Title: Mending a Broken Bond

Rated: T, might change to M in future chapters

Genre: Angst/Romance/Hurt & Comfort

Pairing: Karma x Nagisa

Warning: Self-harm, Depression, self-blame, triggers, bad grammar, language, might also have lemon in the future, AU, OOC, and lots and lots of tears.

Fanfiction Summary: "You were RED. You liked me because I was BLUE. You touched me and suddenly, I was a LILAC sky. And you decided PURPLE, Just wasn't for you…. Karma-kun…" When Karma distanced himself from Nagisa, he didn't know what happen to his best friend. When Nagisa thought Karma was bored of him, he lose his best friend and stone. Upon planning to return a book Karma didn't expect to hear it.

Full Summary: "You were RED. You liked me because I was BLUE. You touched me and suddenly, I was a LILAC sky. And you decided PURPLE, Just wasn't for you…. Karma-kun…" When Karma distanced himself from Nagisa, he didn't know what happen to his best friend. When Nagisa thought Karma was bored of him, he thought he could handle it, he was wrong it was getting worse and worse each day. When they met again, they weren't classmates, but they weren't also best friend like they use to be, they were just friends. When Karma planned to give Nagisa his notebook that he forgot to give him earlier, he didn't expect to hear Nagisa's mom shouting. Nor did he expect to see the remainders of what happen when he left Nagisa all those years ago during their classroom war. And Karma regretted everything…

"We Drifted…Karma-kun…."

"But! I'M going to MEND IT! I'm not going to lose you Nagisa!"

…

"Nagisa! Don't you dare to –!"

"Sayonara…Karma-kun… I love you…"

"NAGISA!"

Legends:

"Talking"

'Thinking'

'Flashback/Dream'

"Angry/Emphasizing"

Prologue: The Beginning

(A/N: Please watch this video Drifted: Karma x Nagisa on youtube so that you could see why I chose the song as an opening song.)

(Opening Song)

"Never Had a Dream Come True"

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you~

Karma's POV

When I first saw Nagisa, it was on our first day of class, in our classroom, I thought he was a girl from the start. But when he said he was a boy on his introduction, I never thought I would be shocked in my whole life. I mean he absolutely passed as a girl, long sky blue hair, curvy body and a girlish voice. In fact he looks like a harmless little mouse, a sore thumb in this place that is filled with cats and dogs. During the first month of our school, I tried to not glance at him every single time, but it was hard for me. Why? Because Shiota Nagisa had this aura that scream 'mysterious' and I as a delinquent can't help but be curious. And you know what they say curiosity killed the cat but I'm not going there yet.

I think it was a week later that I saw Nagisa looking at me and smiling, when I went towards the teacher asking about a math problem that was for the second years, his eyes was still following me even when I was about to head out and buy a drink. And then later that day I stalked him, yes I said I stalked him because I was curious at that time, followed him inside a bookstore and saw him reading a magazine and once again out of curiosity, I went towards him to look at what he was reading and saw it was sonic ninja and before I knew it I was reading the details before exclaiming.

"Whoa, no way!" I smiled while pointing at the book. "Nazzoni directed Sonic Ninja? How cool is that?" as I was saying this, I saw from the corner of my eyes, Nagisa turned to look at me with a surprised expression.

"Ooh, and it opens today?" I then look at him excitedly, though I was trying to keep it in minimum because let's face it, there aren't many student in Kunugigaoka that like this stuff or any at all, except from me and Nagisa. And without thinking I blurted something that I want to say every time I saw him leave.

"Let's go, Shiota-kun!" For a few seconds he was looking at me, his mouth opened a bit before it closed, he smiled with his eyes closed and a slight blush on his cheek before saying to me.

"Uh, yeah!"

Ever since then we started to hang out, be it by the pond where I play with my portable game console while he watched and sometimes we walk home together and eat together. I was happy at that time, I never felt that kind of happiness with my parents. And so, I spend half way through my first year with him, happily. But then there was one time when two delinquents block us on our way home. They were after me, because I beaten up one of them and so the other one want to revenge his pal. And without knowing it I went and punch them, smiling and laughing, enjoying the violence I showed them that I nearly forgot about Nagisa that was until he touched my shoulder and smiled at me. I froze then. I didn't realize I showed that side to my best friend, so the only thing I could do is help him leaned the two guys to wall before asking.

"Aren't you afraid of me?"

"Afraid of you?" He asks, before chuckling. "Karma-kun… there's no way I'll be afraid of you, your my best friend and I think you just don't want this guys to hurt me if they started to punch you first, so you just went ahead and did it."

"Aren't you going to fight for yourself?" I asks and he smiled pausing from wiping the blood on one of the guys lip.

"Me, fight? I think I'd be too scared to fight. I mean, if my life depended on it…" he told me and I began to think that maybe he was just really a harmless little mouse, but then a couple of weeks later, I felt that I should began to distance from him, because there was already a part of him that made me uneasy back then.

