Magnus stared at his bedroom wall unblinkingly, the shimmering gold paint far too bright for his current mood. He hadn't wanted to believe Camille, he never would have thought that Alec could betray him like that, but when he saw Alec's dark figure emerging from around the street corner and realised that, for once, Camille wasn't lying, the disloyalty of his actions struck Magnus in the heart like a spear. He didn't trust him. Alec; the man he loved. Didn't trust him. Discomfort had settled in Magnus' heart, slowly filling him up more and more until he felt he was ready to explode. Slowly, when he was just at breaking point he'd walked out of the shadows to confront the Nephilim.

It had hurt Magnus far more than he showed. Walking away from Alec like that was one of the hardest things he'd ever done. Alec may have betrayed his love, but that didn't change how Magnus felt for him. He'd had to pinch himself to keep from looking back, not knowing whether he'd have the will to carry on walking if he caught sight of those captivating blue eyes that had drawn him to Alec from the very beginning.

He felt small tears starting to form as he thought of the shadowhunter who had captured his heart, his face scrunching up in an effort to stop them, however one still managed to escape from the prison of his eyes, and Magnus traced the salty trail on his cheek in astonishment. He hadn't cried in years, and especially not over a breakup. But then again, Alec wasn't like all the other people Magnus had spent nights with over the years. Alec was, well- he was just, Alec. Protective, determined, innocent and simply beautiful inside and out.

"Damn it," Magnus sighed. He wasn't this person, Magnus Bane did not pine over boys, and he most certainly did not cry over them. But he couldn't seem to stop himself, and as more crystalline tears began to drip down his cheeks, Magnus finally accepted that there was no use in trying to stop them. After all, it was only fitting that the boy who he'd fallen so irrevocably in love with was the cause of these tears.

Magnus laid back on his silken bed, the faint scent of Alec lingering on the pillows, comforting and torturing him at the same time. Magnus reached over and plucked Chairman Meow up from where he was perched, cuddling the tabby close to his chest, Magnus closed his eyes and prayed that sleep wouldn't evade him. Slowly twisting his head so that the soft lingering scent of sandalwood invaded his senses, comforting him in his pain.

"Magnus...Magnus!..MAGNUS!"

"Huh, what?" he snapped jolting up from his shaky sleep, only to get the shock of his life as his head crashed into that of an arrogant blond above him.

"Jace, what the hell are you doing here? Get out!"

"Look, please Magnus, we need your help, A-"

"No," he stated firmly." As I told Alec, I'm done being your pet."

"As you told-what? Magnus, please. I have no idea what's going on but what I do know is that Izzy just rang me, screaming about Alec being in serious danger and that I need to come and get you."

Magnus stared up at Jace with wide eyes. Danger? What did that even mean? Was Izzy just freaking out over a minor demon injury or was Alec…His eyes widened as possible thoughts raced through his mind: kidnap, torture, oh hell, what if Alec was dead? What if he was lying in a gutter somewhere all alone suffering his last moments and thinking Magnus hated him, what if he had been attacked and left with his organs burning into dust, what if-

A harsh crack sounded in the room moments before Magnus felt the stinging pain of a slap around his face. He looked up in shock at the shadowhunter before him, and realised with a jolt that he was shaking uncontrollably, tears now pouring down his face.

"Um, sorry about that,"Jace stammered." You just wouldn't respond to your name and violence is kind of my autopilot."

"I-I'll forgive you this once, Herondale." Magnus replied, obviously trying to brush off the embarrassment of the Golden Asshole seeing him like that. "Do it again, I'll turn you into a ferret."

Jace rolled his eyes. "Okay, whatever. Now come on, Alec needs us. Now."

It only took Magnus a moment to make his choice, Alec may have betrayed him, but he couldn't leave him alone if he needed his help. "Let's go," Magnus replied, with a new-found determination.

But Magnus' resolution was thrown into outer space the second he walked through the door into Alec's bedroom. Nothing could have ever prepared him for what he saw. Lying on the floor next to the bathroom door was Alec, his face grey, eyes dull, hair clumped together with so much mud that it looked brown. But worst of all was the blood. His entire left arm was hidden behind a layer of red, the liquid pooling around his body, staining any skin that it reached. Magnus was shaken to the core as he noticed the jagged cuts up his arm, one after the other, each getting more and more deep the higher they went.

"Out," Magnus ordered. Izzy and Jace looked at each other, communicating silently before they simultaneously got up and moved towards the door.

