Life As We Know It- Chapter 12 Final
I hate hospitals. I've always had. When I was sixteen my dad had a heart attack and I got a call from my mom. My best friend Michelle had to drive me to hospital because I was crying so hard and couldn't see anything. When I got there I was met with my mom in the waiting room. I remember having to wait for hours before the doctor came and told us he was going to be okay. What is happening now is worst. I don't want to say I don't love my dad or anything, but seeing Emma, a little girl who I see as a daughter lying so motionless in the hospital bed with machines hooked up to her breaks my heart. Another thing that breaks my heart more then I thought was Amy yelling at me saying I was a terrible mother.
Having her yelling at me reminds me of our first date. She was the most selfish woman I have ever met and now I know that she will never change. I have sacrificed so much of my life to be a mother to Emma. I had to sort out my priorities. Before the crash my bakery was my number one priority now it is Emma and Amy. Emma is my life, I live to be there when she wakes up, cries and fall asleep. Not sure I can say that about Amy.
The worst part of it all is that I view Amy as a partner. I know I shouldn't have but I've developed deep feelings for this woman and somehow I got this fantasy world of us being a family and raising Emma together. Living happier ever after. Now I need to focus on reality, reality that Amy and I wont work out and that I would have to fight for custody of Emma and live a life without Amy.
Amy and I have been in this stupid hospital for four days. We are both exhausted and haven't spoken. I refuse to look or talk to her. She acts like I intentionally wanted Emma to get sick by taking her to Mommy and me and it was my entire fault. I wish I never got that idea from my mom or pursue it. The hard part is being in the same room as Amy. She has tried to talk to me several times but I just ignore her or pretend I am on the phone. The most annoying part is that as much as I try to ignore Amy she is always beside me. In the waiting room she is in the chair right next to me, when we are with Emma in her room Amy is always at my side and she always brings me lunch from the cafeteria. If she wasn't being such a jerk I would be very flattered but honestly what she said about me not being a good mother hurts. I also think trying to put distant between us will make it easier to leave her when this is all done.
As the days go by my patience for yelling at her are becoming low. Every nice thing she is doing I want to yell, every time she is near me I want to yell.
By day 5 Emma is off all machines. She is breathing normally and expected to leave the hospital by Sunday. Mom, Dad and Lauren came to the hospital that day. Mom and Farrah insisted Amy and I go home and take a shower and nap. Mom said we both look like zombies with bad breath. I was hesitant to go for two reasons. One, I didn't want Emma to wake up with out seeing me or Amy and two; I didn't want to be alone with Amy. I'm not sure my anger will get the best of me or not.
"I will watch Emma while you two are gone, don't worry if anything changes I will call you both immediately" Lauren said looking at us. She walked towards Emma's bed and gave her a kiss on the forehead.
"Yea Karms, lets take a nap for a couple of hours".
I turn around and look at Amy for the first time in 5 days. Her eyes have dark circles underneath and her hair is messy. I didn't want to bring any attention to our families that we are fighting so I gave in.
Amy grabs my hands and we walk towards my mom's car.
Mom drives us home and helps us get settled. She makes some coffee for us and the three of us does some small talk.
After 10 minutes of small talk she tells us if we need anything to call her and she will pick us up in 4 hours. She says we both need to take showers and nap. I'm not sure if I want to be alone with Amy or not. I was about to ask my mom to stay when Amy says "Bye Molly".
Mom walks out of the house and closed the door. Now it is just Amy and I. I put the coffee mug I had in my hands down on the counter when I feel Amy's arms wrap around my body.
Amy pulls me close to her and it feels nice. It feels nice having her body close to mine and hearing her heartbeat. Her heartbeat is slow an steady and if I am being honest I could stay in this position forever.
"Can we please talk"
"About what" I say nonchalantly.
"Karma, please!"
I then push Amy away from me and she looks stunned.
Words are coming out of my mouth before I can think. "Fine, lets talk. Lets talk about how you called me a terrible mother and how Emma being sick is my entire fault. Maybe we should talk about how selfish you are Amy. Maybe we should talk about how at Mommy and Me you wouldn't pay attention to Emma. Not for a second. Your mind was elsewhere and Emma noticed. All Emma wanted was for you to pay attention to her and you couldn't do that. You broke her heart! I can't believe you called me a terrible mother when you are one. You were self-centered on our first date and you are self-centered now."
Amy is just looking at me not saying a word. I'm not sure if I want her to. She takes a step towards me and leans forward.
