IMPORTANT INFO ON EDIT ON STORY: If you read this before 3/28/17, than I'll just tell you that Nini is 15 currently, meaning that in Vampire Knight timeleine, she will be 19 by the time Rido has come to murder people.

In only a few seconds, despite my lack of energy, i was running towards the bathroom and vomiting into the toilet. The taste was horrible, and my throat was burning, but at the same time, I felt so detached from my own body. Whenever I thought about the second dry-heave, I always saw myself outside of my body and the pain never came with it. But that doesn't mean it wasn't still there, and it hurt like hell. There was liquid at first, draining itself up my body and down my throat as I jerked a little, holding the toilet as if it would run off.

Then came the worst part: nothing. I wanted to scratch at my neck until nothing was there, but I knew it wouldn't help. My throat felt like it was convulsing around itself, and like I was caught get my food up while trying to eat something. Man, what the hell. Also, what kind of poison is this?!

After what felt like a century, I stopped coughing. I sat there for a bit after flushing it down. I didn't know what I should do, since I couldn't stand without looking like a drunkard, much less walk. And what was I going to do once I got up? Make myself food? Yeah right. Go to bed? Wait, that's probably a good idea, but... Can't I just be lazy once in a while? Which is odd since I was talking about going to bed.

After another century or two, I heard the door to the house open quietly, then another (which I can only assume is the bedroom I sleep in), then a few others before the bathroom door opened, or more like slid open, since I never really had time to close it all the way. Shizuka ran in and nearly fell over during the small rush. She looked at me worriedly, and I only heard her faint words, which were gibberish, as nothing. I was distracted by her scent, her smell. No, I definitely am not a pervert, or a creeper, but it was something else. And then I realized it: nature. The great outdoors, a child's playground.

I missed this smell. At the 'prison' it was, yes, held far out, but I rarely went outside because of the strenuous air. I remember asking Shizuka about it one day.

"Shizuka, why is it so... uncomfortable out here?" I looked up at Shizuka, her face now contorted into a very deep frown.

She scoffed with disgust. "It's that man, Kuran Rido. His power is weak because he is not fully awake, not fully there."

"Well, that doesn't really make sense. Wouldn't it be clearer since it isn't being manipulated so much?"

She shook her head slightly. "No, that wouldn't happen. His power isn't just manipulating an invisible force around the foundation, it is the foundation. And, in some way, because of his powerful manipulation being combined with his tiredness, it is almost stressing the structure, but it takes some getting used to. And, if I were to walk out of here, I would probably be hit immediately by having my body adjust without a barrier. It takes a few months to fully recover."

I questioned her. "What would that be like? And, why isn't it like this inside the building?"

She tried to loosen her face, and slightly upturn her lips into an odd smile. "Well, I have not a lot of experience, but probably something like... If you were holding up a roof your whole life, and never moved from there (with your body being the roof and you being your mind), one day you try something new and relax, so the roof immediately collapses on top of you. It's a little odd to explain.

"As for that last question, the building is almost like a separate entity. When you enter it, Rido no longer manipulates that area, as they thought it was too much for him to cover, though it was the whole place before him. This actually helped in the success of Rido's little Kuran family massacre! But anyways, the council have made a small area of their own, but using vampire hunter metal around the house, over the house, and under the floor. It doesn't hurt, but it's still affective, because it's made to secure mostly purebloods. A level C could bypass it without a problem." She stopped, and took a breath after taking a while to talk.

"And that's how I'll get out. Someday, with you by my side, Nini." I smiled at her, feeling a warmth radiate from her after escaping the conversation about Rido.

I both dread and am excited for the day to come when we make a big escape.

In those few months, I avoided going outside, unconsciously telling myself that I wouldn't want to be so weak after coming out of the structure. And now I realize what I wanted that whole time.

But when we got here, there was obviously no time for me to go outside because of the dangers of hunters, and that I am going to die in a few months shy of a year. And so, this smell on Shizuka was heavenly. When I was 'living' with my 'parents', the only thing close to solitude was the outdoors, and I still love it. The scent of pine almost radiating off Shizuka was calming, and almost made me forget the fire in my throat.

