do we get him gone?" Kurt asked. Sebastian was silent for several long moments, squeezing his boyfriends hands tightly, seemingly in thought. Sebastian looked up at Kurt, green eyes meeting blue.

"Make love to me?"" Sebastian said quietly "Be inside me instead. Replaced the memory of him. Make me forget"

"Is that what you want? 100%?" Kurt questioned, Sebastian nodded

"I love you, and I trust you. I want you inside me" Sebastian leant forwards and pressed him lips against Kurt's, softly at first. Kurt could feel how hesitant and insecure his boyfriend was, he understood that this was a big deal for Sebastian. He knew about how Sebastian usually demanded dominance, but he could also feel how much that Sebastian needed to be submissive for once.

"Please." Sebastian whimpered. Kurt pulled Sebastian's face towards his own, once again rejoining their lips with more passion.

"Of course Angel. Anything you want."

The young couple spent the rest of their time in Paris curled up in bed. They frequently made love to one another and forgot about the world around them. For Sebastian, however, it was a relief to get on the plane back to Ohio. He was glad to be away from the bad memories, despite making new better memories the confrontation with Louis had shaken him.

Kurt of course had been wonderful. Perfect even. He had reassured all of Sebastian's worries, promised that they were both safe, he'd held Sebastian when the nightmares came and kissed him softly at every chance he got.

Burt picked them up at the airport and drove to the Hudmel Household, as Sebastian's car was still there. The two boys spent most of the journey dozing in the back of the car, oblivious to Burt smiling at them.

By the time they got home both boys shuffled upstairs, glad to sleep in a bed again. They changed into their pyjamas and cuddled together in Kurt's bed, immediately falling asleep in each other's arms.

It was another nightmare that woke Sebastian up. He shot forwards gasping for breath; he couldn't remember the exact details of the nightmare but whatever it was had frightened him deeply. Sighing, Sebastian ran a hand through his hair.

"You okay?" Kurt mumbled sleepily, not opening his eyes,

"Yeah Baby, I'm fine. I'm going to get some water, you go back to sleep." Sebastian whispered back, kissing his boyfriend on his forehead.

"Okay" Kurt smiled, rolling over and drifting back off. Sebastian smiled softly before sighing once more and getting out of the bed.

Quietly he made his way downstairs. Despite the fact that his watch told him it was only 11PM it appeared everyone was in bed. Sebastian made his way to the kitchen and got himself a glass. It was when he was filling said glass with water from the tap that a voice made him jump.

"You okay kiddo?"Sebastian spun round and saw Burt standing behind him.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine" Sebastian stammered, taking a tiny sip of his water.

"You sure Bud? No offence but you look like crap" Sebastian let out a shaky laugh

"I guess I do huh? I've had a rough couple of days." Sebastian admitted "Paris wasn't exactly as friendly as I remember"

"Sit" Burt said simply, gesturing to the kitchen table, pulling out a seat for himself. Sebastian did as he was told, sitting down quickly, wrapping his hands around his glass. "Kurt said he had a great time."

"Of course he did, he doesn't seem to understand the amount of danger he was in this weekend."

"Danger?" Burt asked, confused.

"Erm, I...I was raped when I was fourteen, and the guy who did it showed up at the house. He threatened me. I froze up. And then he threatened Kurt, and I couldn't do anything" Sebastian explained quietly, tears beginning to burn in his eyes, threatening to fall as he recalled the events of the past couple of days.

"My worst fear is that bastard hurting Kurt. And when that was a possibility I froze like a coward." Sebastian wiped a tear away that had begun to fall and took a deep breath "Kurt managed to scare him off, the amazing person he is. The one time when I was supposed to be protecting him, he was protecting me"

"Sebastian, you're not responsible for Kurt's safety. Admittedly, you believing that you are is probably my fault, with me telling you to keep him safe. But you don't have to protect him. I can guarantee that your parents have told Kurt to keep you safe. It something parents say to give themselves a piece of mind."

"But Louis is my problem, Kurt shouldn't be put in danger because of something that happened in my past" Sebastian countered.

"Tell me something. If Blaine turned up at Dalton, wanting to try and hurt Kurt again, would you leave them alone together. Because it's Kurt's past and it shouldn't put you in danger?"

"No, I'd never leave Kurt alone with Blaine."

"Then why do you think that Kurt should leave you alone with the person that hurt you?"

