It was all supposed to be over.

Blue hugged her knees to her chest as she found herself a private place to conceal herself within the escape ship, far away from the other boisterous Homeworld Gems that were celebrating a victory.

Pink Diamond was avenged and the Crystal Gems have become what they truly were: filthy animals. The fact that the supposedly infallible Gem race had fled from a perfectly potential colony and chose to abandon several resources their empire sorely needed never came up.

Blue was sickened by all of it: the celebrating, the obliviousness to what they have truly done, the cowardice disguised as salvation for the Gem race, the millions of victims they claimed, and the fact that she was amongst them and was supposed to be on their side.

For a moment, Blue even considered fighting her way out of the escape ship to plunge herself into suicide. At the time, that foolish choice felt better than being amongst these murderers who called themselves saviors.

The Diamonds were famed to be merciless, since that was what made them strong rulers, but Blue didn't know that they had such a power. And the fact that must've happened before made Blue feel even worse.

Before, she thought that the Crystal Gems were vicious radicals that had brainwashed her sister, but even after they had threatened her life time and time again, despite her status as a meek Pearl, she couldn't help but feel deep pity for them.

Seeing what "Corruption" truly did was the most horrid punishment Blue had ever witnessed. She had seen several other minor Gems get broken and harvested before her Diamond for insubordination but "Corruption" made all of that seem rather pleasant.

When you were harvested, you would at least not be able to feel the pain; the feeling similar to being in an eternal rest, peaceful and blissfully unaware.

Even death seemed to be a better alternative to becoming corrupted; getting shattered meant getting released from this cruel world and a flicker of yourself still remained inside you, even if it was fractured and barely cognizant. Plus, being inside a bubble prevented any other pain from befalling you.

"Corruption" meant living the rest of your life in endless pain and suffering. It meant losing everything that made you sane, made you feel whole, and replacing it with complete insanity. You became warped and twisted, barely reminiscent of your former self and trapped inside such a form forever. There was no way to communicate, to use your powers; even the ability to restrain yourself seemed to be stripped away from you.

When you were corrupted, all you knew was that you were a monster . . . that you used to be something sane and put-together . . . but no matter how hard you tried, you couldn't summon that former form of yours. All you had were fractured memories and the insatiable need to destroy, anything to end the pain that you were forced inside.

Earlier, Blue wished her sister was punished for betraying her. Back then, she had felt hurt and angry, that White had turned to a murderer and anarchist for support instead of her trustworthy sisters and had chosen to abandon her for a pair of swords and a planet that barely made sense. She didn't know what White, or the "Renegade Pearl" as the rest of Homeworld seemed to call her, saw in Rose Quartz, in Earth, and in warfare. She wanted her sister to contemplate what she had left behind and see how hurt she had made her.

But she didn't want this.

The sickening thought that White might be a mindless animal, that she might have truly forgotten everything about her, that at one point, Blue had even wished that upon her, was too much for her.

Her sister had vanished a long time ago, but now she was really gone. White might not even be capable of remembering Blue now, let alone love her. Their sisterhood had been shattered forever now, with no hope of fixing it. White will now spend the rest of her life suffering for her crimes, but that didn't satisfy Blue at all. No one deserved that kind of eternal torment, not even someone who murdered Pink Diamond.

She wanted it to end. Blue wanted all the pain, the grief, and the trauma to just end already. She wanted to forget all of it. She had doomed her sister to suffer for eternity, but now all Blue wants it for her own suffering to cease.

Maybe if she forgets as well, she can finally get it to stop.

Several Millennia Later

The Crystal Gems were absolutely unbreakable at this point. The Diamond Authority had been throwing everything they have at them: Corruption, the Cluster, their finest warriors. But they have again and again risen up and declared themselves to be unstoppable.

Yellow Diamond grows more and more restless every cycle. Her Pearl gives her the results after every single effort to wipe out the Crystal Gems and every attempt always ends up thwarted.

Yellow herself finds it slightly admirable. Her sister has been getting smarter after all these years. But it was also bittersweet, knowing that White would most likely never think of her to this day.

After spending many cycles contemplating the choice, Yellow finally decides to do it. It was foolish yes, and she knew that White would never be able to get the message anyways, so all practical excuses flew out the window. But Yellow didn't need this for White, she needed it for herself.

She needed closure.

And even though this will never get to White, she hoped that her older sister would soon realize how much impact had hit them ever since she had defected from Homeworld and chose to be amongst anarchists and traitors.

Yellow sighed, took out an ancient piece of parchment, which now seemed so primitive now that Era 2 was filled with such advanced technology, but it helped with the purpose of writing such a useless letter.

Dear White (if you even call yourself that anymore),

It's been thousands of years since you have made your decision. Your decision to abandon everything you know for a Gem who audaciously murdered Pink Diamond, your decision to give up all those past hopes and desires to explore the galaxy and settle for such a diminutive planet, your decision to become greater than all the rest of us "uselessly pretty" Pearls and slay all superior Gems.

But I'm not bitter about any of that. I have had several years to cope.

Why I decided to write this is because you need to know something. You need to know how your actions have affected both me and Blue.

I don't contact Blue anymore. It's not out of spite, not out of apathy, but out of concern.

Ever since she had returned from the war, thankfully all in one piece, Blue had become everything a master expects from a Pearl. She is nothing more than an empty shell now; she refuses to speak and hardly acknowledges her surroundings anymore.

It's been millennia since I have last seen her beautiful smile. I'm not even sure if she is capable of moving her mouth.

I know it would be futile to send letters to her, knowing that she would never respond but it worries me. What has she seen in order to become this way? Did you ever cross paths with her? Were you involved with how she ended up this way? Would you even care?

You have a new family now, one with misfit Gems who are most likely just like you and have given yourself a whole new title, Renegade Pearl. You clearly don't need us anymore, or perhaps the proper term would be "me" since I'm not sure if Blue even remembers.

Now Yellow Diamond wishes you dead and your beloved Rose Quartz has been replaced with an indescribable being that manages to be half-organic and half-Gem. Blue has become little more than a living corpse that slowly wishes to die and I have forgotten how all of this happened to us and where did it all begin?

I hope you are happy with your choices and I hope that the memory of Blue and I still haunts you from time to time. I know it happens to me every single cycle.

Goodbye, sister, and this time that means forever.

Sincerely, Yellow

A/N: And that's the end to the saga. I'm sorry if the ending seems too depressing and abrupt, but looking back on it, I never intended for this story to last for so long and for it to actually become popular. I can't wait for Blue Pearl to actually appear in the show again with voiced lines so I can get the confirmation whether or not she survived the war. Hope you'll find the time to check out my other stories!