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This is my first story everrrrrr so hopefully you guys like it ^-^

There IS a lemon warning in this chapter as well as the chapters to come, this is not suitable for young readers!

Warm, soothing water rests against my skin, after a long day this is my only moment of peace and quiet. I open my eyes to be greeted with a white ceiling. I glance over to my left to see white walls, white floors, and a white bath towel, how boring. I keep bugging mama to get me some paint from the art store in the town over but she complains I'll only make a mess. She says "We'll paint the rooms together, when we have time." yet it has been six years since my family and I moved into our new home and we have still managed to not paint a single wall. It's as if I'm living in a world of grey, even my school uniform is grey. The only shred of color and fun I have in my life is my hair-tie, yeah a hair-tie. Isn't that just depressing? Saddest part is I can't remember where I bought it, or who gave it to me. I ask mama and she says I just had it the day we moved into our new house. Strange... The only thing my friends gave me before leaving were some flowers and a goodbye note. I know I didn't pick anything up on the road because the only time we got down was to check out this old abandoned amusement park and I did NOT touch anything there. The whole place was full of dust and spider webs, I wanted to stay in the car but papa insisted we get down. Typical dad, always making me do things I hate. Just last week he tried to set me up with some kid from the supermarket, said he was a part time manager which meant he was 'going places' in life. Well wherever he's going he can go on and go without me because I am fine all by myself. But...truthfully, I'm incredibly lonely. I haven't made a single REAL friend since we moved here. Not that the people here aren't nice, they're just...I don't know different from me? All the girls in my class are lazy and don't know how to handle a single chore without asking one of the boy for help. Meanwhile the boys do nothing but flirt with girls and goof off. So annoying. Why can't there be more people like me in this town? For some reason I only get along with older people and I mean OLDER people. Like grannies and grandpas, they tell me it's because I'm an old soul. Say I already have life figured out...but I don't at all. I can't make friends, let alone get a boyfriend. Don't get me wrong though, guys DO hit on me and ask me out a lot actually. Ever since I ditched the full bangs and started learning how to dress properly guys have been all over me. They're just not the kind of guys for me. Well, that and one other thing...I'm actually already in love with someone, I don't know his name yet though, or what he looks like. I don't have a single memory of him but for some reason whenever I look at my hair-tie my heart gets so warm it feels like its on fire. Then whenever I'm in water I get this terrible urge to cry as if I'm missing a big part of me, it's so weird I hate it, if only I could remember his name that's all I'd need to find him. Anyways I think I...I...AAAAHHHCHOOOO! *sniffle* I think I need to get out of this tub already the waters getting cold and I'm all pruney.

*Knock knock* "Chihiro how long are you going to be in that tub? I know you're feeling under the weather but you still need to go to school! Breakfast is on the table, I'll see you later on tonight."

I stare at the door with my tongue stuck out and eyes squinted. I know I have to go to school, trust me I KNOW. I haven't missed a single day, ever. Not even when I had a fever or when we came back from our last trip at three in the morning. I sit for another minute in rebelliance, stand up, grab my towel and start to dry off. It's only 6:45 am, I don't have to be at school until 7:30 and it only takes me seven minutes to get there (we literally live across the street from my school) so I don't know why shes complaining. Dads already left for work, poor guy has to BE at work at six in the morning.

I walk into my room and open my closet door. There hanging is my grey uniform. Grey cardigan with the schools crest on the left side, a white button up shirt underneath, a grey skirt that reaches just above my knees, and grey knee high socks. Are these people color blind or something? Their excuse is "grey is efficient, grey is reliable, grey is organized." Yeah and boooorrringgg! At least my old school let us dress however we wanted on Fridays, not here though. I'm not even supposed to be wearing my hair-tie, I wear a black one over it to try and cover it up, thankfully I haven't been caught yet. The last girl who wore something crazy (which was a bracelet that had a single charm on it) was forced to hand it over to the administrator. It was a gift from her sick grandmother and despite the admin hearing this he still threw it in the garbage. He said "If it meant that much to you you shouldn't have brought it to school." She ran out of the room crying, apparently her parents sided with the school and she was forced to part with it and move on. Bunch of jerks.

