"It's been a week now, Stiles. I get that you are sad but you need to eat something... the pack is here you know, both of them" Derek tried to convince me again, but I did not even move from my position by the window. The view wasn't even that pretty, but I still gazed out emotionally "Ah" he sighed "We are here for you, Stiles, you should learn to lean on your pack from time to time. I am talking from experience when I say it is exhausting to have the weight of the world on your shoulders"

I wanted to snap back at him, give him one of my trend mark sarcastic comments, though I had no energy to do it. I simply stayed quiet, even when Derek left the room.

I had won against the Dread Doctors and that kanima, but at what price? I feel as if I had lost part of my soul... not to mention the loss of Hayden that the pack had to go through. Me having the gift of bonds suffered it more than anyone. I also, had a whole new respect for Derek when he did not go crazy after lossing almost all his apck in one night. It must have been horrendous. I already knew that, but being bale to feel the bonds gives me whole new perspective of things.

Danny, how are things downstairs? Are the packs trying to kill each other? I asked my partner through our bond.

No, they get along pretty well. Though, there are a few setbacks from time to time. My animal partner confessed. Isaac and Liam are in a deep discussion about who is the real baby of the pack. However, I believe the real discussion is about who is your favorite out of the two. If it weren't for their partners I think they would have tried to scratch each others eyes by now.

I sweat dropped at that, my boys are truly hilarious when they want to be.

Now that Jackson and Lydia are back together, both queen bees are, in a passive aggressive way, trying to suprass the other. School is going to be fun, having to power couples fighting to be the top dog and the queen bee of the schol.

Now that's something I would pay all my savings to watch.

Not to mantion I having to defend my place as your best friend against Scotty doggy, who can't get a clue about how much eh hurt you. Though, he is much better than before and finally got his head out of his ass and admitted having done wrong by you.

That's something I did not expect, but then again Bacon Hills did change a lot since I left a few months ago. Not only do the police know about the supernatural world but also those in high places at the hospital. And for now everyone was coexisting in peace.

But what's missed the most is your presence, Mistress. We need you, Stiles. Please come back to us.

Danny's begging almost brought me to tears, but I reign them bak because if I ended up crying right now I wasn't going to be able to stop.

Sometimes I forget that I am not the only suffering, that my pack also lost someone. I felt ashamed of myself, as an alpha I should ahve been there for them and guided them through their mourning. However, what I did was abandon them and left Derek to pick up the pieces for me as I hidded in his room. What the alpha did for my pack as I was indisposed and his change of character during the summer were the only reasons why I was considering letting myself open up my heart to him... and maybe fall for him once again.

Taking a deep breath and finally making the decision to leave the comfort of this room, I went downstairs and was greeted by many familiar faces and a delicious smell. Almost everyone noticed my precense immediately and smiled towards me, in a mixture of happiness and relief.

"I'm back" was all I had to say but Danny understood and that's all I needed to be ok again.

"Welcome back" my best friend replied.

And for once in a long hellish week I began to feel that things are going to be all right. After all, I am the alpha of the Stilinski pack and I am not going down so easily.