Hi guys! This is where things get MATURE. But hopefully in an okay way. Also, there's more Pour Toi related stuff on my tumblr: lavirarose if you want to check it out.

"I wish I had been with you," Kevin tells him hoarsely.

Edd stares at him, lips slightly parted and eyes shining, open and honest. Kevin can't look away. "Next time… I won't send you away."

"Never alone should mean never."

"Yeah…" he whispers.

Kevin crawls onto the bed and Edd leans back against the headboard to give him room. He slips into the taller boy's lap, knees bracketing his hips, and kisses him soundly. His tongue flickers across Edd's bottom lip and he sighs softly, opening himself to Kevin. He's so pliant and content it makes something inside Kevin's chest ache with adoration.

This kiss is gentle, soft, yet still deep. Edd's tongue curls with Kevin's and the boy presses closer, sliding his hands into dark hair as Edd's possessively grab at his hips, smoothing over them, squeezing firm yet always gentle.

"Never alone," he says quietly, against Edd's soft lips. Blue eyes crack open and his wicked tongue teases across the seam of Kevin's lips.

Chapter 8:

"You smell like me…" Edd murmurs and noses against Kevin's cheek. He runs his hands through the boy's red hair, drags his nails gently against Kevin's scalp, then trails his fingers teasingly down each side of his neck, fluttering them almost cautiously across his thin shoulders until he shivers.

A strange feeling is seizing Kevin's heart, something that can only be described as perfect yet it's foreign enough to send chills down his spine. It's safe yet new, something like excitement but subtler. He wants to kiss Edd, wants to take his tongue into his mouth, to feel like they are so close there is nothing that could possibly separate them, to forget everything for one night and simply do what feels right, to continue kissing him until it feels like they are one person-

The smaller boy laughs soundlessly and bats at his shoulder, the noise somewhat hollow due to his own panic. He feels as if his train of thought (spiraling quickly into the inappropriate) has practically sobered him up along with the shower. "That's what happens when someone wears your clothes and uses your soap."

Edd hums noncommittally and presses a kiss to Kevin's jaw. He shivers at the feel of small prickles forming along Edd's chin. Yeah, this beard thing might be a… thing-thing.

"I should shower… but you're so tempting…" Edd sighs. "Mon beau… vous êtes si précieux pour moi."

"Just think: we spent the whole day in the dump."

That gets Edd moving. With a huff that's all fake annoyance, he grabs Kevin by the hips, lithe fingers locking around his waist firmly, which sends a thrill up the boy's spine, his breath catching in his throat. "Your hand-!" Kevin yelps but Edd only smirks before bodily moving him out of his lap. He releases a very embarrassing noise as he goes and Edd grins at him teasingly but doesn't poke any fun.

Edd presses Kevin back against the pillows, gentle but firm, like a reminder of his strength, bowing over him. For a moment everything seems to grow still, Kevin's breath trapped in his chest as Edd looks down at him through his thick lashes. The smaller boy tilts his chin up ever so slightly, a silent invitation for a kiss, but Edd blinks and draws away, breaking the spell.

Kevin is left breathless and staring as Edd hurries to the bathroom, shooting him a weak pout as he goes.

Eddward Vincent just picked him up as if he weighed nothing and it might have been the sexiest moment in Kevin's life, as simple as the act was.

The redhead suddenly feels very bare, only in Edd's t shirt and gym shorts, and hurries to get under the covers. He's hyperaware of the fabric against his skin: the rich sheets, the soft cotton of Edd's shirt and the slick, tough fabric of the shorts. He's literally wrapped up in Edd's scent, surrounded by what he touches and wears every day.

I'm all alone with Edd, he thinks helplessly and heat coils in his abdomen because he's all alone with Edd - Jesus, all alone - and he's in his clothes and he wants to feel Edd's skin and kiss his lips and - fuck. Kevin squirms weakly and tries to ignore the heat.

He takes in deep, gulping breaths of Edd's scent and even buries his head in the pillows. The scent of a person can never quite be described but Edd's is pleasant, it's not too strong or harsh yet still there. And god, it's so, so nice. Lovely and rich and fuck, fuck, fuck, he's getting pathetically worked up.

