AN: I don't own any of these characters, Cassandra Clare is the owner, I'm just a mere writer.

Hope u enjoy it. And I'm open to helpful criticism and suggestions...

'thoughts'

"normal talk"

This story is when Alec and Magnus break up, I haven't read the books yet, all I know is about Alec's attempt to take Magnus's immortality with the help of Camille so they could be together forever, so i would really appreciate if there's no spoilers in the reviews. Thank u!

"Get out"

"But Magnus I-"

"I don't wanna hear your petty excuses, just get out and never come back here again" Magnus managed to say in a calm yet acerbic tone, turning around so he wouldn't have to face the young heartbroken shadowhunter in front of him, he continued "we're over Alexander" It was barely a whisper but it was loud enough for the teenager who's face was now socked in tears to hear.

Alec felt like he was stabbed a thousand times in the chest at hearing those words, but he received the message loud and clear, he hurt the warlock, he betrayed him in the most unthinkable way, and now he doesn't want him anymore, he even refuses to look at him.

Knowing they were probably the last words he's ever gonna get to say to his now ex-boyfriend he chose them wisely. Trying his best not to choke on his own words he said "I'm so sorry Magnus, I hope someday you'll be able to forgive me...I love you" and with that he picked up his luggage and walked out of the apartment. As soon as Magnus heard the door slamming he let out that frustrated scream he'd been holding.

Tears fell down his cheeks as he grabbed anything in sight and threw it, to the wall, through the window, he didn't care, he just wanted to vent. His heart was filled with pain because of the shadowhunter, not only because of his betrayal, but also because of the fact that they were no longer together, heck he was the one to break things off, but that doesn't mean he wasn't still desperately in love with him, and yet he couldn't be with someone who he no longer trusted.

With one last scream, he fell down on his knees sobbing loudly "Why did you do it...I-I don't wanna be alone anymore"

Back at the institute

Alec was thankful that it was raining that day, otherwise his tears would have been all too well visible, he was defeated, heartbroken, lost, he walked into the institute barely holding his own weight wishing no one would notice him and his tears that he was unable to stop. He just wanted to crawl under the sheets of his bed and never come out, there wasn't a reason for him to live anymore, at least that's the way he felt right now, he wished to sleep for all eternity and maybe that way he wouldn't feel this immense pain in his chest, and maybe he'd forget and everything would be alright again.

But his wishes were unheard as Izzy ran up to him with a concerned face, gasping at the sight of her older brother's tears and his face that implied he just saw someone dear to him die right in front of him. She couldn't hep but ask "Alec what's wrong? what happened to you? why are you crying?" the poor thing just wanted to figure out what happened so she could try to comfort him, but she was ignored, she kept following him as he walked to his room "Should I call Magnus?"

"No!" he practically shouted with a glare and slammed the door of his bedroom leaving a very distressed sister behind.

Not even caring about his wet clothes nor the fact that he might get sick tomorrow, he fell down to his bed, curled up hiding his face in the pillow trying to control his loud sobbing or at least muffle it so the whole institute wouldn't hear him at his lowest point.

"Magnus" he continued to repeat his name as if he stopped Magnus would disappear. It felt ironic that the name of the person that just broke his heart and left him still brought serenity and comfort to his soul.

He continued to weep alone in his room for the rest of the night until he finally fell asleep and his tears and sorrow paused for a bit.

Meanwhile outside of his bedroom door, Jace, Clary and Isabelle were standing there, gathered up listening to Alec, they were trying to get him to talk or come out for a bit since he locked up his door. They could have used the unlock rune but figured it'd be for the best if he was the one who let them in.

"He stopped" Clary sighted "What happened to him? Did he say something?"

"No I tried to ask, but he just ignored me and walked to his room"

"All I know is he finally stopped and we should get some sleep considering it's 3 in the morning" Jace said "We can try again in the morning, maybe he'll talk to us after he calms down a bit"

Clary nodded but Isabelle wanted to try one last time, so she dialed Magnus's phone number and waited "Voice mail again..." she sighted "Listen Magnus..."

Back at Magnus's apartment

Magnus decided against the idea of sleeping since every time he closed his eyes all he could see was Alexander's face and all the good times they shared so far, then he would remember what he did to him, his betrayal and the shadowhunter's face when he told him they're over, he didn't want to experience that all over again, one time was more than enough 'Damn it'

So he decided getting drunk was the best solution for him right now, so he opened every bottle he had and emptied them one by one, and now he was talking to his cat that was sitting on the couch, or what's left of it anyway.. "Why did he have to do this Chairman?.. oh don't give me that look, i know he didn't do it, but he considered it, and he didn't even talk to me about it... he didn't trust me after all" he uttered "I loved him, I love him, but I was silly enough to actually think that maybe Alexander Lightwood wouldn't break my heart" he layed down on the floor letting his drink spill all over the place "I've gone soft over the years"

As soon as he closed his eyes ready to fall asleep, his phone rang for the 20th time this night. The first 12 were all from Alec, he answered only the first time with a furious "what" but no respond came from the other line, he barely heard a quiet muffled sob and immediately hang up, he didn't answer after that cause he didn't want to hear Alec's pain or acknowledge the fact that he hurt that young boy as much as he did to him , he didn't want his will to waver. And after that, Alec kept calling, but never leaving a voicemail, maybe he just wanted to hear the warlock's voice one more time.

This time it was Izzy calling, he chose to ignore it again and it went straight to voicemail, her voice was angry but still sad and concerned "Listen Magnus, I don't know what happened between you and my brother but only now he stopped crying, you better-"

"I better what Isabelle?" he yelled, maybe it was because he was drunk, or maybe because he just had enough but he decided to answer "I better apologize to him? I better forgive him for what he's done and let us get back together? His begging didn't work and yours won't either, my immortality is no little thing he can throw away whenever he wishes to, I have had it with you Lightwoods, and saying sorry seems hardly adequate" he spat out and threw the phone away.

Izzy had a shocked face that made everyone concerned and expect the worse.

"What is it Izzy what did he tell you?" asked Jace a bit impatient

"They broke up" she replied in disbelieve her hand still on her mouth

"No wonder he's been crying all night, but..why? I thought they were doing great, what happened?" questioned Clary trying to make sense of what's going on

"H-He said something about Alec..taking away his immortality or something"

So that's it for this chapter, this won't be a one shot of course, i personally like happy endings.

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Thank you for reading..R&R!