Tony stood in the barn surrounded by zombies. This was all his fault he could've prevented this, he told himself over and over. He didn't even have his suit he was defenseless. A zombie charged at his swiping it's rotting grey hand at Tony's face. "You know, you should really invest in getting a manicure, I even know someone who would be great for you!" The mechanic quipped despite his fear. Tony shuffled back attempting to gain distance but instead cornered himself, he tripped backwards and scrambled backward before hitting a wall. Tony clenched his fists in fear, this was in his opinion the worst way to go. Slowly being eaten alive? So not what he expected for himself, he imagined he would die in more of a firey explosive way. But not...this.
"Stark?!" A familiar voice called out "Stark!" Suddenly the zombie that was about to clamp down on Tony had it's head swiped clean off by none other than Cap. Steve offered Tony his hand letting him stand up.
"Tony you need to-" Steve's lips continued to move but Tony couldn't hear.
"What?" Tony begged noticing more zombies closing in Steve seemed unaware.
"You need to-" Cap was cut off, a zombie biting into his shoulder. He was screaming but Tony couldn't hear. He recognized the zombie biting into Cap, it was Clint.
"No... not you too.." Tony frantically looked for an escape but was surrounded by his former team now zombified. they stumbled closer and closer towards him.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Tony's voice cracked tears running down his face. "I'm sorry!" he screamed before the darkness overcame.
"WAKE UP!" Tony was jolted back into reality, covered in sweat. 'It was just a dream...' Tony looked at his hands opening and closing them trying to determine if this was real life or not. "You alright Stark? you look like you were having a pretty bad dream there." Tony turned to see Cap standing in his doorway, wearing a plain white tee and jeans. Tony just absently nodded, usually he'd get angry at Steve for invading his privacy but somehow the dream he had made him happy to see him alive. Steve even looked like he was ready to get yelled at and when he didn't he relaxed his shoulders.
"You're late for training." He stated waiting for an angry response but again Tony just nodded. "We'll be upstairs..." The blonde continued with a weirded out look on his face. Tony just waved him off before throwing the blankets off him. He was soaked in sweat. 'Looks like I need a shower...sorry guys.' Tony stripped off his clothes and hopped in the shower, deciding he wouldn't take too long. This time.
Steve wanted to ask Tony what was wrong, it was apparent to him that something was bothering the mechanic. Instead he bit his tongue, he had already intruded on him he didn't want to elicit any confrontation. Especially after seeing his face this morning, the man looked like he had just gone through hell. It bothered the blonde how quiet Tony seemed already, by now usually they would've almost punched each other. Not that he wasn't happy Tony didn't fire off on him as usual, but still it made him feel uneasy.
Steve joined the group upstairs they were sat waiting at the island in Tony's kitchen. Clint nodded at him bringing the others to attention. "So is he up yet?" Clint yawned bored already.
"Yeah he's just having a shower...I think." Cap answered making Bruce roll his eyes.
"This is going to take forever why did we come so early anyway?" The scientist asked putting his head back.
"It's not early it's almost 1 o'clock. It's not our fault Tony sleeps in so late all the time." Natasha answered.
Just then Tony walked in, a hand towel around his neck.
"Well it's about time you woke up." Natasha said quietly hinting at the elephant in the room.
"Yeah sorry late night." He said quickly not wanting to go into detail.
"Yeah, well it seems all we do is train without you. You're always either sleeping in or working on your machines, I get that they're important Tony but we need to work together more often, you can't just skip training." Steve braced himself for Tony to blow up surely bringing up his work would hit a nerve. But it didn't. Instead Tony stood there quiet.
"You're right, I've been failing you guys and I know I need to work harder on being a better part of the team. I promise I'll be there tomorrow." The team sat there in shock, there were no sarcastic comments. no quipps at Cap for being old nothing.
"Well me and Nat gotta go so, good talk see you tomorrow." Clint abruptly stated before grabbed Natasha's arm and pulling her with him despite her denial. "Bruce you too, let's go!" Clint called back shoving Nat out the door.
"I don't have anywhere to- Ok fine, I guess i'll be leaving too then?" He stated awkwardly before following after Clint.
Tony did his best to ignore how awkward the team was acting. He knew he wasn't putting on a good show, infact he almost didn't care if his team saw through his facade it was getting old."Well what are you still doing her Cap? Why don't you go join them?" Tony enquired sounding almost bitter.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me what's wrong with you." he stated. Pure and simple, god sometimes he hated how goody goody he was. It only reminded Tony at how different he was than Rogers.
"I'm fine" he replied with a bit more bite than he intended.
"Really? Then why were you screaming in your sleep? Huh?" Cap confronted Tony head on this time getting up in his face. "Why are you acting so weird Tony? You aren't even fighting me." Tony's eyes just looked empty void of any expression, it was a face Steve had never seen on Tony before. He looked vulnerable. Steve backed away from Tony unsure of what to do or say.
"I'm just-" Tony started before turning away pressing the palms of his hands to his forehead.
"Just what Stark?" Steve continued to nag unsure of what else to do.
"I'm ? I'm terrified Of letting the team down. Of getting everyone killed...I'm failing in every way and I don't know how to get back on top of things." He admitted staring at the floor his back turned to the blonde.
Tony jumped when suddenly there was a hand on his shoulder. Cap smiled gently "You're not letting anyone down, or getting any of us killed so just relax not everything is your responsibility." Tony continued to look at the ground he felt tears begin to form but he willed them to stop, he felt so weak. "Is that why you were screaming and crying in your sleep?" Steve teased slightly lightly elbowing the short mechanic.
"I was not screaming and crying!" Tony shot back surprising Cap.
"There we go, that's more like the Stark I know." The blonde smiled making Tony sigh."Come on let's train you and me, you obviously have some pent up emotions you need to get out." Tony nodded.
"Fine let's go." He pouted on the outside, but he was grateful for Steve's concern,