Kevin is starting to understand Double D's fascination with smell and sex and all that crap he thought was super weird just a while ago is now all too applicable.

The boy, much to his embarrassment, is half hard all over again and he can't get it to go down, even by thinking of Sarah or trash or being punched in the gut.

Down the hall, the thrum of water hitting tile can be heard. Edd is in there, beautiful and elegant as always, removing his shirt… his pants… his-

Jesus H. Christ, Kevin groans and tries to suffocate himself in Edd's plush, disgustingly expensive pillows to no avail. The image of Edd, lithe and absolutely perfect from head to toe, all smooth lines of muscle and sharp angles, pops back into Kevin's head.

It's hard to believe it was Wednesday when all of this started, when Kevin first stole Double D's hat in the locker room and got an eyeful of Edd buck naked aaand this train of thought is not helping his dick at all. Moving on.

It was only Wednesday when this started. Only Thursday when they started "dating" and they only actually began dating last night. Holy shit. It already feels like days.

Kevin knows so much about Edd now: about his family, his past, his relationships, his home. But there's so much he doesn't know.

What college is he going to? Kevin was accepted by the state college not 30 minutes away, known for its science and engineering programs. It's not Harvard but it's certainly prestigious; he even received a small scholarship. Edd is probably going somewhere like MIT or Stanford, like the rich genius he is.

Hell, Kevin can't even tell you his favorite color. Maybe it's red - he always seems to be wearing red - or blue like his sheets, like his beautiful eyes-

He likes fish, Kevin knows that, and eats very healthy. That's probably because he needs to stay in shape for sports.

Oh, and his coach mentioned him going to the Olympics.

Kevin sighs, stomach now upset; he wonders if he's already holding Edd back in some way. He's so amazing, so talented. Kevin made out with him instead of working on their science fair project just last night and while it doesn't seem like a lot it's still keeping him from success. Guilt tumbles over in Kevin's stomach and he buries his face in the pillows.

He's so below Edd in every way it's not even funny. Kevin isn't poor but his family always seems to be in need of more money, just a little short, and when they manage to save up then something happens and the air conditioning needs to be replaced, there's a problem with his mother's car, and on and on. Then there's Edd with his nice clothes, nice car, nice everything. He has so much money, wants for nothing, can Kevin actually provide anything for him?

Edd is top of his class, captain of the swim team, and absolutely gorgeous. Kevin is a good student but nothing special, part of Quiz Bowl but still not that great, and far from attractive.

Edd has insanely perfect skin, eyes so blue it's unreal, and a body like a fucking god. He's practically the perfect man. It's honestly horrible. It's unreal and it makes Kevin wonder how they ended up here in the first place.

Kevin is no match for him in any way.

When Edd returns his hair is slightly fluffy from being blown dry and his chest is bare as the only thing he's wearing is a pair of black gym shorts, not helping the state of Kevin's boner crisis (which was almost solved by his wandering thoughts, so thanks a lot, Edd). His body is fucking perfect: skin a lovely honey color, the wicked V of his Apollo's belt makes Kevin's throat tight, and his elegant swimmer's build. Then he smiles at Kevin, warm and a little dorky and so sincere…

"Where are you going to college?" Kevin asks in a rush. Maybe he's tipsier than he thought.

Edd raises a brow but his smile only grows. "Stanford."

"Shiiit…" the boy murmurs in awe. "Of course."

That actually gets Edd to laugh. "What about you? MIT?"

Kevin stares at him like a deer in headlights and he frowns.

"What's wrong? Are you," he scrunches his nose in disgust, "not going to college? Someone of your caliber should-"

"I am! I just- uh, I'm not that smart or that rich."

Edd barks out a shocked laugh. "Kevin, you're fifth in our class," he says as if it's the answer to everything.

"How do you even know that?" he mumbles and drags the sheets up and over his mouth.

"We were Junior Marshals last year, remember?"

