Summary-Riley finally breaks, but she didn't expect the reason she would break would be because her of her parents and best friend.

I have been working on this for a while, it's something I hope they explore on the show!

I just want to say a quick thank you to 3 people: imaginarybird for helping me out of my funk. I want to thank grizbehr for helping me to write some of the paragraphs and lastly I want to thank laurabelle2930 for reading and for encouraging me...but also A MASSIVE THANK YOU to all my Riley girls on tumblr, you helped me through your love and devotion to that girl.

"Why are you never proud of me?"

The words were spoken so quietly, yet the whole room managed to go silent, turning to look at the girl who had finally spoken her thoughts. The Matthews living room was filled with family and friends and Riley hadn't meant to say a word, but here they were celebrating Maya winning the art competition, which Riley was so proud of her best friend, but seeing her own parents beaming with happiness she just snapped.

"Honey what?" Topanga stutters, finally for the first time all night looks at her daughter. Riley takes a deep breath, noticing that all eyes were on her. She didn't really want to do this here, but for the first time she was finally speaking up about her true feelings and this wasn't going to stop her.

"Why does it seem that you are more proud of Maya then you are of me…your own daughter."

Topanga and Cory take a step closer, trying not to flinch when Riley steps back.

"Riley we are proud of you."

"No, you are really not. I tried to pretend I was fine with it, but I am not…I am not fine."

Riley takes a deep breath and finally lets it all out.

"May I have the meaning of the word?"

"You don't know? Let me tell you."

"It's a neighborhood in Japan where authentic Japanese girls have created an authentic look and life for themselves that is unique to them"

"Stop pretending to be a Harajuku girl because you're not"

"Five seconds or you are eliminated?"

"What do you mean eliminated?"

"It means you aren't apart of the group anymore."

"Remember when I got invited to the seventh grade party? When we got there and realized it was just Farkle and his friends, you laughed at me. Then, when all I wanted was to be accepted by someone…anyone…and decided I wanted to be a Harajuku girl, you didn't even try to talk to me about it. You left it all up to Maya. So there I am at the spelling bee…wanting to make my new friends proud of me…trying to do my best and what happens. You and Maya humiliate me in front of everyone! But being happy Riley, all I'm supposed to do is smile!"

"Riley…" Cory reaches out, trying to comfort her but Riley shrugs him off.

"No! This has been building for a while and it seems no matter what I do you never seem proud!"

The room was so silent you could hear a pin drop, no one knew that Riley felt like this and it was starting to make everyone in the room feel about ten inches small.

"I have tried to find out who I am and you as my own father humiliated me in front of the entire class just to prove a point! Yes, dressing up as a Harajuku girl may not have been my brightest moment but you went about telling me in the wrong way, you didn't even give me a chance to participate in the spelling bee, you just eliminated me just like that"

Cory flinchs again, hating the way it sounded coming out Riley.

"Riley, I…all I want is for you to be yourself…" he tries to say but the look on Riley's face had him stumbling for the right words.

"Dad maybe that was who I am? Did you think about that, but I never had the chance because you told me in front of everyone that it was wrong. You told me in the middle of the spelling bee, which I never got to finish because you wanted to teach me another 'lesson.'"

Cory felt ashamed, he knew that maybe he should have sat down and spoke with her privately, knowing she took what everyone thought of her to heart but he took Maya's advice and instead embarrassed his own daughter in front of the entire class, during the spelling bee no less, something she had been working hard to succeed in.

Riley glances around the room, her gaze finally landing on Shawn, Maya and Katy and she can't help but flashback to the time where Shawn met Maya and even though Shawn was meant to be her godfather half the time he acted as if she didn't exist.

"Hi Uncle Shawn"

"Yeah, uh hey kids"

"Why don't you like Riley?"

"Shawn before you even met Maya you never once made an effort, and yes you explained yourself, but I still feel like you never make an effort. You make more of an effort with Auggie then you did me, your own goddaughter. Then you met Maya and you two made such a close bond, but not only does she get you as a father but you still manage to not say ONE word to me whenever we are in the same room unless it's about Maya!"

