Roman stood in front of the door. His shivering hand lay on the doorknob, while he hesitated to open it.
How could he even stand in front of his boyfriend? He was nothing … He didn't deserve a strong man like Dean.
When he finally managed to walk into the room, tears were sparkling in his eyes.
Calm and regular Dean's chest was moving up and down under the white blanked. For a moment Roman just stood there and watched his boyfriend, holding his breath.
He was alive.
Slowly the tall wrestler came closer to Dean's bed and sat down quietly next to it, just watching the lunatic breathe. Roman didn't want to wake him, but the burning desire inside his body to touch him, was getting stronger. He wanted to make sure that this wasn't just his imagination. His hand froze, when Roman caught himself out, reaching for his boyfriend. The lunatic fringe looked so broken and hurt next to him that he didn't even dare to touch him. The Samoan's look fell on Dean's damaged face, making his heart ache. The lunatic's left eye was swollen, turning already blue. Some sort of a splint was stabilizing Dean's nose and parts of his messy blonde hair were covered with a white bandage, going all the way around his injured head. Dry blood was sticking to his open lip, causing Roman to sob quietly. These soft lips, how could Lesnar just hit them so violently? The black haired man clenched his fists, feeling anger rising inside of him.
"Oh Dean, I'm so sorry…" Loud and heavily Roman's words were hanging in the air. His hand was shaking, when he reached out for Dean's, which was lying motionless on the white mattress in front of him. He didn't want to cause him even more pain, put the wish to touch his boyfriend had become too strong to bear it down for any longer.
"Rome …" Dean surprised him by squeezing his hand. A smile came upon the blonde's face, feeling his boyfriend was with him. He felt Roman's hand trembling in his and he quickly tried to open his eyes with a moan. For a moment Dean was shocked. The strong man he used to know was now sitting shivering next to his bed. Tears were running over his face and his eyes were red from all the crying.
"Ro …" The smile on his lips had died. He tried to sit up, regretting it immediately, when his body protested painfully. Roman squeezed his eyes, hiding the glowing agony in them.
"H-How can you smile …" The Samoan sobbed desperately, breaking down in tears on Dean's bed.
"Roman …" The lunatic didn't know what he should do. He never saw his boyfriend like this before. "Come here babe …" Dean pulled him into his arms, ignoring his burning ribcage. "What happened to your shirt?" The lunatic gently stroked over Roman's shivering shoulders, retracing the Samoan tattoo on his naked skin.
Roman wanted to tell him that he couldn't take it anymore, all the blood. Even when he got rid of his shirt hours ago he still could smell it, he even could taste it, reminding him of what a failure he was.
"H-How can you even l-love me …?" Roman cried inside his embrace, "I-I let y-you down …"
"That's not true babe." The blonde gently stroked through his long black hair, kissing it softly to calm him.
"I-I should have protected you …" A sob escaped his throat, when he buried his face deep into Dean's chest.
"Ro …" The blonde lifted Roman's chin gently so the tall wrestler had to look him in the eyes. "Babe …" Dean whispered, softly wiping away his tears. "Don't be so hard to yourself …"
New tears were running over Roman's cheeks and the blonde gently kissed them away, hiding a moan, when a stabbing pain cut through his abdomen.
"I mean, he's a beast … there's nothing you could have done …", Dean whispered and flinched, thinking of Lesnar would have speared Roman instead of him. He secretly thanked God that his boyfriend didn't make it in time and didn't get hurt. Both of them knew how hard Brock was going on people standing in his way.
"Y-You could have- "Roman's voice broke, when he started crying desperately.
"Me? Noah …" Dean almost started laughing, "I'm not gonna leave you babe." He had leant forward, whispering inside his ear. "Not after what you did back there in the ER." Now the lunatic fringe grinned, making the Samoan lift his head in surprise.
"… rumour has it they needed three very strong men to get you away from me." Roman's sobbing had stopped, trying to follow Dean's words. "…I heard that you even broke the nose of one of them.", The blonde continued and watched Roman's look falling down on the floor. The Samoan blushed slightly, when a faint smile came upon his lips.
Much better, Dean thought, kissing his boyfriends forehead softly.
"I know that you love me …" The blonde hid a giggle, knowing his bruised body wouldn't like it that much, "…But please stop hitting innocent people." Dean groaned, when a loud laughter escaped his throat.
"I-I …" Roman stuttered, bushing even more.
"Oh shut up …" The lunatic whispered putting a finger on the Samoan's mouth.
"You want to know, why I can smile…?" He came closer so Roman could feel his warm breath against his lips.
"It doesn't matter how hurt I am …" Dean's fingers ran slowly through his long black hair, " … as long as you're unharmed and here with me …" The tall wrestler closed his eyes, when he felt the blonde pulling him closer. "… I can always smile …" Dean whispered against Roman's lips. "I love you."

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