I put on my grey uniform, put my hair up in a ponytail and head downstairs. The breakfast that mama left on the table was a slice of toast with butter and a banana, just once I wish I could have a REAL breakfast but papa says I'll only burn the house down if I cook for myself. I grab the toast and banana, throw my bag over my shoulder and head out the door. The sky was as clear as can be and the temperature was beautiful! Warm with a cool breeze, my favorite. I close my eyes and inhale, the air is so fresh I wish I could be out here forever. Goosebumps form on my arms from the warm sun touching my skin. I open my eyes again to see some kids in my class walking towards the school building, I would wave but what's the point? All it would do is lengthen my walk to school, lengthen my day, and I always tried to make school go by as fast as possible. I lock the door behind me and start to walk down the road where the proper cross-walk is. It's only two houses down to the left, as I walk I look over to my left. In between the houses you can see a hill, at the bottom of that hill is a tree with little shrine houses. Mama told me little spirits live in them but I've never seen anything like that. I remember the day we drove down that road, it was so bizarre. If there weren't even any signs to indicate that there was a dead end or anything back there. Sometimes I ask mama and papa about what was over there and all they reply with is "You were there Chihiro, you should know." but I don't know. All I remember is us walking into the old train station and then...the rest is really blurry. Something about a river and food, maybe we had lunch by a river? I don't know...

I get to the cross walk, look both ways, and cross. Two girls walking beside me laugh and chat about which boy in their class has a nicer butt. Who cares? Like, seriously? I really wanted to shove them into traffic but my mind told me it wouldn't turn out so well. So, I kept my hands to myself and tried to ignore them. I enter my school building and head to my classroom, on the way there I notice a familiar face. A face I hoped would not recognize MY face. Nope, oh God, here he comes.

"Hey Chihiro! What's up?" Says a rather handsome boy. He's tall with a nicely built body, nice face. He's tan, dark brown hair and light hazel eyes. His white smile could blind someone with sunglasses. His name? Daichi Asai. The dream man of every single girl in my school, good grades, good looks, wealthy family and hes in almost every club you can think of. He's even got his own car (which is very impressive to all the girls for some reason). So why do I despise him so much? You'll see in a minute.

"Good morning Asai San." I roll my eyes and continue to walk. I feel something grab my arm and yank me. 'Here we go' I think to myself.

"Where are you going so fast Chi? And what's with this Asai san crap? I told you to use my first name." Daichi says while pulling me close to him and wrapping his unwanted arm around me. I try to shove him off but he only pulls me in closer. "Come on Chi, I said I was sorry about last time. Plus it was just a small kiss,why can't you get over it?" He says while pulling my face closer to his. I snap and shove him HARD against the wall, while he was too shocked to move I took my chance and leaned in close to him.

"Listen here, I don't like you. We are not friends, this is not how friends treat each other. Do not call me 'Chi', do not touch me. I don't care if it was just a small kiss, it was my first and I was saving it for someone special, someone who is not you. You took something important to me and I will never forgive you for that. You want me to even consider treating you like a fellow human being? Then stay away from me. Please, just leave me alone." With that I take a step back and continue on my way to class. Looks like I've caused a bit of a scene by the number of people watching. I can hear a few whispering

"no wonder she has no friends"

"yeah she's always so cold to anyone who comes close to her"

"well I think he deserved it, I mean I don't want a guy touching me without asking"

"yeah but I mean it's Daichi kun, I'd kill for him to even glance at me by accident!"

And with that note I walk into my classroom, take my seat by the window and start to daydream.

*Back outside with Daichi*

"Wow dude she's a lot stronger than she looks?" Says Kiba, Daichis closest friend. "Looks like your hopes on having Chihiro be your girlfriend are crushed now huh?" He says laughing. Daichi straightens his tie and jacket "No way dude, a girl like that you don't come across everyday. She just needs a little more help in seeing what she's missing out on." Kiba glances over to his friend "You made her kiss you and that didn't help, what makes you think putting in MORE force is going to help you in this situation?" Daichi stops in front of the classroom door peering through the window. He sees Chihiro daydreaming out the window and gives a smirk. "Because, girls like her don't even know what they want, so you gotta make them choose something. And I'm going to make her choose me, whether she wants to or not." Kiba rolls his eyes knowing his friend is going off the deep end. "Dai, do you even know what her favorite color is? Or her birthday? Why are you so hooked on a girl you know nothing about?" Daichi puts his arm around Kiba laughs "Kiba, Kiba, don't you know she's the prettiest girl in this school? Hell, in this town even! I mean I'll admit when she first came here boy was she an ugly duckling. But now her hair is longer, she got taller, her body is out of this world and her brown eyes seemed to have gotten bigger over the years. She's like any guys dream girl! I just have to have her, plus her grades aren't bad meaning she's smart and that's also a plus I guess?" Daichi releases Kiba and walks over to his seat in the back of the class, Kiba sits besides him and scratches his head "You know dude, looks aren't everything in a girl. Girls have persona-" "Yeah yeah whatever I know, just let me do my thing." Daichi interrupts Kiba and puts his head down, with one eye closed and one eye open he watches Chihiro from afar. "Alright man, just don't say I didn't try to knock some sense into you." Kiba turns to talk to some girls who just walked into the class.

