This is a direct continuation of How Do I Live Without You - Part 2

April leaves me and Owen alone as she hurries off to page Arizona.

There is a tense silence between us, as both of us wait for the other to speak first. Like I've said before, both of us are equally stubborn, and neither wants to give in.

Finally Owen speaks up…. ' Why didn't you tell me?' he asks softly, walking over slowly to the side of my bed. If before, he would straight out embrace me into a tight hug- but now he seems to be approaching me cautiously, as if I am a fragile thing.

Any other given day, I would've yelled back at him or thrown a brick or something at him. But today, I am feeling too weak and dehydrated from throwing up my entire breakfast.

' Why didn't I tell you?' I repeat back his question, my voice croaking, partially from feeling weak , and partially from feeling hurt. ' Owen, you weren't around, you don't even come home at all, how am I supposed to tell you? Send a voice message or text to break this news to you? And what would you say then?'

Owen remains silent so I continue in a whisper ' You don't even acknowledge Charlotte anymore. Will you acknowledge this child?'

' Of course I will' Owen says, sounding hurt. ' Look Amelia, I am really sorry for what I've done. You know I love both you and Charlotte and will love our second child. It was just a one night stand, I promise! In fact, I just told her off just now. She wouldn't be disturbing us anymore. '

' I don't know Owen' I say, turning my head away from him. ' I don't know if I can trust you anymore'. I shift a little from my position and wince in pain as I feel another cramp in my lower abdomen.

' Mia please' he begs. Oh so now he is calling me by my pet name again? The last time he called me by that name was over a month ago.

" Do you expect me to forgive you just like that? What if I forgive you and then you cheat on me again?' I croak.

Owen opens his mouth to reply, but he is being interrupted by the curtains being pulled open, followed by Arizona bursting in, pushing an ultrasound machine.

' Well hey there' Arizona greets us cheerfully. April paged me down for a consult- she said you needed an ultrasound scan?'

She then turns to me. ' You ok?' she asks me, sounding concerned. ' April said that you are pregnant and having vomiting as well as abdominal cramps?'

I just nod meekly. Owen suddenly touches my right arm gently but I swat it away. I am just not in the mood for this right now.

Arizona, seeing my subtle hostility towards Owen looks to and forth between us for a moment before shrugging and pushing the ultrasound machine nearer towards me.

'We…ermm…. We will just have a look to see if the baby is fine ok?' Arizona says softly.

I wince as she spreads the gel on my belly. Owen is still standing beside me remaining silent. But his eyes were already glued to the screen of the ultrasound machine in anticipation.

I wince again as Arizona maneuvers the ultrasound probe on my belly. I am still having the abdominal cramps, although they are less intense now.
" Ah ha- can see the heartbeat' Arizona announces excitedly. ' Very strong and steady at 140 beats per min. '

She then adjusts the ultrasound settings until a loud and already ' swish swoosh' sound which I know indicates the baby's heartbeat fills the entire cubicle.

I release the breath that I didn't know I was holding. I never realized how much I wanted this baby until now. For a few moments before I heard the baby's heartbeat- I was praying to the universe to not take this baby away from me too.

From beside me, I can hear Owen heave a sigh of relief too. Which is good, I guess- it means that he is rooting for our baby to stay too.

' And based on the crown rump length- you're 8 weeks along.' Arizona continues as she prints out the ultrasound picture and hands it to me.

Out of the corner of my eye- I can see Owen smiling now. Oh so he is so happy it is his? He ever doubted it was his before this scan confirmed the gestational age?

I turn away angrily from him suddenly. I am just not ready to forgive him yet. Can I let a cheating husband into my life and my children's lives?

' Amelia- your abdominal cramps are due to your dehydration. ' Arizona says softly. ' With the IV fluids they should be resolving. Your baby looks fine from the ultrasound.'

She smiles reassuringly at me and Owen.

' Everything should be fine- congrats you guys!' Arizona says cheerfully. ' I've gotta go check on my other patients now, I'll check on you again later ok?' she gives my shoulder a gentle squeeze as she leaves the cubicle.

Owen and I are left alone once again.

' Mia please' he begs. ' You know that I'll always be here for you and our children.'

Before I can reply, his pager suddenly beeps, indicating an incoming trauma.

' I've gotta go, incoming trauma, I'll come back to see you later' Owen says, giving my right hand, the one not hooked to the IV, a gentle squeeze.