"Is that what you think about me Karma?" her voice breaking at the last word.
"Right now it is" I reply back.
"I thought living together after so long you will know who I truly am."
Amy brings her right hand up to her nose and squeezed the top bridge as she thinks.
"Lets go through memory lane don't we? Our first date, Shane told me that his boyfriend had a gorgeous red head friend who would be perfect for me. They tried to get us to go out for a while. I finally said yes and I assume you finally said yes to get them off your back too. A couple of days before our date Shane show's me a picture of you. You were with Duke at that Florence and the Machine concert that they asked me to go to. I couldn't go to that concert because I had a photo shoot for a wedding to work. On the picture you were wearing a black dress with white flowers. Your hair was down in waves you were wearing matching a flower halo. That was the first moment I saw you and that was the first moment I knew you were going to take my heart. Forward to the date. Prior to seeing your picture I was already nervous. I was late on purpose because I didn't know if I could go through with this or not. My nerves were the highest they have ever been and I knew I couldn't mess this up. Guess what, I messed everything up. The date went terribly and you told Duke to never mention my name again. A year later our best friends get married and we are bridesmaids, then Emma was born and we were godmothers. It seemed like fate was pushing us towards each other again and I was about to ask for a second date but then our best friends dies in a terrible accident and we became parents."
"I didn't ask for any of this Amy!" I scream at her tears pouring out of my eyes.
"You think I did too? I knew the second I saw your picture that you were going to be the one. I could see my self settling down with you and having kids. I never wanted our lives to start like this! I wanted to date you then marry then have kids." Amy says now crying.
"I wanted to give you everything Karma. The reason why I have been acting distant lately is because my movie production fell through. The actress went all diva and the producers cut it. I wont be able to give you the loan to expand the bakery. I got the news the day of Mommy and Me and I don't handle stress that well."
"I shouldn't have said you were a terrible mother. You are a great mother and great woman to raise a family with. I love you Karma. I always have."
The second Amy finished the sentence my lips were on her. At first she just stood there processing our kiss but after a few seconds she started to respond and pulled me closer to her body. This was the moment when I knew Amy Raudenfeld was not selfish. She was more worried about not lending me a loan then losing her job that she is so passionate about.
I pull back and look in her eyes. Amy is still crying from her heartfelt speech. I pull my arm towards her head a whip her tears. After I got all her tears I put her forehead closer to mind.
"I love you Amy".
"I love you too Karma."
2 years later
"Mommy, Mommy, Mommy!" I hear Emma running down the stairs in her princess outfit. "When is Auntie Lauren picking me up to go trick or treating?"
"I don't know honey, soon."
"But Mom I want candy now!" Emma says as she pouts.
I look at Karma and see her back towards us. I reach into the bowl of candy and take out a mini kit kat bar and motion to Emma to be quite with my index finger to my mouth and saying "shh".
Emma's face brightens up and "shh" me back.
"I hope your not giving Emma candy Amy."
Emma and I look up at Karma who's hand in on her hips giving us the classic you two are in trouble look.
"Karma, it is Halloween. Let Emma eat candy."
As Karma was about to say something the doorbells rings and Lauren walks in.
"Auntie Lauren!" Emma screams while she runs up to her.
"Ah Princess Emma. You look gorgeous in your pink gown and tiara." Lauren says in a British accent.
"Thank you Auntie Lauren" Emma responds in the same accent.
"Are you ready my lady?"
"Yes I am! Bye Momma. My mommy!"
"Pick her up by 9?" Lauren confirms.
"Yes my lady" I say mocking Lauren to get under her skin.
Lauren gives me the death stare and tells Karma. "Don't have too much fun" while winking at me.
"I'm sure we will have more fun than you tonight!" I reply just in time for her to hear as she shuts the door.
I turn around and see Karma walking towards the living room with a bowl of popcorn. She looks at me and says "we are not having sex tonight."
"Why!" I whine. "We haven't had sex in like 24 hours. Am I not allowed to touch my wife?"
"You are, but not tonight. Tonight is scary movie night while giving candy to trick or treater's and then were picking Emma up. I don't want a quickie."
"Fine!" I say as I walk up the tv and putting on the movie 13. I walk back down to the couch and snuggle up to Karma. We get about 30 minutes into the movie before we hear our doorbell ring.
"I'll get it" I volunteer.
I walk up to the door, open it and pick up the bowl of candy from the table.
"Trick or treat!" I hear 3 kids say in unison.
