A/N: I finally finished! I am sorry it took me so long but i finally posting the last chapter. Thanks for the patience and honestly, one less fic means more time to focus on the other ones. Thank you for joining this journey with me. It was short, I know but It was a nice story to tell. Thank as well for all the nice reviews and I hope you enjoy this and every other fanfic I am writing.
Xoxo. Janice.
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It was insane to think that in a few moments she will be marrying Robin. It was insane to think that as soon as the ceremony took place she and him would be on the first flight to New York so they could make it official in America as well. It was insane that she was finally reaching for happiness, that for the first time she wasn't afraid of the outcome. She had Robin to stable her.
So it wasn't insane at all.
It was real. Robin was real and so was the rapid beating of her heart whenever she thought about him, about them, about the future that was slowly paving in front of them. As she walked down the courthouse hallway to where Robin waited for her, Regina could feel the thrumming of her blood throughout her entire body. How her senses picked, how her stomach knotted and her heart beat and beat to a different drum. Still, there was one feeling that overpowered the others. You would have think that love would be enough to cover with a red blanket all the other more negative feelings swirling within her, but it wasn't like that. Guilt stabbed at her side relentlessly. Not telling her father about this step she was taking felt so wrong in her mouth. The bitter taste of silence made her feel like he worst daughter in existence. No matter how hard she tried, it still gawn at her with monstrous claws but she ignored it as best as she could, pushing the thoughts to the darkest corner of her mind long enough to pull through with the wedding.
The brunette approached the dark oak door, inhale the heavy scent of old books and nervousness and pushed the door opened. Standing in front of a formidable seize desk, Robin looked more dapper than ever —which was rather surprising seeing as he always looked like a model out of catalogue. Dark suit, hair comb to the side (the image of her running her fingers through it, messing it up did run through her mind) and a beautiful smile etched to those perfectly kissable lips that made her insides run liquid hot like lava. For a moment their surrounding disappeared and it was just the two of them gazing into each other's eyes with a love that was more than love. It was commitment, it was adoration it was something so pure and out of this world. He took her in and Regina caught how his breath hitched at the back of his throat and how his eyes watered at the sight of her in his mother's wedding dress.
Something, a voice, her own, told Regina to resume walking and so she did. The echo of her heels against the marble floor brought everyone back into focus and her nerves made their triumph return. Her breathing came in short puff, and when she finally came face to face with Robin, Regina panicked. Her eyes widen for a brief moment as she looked into his bright blue ones and her heart made a cracking sound that sent white noise to her ears and she swore everyone could hear it. The brunette tried to regain a sense of composure, tried to settle down her heart and even her breathing to no avail. Words that felt hollow left her mouth and they tastes like poison on her tongue.
"I can't do this." She muttered to him, hoping that no one else would hear them. But everyone heard them, his family heard them and when she saw how his entire demeanour fell, his smile faltered Regina heart tugged sideways, feeling absolutely, positively bad about what she just said, how she said it. The words came out all wrong and what's worse, he believe she didn't want to marry him any more.
That wasn't at all how she felt.
"Oh my God." She said, taking his hand. "I didn't mean it like I don't want to marry you it is just…" She trailed off for a moment. Her words had the positive effect on him, the tension that settled like a dark cloud over them disappeared, even his shoulders loosen up. Robin's face soften. "Do you have your phone?" Regina asked quietly and Robin nodded, getting his phone out of his back pocket. Mills grinned as she took his phone, kissing his cheek quickly. Diligent fingers unlocked the screen, a picture of her sleeping appeared on the screen and Regina made a mental note to scold Robin about it later, right now she had more pressing matters to attend to. Looking for the FaceTime icon, Regina pressed it and searched for the name she needed and pressed the name and waited for the call to be answered.
The phone rang and rang and when it seemed like no one would pick up Regina's face turned sad. She was about to give up when a soft 'Hello' came through followed by the sight of her father's face. Regina's lips curled into a big grin, followed by a massive and cheerful "Daddy." When the man smiled back at her, taking the sight of her in a wedding dress, he man's smile turned brighter.
"Regina, sweetheart." He said and gods she felt better already.