"I...I don't know"

"My son loves you with all his heart. There is no way he would leave you alone with someone that might hurt you. So this guilt you have at putting him in danger needs to stop. Nobody is blaming you, no one loves you any less. You are home now, everyone is safe. Nobody is hurt. Nobody is hurt because of you."

"I love him too," Sebastian smiled softly "And I guess you're right, we are home now. Louis can't get to us here at least. I guess my Père did something right"

"What's that supposed to mean Seb?"

"Well, we pressed charges. My Père was the prosecutor, we won and Louis went to prison. I told my Père I didn't want to know how long he got. It turns out he only got three years."

"What's that got to do with your Père?"

"He lied to me. He said that we moved to America for his new job. It turns out he was looking for a job in America so we could move away from Paris before Louis was released."

"And you're mad t him for that?"

"I just feel like I didn't have a choice. Of course I'm glad we moved, I never would have met Kurt if we didn't. I'm just angry that he lied. That he brought me tickets to Paris, knowing full well that Louis would be out."

"Sebastian, I don't know what your father was thinking, but I guarantee you he was thinking of you when he did it. Your father loves you, and I advise you to speak with him, find out why he did what he did from him instead of assuming things"

Sebastian nodded, Burt was right, he needed to talk to his Père. Yes he was angry, but he couldn't stay angry forever. Sebastian knew his parents loved him, he would have to talk to them both.

"I will, tomorrow, when I go home."

"Good," Burt smiled, getting up from his chair. "Now give me a hug and get back to bed"

Sebastian returned the smile and he too stood up. After a quick hug and a whispered thank you Sebastian made his way back up to Kurt's room, taking the glass with him. He put the glass on the bedside table and got back into bed with his boyfriend.

Immediately Kurt cuddled up to him, Sebastian wrapped his arms round Kurt and kissed his forehead.

"I love you Baby"

"Love you more"

Late the next afternoon Sebastian walked through the front door of the Smythe mansion. Putting his bag down by the door Sebastian called out to his parents, letting them know he was back. He was immediately greeted by a blur of white barking fur.

"Hi Bear," Sebastian said, kneeling down and petting his dog, fluffing up his fur and receiving a thorough face licking. "You miss me? Who's a good boy? You are! Yes you are" Sebastian hugged Bear tightly whilst Bear continued to lick him.

"Fils? Sebastian?" Nathaniel walked into the hallway and Sebastian rose to his feet

"Père" Sebastian nodded in greeting

"Can we talk?" Nathaniel asked hesitantly, gesturing to the living room.

"Yeah, sure" Sebastian replied, both men began to walk towards the living room, Sebastian following his father, sitting on the armchair facing his father on the couch.

"Sebastian, I'm sorry..." He started but he began to trail off, seemingly unsure of what to say.

"Why did you lie?" Sebastian asked quietly, looking down at his heads which were clenched together

"I couldn't risk losing you again Seb" His father replied

"W...What do you mean"

"Sebastian, three weeks before the trial I came home from work to a seemingly empty house. You were supposed to be home with your Maman but she had to go to work- some emergency or something. She didn't want to leave you alone but she had to leave straight away."

"So she rang me. You were on your own for 30-45 minutes but when I got in the house looked empty. I thought maybe you'd gone to sleep. You spent a lot of time in bed back then, but when I got to your room you weren't there."

Nathaniel took a deep breath and Sebastian looked up as his father began talking again.

"I don't know what made me check the bathroom but I did. God Sebastian there was so much blood" tears began to form in Nathaniel's eyes "You were on the floor, unconscious. At first I thought you were dead, but I could see you breathing, so I rung an ambulance and tried to wake you up. But you wouldn't"

"I held you in my arms but I felt so helpless. I felt so useless, you'd been through hell and I hadn't noticed, you were clearly struggling in the weeks after but I couldn't do anything to help."

"Père I..."

"When we were in the ambulance, the paramedic told me that you might not make it to the hospital because of how much blood you'd lost. I was so scared Seb. I thought I was going to lose you, my little miracle baby." Nathaniel whispered, wiping the tears from his face.

"When I came home from court I kept thinking about that night. You needed to feel safe and protected. How could I come home and tell you that the one person who could take that away that feeling of safety was only going to get three years in prison?"

"I told your Maman and we decided it was best if we told you he got a long time. So you didn't have to worry about him anymore. I pressed for a restraining order so you would feel more protected and so later on when you found out he only got three years you would know he couldn't come near you."

"I know I shouldn't have lied, but you'd only just got out of hospital. I couldn't see you break again." Nathaniel sighed and paused for a moment.