"Oh, yeah. Junior Marshals…"

The top ten students of the Junior class always help out with graduation. It had been a pretty… well, strange affair. There was Edd and Kevin of course, then Jacob Messer (second in the class, openly gay and super sweet to everyone), Serena Webb (third, weird hippie yet very sassy and constantly talking about Astrology - she told Kevin he's an Aries and "your moon is in Libra so we'll get along; I'm an Aquarian"), Cara Jones (fourth, captain of the girl's soccer team and huge flirt - she pinched Edd's ass, he recalls, and the boy had turned on her so fast everyone in the room held their breath, convinced he was going to hit her, but he just stared her down with those fierce eyes until she slinked away; she never even spoke to him again, let alone touched him), Hunter Biggs (sixth, aka Bigg Boy, football player and yet another of Kevin's harassers who made the most of their time together by tripping the boy and knocking him around), Aliyah Martin (seventh, lacrosse player so strong she could snap even Bigg Boy in two), Richard Lau (eighth, never speaks under any circumstances and is apparently not straight, if what Edd said about him dating Johnny is true), Maria Santiago (ninth, another school heartthrob and flirt - she thankfully did not pinch Edd's ass but did bat her lashes at him a lot), and finally Haley Cane (tenth, social justice warrior and lone wolf who apparently practices witchcraft - she once offered to make Kevin a protection spell saying "just burn the candle and they'll leave you alone" but he politely turned her down).

It was quite hellish and Kevin generally tries to forget about it.

"That was really… a terrible time," Edd mutters. "But that one instance when you stood up because one of the seniors was on the railing-"

"Oh god," Kevin groans, "you heard about that?"

"I saw it!" he laughs.

One of the seniors had been standing on the railing of the stairs as the entire Senior class and Junior Marshals were waiting in line to continue on the to the stage down the hall and the dumbass began to tip over, yelling and making a ruckus, so Kevin grabbed him by the back of his pants (Spongebob boxers and all) and dragged him down in one of his more bold moments.

"It was another moment in which I found myself falling for you."

Kevin tries to hide his face in the sheets and chooses to bring up something else. "I thought you were going to kill Cara Jones when she pinched your ass."

"I won't lie, I was very, very tempted. Do you remember how she started losing all of her games following that?"

"Yeah, everyone was gossiping about how she was going crazy or something."

"Well, you remember the witch, Haley?"

"No…" he gasps and sits up, too enthralled to be concerned about anything else such as the state of his erection.

Edd smirks, "Yes."

"Holy shit."

"I watched her do it and everything. It was her and Serena Webb, they needed to get into the locker rooms out by the fields and knew I could ask Coach Madison for the keys and…" he shrugs. "I honestly didn't think it was actually going to hurt anyone, I found it more amusing than anything, so I took them out there one day after working on Junior Marshal stuff - Friday, before one of their Saturday games."

"What did they do?"

"Haley had an actual voodoo doll and they burned these herbs and that was it. It was actually pretty underwhelming. But… while I'm not a superstitious person it was certainly a very big coincidence that their losing streak began the next day."

"I can't believe that you: perfect student, star athlete and man of science, did that," Kevin laughs.

Edd winks at him. "I am more of a troublemaker than you seem to think."

Kevin scoffs. "No, I hadn't noticed with you running around with Plank and Johnny, the two kids who teamed up to vandalize the school sign junior year."

Edd snorts, lips twisting into a wry smile. "They honestly mean well." His smile fades and his eyes seem to darken, "I know now that they were hurting you and-and I am so, so sorry. If I had known-"

"Hey, stop it. Just make it up to me by keeping them off my back."

Edd nods sharply, refusing to meet his gaze.

"You know, Haley offered to make me a spell to stop my bullies?"

Edd sits on the edge of the bed, shaking his head. "Well… I guess it's good for me she didn't." They're quiet for a moment until Edd finally breaks the silence, "I'm sorry. I… I just keep messing up today, don't I?"

"No," Kevin says gently. "It's okay. It happened, there's no reason to ignore it. It's something we need to… talk about at some point, I guess. We need to talk," he adds firmly and Edd finally snaps his head in Kevin's direction, gaze intense. "I- not-not in a bad way. Just, I was- actually, I was just thinking about how little we actually know about each other."

"Oh," Edd blinks owlishly and nods. "I suppose that's true. Is there something specific you had in mind? Other than college?" he adds with a warm smile.

"Your favorite color…" he mumbles, face flushing.

"Blue," he replies simply.

"Like the pool."

His smile is breathtaking. "Exactly."