Shawn wants to say something but he never gets the chance because Riley was finally getting everything she felt out in the open and no one was going to stop her and make her feel guilty about her own feelings. Maya takes a step forward, away from her mother's embrace but Riley shakes her head, not wanting to look at the tears that she knew was in Maya's eyes…for once she was going to be selfish and let everyone know how much their negligence and their lack of support actually hurt.

"You all my think I am just this naive and stupid girl who will fix everything, but sometimes I just want someone to fix me and tell me I am smart and I do have a talent, I just want to be supported and believed in"

Riley turns to face her mother.

"Auggie you are my little genius"

"You said I was your little genius."

"Well that was before I had anyone to compare you to honey."

"Auggie you are going to change the world with your brilliant mind"

"You have a cute top!"

"Do you remember when Maya was having her art shown at school? All I wanted was for you to tell me I was good at something and what did you say…'That's a nice top.' And then when I came in on you and Daddy still working at midnight and I wanted to know what I was good at you said 'sleeping'"

Topanga opens her mouth, but nothing came out.

"Yes you are; you fierce amazon warrior, have I ever told you how fond of you I am?"

"Maya's the strongest person we know"

"Then, there was something I was extremely passionate about. I wanted the girls to have more of an interest in Science and I brought them here for you to talk to, because to me you are my hero, you always stand up for what is right and you fight for the little guy yet you stayed at the door, your arms folded, telling us that it was a difficult problem. Then you said how fierce Maya was, so I told you she dropped the marble, conforming to the sexist's roles we'd been given and suddenly you're sitting next to her and solving HER problem and telling her how proud you are of her!"

"Or how about our fight which Uncle Eric came to fix. At first, I was so happy that you were on my side, but then you go and talk about how fierce and strong Maya is while I'm just the super klutz!"

"Or right before graduation when I'm trying to tell you how I feel about what is going on between me and Maya and Lucas and you tell me that Maya can take whatever happens because she's so strong…I'm looking you right in the eyes in pain and you don't even care if I can take it! Then Maya comes in and collapses on the floor like a seven-year-old and you run over to give her a big hug that you never give me! I'll bet you even give her advice on how to act with Lucas!"

"You didn't seem to mind Riley!" Topanga argues.

"THAT'S BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO SEEM IMMATURE AND WHINY MOM!"

Topanga stepped back, not having heard Riley yell like that before, especially at her and that's when she beings to really understand how serious this is.

"That's how you all see me? Riley Super klutz?"

"YES!"

"Oh well that kind of hurts"

Riley spins around and points at all of her classmates who had come over to support Maya. "You think I don't know that the only reason you like me is because I'm happy all the time! You think I don't know that you all make fun of me because I'm happy all the time! When Maya was pretending to be me, that's all you cared about…that happy Riley who sees the best in everyone and everything was still there! In fact you should not have even had a say in who makes a better couple. Just because Lucas and I seem similar does not mean we wouldn't work, you don't get to judge what is chemistry and what isn't"

Rile whirls around, looking at just how full the room is knowing they were here for Maya…when would she ever get a turn out like that?

"Explain to me what's the matter with you? Every year I have to tell you that you are good, but you know what…you aren't good."

"You were supposed to put a stop to this."

"You are no cheerleader."

"No one wanted her to do this."

"All of you are here to support Maya just like all of you were there to support Maya when the art program was threatened! Where was your support when I was trying out for cheerleading! All I heard from everyone was 'you aren't good enough!' and 'you will never make the team' and that hurts, but none of you cared how that would affect me did you?"

No one speaks, because they honestly didn't know what to see.

"Not one of you noticed for two weeks that I was being bullied! Oh sure, once I decided to confront her you were there, but how much of that was support and how much of it was let's see what goofy Riley is going to do today! Do any of you even know how insecure I am over my own personality? Do any of you even care?"

By this stage everyone is standing in the room not looking at each other let alone Riley, because if they were being truly honest with themselves, what Riley was saying was true. Riley's eyes finally fall to the three boys by the window, the three boys who Riley values in different ways.