Sebastian didn't know what to do. He could remember vividly how he'd felt the day he'd tried to kill himself. He had been in pain, he'd just wanted everything to stop. But it wouldn't. His Maman had left the house and he'd gone into his bathroom to cut, but he didn't stop.

He could remember waking up in hospital to see his Père sat in the little plastic chair next to him. Dishevelled in appearance; his brown hair stuck up in all different angles, his green eyes were rimmed red and his head was resting in his hands. His clothes were rumpled and his once white shirt had its blood stained sleeves rolled up.

He could remember the relief on his Père's face as Sebastian's croaky voice had called out. He could clearly see in his mind the mixture of emotions that had been on his Père's face; anger, hurt, guilt, relief. He had leapt forwards and embraced Sebastian, squeezing him tightly.

"I never meant to hurt you, I... I wasn't thinking" Sebastian replied

"I know Seb. And I don't blame you for anything. It's just... when I came back from court you looked at me, you eyes so full of hope. I knew that what I had to say would crush you. Your Maman and I told you that you were safe, that Louis had got a long sentence because we couldn't take the risk that it would send you back over the edge."

"We decided that we'd tell you later on. But then you were getting better. Okay you weren't exactly happy- like you are now- but you'd stopped cutting, started smiling and I couldn't tell you. I tried. But every time I did I kept seeing you, lying on that bathroom floor."

"So we decided that'd we'd move back to America, where Louis couldn't get you. Your Maman moved the company here and I started looking for a job. We decided Ohio because its where your Grandparents lived and they gave us the house. For a while it looked like I was going to have to stay in Paris."

"Why?"

"I couldn't find a job. I was going to stay and work in Paris whilst your Maman came here with you. Luckily I found a job last minute"

"You and Maman were going to live apart, for me?" Sebastian asked

"We'd do anything for you Sebastian, if that meant us being separate for a while, so be it."

"I'm sorry for being mad at you, and hanging up on you. And not telling you I loved you" Sebastian apologised. Nathaniel pulled Sebastian from the chair and on onto the couch, forcing him into an embrace.

"I'm sorry too. For not telling you the truth and for putting you and Kurt in danger. I'd never have suggested you go if I'd thought for a second that Louis would show up at the house."

"I forgive you" Sebastian murmured

"And I forgive you."

The two sat in silence for a few long minutes, simply cuddling together. Lucinda walked in shortly after, she too sat on the couch, next to Sebastian and joined in the family hug. Not to be outdone Bear quickly skidded into the living room and attempted to jump up on the Smythe's.

The family squealed/groaned in unison as a 54 KG dog squashed them, however, it didn't take long for him to fall off, instead he decided to sit on the floor in front of Nathaniel, wagging his tail. Nathanial immediately sat up, and gently grabbed Bear's face.

"We were having a moment" he mock shouted at the dog "And you ruined it! You make me wish we'd adopted your sister instead, she was a lot calmer. But no Lucy thought Sebastian would prefer a boy dog."

"Hey! Don't blame him on me. You're the one he sat on when we went to look at the puppies. He chose you" Lucinda laughed in response

"Leave my puppy alone, he just wanted a cuddle, didn't you Bud?" Bear barked and Sebastian moved to the floor, pulling him into a hug. The large dog flopped down onto Sebastian and playfully rolled, squashing Sebastian.

"Can't breathe," Sebastian gasped dramatically. "Tell Kurt I love him... Avenge me" Sebastian went still, pretending to be dead. Bear jumped up immediately and sniffed his owner. Licking his face in an attempt to wake him up.

"You do care!" Sebastian suddenly sat up, grabbing the dog again, startling him slightly. Bear barked at his human, jumping back away from him before grabbing his pull rope and bringing it back. Sebastian took one end of the toy and Bear mercilessly pulled on the other.

The family decided that it would be best to take Bear on a walk to use up all his excess energy. So they'd all piled in the car and had driven to the nearest woods. They spent a good couple of hours wondering the trails and watching as Bear tried to chase the squirrels, try being the operative word as the dog was as daft as a brush and couldn't seem to figure out where the small rodents escaped to.

When the group returned home Bear was considerably worn out, as was Sebastian, he'd spent most of the "walk" chasing after Bear and had been pushed into a muddy puddle by the dog as he was attempting to stop him rolling in said puddle- he had failed and Bear was also splattered in brown. Both Nathanial and Lucinda had laughed at their son until Sebastian had too splashed them with mud.