"I know it is super late for you." Those words came out in a matter of apology but Henry brushed it off like it was nothing. When it came to her, he would be up at ungodly hours if that meant seeing his daughter's smile. "But I'm about to do something and I felt bad for not telling you." Henry's brows furrowed in confusion (though if you asked her, his confusion seemed rather forced) The brunette turned around so her back was against Robin's chest and the man appeared on the screen with her. "Robin and I are getting married and I want you to witness this. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before but it was kinda an out of the blue decision."
Henry's eyes widen and Regina felt nervousness prickle at the back of her neck. Her hand holding Robin's phone felt sweaty all of a sudden and if it wasn't for Robin's comforting hand on the small of her back Regina would have fallen flat on her ass and in the process ruining the dress and everything else. Seconds ticked by, long eternal seconds and even Killian was starting to get all jumpy. From the corner of her eye she saw the best man shift sideways, which made her realize that he was more nervous than the groom himself. Made her wonder why exactly was Robin so serene?
"I know, sweetie." Henry said softly and Regina stared blankly at the man.
"Come again?" She muttered, eyes trained on her father through the knew but how? If it wasn't because of the look Robin and her father shared, she would have been raking her head trying to understand. "You told him." It wasn't a question.
Robin nodded. "You were going crazy with guilt." His warm hand on the small of her back rose over her back to her shoulder where he softly squeezed. His features were apologetic and even then he looked rather handsome. "I called him." Regina could kiss him right there. "I wanted to fly him here but since we decided to move quickly he wouldn't arrive on time. Plus, we are going to New York to legalize our marriage there as well and I had planned out to take him there but…" Robin trailed off. It was supposed to be a surprise that much he could tell by the looks of both man. Mills was touched that Robin thought about how she felt and how much she wanted we father to be there on her special day even though it was practically impossible for him to arrive on time. The sinking feeling that she felt a few moments ago was replaced with a warmth that had her breathing easier. Sure, it was bittersweet that her father couldn't physically be there but his heart was there with her, with them. Robin's smile after finishing his explanation had Regina's heart swarming with an amount of love that didn't fit in her chest. There was no ending to his surprises, or all the feelings that grew exponentially every day. All she really know was this: Regina Mills was where she needed to be.
Robin was all she needed. Not only a lover but her best friend. That was his best feature, the one that provided him with unconditional love and support. In one person she found all she needed her entire life.
"Have I told you today how much I love you?" Her soon to be husband smiled, shoulders loosen up releasing the tension she is finally noticing since the whole exchange commence. Regina leaned back, meeting his chest. There was a lingering of nerves around him but the closer she got, the were thrown into the wind.
"Since I haven't seen you much today, no you haven't." He grinned adding. "But it is always nice to hear you say it. I could never get tired of listening to you say those words." Robin kissed the side of her head, briefly closing his eyes, Regina did the same.
Someone cleared their throat, catching Robin and Regina's attention. The pair looked at the minister with sheepish, apologetic smiles. "I got another couple in ten minutes." He said. So that was their cue to get on with the ceremony.
Regina looked at the screen, her father was smiling brightly and Regina felt her heart finally settle into a normal beating pattern though she is sure that won't last long. She turned and walked to Lorelai that had the same smile as her father and Regina was reminded of Robin's smile early in the morning. The type of smile that manages to steal her breath away and now she'll get to see it for the rest of her life. "Would you please hold the phone so daddy can watch?" The question was met with a nod, as Lorelai extended her hand to hold the phone. Regina returned to Robin's side, taking his hand in hers.
Satisfied that the ceremony was moving forwards, the minister opened the big book where they were to sign. The date was already written on the top side of the certificate and all that was left was to sign. The minister gave Robin the pen first and the man gave his thanks. When he was about to place his signature, he stopped, looking at Regina. "I know that this is only a legal procedure and vows aren't really necessary but I want to say a few words, if you don't mind."
Regina stiffened.
This caught her off guard. Just the night before she thought about writing a few words as well but decided against it. Regina may be a good writer but being put on the spot like this wasn't going to help her brain to think properly. "You don't have to say anything, just listen."
Robin was quick to reassure but Regina didn't feel it at all.
"Regina...When I first went to the states it was for a fresh start. No baggage, no past just start anew. The first few months were so slow almost as if to kill my soul but then on a Sunday I met the most beautiful brunette I've ever laid my eyes on." He paused for a moment, a smile covering his lips as he simply looked over her face. Robin took a deep breath, "That day, Regina Mills, you changed my life forever and for the better. Things haven't been exactly normal in our relationship, but I bask in the many surprises you bring into my life. Falling in love was as easy as breathing, second nature, done without being forced. You brought so much into my life not only love but acceptance.
