Summary: There are days he just wants everything to burn.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara! it is owned by Ryohgo Narita.

There are days he just wants everything to burn. His understanding of whether this is a sporadic bout of insanity or the equally unsound Orihara Izaya is something he is no longer capable of differentiating between.

He is uncertain as to what it is that compels him to ruin everything and everyone. He has thought about the answer to this for hours and days without end. Many things strike him as a possibility. There is always a sound reason for his actions.

Izaya believes he does it for the flickering of emotions across the humans faces. Watching and revelling in a perverse slam of elation at knowing that someones final breaking point– the final flame of fight has been extinguished by his words, his goading has someone over the edge. Izaya has always enjoyed observing human reaction. They have such filling responses.

Another part of him that Izaya will loathe till the end of time hisses something foul. That the reason he fiddles with such fragile beings is because he is jealous, unsatisfied with himself. Izaya has always scoffed at this internal thought.

What could he possibly be jealous of? He has already come to terms that he is and will forever be a very very horrid person.

It is really not his fault that people are so disappointing. That they throng together and are led astray from him. It is not his fault that they do not understand Orihara Izaya at face value. It is most certainly not him that has committed a wrong but them.

Izaya can not for the life of himself fathom a logical idea for him to be jealous of beings that do not understand him. This is what snags his internal conflict in a small irregular moment of clarity. He cannot find a logical reason.

For someone that prides himself on logic and sound motives and actions, it makes no connection that fits.

Illogically there are tens of hundreds of reasons for Izaya to be envious of his beloved humans. Of how they can be starry-eyed around those deemed worthy. How they are so easily swayed by chivalry and fleeting facetious gossip. Izaya already knows all of this from his observations, but he does not understand.

This is another reason he wants everything to go down in flames. The ashes would be a welcoming caress when compared to the commonplace jeering and everyday disappointment.

It is a world he would be loved and he could love, his beloved humans both there and not.

Orihara Izaya truly cannot wait until he sets the world alight.

It will be a truly splendid day. He wants to see everything burn, the fire surrounding him like a blanket, it will be a sincerely and irrevocably divine moment in time.

A/N: I don't really know how to explain this other than just an idea that I played with in my head and wouldn't leave me alone.