*Back with Chihiro*

"Such a beautiful day and we have to spend it inside." I quietly say to myself. Just then our teacher walks in to begin class. We all stand, greet him and take our seats again. Hiro Sensei starts going down the list for roll call.

"Saito" Here!

"Nakaruma" Here.

"Tanaka" Yes here.

"Sato" Here!

"Okamoto" Here sensei!

"Ogino" "Here!" I shout, he looks at me for a second longer, squints his eyes a bit then goes back to the list. What was that about? Once hes finished roll call he goes on to our lessons for the day. Since I have no life I already know what were going over, I studied it last night. I study this stuff every night that way if I daydream during class it wont affect my grades. I'd much rather learn on my own then have to listen to the teacher explain the same problem forty times because one person doesn't understand. I slightly turn my head towards the window and start to think to myself. Realizing that everyone else but me is taking notes I turn back to my empty notebook and start to doodle. At least it will look like I'm paying attention. I start drawing what comes out to be a poorly done dragon. I've always had a fascination with dragons every since we moved here, all I draw are dragons, my pillow case has a dragon on it, I even have a few plush dragons on my bed. They make me feel...almost safe for some reason. As if their watching over me, silly, I know they're not real and dragons don't exist but how cool would it be to meet a real dragon? One can only dream though.

*Four hours of doodles later*

I glance up at the clock to noticed its about time for lunch, I close my book and pack my stuff up. Sensei dismisses us and I walk towards the door, just as I'm about to walk through he calls me over to his desk. What now? -_-

I approach him and patiently wait for him to finish writing on the board. He puts down his chalk and turns to me with a serious face. "Ogino Chihiro, you know our schools policy don't you?" I raise an eyebrow, nod, and wait for him to continue. "Good, then you already know why that hairband of yours is not permitted?" Now HE raised an eyebrow. My eyes widen, how could he have seen it? I always cover it every mor-...Fuck now I remember. I left the black band on the sink, mama distracted me so I must have forgot to put it on. "I'm very sorry Sensei, I didn't even realize I was wearing it, please don't take it awa-" I get cut off by, he raises his hand to stop my rambling. "Chihiro you are the top female student in my class, you don't disrupt things and you seem like a model student. If you had been like the other girls in my class I wouldn't think twice of tossing it away; but you're not. I will give you until the end of lunch to remove it, okay? But this is the only time I can be lenient with you, next time I will be forced to treat you as I would any other student, understood?" He sits down in his chair dismissing me. I bow to him "Thank you sensei, it means a lot to me that you would give me a second chance." With that I turn and walk out of the room toward the lunch hall.

That was a close one, I can't risk getting caught again. I'll have to stop at home and grab the black hairband but first, lunch! I'm starving!

*Outside the lunchroom*

I sit down under a tree and pull out my lunch, some plain onigiri with veggies on the side. Not the best lunch out there but at least its food. I sit quietly and enjoy the breeze, lunch is only thirty minutes long and it takes me about seven minutes to get home from school and seven to come back so I have only about ten minutes to eat before I should head out just to be safe. Notice a shadow over my body and I look up. Daichi! Hooray just who I wanted to see! The guy who cannot take a damn hint apparently! He's standing next to me just staring, then sits down besides me.

"What do you want Asai? I'm eating and I would prefer to not lose my appetite." He leans closer to me and I lean away from him looking the other way. "Come on Chi don't be like that, I just wanted to spend my lunch time with the prettiest girl in the whole school. Is that so bad?" I snap my head back towards him "Yes, yes it is when the prettiest girl in school doesn't want you near her, so why don't you go off with some of your other friends." I notice his face get serious, very serious. I don't think I've ever seen him like this before, then I get a bad feeling in my chest. I look around to realize there is no one around, we're completely alone. Sensing an awkward situation I stand up to leave, he pulls me back down to the floor. "Chihiro, I want to talk to you. Please." He says in a deeper than usual voice. I put my head down and nod, I know he's stronger then me, I know I wouldn't be able to get away so I might as well just hear him out.