"Please help him Magnus," Izzy whispered desperately as she passed by him. "I can't lose another brother."

Magnus gave her a small, sympathetic nod, before turning and slowly walking over to Alec, peering down at his slashed body in absolute despair. Then, the second he heard the door click shut, he collapsed down onto his knees in a heap and wept.

"Oh, Alexander," he cried, once again letting the tears flow freely. He pulled Alec's head onto his lap, not at all bothered about the blood staining his designer jeans, and cradling his face in his hands, he immediately started to chant spell after spell, apply remedy after remedy to his injuries, and all the while tears dripped steadily down onto his body.

However, hours later Alec was still unconscious, and Magnus had collapsed in an exhausted heap next to him. He had tried absolutely everything and drained all of his magic. Although he hated saying it, it was completely down to Alec whether or not he recovered now.

Summoning the last ounces of his strength, Magnus shuffled over to lie down next to the boy, leaning up on his elbow and running a lithe had over his face in a caress, before carefully placing a gentle kiss onto his cracked lips, and pressing their foreheads together.

"Please, Alec. Please fight for me. I don't know what I'd do if you died. You're everything to me." Moments later, after he let a few more tears fall he whispered against his lover's lips again: "It's my fault, isn't it? It's my fault that you did this, that you're-" but he couldn't say it.

"You know what, I should go. I'll get Izzy or Jace, they deserve to be with you a lot more than I do."

Magnus stood up to go, but as he took a step towards the door, a small, weak voice sounded behind him, "Don't leave me again."

Magnus spun around so fast he gave himself whiplash, immediately throwing himself down next to the boy and staring into his closed eyes, his gaze flickering over them for any sign of movement. "Alec?" He whispered. And like an unfolding rose, Magnus watched in astonishment as Alec's eyes slowly flickered open, revealing the bright sapphire orbs underneath. "Alec!" Magnus sobbed, throwing his head down and snuggling deep into his neck before placing soft, loving kisses everywhere that he could reach.

"I'm so, so sorry," he wept. "I thought you were going to die, I thought-"

"Shh," Alec soothed. "It's alright Magnus, I'm fine."

Magnus raised his head suddenly and stared boringly into the depths of Alec's eyes, his cat eyes piercing him like a film. "Never. And I repeat, NEVER, do that again. If I ever see another cut on your arm you will be in serious trouble Alexander Lightwood. What the hell were you thinking?"

Had Alec not known Magnus, he would have been terrified by his tone of voice, but the subtle crack at the end of his sentence that only someone who knew him well would have caught had instead made Alec want to cry. "I- I just wanted to take the pain away. I-I love you Magnus, and the fact that I betrayed you; I just couldn't deal with it. I was weak and stupid."

Magnus sighed, "Alec, darling, listen to me. I won't lie, when you did that you ripped away every piece of trust I had in you, and it's going to take a long time for you to regain that trust because you have no idea how angry I am that you did that. However," Magnus continued as he saw Alec shrink back at his words, "one day, Alec. One day I promise that I will be able to forgive you. I can't promise you how long it will take, but you mean too damn much to me to let you go forever."

"But, I thought that you didn't love me anymore," Alec replied, confused. "How could someone as amazing as you ever love a screw-up like me?"

"Alec honey, you're not a screw up. You made a mistake, and I was wrong to judge you for that. You're only human, after all. Now, I want you to promise me that you won't keep on punishing yourself for this. It was my fault for keeping secrets from you, and someday, as long as you give me some space for a while, I will tell you each and every one of those secrets. Okay?"

"Okay," Alec whispered, a small smile rising on his pale face. "I can do that."

Magnus gazed into the eyes of his love, and after only recognising the truth in them, he grinned and connected their lips in a loving kiss, pouring all of his emotion from the last day into his actions, smiling against Alec's lips as he felt him doing the same, and by pulling the strength from knowing that one day, they would be together again, Magnus gently pulled away, placing one last, lingering kiss on Alec's lips before whispering: "Aku cinta kamu," into the silence of the night, before slowly getting up and walking to the door, turning around and meeting those gorgeous eyes with his. But this time, they didn't beckon him back, instead, the love and acceptance he saw in them was what made him walk away, feeling at peace as he knew that Alec was safe, and that one day, they would be reunited again.

A/N: Yay for fluffy endings! I couldn't bear to let them be heartbroken for long. Anyone catch the Harry Potter reference by the way? I didn't actually realise it was there until I was spell checking it :)