Patience

By: Anna Hibiki

Rating: R, it will eventually go up.

Disclaimers: Weiss is not mine! Koyasu-sama and other people with much more money than me owns it.

Warnings : Shounen-ai/Yaoi, OCC for Youji, angst, illness, some scenes are not very nice to read since the illness and the state of the sick character is gonna be described.

Pairings: Youji/Ken, Aya/Ken (one-sided), Omi/Nagi. If I continue this there'll be some changes and new pairings.

Notes : Anything written in Italic are thoughts. Things /written this way/ are mental talk.

This fic can be read in my page, mediaminer.org and ff.net.

[This fic is being beta-readed by Whisper Reilman, thanks to her you won't die thanks to my mistakes *hugs Whisper* Arigato!!]

Prologue (revised chapter)

"Oi! Maaaanx!! Why don't you send Mr. Iceman-sama on the mission instead of me? I didn't get my beauty sleep last night, if you know what I mean..." Youji drawled, a childish pout forming though it disappeared instantly when a brightly blushing Ken kicked him hard. "K's- Oiii yame-!!" he tried to get his hair out of his boyfriend's grasp "Mou KenKen!! Why did you do that?"

He was greeted by the angry scowl on the brunette's face. But, since Ken was horrible at glaring, the brunette only managed to look adorable. "You! Stop talking about _those sort of things_, you're corrupting Omi!" Ken yelled as he released Youji's hair.

"Hidoi yo" he grumbled to Ken, turning his face away stubbornly, his arms embracing himself childishly. "No Yo-tan glomps for you today!"

"You deserved- NA-NANI?! No Yo-tan glomps for me today?" he asked, his hands on his hips as he glared at his koibito.

Manx cleared her throat, reminding them of her presence. "Balinese, are you in or will I have to give this mission to another group?"

The blonde sighed softly. He didn't want to go on the mission, he wasn't feeling very well; his head hurt a little but it wasn't from alcohol. It might be lack of sleep...maybe he and Ken needed to change their 'sleeping habits'. He took a new cigarette from his pocket. Manx was looking slightly bored as she waited for his answer. He had to accept. Ken's birthday was coming in nine days and he didn't have enough money to buy him the present he wanted and asking Omi or Aya for money was ABSOLUTELY out of question- especially Aya - so he had to take this mission. At least he wasn't going to be alone, he'd be with his KenKen. "I'm in" he said, a bit of cheer echoing in his voice.

"Sugoi!" the former soccer player exclaimed and placed himself onto Youji's lap with a jump, hugging the older man who pulled him away with a sadistic smirk.

"I said not Yo-tan glomping for you today" he said playfully.

If he had known that it would might be one of the last times he was going to be able to hold the brunette, he might have reconsidered Ken's 'punishment,' but not all humans can know the future and, unfortunately for the tall blonde, his ignorance was going to cost him dearly.

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Ken and Youji crawled on their knees as they tried to pass through the small hidden corridor, their gloves keeping their hands from touching the corridor's grime covered floor. Unfortunately their clothes didn't guard them from the cobwebs and insects that touched their now dust covered faces. Obviously, no one had been through this passage in a very long time.

Youji tried to quell the urge to throw up. The humidity made the place smell much worse that it should, causing a wave of nausea to wash over them. "C'mon Siberian, move that cute little ass of yours so we can get out of here" he said when Ken stopped for a second. "Hayaku!"

"It splits in two." The brunette murmured, trying not to scream when a rather giant cockroach touched the little portion of tanned skin that separated his gloves from his jacket. "Y- Ba-Balinese..."

"Nani?"

"Cock.. cock-cockroach!!!" he screamed, slapping the insect away and entering through the left corridor with inhuman speed.

"Matte!! Koi!!" Youji tried to equal the younger man's speed, but stopped when a sharp pain shot through the right part of his brain. He bit his lip to refrain from screaming in pain, not wanting to scare Ken . A minute or so later the pain receded and he continued after his teammate.

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They were home at last. The mission had been a success. It hadn't been hard, just a quick hit to collect some information. After they gave the report to Omi, they headed upstairs, feeling slightly better than before, though only a little since they both reeked and were completely covered in dust and spider-webs- at least they had gotten rid of the insects on the webs.

Now they just wanted to shower.

"I go first! Wait for me in my bedrooooooom!" Youji announced and locked himself into the bathroom, leaving an angry Ken outside.

"Hidoi yo! Hidoi yo! Hidoiiiiiiiiii!!!" he yelled at his lover who was now putting that gorgeous body of his under the hot water. "Bah. Whatever." Ken murmured and headed towards the blonde's room while he removed his dirty gloves. Once into the room, he removed his jacket, shirt and the orange shirt he usually tied around his waist, tossing them carelessly into a corner. A few minutes later Youji entered the room, now clean, clad only in boxers, and with his hair still dripping water. The essence of his vanilla shampoo contrasting with the smell of Ken's dirty clothes.