"Chihiro, I like you. I REALLY like you, why won't you give me a chance? I'm sorry I hurt your feelings but I only did it because I wanted you to notice me as more than a friend. I'm not a bad guy once you get to know me, promise. You just gotta give me a chance, so please? Be my girlfriend?" His hand is still holding down my arm so I am unable to move away from him. My voice is a little shaky at first but I soon find my strength again.

"Daichi...I'm sorry but...I can't be your girlfriend. You're just not the one for me, I'm sure you're a good guy but I simply don't have those kind of feelings towards you. Do you understand?" For the first time ever I actually look into his eye sincerely. I mean the boy is being real with me for once, the least I can do is try to be nice about rejecting him. I feel the grip on my arm loosen but then tighten. What is he thinking? His face is emotionless, I can't read him right now. Then he smiles for a second and says "Are you sure about your decision Chi?" I nod my head. I wish I wouldn't have done that. I should have played along, lied to him until I was somewhere safe. His eyes narrow and his smile disappears. He pushes me to the ground and holds me down with his lower body laying against mine. What the hell is going on?! "Daichi? What are you doing?! Get off of me!" I try to push him off but damn is he heavy.

"Shut up." He says looking into my eyes with an emotionless face. "I tried to help you understand but now I guess I'm going to have to make you understand." At that moment he start to open my cardigan and unbutton my white undershirt. "Daichi stop! You said you were a nice guy, remember?!" He then stops in his tracks and puts his hand to my face, caressing it softly. He leans in to my ear and whispers "Yeah, when you get to know me, but you chose to not know me." He then reaches for my ponytail and pulls it back forcing me to expose my neck to him, he starts to lick me from my earlobe down to my collarbone. With his right hand he has managed to get my first two buttons undone, the top of my bra now exposed he leaves me shirt alone and starts to trail down towards my skirt. Tears form in my eyes as I feel him lift the soft cotton material that rested on my legs, I can't believe this is happening. I knew Daichi was a jerk but I never thought he was capable of this. The late bell rings meaning everyone is already back in class and the sudden realization comes to my mind that I can't escape, no one is coming to save me, everyone is inside and we are all alone out here. I close my eyes to try and forget about the horrifying situation I am currently in, all I see is darkness. I feel Daichi tug at my panties before my entire body does numb, he stole my first kiss and now he is going to steal my virginity as well. I can feel like my mind start to drift off into a blank state, I pretty much become a lifeless doll, I don't even bother fighting back anymore. He won. As tears fall down my cheeks I beg for forgiveness, but not to my parents or to God. I beg for the forgiveness from the one I love, he was supposed to be my first everything and now he will be forced to only come in second for the rest of my life. "Please forgive me, please don't hate me, please understand how sorry I am..." I think to myself then...I hear something odd. A muffled voice, I can't make it out at first but it gets louder, and louder, and louder! Suddenly..."Chihiro!" I hear a familiar voice cry out, at that moment my eyes shoot open and I find the inner strength to practically throw Daichi off of me. I quickly stand up and gather my things "Where are you going you crazy bitch?!" I hear Daichi yell as I run towards the school building. I button my shirt back up and try to fix my hair as best as I can before quickly opening the door to my classroom. Everyone turns their heads to watch me as I speed walk up to my teachers desk. "Ogino! Where have you been?! Do you realize what time it is? Not only are you late but you barge into my classroom and interrupt my lecture!" Sensei Hiro roars (If there is one thing everyone knows about Sensei Hiro it's that he hates tardiness and when someone interrupts his lecture). "I'm sorry Sensei but Daichi was-" I'm suddenly cut off. "I don't care what you and Daichi were doing, this is a school not a playground do you understand me? There is no reason for you to act this way." He pauses and notices my hair. "I gave you a second chance and yet you still managed to show up in my classroom with that hairband?" He says in an oddly calm voice. I realize I am still wearing my hair-tie and quickly remove it "I apologize Hiro Sensei, I did not realize-" Once again I am cut off. "First you come into class with an item that is clearly against dress code, you then come in again LATE I might add; wearing said item, disrupt my class, and I of coarse I did hear about your little incident outside of my room earlier this morning. Caused quite a scene. I'm sorry but you're going to have to be sent to the principles office for this." He turns to continue his lecture, "But Sensei you don't understand!" The chalk breaks against the board. "To the office NOW Ogino!" I turn to walk out of the room but before I can make it out he stops me. "Before you leave though I will need you hairband please." I freeze in my steps, pull my glittering hair-tie out of my pocket and turn towards Hiro Sensei. "Please don't take it Sensei, it might just be a hair-tie but it does mean a great deal to me." I hold the hair-tie closer to my heart which I can feel is racing. Sensei Hiro walks up to me and puts his hand out quietly waiting for me to hand over my most valued possession. I shake my head and close my eyes, I can't hand this over, I know I will never see it again if I do. This is my only connection to the boy whose name I do not know, I can't part with it, I won't part with it! "Ogino Chihiro! I am your Sensei, now give me the hairband!" Hiro yells before reaching out and grabbing it from my hands. We almost begin a tug of war fight over the pink elastic band before...*snap* It rips right before my eyes...Half of it in Senseis hands, half of it in mine my once cherished hair-tie now ripped in half, all I have now is a shred of what I once loved. I look up at Hiro Sensei who is still enraged by my actions. Tears form in my eyes as I look around the classroom. Everyone is gossiping and staring at me as if I'm some kind of freak, I overhear one girl say "Why can't she just be normal like everyone else? Just trying to get attention I bet."