It started when we were having a lunch together, a date you might say. I got our order, a burger, fries and coke. We always order the same thing but when I walk away from the counter, I went looking for him, called out for him.

"Huh? Where'd he go? Nagisa-kun!"

'I could put my guard down around him.' That's what I thought when I felt it, at a glance it was merely him poking his point finger at my back but to me it was like I was being stabbed by a sword, that I immediately turned around with mixed emotion, angry, confuse, shock and worried.

"I'm right here, Karma-kun. Didn't you see me?" he asked, smiling innocently and sitting in front of the table behind me, this made me in daze not knowing if the feeling was real or just my imagination. It made me on alert. Something that could kill me in my sleep one day.

"Sorry 'bout that, Nagisa-kun! You're just so small!" I told him, sitting down while thinking that he was so honest and good, unlike me, that my anxiety had to be all in my head. And then I was sure he was mysterious… something… so I distanced myself from him, thinking it was for the best. I drift us apart, without knowing what will happen to Nagisa, we went back to plain old classmate. And I tried to ignore him as much as I could but he was my best friend, so I still tried to be his friend while keeping my distance from him, not knowing that something was wrong with him.

Nagisa's POV

Most people thinks I'm a girl, well more like everyone thinks I'm a girl the moment they saw me. Some of my friends made fun of me because of it, before I met Karma, I was all alone. Even though I made some friends with the others, they were backstabbing, laughing and joking about me behind my back. That I began to ignore them, they don't know me. They don't know my mom, who is very hurt me so much, who wanted to have a girl as a child but instead she had me. And so she had no choice but to force me to be her 'girl'. She gets angry when I disobey her or even try to asks to cut my hair, though I just asks her about the latter once because my head still hurts when she bangs it at the wall. I'm a boy, not a girl. She dresses me with girl clothes, tied my hair… everything about what she does is all about for girl's. She never accepts me. I manage to go to school because it was a rule in our school to wear the uniform base on the gender we wrote at our papers and luckily I wrote male, so mom had no choice but to have me wear the male uniform, unless she wants me to be on lower school which won't work for her. So school days were my freedom. And then I met him, Akabane Karma, the one I looked up to.

I always heard the teachers praised him, something I couldn't have. He did what he wanted and was completely unafraid. Which made me to smile and watch him from the sidelines. He was smart and could do anything. If only I could be like that, I always thought. That's why I was so shocked that he came near me when I was reading my favourite comic, Sonic Ninja. That was the day I figured that he also like it, that it made me smile and blush. I enjoyed spending time with him, even though I barely do anything, because it was either he was playing his console or ordering the food because he said and I quote.

"It's improper for a gentleman to let a young lady like you to carry things like this." Unquote and let me tell you, I hate it when he said young lady, even if his joking about it. But then, he started to distance himself from me, I tried not to let it bother me so much. I tried to tell myself that Karma is already bored of me, that I'm a nobody, who he just want to waste his time with and I shouldn't be bother by it. But no matter how I try, I just keep thinking that maybe I did something wrong, what if I tried my best in school, there are a lots of 'what if' swirling in my mind that by the time I graduate from being a first year, a week later and I couldn't bear it anymore. I did something I promise myself I wouldn't do… I cut myself. Honestly, that wasn't the first time I cut myself. I started cutting when my mom's demands became worse and that was when I was ten. I stopped when Karma and I became friends, he was my rock, my life and then suddenly his gone. At the beginning I cut my left wrist, wearing the red wristband on both of my wrist to cover it. And when I began to cut again, it's on both wrist, making sure it's in a line or coverable by the band. When my time in second year arrive, Karma and I were still classmates. But just like that, classmates.

I'm sure he didn't notice my scars. Nor how thin I became due to my mom preparing my meals and saying it was a diet. I miss him, I miss him so much. So I bought a small note book and wrote.

'You were RED.
You liked me because I was BLUE.
You touched me and suddenly, I was a LILAC sky.
And you decided PURPLE, Just wasn't for you…'

By the time I finished it, tears were slowly falling down from my eyes and in the darkest time of the day, I sobbed your name in tears and pain.

"Karma-kun…."

And then I was no longer a 2-D but a 3-E.

My peers left me, my mom became worse and I cut myself again… this time on my thighs. I plan to kill myself, but I couldn't do it knowing what will happen to my mom. So I bear it, cut myself and try to forget you… but Karma-kun… you were always there and we were back to normal or what I considered normal... but Karma-kun... I need you by my side... help me...

TBC

Hey guys! This is my first Assassination Classroom fic. And I'm not sure if you like this, because this idea just pop into my mind when I saw a picture about Karma and Nagisa and then the episode 18 happen and yeah well, I hope you enjoyed this and if I got reviews, followers, or favorites I will continue this story… thank you for reading ne~