Youji grinned at his lover as he closed the door. "Now's your turn, love." he said ceremoniously, making a mocking bow.

Ken glared at him. "Leave me alone. You're not being very nice today, you know" he murmured."And anyway, why did you want me here if you don't want glomps today?"

Youji took a few steps forward until he had cornered Ken against the wall. "I said there weren't going to be glomps today, but did I say anything about kisses?" he asked, voice husky and eyes hungry as he ran a hand up the brunette's chest, stopping at his cheek to clean some of the dirt that was still there.

Ken blushed as he took in the position they were in. They had to stop it, at least until Ken took a shower; there was no way he was going to let Youji touch him anymore while he was this dirty. He prepared for the kiss that was going to come. Knowing Youji like he did, he knew it was going to be passionate and forceful, and Youji's free hand (the other was still touching his cheek) went to the back of his neck.

That seemed to confirm Ken's suspicions.

But they say that you never go to sleep without learning something new.

And Ken's eyes widened in surprise when instead of the savage tongue fight he was expecting, he felt soft lips kissing the tip of his nose as the hand that was cupping his cheek moved to pull a spider-web away from the soccer player's hair. "Go shower" Youji whispered and brushed his lips against his boyfriend's, letting them linger there a little.

Ken was startled; they had been together for almost two months now and Youji had never been so tender. Of course the blonde loved Ken and all, but he was usually so passionate that he forgot to be softer, not that the brunette had cared overly much. "Yo-tan?"

Youji opened his eyes, looking at his lover with darkened eyes, a question lingering in emerald depths.

"Are you.. are you okay? You're acting weird today.."

The older man just laughed and gave him a soft kiss on his lower lip. "You're imagining things. Go clean yourself, you reek."

"Hey! You're the one who didn't let me go take a shower!" Ken said, pushing the blonde away and exiting the room.

When Ken closed the door, Youji grinned evilly. He turned off the lights and slid into the bed, covering his nearly naked body with the blankets. Just for today, to frustrate his boyfriend, he was going to sleep in his boxers. He'll discover it when he comes here and will think I'm asleep already, and then I'll get him and... Youji started to chuckle until the sharp pain in his head made everything disappear.

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Ken felt so warm inside... He hadn't expected Youji to kiss him so tenderly, the little gesture seemed to scream 'I love you'. The blonde had never said those words to him. And neither had he. Even if he had been in love with the lanky assassin since they met, and of course he knew how much he loved the older man, he just couldn't allow himself to say those words. He hadn't thought they would have been needed either. Even if their relationship was primarily physical, the friendship they shared and a few tender moments left them content. But sometimes, he though that it wasn't enough. That he should tell Youji how he really felt, how deep his feelings were, because you never know it you will have the chance again.

He opened Youji's door slowly, trying not to make as little noise as possible to avoid disturbing Omi, who had gone to bed a few minutes previous. Once he entered the room, he took in how dark the room was and turned the lights on so he could reach the bed without dying while he tried.

"Ne, Yo-tan! I was thinkin' th-" he turned to look at his lover...

And screamed.

Screamed in panic at the sight of his boyfriend with his eyes wide open, his mouth oddly curled at the right side with a thin trail of saliva running down his chin. He noticed that he wasn't breathing right. Ken continued screaming, running towards Youji and then stopped, not knowing what to do.

"Yo-Youji! Oh, shit! Can you hear me?! O-OMI!!! AYA!!! COME HERE!!! HAYAKU!!!" he screamed as tears of fear and impotence streamed from his eyes. A tight pain in his chest made him fall to his knees as his teammates entered the room.

tsu zu ku?

Yo minna! Here I am, torturing ya with some angst (it seems it's the only thing I can write ¬¬).

Do you like this? I really, really hope you do.

I have to be sincere. While I was writing this, and before posting it, I've been about to delete it. The reason? I know that this kind of plot is not nice, and there are parts that are really hard to read, and you'll see that if I continue writing this. Things that would go from the guys having to carry Youji anywhere to even having to feed him, and I'm not talking about how Youji would act, or how would the others feel around him and all yet.

So, because of how weird this is, I don't know if I should continue it or not.

Oi, I know I'm babbling too much, but I think I had to say it.

In case I continue this fic, I'll tell you in the next chapter a few things about Youji's condition and all that stuff. [NOTE: The fic has been continued and the non edited chapters can be found at ff.net and my page (also in mediaminer.org, but that page's been dead for weeks *glares*)]

Well, I dun wanna sound too depressing, so I'll tell you from where the title of the fic came from. I have some kind of mania to give all my fics the name of a song. So this fic couldn't be less and it's called 'Patience' in honor to my favorite song of all times, that's from Guns N' Roses. I also think that the title suits the fic.

Please, I REALLY need your comments about if I should continue this or just drop the idea. Any idea, suggestion, or note of encouragement will be gladly received and answered.

Nos vemos!