This is not how my life is supposed to be. Why do I always have to lose what I love?! Why can't I just be happy for a change?! First mama and papa forget about me, I forget about the boy I love, I'm pretty much raped by Daichi(because I blacked out I really don't know how far he went..) and now my only memory of happiness is torn to pathetic shreds. The clouds outside get grey and the light dims inside the classroom. Anxiety gets the better of me and I have no choice but to run, just run away from this agonizing pain. The pain I feel in my chest, that never goes away, never lessens. As fast as I can I dart towards the door and run down the hall, I can hear Sensei Hiro yelling for me to return before I turn the corner at the end of the hall and everything goes silent. Most people would have stopped there but I kept going, out the hall, down the stairs, into the courtyard, and through the front gates. I couldn't stop running, I didn't even know where I was going, I simply listened to my instincts and let my legs direct me. I turn right outside of the school and continue running as fast as I could, it got darker and darker. A few raindrops hit the top of my head and before I knew it, it was pouring like never before. I squeezed my eyes shut, I just wanted to disappear, to get away from everything and never come back. I get about a block down the road and finally stop to catch my breath and look around. From across the street I can see in between two houses...The hill with the shrines at the bottom. Without even looking I cross the street, run between the two houses and start to make my way down the hill but I didn't realize how much it had been raining, the soil had turned to mud and I slipped. I slide the entire way down completely soaking my uniform in mud, my hair has dirt and grass in it and one of my shoes fell off during the fall. I lay there at the bottom of the hill for a moment debating whether or not I should even bother getting up. I finally decide to stand after a few minutes, I can see the little houses just a few meters away and I slowly limp over. I notice my ankle is hurting pretty bad but honestly at this point I don't even care. I sit in front of the shrine houses letting the rain pour down on me. I tilt my head down and feel the rain pour through my long hair making it cover my face. I continue to cry and cry, why did this happen to me? I didn't deserve it or at least I don't think I did, did I once do something terrible that I don't remember? Have I ever hurt someone so badly to bring this onto my life? I want to be taken away from this life, I want that special someone to come and take me away, to give me a sign on what to do next. Frustrated I lift my face to the heavens and yell "Please! If you can hear me, help me! I don't know where you are or if you can hear me but...tell me...tell me WHAT TO DO!" Just then I feel a huge gust of wind blow, so powerful it tosses me over to my left. I fall over onto my hands and look forward "The dirt road..." I think to myself. I manage to get on my feet and take a few steps closer to the road entrance. It's dark and full of trees and bushes, who knows what could be hiding in there? I hesitate for a moment but then feel it again, only stronger this time. The gust of wind, it almost feels as if its trying to drag me in. I wipe my tears to help me see better and begin to slowly limp into the woods, holding on to ever tree trunk I pass to help me keep my footing. I walk for a while and start to feel like there is no end to this road, every time I want to give up and turn back the same gust of wind pushes me forward. For some reason I can't help but feel like I am being watched but it's probably just the creepy feeling of being in the dark woods by myself.

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