"Farkle was the only person to even ask if I was ok, he was the first to even notice I was being bullied and he was the ONLY one to catch on to the fact that I still have feelings for Lucas. He actually believed in me when it came to cheerleading and science."

"Zay, we all know how you feel about Maya and Lucas but did you ever think about how that made ME feel?" Zay looks ashamed at everything he said about Lucas and Maya's flirting.

Lucas steps forward, hating that he couldn't see that Riley was pushing her feelings away, that he made her think that he didn't want her, that he would choose her best friend over her just like other people did.

"Lucas you told me you were worth it! Yet how come you didn't even think to ask me to the semi-formal? I know we had an unofficial thing going on, but I would have liked to be asked, to know that you actually cared."

"Riley I do care…I do like you…"

"Then why did you almost kiss my best friend? Why didn't you ask me to the semi-formal? Why did you describe Maya as a blonde beauty yet me as the pretty brunette, we all know beautiful and beauty mean a lot more then pretty?" Riley croaks up, and Lucas hearts shatters…he caused that pain, he should have been honest and now someone he truly cares about is broken.

"Honey…" came the one voice that at that moment made Riley see red. Not once has she ever resented her best friend, not once had she ever felt the feeling of hate towards her best friend. Until now. Riley slowly turns and looks at the one person who was always meant to know Riley, always meant to be there for Riley yet at the moment was the one causing the pain.

"Maya do you know what it's like to feel like you are taking everything away from me? I don't want to feel like this but I do, and to know that you my very best friend in the world makes me feel like this hurts."

"I hate that you made cheerleading all about you, the fact that said you have to go through that every year and that you didn't even believe in me, because I couldn't ever imagine not believing in you. I hate sitting next to you in art class and being told by our art teacher that I have no talent at all, and you don't even defend me. That you agree with her along with my parents. What about when I stepped back for you to explore your feelings for Lucas because you led me to believe you liked him from the very start, when it turns out that you didn't even begin to like him until at least a year after we met. To know that Lucas refers to you as his blonde beauty, while I will only be the pretty brunette…HOW COULD YOU NOT SEE THAT IT HURTS MAYA!"

Everyone stepped back from the two best friends, finally understanding that Riley's feelings run a lot deeper then this triangle the two have found themselves in.

"Riley I didn't-"

"Didn't mean to? I know that Maya, but I also bet you 'didn't' mean to come to MY house to talk to MY parents about Lucas, when you have your own mother who has tried so hard to make things better for you, why can't you see that? Why is that you made me believe you stepped back when you didn't. Or the fact that you and Lucas have grown closer since we got to high school, despite the fact that we all said we would remain friends. You guys don't think I see the smiles and the flirting, but I do…and the fact that you do it right in front of my face just adds to the pain because YOU DON'T SEE ME!"

"Maya I have tried to remain happy about this, but I can't anymore and you don't even see that I am giving up. You just think I am this goofy girl but I am more than that, more than Rileytown. And I just can't do this anymore, I can't be the happy girl you all want, I can't be the person who fixes everyone when she can't even fix herself. I can't live in a shadow and I don't want to watch the guy I like and my best friend become something. I am just tired of being here, of being Riley…of being not good enough for anyone."

"I'm really tired Maya."

"It's always mattered more to me about what others think."

"This is my upset face"

"I am just their little shadow"

"I'm a little tired."

Riley stops, she stops ranting because she is tired from it all, she is tired from thinking about everything, she is tried from asking if everyone else is ok and she is tired from telling herself she is fine, that she was loved and believed in. She glances around the room, taking in everyone's shell shocked faces as she feels a wetness on her cheeks, only noticing that she is crying and she wipes her face wanting to say her final piece with some dignity left intact.

"Coach Kelly asked me how much rejection can I take, and I thought to myself that I could take as many rejections as long as I was believed in, but now I can't do it anymore. The rejection, the fact that no one believes I am strong enough and the lack of support has finally broken me. You all have broken me." She starts walking towards the front door, weaving around everyone, everyone watching her every step and she grabs her coat and opens the door, but not before turning around and looking back at everyone and saying.

"The girl who believed in Pluto, finally stopped believing in Pluto."