"Ah!" I play scared to the two boys and one girl. "Wow, you guys look awesome."
"I'm Jasmine from Aladdin" the little girl says. I give her a piece of candy.
"I'm dark vador from Star Wars" the second little boy says. I give him a piece of candy.
"I'm Steven Spielberg and I just directed E.T." the third little boys says. I give him 2 pieces of candy.
I look up and see the kids parents behind them smiling. The three kids say thank you and walk off to hug their parents.
Emma is now 3 years old and I love her to death. I always wanted kids of my own and the moment I met Karma I wanted a life with her. After 6 months into our marriage I asked Karma if we could start having kids. She said she didn't know. That kind broke my heart. If Karma doesn't ever want to have kids that are fine, I will always love her. But I think having a kid with her would make my life even more complete with her and Emma then ever.
I turn around and see Karma looking at me. She knows how I feel about kids.
"Amy we talked about this."
"I know. I have always wanted kids and think now is a good time."
"I don't know babe. Having a baby is a huge process and I'm not sure if I am ready for that."
"Okay babe, I understand."
2 Hours later
"How did Emma do trick or treating?" Amy asked Lauren and Theo.
"She did great! Your daughter is beautiful, you're going to have a hand full when she grows up!" Lauren says smiling while taking a sip of her drink.
"Yea Amy, you better get started on the birds and the bees talk." Theo said joking.
"Nope! Emma is not going to date till she is 25!"
"Sure" Karma said taking a sip of her drink smiling.
"Hey Aims, help me with something in the kitchen?" Theo asked motioning that Amy follows him.
"Come here Karma!" Lauren says patting her seat. I walk towards the couch and sit down.
"What's going on? I feel like we haven't had girl time in a while."
"I know! We have been so busy right? With you and Leo having baby James and Amy producing a hit show on NBC I haven't been able to hang out with my friends. How is baby James?"
"He is doing good. His one-year birthday is in two months. You, Amy and Emma have to come."
"Wouldn't miss it for the world!"
"How are you and Amy?"
"Were okay. She wants more kids. Not sure if I am ready."
"Why not? Emma is a wonderful beautiful child. If there were more kids in the world like Emma in world would be a better place!"
"Thanks Lauren. It's just. I love Amy and I love Emma. Our lives are perfect right now and I don't want to add more kids and we fall apart. I wouldn't know what to do without Amy or Emma in my life."
"Karma. I am being honest with you. You are my best friend and sister-in-law. You and Amy have been through so much. You two can make it through anything. Your love for each other is strong and your bond is even stronger."
"So you think we should try?"
"I do."
9 months later.
"Karma I need you to push on the count of three."
"Okay. Amy get that stupid camera out of my face!" Karma yells at me.
"Babe, I want to capture the birth of our babies."
"GET THE DAM CAMERA OUT OF MY FACE!" Karma yells.
"Okay, okay" I say as I put the camera down and close the screen. I walk over to Karma and take her hand. The doctor counts to 3 and I feel Karma's grip tightening. She starts screaming and after a few seconds we hear a cry. I see my baby boy for a second before the nurse turns around and cleans him. The doctor counts to three for a second time. Another baby boy comes out screaming. Again I see a glimpse of him before the nurse turns around and cleans him.
I lean down to Karma and kiss her forehead. She looks up and smiles at me. She is the most beautiful women I have ever seen.
The nurse turns towards us with both babies in each of her arms. The nurse hands Karma both boys.
Karma smiles gently and looks at both boys. I do the same thing, falling instantly in love with them.
A few seconds later Lauren and Theo comes in with Emma and says hi to the boys. Emma is trying to get on the bed to get a closer look at her brothers. Lauren swings Emma on the bed and is sitting next to Karma. Karma leans forward and kisses Emma on the check.
Theo takes the camera from me and starts recording.
"What are their names?" Emma asks curious to see her bothers and looking at them bright eyes.
Karma smiles and looks at me.
"Shane and Duke."
I smile back and say, "Perfect".
Karma turns around to Lauren. "We want you and Theo to be their godparents."
Lauren and Theo smiles and Lauren puts her forehead gently to Karma and says, "Thank you".
here are a few moments of silent where the family is taking each other in and savoring the moment.
After a couple of minutes Theo says "Smile team Raudenfeld" and takes our first family picture of Karma, Emma, Shane, Duke and I.
A/N: Hi Everyone! Thanks for reading my story, I really enjoyed writing about Karmy. Even though Faking It has ended it will always be in my heart. Keep a look out for more stories :)