"Nini?! Why did you try to walk?" I brought myself back and listened to her worries. I only smiled at her thoughtfully and seemed to be relaxed by this.

"Sorry. I just had to vomit." I scratched my head. "Man, this poison is rude."

She was silent for a moment, then suddenly burst out laughing. I stared at her like she was going insane, but realizing the situation, I thought it better to saver every moment of happiness. "I just realized something. I am going to have to get used to this." We faded off from laughter, and just sat there, relaxed and silent.

I questioned what was on my mind. "Do you think we could sit outside? Bring a few blankets and just sit on the snow?"

"I'm not sure if the snow is a good idea, but I'll bring some chairs."

I smiled, feeling content.

I was waiting on the couch for Shizuka, who had gone out again for the second time in the last two weeks. I was curled up in a blanket, staring at the ceiling, when the door opened.

"I'm home."

I looked over behind me at the door. "Welcome back. Find anything interesting?"

She sat on the couch, looking a little exhausted. "Not too much, but I know more about the layout of the town."

I got a little worried. "Did anyone notice you?"

She stiffened for a second, then relaxed a little. "I may have found a ticket to the cure."

"What is it?"

"The Kiryuu's have these twins-"

I interrupted her, surprised by the fact that there were vampire hunter twins. It's supposed to be impossible! "Twins? Isn't that supposed to never ever never happen?!"

She sighed. "Yeah, but bug bomb a house, there's always a few crawling around somewhere. There are such things as miracles, but one of them is... half eaten from when he was born. The sickly one is Ichiruu, and the strong one is Zero. And, since they're his sons, I think if I acquire some of their blood, it may be similar enough to Kiryuu-san's blood, and it may cure you. Hopefully."

She looked down sadly, remembering the cold, hard facts. I'm going to die soon.

I put my hand on her shoulder. "It's alright, I'll be fine. We'll be fine."

She looked over and smiled at me. "I hope so." She paused for a moment, and we stayed in silence. After a few minutes, she got up and went into the bedroom. She spoke as I could hear her digging through bags. "If I'm going to need that blood, I should carry a vial with me at all times." She came out with a small glass vial with a wooden lid.

"I might want to wash it first."

I watched Nini, who was sleeping peacefully on the bed, tossing and turning here and there, trying to find the most comfortable position in the most comfortable spot. I reached over and lifted the hair over her missing eye, and felt a pang at my heart. Damn those-

I stopped myself and backed away, her hair falling over it again. I took a deep breath. I felt a small, cold line running down my cheek. I'm crying?

I lifted my hand to wipe it away, remembering the memories that came with it.

I haven't cried in a long time. I haven't felt emotion itself in a long time. Ever since I've lived, I have only felt two emotions, the emotions that are always jumbled together and made into one: anger, and insanity. I know what's wrong with me, and it may never go away, or cure itself. My mind is sick with an incurable disease. And it has always hurt, but not as much as it hurts now. Ever since I met Nini, knew of Nini's tiny existence, I have felt emotions that make me feel as close to normal as I possibly ever could be. Nini has made me feel sadness, happiness, and love.

I am always saddened by the fact that Nini has gone through so much pain in her life, and she is only one year over a decade old. I am happy, whenever I see her smiling, or at peace, because she is my only treasure, and I will always protect her.

I felt the rest of it, start crashing down, as the mood started to swing a bit. I closed the doors behind me as I went outside into the snow, only a few feet away from the door leading inside.

I am used to this feeling, this anger, this insanity. But I'm afraid it may form itself into an unhealthy obsession. No, I don't care about my health, but Nini's. I can't drive her away with my feelings, because it would hurt me too much, with an obsession. And if I drive her away, I'll be in a depression, and if I'm in a depression, I kill myself, and I can't protect Nini anymore!

Okay, calm down, deep breath. Stop... panicking. I never knew that these new emotions would be so troublesome. This may create a whole different insanity.

But I can't deny that I've felt a warmth that hasn't been here since I was only Nini's age. This... love. It's such an odd thing, but now I think I know how Kaname felt after meeting Yuuki. It's so foreign to me, this feeling of wanting to protect her. It's almost undefined, new, yet felt before, in some different way. I've been alive for so long, yet without anyone around, I've never even been given the chance to feel anything such as 'love', or 'joy'. Though, there was a time, when I had such love, even through this cold, lifeless battle for survival, I've felt a sense of security. Through my childhood, I had people. The parents I was loved by, and the boy I tried to run away with. Until it all turned black.