Sebastian got into the shower as soon as he got home- deciding to let someone else bath the giant dog for once-, scrubbing himself clean and relaxing under the warm spray as he washed his hair. When he stepped out of the shower he wrapped himself in a fluffy towel before getting dressed in a pair of sweatpants. He was just about to go downstairs to annoy his Maman when his phone began to ring, looking down he saw that it was Kurt. Sebastian smiled, he'd missed his boyfriend today, despite them being apart for a few hours, it was strange for him not to be there right next to him

"Hey Baby" Sebastian greeted

"Hey, how'd it go?" Kurt asked, Sebastian had told his boyfriend that he intended to speak with his father when he had left. His boyfriend had given him a kiss on the cheek and wished him good luck before watching Sebastian drive away.

"It went okay actually, we talked everything through, I understand he was just trying to protect me. He didn't want me to go back to the dark place I was in before the trial and then couldn't seem to break the news to me when I was happy because he didn't want to ruin my happiness. We both apologised to each other and everything is okay again."

"That's great Bastian" Kurt said enthusiastically, knowing how upset Sebastian had gotten over his father's lies. He'd had a dark cloud hovering over him ever since he had found out about Louis' significantly shorter sentence. He actually sounded happier, more optimistic, more like the real Sebastian again, which was a brilliant thing.

"What have you been doing all day?" Sebastian asked, lying back on his bed

"I've been at the shop with my Dad." Kurt replied, Sebastian whimpered at the thought of his boyfriend in those Goddamn coveralls, covered in oil and sweat.

"Baby, why do you do this to me?"

"Seriously? How can you still be horny after the week we've just had" Kurt laughed, "You need help Sebastian Smythe, professional help" Kurt teased and Sebastian snorted.

"I'm always hard for you" Sebastian smirked, Kurt laughed again before sighing to himself. Sebastian frowned, hearing the sadness in that one little noise "What's wrong?"

"Nothing, it's silly" Kurt replied, presumably with a shake of his head

"Kurt if it's bothering you it's not silly" Sebastian retorted

"It's just... I miss you." Kurt stated "And it is silly because we've been apart for no longer than a day."

"If missing each other is silly then we're both idiots." Sebastian replied calmly "The amount of times I've turned to tell you something or to hold your hand only to realise you're not there today is ridiculous"

"I guess we're both kind of pathetic huh?" Kurt said "I'm so used to us being with each other all the time. If we're not together then you're just down the hall or in another class, not a 2 hours drive away. Especially after this week when we haven't really spent a minute apart"

"I know, I miss being able to cuddle with you whenever I want, but I'll see you in a couple of days, we'll be back at Dalton soon."

"And then off to New York" Kurt smiled

"Oh!" Sebastian suddenly exclaimed, sitting up straight on his bed and leaning forwards "You'll never guess what Maman told me today"

"About New York? What?" Kurt replied, automatically picking up on Sebastian's excitement

"Okay, so you know my parents were going to pay for our apartment?"

"Yeah" Kurt said, elongating the word, Sebastian heard the silent "Get to the point" and did so.

"Well after talking to my Grandparents they've decided that they're going to give us the Penthouse" Sebastian told Kurt happily

"What really?" Kurt asked, shocked

"Yeah, apparently Maman was struggling to find a "decent" apartment that she deemed safe. So she asked if we could have the Penthouse and my Grandparents said we could. No one really uses it anymore. My Aunt was the one who used it but now they've moved she doesn't."

"Are you sure they're okay with me using it?" Kurt questioned he was unsure of how Sebastian's family would feel, letting some random stranger live in their penthouse.

"Yes, they're one hundred percent sure. Everyone in my family loves you Kurt. Don't worry about it." Sebastian laughed

"What does it look like" Kurt asked, already become more excited.

"It's amazing Kurt, I can't wait until you see it. It's pretty much open plan with the kitchen, lounge and dining room. I don't know what floor it is but it's high up, most of the outside wall is glass so you can see out across the city and it has a balcony." Sebastian described "It has two bedrooms and a study, as well as an ensuite for the master bedroom and another bathroom. The building allows pets so they're going to be fine with Bear. It's going to be great Kurt"

"It's sound's amazing" Kurt sighed

"It is"

"So we're going to be those annoying rich kids at college, having a Penthouse apartment?"

"Yep" Sebastian smirked "There's even a doorman, everyone is going to hate us." Both boys laughed for a moment before falling into silence.

"I love you,"

"I love more Baby"

Thanks for reading, please tell me what you thought in the comments and if you have any requests for this story please just let me know.

Thanks again,

Lyna