"Yours?"

"Red - bright red."

"Like your bike," Edd laughs softly and climbs in bed to sit next to him. "I sort of suspected."

Kevin eyes him for a moment, contemplating if he should voice his thoughts or keep them to himself. "You… wear red a lot…"

Smirking, Edd actually winks at him. "That I do."

"Because of-of me?" he chokes out, face flaming.

"Not entirely, no. You see, red has very powerful psychological effects. It stimulates and raises the pulse rate which can create a feeling of 'fight or flight'. I wear red, in part, to intimidate others."

"You're such a dork, holy shit," Kevin snickers. "You use psychology to intimidate others. Holy shit."

Even Edd laughs. "Ah, well, swimming is highly competitive."

"Not to mention the bad boy reputation you have to keep up."

"Oh, yes," he snarks, "because I care about that so much."

Kevin can't help but smile as he takes in the twist to Edd's lips, the way his hair cups his cheek and fans across his forehead. Edd turns to him and jumps slightly when he catches Kevin staring but his eyes crinkle with amusement, his face so warm and open Kevin's chest grows tight. He looks away, smiling shyly.

"You're not religious," Kevin states as it's something he's caught on to.

"An Atheist. I believe in science, what I can see and experience."

"Agnostic," Kevin supplies without needing any prompting. "I believe there could be but…" he trails off with a shrug.

"What do you want to do for a living?"

"Christ, I don't even know anymore… I love robotics - anything involving robotics and making things. It's like every time I learn something new, though, I want to do it. I can't decide."

Edd laughs brightly and Kevin looks at him feeling something twist in his gut - embarrassment, it's embarrassment because Edd, who has his life all put together, is laughing at him and-

"That's part of the reason I fell for you," he says with that beautiful smile and shining eyes. Kevin's lungs seem to seize. "Your curiosity. It's quite lovely. I envy you it, to be honest." His shock must read on his face because Edd frowns, brows furrowing. "What is it?"

"You… you have everything planned out so well… I feel so-" he shakes his head, "inferior, almost. I-I dunno, you're just perfect really." He laughs nervously and scratches the back of his head, "You shouldn't envy anything about me."

"We are of different brands of success. They say opposites attract," Edd murmurs with a sad smile, "and I, someone who has clung to order and reason his whole life, am attracted to you, someone who trusts his gut and doesn't feel that same need to be perfect."

Kevin looks up at him, honestly a little shocked by the sudden analysis of his character. For some reason it reminds him that Edd has wanted him for years, has been watching from afar and using his sharp mind to pick Kevin apart piece by piece. He's torn between discomfort and pleasure.

"If you were to describe me to, like, your friends or something," he mumbles, face burning, "how would you?"

Edd sighs but is smiling crookedly, gazing at Kevin so fondly it tears the boy up inside. "Intelligent in a physical way, a natural way. You understand movement, mathematics, and structure. You also understand people - are emotionally intelligent in a way that cannot be taught. You are highly inquisitive and focused yet also hesitant and…" he takes a breath, eyes flicking away as he tries to come up with the word he's looking for, "humble."

Kevin jolts back slightly, cheeks now a vibrant, cherry red.

"You are not insecure in your intelligence, simply very humble. In other ways you are very unconfident," he murmurs, now gazing at Kevin with soft eyes. "You don't always feel worthy of praise or as if you are good enough though you are so much better than what you receive. You deserve the world…" he adds quietly, so much so that Kevin can hardly hear him over the roaring of blood in his ears.

Edd clears his throat, looking down. "You take very good care of those that you love. Such as Nazz. You are quiet but honest in your affections, unashamed to express love and you do so physically, through touch, service, and gifts. I am aware you were attracted to her perhaps…" he purses his lips, "perhaps as recently as this past month."

Kevin's mouth falls open and he shakes his head weakly. "Wh-what?"

Edd raises an eyebrow. "You had a crush on Nazz."

"What?"

Edd shoots him a bored look before picking at his nails. "I'm not a fool, Kevin. You two have always been close but when you began offering to help her by fixing her mother's car-"

"How-" Kevin sucks in a sharp breath, eyes wide. "How do you even know about that?"