But now, as I calm down, I remember my Nini, as she is mine, and I am hers.

Funny, how close I can be with a child seemingly only a few decades younger than me. It may not seem like it, but Nini has started to become wise beyond her age. Now, she is more like an old and wise Kuran, almost in the same situation as Kaname. But that is what infuriates me. Nini should be living happily, just as every human girl, not here with me in such a compelling depression on her deathbed, whilst all I may do is watch, me, a feared and powerful pureblood of the vampire species, can do nothing but watch as mere humans get away with such sin.

But I choose not to stand idly by, as the only person I may ever love again dies like a hunted animal. I will help Nini, and she will live to experience the next boiling summer of Japan.

I felt the snow around me, falling lightly in a calming tone. I had a small cloak with pants on, trying my best to hide my face and seem inconspicuous, and my hair in a bun.

The sun was hiding behind the grey clouds, snow falling lightly and human hustling around in warm clothing, going about their daily lives as best they could. But the most interesting of the scenery was the trees. They were beautiful, despite being striped of color, and it reminded me of the first sakura I ever saw, and it was a great feeling. One tree had begun to shift and change slightly, no one noticing among the few people still around. The tree had suddenly begun to grow small buds that were blooming into colorful blossoms.

"Hey, you." I heard a small voice, almost cracking from nervousness. Before turning around, I could already tell who it was, and I had to bite back my bile at the smell of that man.

I spoke softly. "The timid Kiryuu twin. How nice to meet you."

He blushed slightly out of embarrassment. "I'm not timid! Just... shy." He sighed. "And anyways, who are you? Brother said you were a vampire, but I don't believe him."

"Oh? And why is that?" This conversation is certainly an amusing one.

"Because vampires are monsters, but your pretty." I could feel my small chuckle hum in my chest.

"Oh, my dear, vampires must be beautiful to survive the harsh treatments of your humanity. Didn't your loving parents ever teach you that?"

He frowned. "Yagari-sensei doesn't like teaching me. And what do you mean harsh treatment?" He started, getting more and more curious.

I looked up at tree again, seeing the sunlight shine through the as it set upon the mountains. "A question that will be answered in another time." And with that, I ignored his pleas for me to stay, and quickly fled the scene.

Hellooooooo! I updated again! Yeah so, I was reading through some, uh *coughs* Jumin Han *coughs* fanfiction, and then someone asked me to update, and so when I went to start another chapter, this was, actually almost done. But yeah! New chapter! Yay!

Also, I got into Mystic Messenger. Yeah... I've been weeding through some Jumin Han fanfics too, and I've gotten a few ideas for a fanfiction. Does anyone even want that? I saw that mystic messenger isn't as popular on here, so I might upload my fanfictions onto Archive of Our Own. But I'll still upload here all the same.

And if you didn't read it... IMPORTANT INFO ON EDIT ON STORY: If you read this before 3/28/17, than I'll just tell you that Nini is 15 currently, meaning that in Vampire Knight timeleine, she will be 19 by the time Rido has come to murder people. I would like to know if I missed anything that made Nini seem younger than 15 up to this point, its greatly appreciated.

Thank you for giving this story its love! I just want to say that, because I want anyone that reads to know that I appreciate what people are doing when the follow or favorite a story, and when people write feedback as reviews, its appreciated.

And for those who misunderstood, Nini and Shizuka WILL NOT be having a romantic relationship right off the bat. You'll see. And NO, shizuka doesn't think of Nini right now as a romantic interest. I tried to explain it, but she thinks of her kinda like how Kaname thought of Yuuki: something to protect, at least that's how I interpret it. You gotta remember that Shizuka hasn't had any happiness to share with anyone for over a centuy, so Nini is something she doesn't want to lose, and Nini is, well, I think you get it.

Anyways, thanks for reading! I appreciate the feedback!Disclaimer: I do NOT own Vampire Knight or the characters in here, except Nini and the Meyas.