I am now left alone in my own thoughts. Should I forgive Owen? Sure he cheated on me. And that is reason enough to hate him. But he seemed apologetic enough just now, and it seems like he really cares for the baby. Should I give him a second chance?

My cubicle curtain opens again, and this time my sister-in-law Meredith Grey steps in.

' Hey' she greets me. ' I just heard from April that you blacked out. Are you ok?'

' Yeah I am fine' I reply meekly.

She then spots the ultrasound picture at my bedside.

' Yours?' she asks cautiously.

' Yeah, you are going to be an aunt again' I say as a smile forms in her face.

' Congrats Amelia!' she says sincerely. ' I'm sure Derek would've been thrilled you know. He loved all his nieces and nephews and they all adored him. And My kids would be thrilled to have another cousin to play with.'

I just smile in reply.

Meredith pages beeps and she excuses herself, leaving me alone in my thoughts once again.

The realization just hit me, cheating or not, Owen is still alive. Meredith would never have another chance to have Derek love her and their children. Their children didn't have a father. Whereas, my children will still have a father if I let him be a part of their lives. It is up to me to put aside my feeling of hurt and anger at being betrayed for the sake of my children. They need their father. If this child is a boy, he would need a male role model in his life.

I myself grew up without a father , and I don't want my children to grow up without a father too.

But I am still extremely hurt by what he had done to me.

This is one of the hardest and most important decisions I'll ever have to make.

I am now being transferred into one of the observation rooms to recuperate, and my IV line has been removed. I am still feeling groggy and a bit nauseous, but much better compared to this morning. The contractions have stopped.

My room door opens and in comes Owen.

' Hey' he greets softly, you feeling better now? I just checked on Charlotte in the daycare, and I am going to pick her up this evening. 'Do you need anything to drink?'

I shook my head. I have a whole bottle of water at my bedside.

He grabs a chair to sit at my bedside.

' I was drunk.' he says, ' I thought it was you that night. I am so sorry this happened between us. I promise it wouldn't happen again.'

' If you are truly sorry, you should've stopped it before it went too far. You should've stopped it when she texted you and invited you to drinks daily.' I retort. ' But no, you didn't.'

' It seemed harmless at the time' he tries explaining himself again. I didn't know it would lead to this.'

' Harmless? How about the flirty text messages you sent back to her? You call that harmless?' I ask.

' Mia please, I know that I messed up and made a huge mistake. Can you just please give me another chance to make this right again? Can we start over?' Owen begs with those pleading blue eyes which I can never say no to.

I sigh and take in a deep breath.

' Listen, I am forgiving you only because you're the father of my children and they need their father. But the next time I find out that you are sending flirty text messages or sleeping with another woman, you are gone from their lives and mine. Understood?' I say seriously. ' I mean what I say.'

He nods his head, smiling faintly. ' There wouldn't be a next time ' he says earnestly.

' I really hope I can trust you on that.' I say. ' Arizona has scheduled another ultrasound appointment for me in 2 days time. And she wants to do a proper antenatal booking for me then. You can come along.'

His smile grows wider now. ' Of course I would love to come along.' he says.

I nod and lean back down on my bed. I don't know whether I would be able to fully trust Owen anymore after this. I mean, he'll still be part of my life because he is the father of my children. But honestly I don't know whether we'll ever go back to the way we were before this. He seems apologetic enough for what he has done, and I'll give him another chance. He better not screw this second chance up.

' Can I talk to the baby?' he asks.

' He or she is the size of a grapefruit, I don't think they can hear you." I laugh.

' Yes, studies show that they can hear at 8 weeks gestation' Owen says seriously.

' Well, if you say so' I shrug.

He then places his right hand on my still flat abdomen and rubs it gently.

' Hey bean' he says. ' I'm your daddy. I love you and your mother and sister so much.
I'll do anything to protect you all. I hope that you're a boy so we can go fishing and do boy things together. But I will be very happy too if you're a girl- you'll be my little princess too, just like your sister. I hope you'd look like your mother and sister if you're a girl. I tell you, your mother is the prettiest woman in the whole world, and the most caring, compassionate and strongest woman ever, you're so lucky to have her as your mother. And your sister is the most beautiful and perfect little girl ever, you'll grow to adore her.'

I am now feeling tears rolling down my cheeks, I didn't realize I was crying.

For a moment, we are a happy family once again. I really hope that we'll remain as one. We can, if we try.

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