Acceptance to be courageous and give my heart to you.
Acceptance to hope for a better future no matter the obstacles.
Acceptance to believe that I can find my way to happiness. And I've found it, in you.
I love that you are headstrong because it tells me that you aren't afraid of anything even if recent events have shaken you belief. I love that you aren't afraid of chasing a story that you know in your very souls that needs to be told. I love your soul, hot with unlimited passion but soft at the touch of my own.
I love you and I want to keep loving you for the rest of my natural existences and the unnatural as well. Because you said something that I find truthful to my very bones, We are soulmates, and in this very moment we are forever bound to one another."
Regina felt the tears prickle at the edges of her eyes. Felt how her soul was dancing in her body and how her heart hammered so hard that it might break out of her chest. Robin's voice gave away a lot of different notes. From love to adoration all surrounded with pride and happiness that was enough to make her want to wrap her arms around his neck, hug him tight and never let go but she can't quite do that at the very moment, so she settled by squeezing his hand softly and smiling. Robin takes that as his cue, and signs his name on the paper. Regina's heart sent a wave of electricity throughout her body, a buzzing sensation that let lose words in her chest. Regina took the pen from Robin and like him she smiled and being to speak.
"You know, I've been well versed writing different type of characters that fall in love. Ink on paper had been quite easy for me for as long as I can remember but writing vows for myself that was hard and believe me I tried it last night. But after hearing you I cannot help expressing myself. And it wasn't a case of writer's block, actually it was because you make me feel so much at the same time that it is so hard for me to convey everything in simply phrases without being overwhelmed by the sensations, by the electricity that is born between us." Regina took a brief second to collect herself, to take a deep breath and reminiscence the highlights of their story. Every second was a highlight for her. "We've known each other for such a short time but in that time I've come to love and respect you and trust you with my entire heart. I won't lie, all of this took me by surprise, you took me by surprise.
I've been so scared to love that I didn't opened up to the possibility until I met you and to that I will be eternally grateful. There's something about you that fills me with serenity. There's something about you that just clicks. Never have I ever believed in soulmates but as I look into your eyes, now and every day our gaze connect I feel it in my very essence of my being that you and I are meant to be. I don't know what life will throw us, cannot write a climax a could possibly convey our story in a few lines but today and every day I will give myself to you. I love you, Robin. I love that we are going to embark in this journey together and I cannot wait to see what will come along the way." Regina finished with a bright smile and a easiness that ran bone deep. It was almost like those words were already pre-ordained in her mind and she just needed the right push to get them out and Robin just did that with his on vows.
It seemed like her words had had an effect on Robin. His blue eyes shone with tears, and dimples deepened thanks to his smile. Regina offered him a brief grin before leaning to the desk and sign the paper as well. The minister, who looked less annoyed than he did a moment ago took the pen and asked the witnesses to approached the desk. Robin's parents were the first ones to sign them and then Killian and Belle. Once everyone was done and took back their places, the minister sign his name as well and it was done.
"By the power invested in me, I pronounce you man and wife." He closed the book and took a step back.
Robin pulled Regina closed, holding her tight in his arms, lips curled into a grin. "We are married." He murmured and Regina felt her cheek warm at that. "My wife, my best friend, my soulmate. Now that sounds amazing." Robin pressed their foreheads together, closing his eyes, Regina closed her eyes as well, taking in his scent. Snow and forest and even sunshine was mixed there. A scent that was absolutely him, and she is drowning in it but she doesn't mind, she enjoys it.
"Better make it official." She muttered, leaning forwards and pressing her lips to his. The kiss was slow but it told a million things. A million feelings shared between them now and forever and Regina just wanted to get lost in him, in them. At that moment, with his arms around him and their lips pressed together Regina finally fell what she had been writing for a very long time. Home, it wasn't a place, it wasn't walls, nor location.
Home was being in the arms of someone you love.
Home was being in the place where breathing was easy or where your air was taken away by one swooning kiss.
She carry the weight of the world for a very long time and now that she is sharing that weight, she know in her very soul that life will only get better from here on.
Because for the first time she found a way onward into a life she didn't know she wanted or needed.
The sun is calling and Regina is about to answer that call with a smile.