He rolls his eyes. "She lives down the street from us. I saw the whole thing."

"Oh…"

"The point is: you take care of those you love. I was not trying to attack you or anything."

Kevin shakes his head again, still in shock. "Are you… angry?"

"What? Of course not. You're in a relationship with me now and she is with Marie. Most importantly I trust you not to mention you have shown no signs of still harboring feelings for her."

"Jesus," Kevin mutters and presses his face into his hands. "I was that obvious…?"

"I think it's less than you being 'obvious' and more of me being highly perceptive and focused on the situation."

Kevin sighs and looks up at him to find his brows furrowed to show he's still slightly concerned. "So… this is awkward…"

"Would you like me to continue?" he laughs, cocking his head to the side which shouldn't be as cute as it is.

"No! No, no! I think I've heard enough!"

Edd's face falls somewhat and his eyes drift to the sheets where he's picking at them compulsively. "I'm afraid to ask but how would you describe me?" he murmurs.

Kevin laughs weakly but not unkindly. He somewhat awkwardly slips an arm behind Edd, fingers tugging on the short hairs at the base of his skull gently in an unpracticed show of affection. Edd looks up with wide, shocked eyes as if the touch was the last thing he expected. Kevin's heart can't take this continued assault.

"Well… where do I even begin?" he mumbles. "You're not what you seem. At all. When most people look at you they see someone who has everything anyone could ever want: money, good looks, status, popularity, intelligence, talent…" he shrugs, unable to meet Edd's suddenly intense gaze, instead focusing on his fingers as he traces his fingers over a small mole on Edd's shoulder. "You've had a rough life, been through things no one should, but you've pushed through. That takes strength that most don't have. You've worked hard to get where you are and your family seems to do the same. I mean, my mom once said the most painful thing a person could experience was being away from their kid or to watch their child hurt and they've had to do both, right?"

Edd makes a high, tight noise in the back of his throat and Kevin looks up to find an absolutely horrified look on the boy's face.

Kevin's eyes go wide and he jerks his hand back on instinct. "Oh- shit, Edd- I-I'm sorry! Edd, I-"

Edd doesn't let him finish, instead reaching out to drag him into a tight hug, practically pulling the boy sideways into his lap.

"Edd?" he wheezes, suddenly very guilty and sick to his stomach, but Edd only hugs him tighter and presses his face into the boy's pale neck, cradling Kevin's head.

"I'm sorry," he mumbles against his skin and it shouldn't feel good (also, Edd totally doesn't have a shirt on and Kevin's dick is still up and at 'em, if only barely) but it does. "You just… I thought you believed me to be spoiled and rich…"

"What? No. I don't. Maybe before - before I knew you, y'know? But now I see everything. I know, now."

Edd practically whimpers and gives Kevin a little squeeze around the ribs. Unsure of what else to do, Kevin pets his hair, careful and tender.

"I'm sorry for upsetting you…" Kevin mumbles against his head, trying not to peer down the soft expanse of his pale back.

Edd squeezes him again. "You didn't upset me. You made me very happy…"

"Oh… Do you want me to…?"

"Please continue," he whispers in a voice so small Kevin is filled with the sudden urge to pick him up and hold him close as if he weren't twice Kevin's size.

"Okay… Well, I would tell them you can come off as cold or cocky but you're actually very warm and in need of-of affection, I guess. You don't get a lot of affection and you don't really seem like you need it on the outside but you do. You need to be treated like… like a human being," he says and pauses because it's only just now registering just how true it is. He gives him a peck on the cheek now that he's thinking about it. "Everyone puts you up on a pedestal and expects you to be bigger and better all of the time. They don't allow you to be… a kid."

Edd has gone perfectly still but Kevin feels as if he has suddenly discovered the key to everything so he plows on.

"Everyone expects so much of you that they forget you're still just a kid and you need to be cared for and to be told 'thank you' and 'good job' and all of that. Everyone is so used to you being perfect that they forget to tell you how good a job you're doing," he continues vehemently and begins stroking Edd's spine with one hand, dragging his nails across it lightly, as he continues to comb through his hair with the other. He kisses along Edd's shoulder, feeling bold, especially when those piercing blue eyes aren't on him. "God, Edd, in the locker room your face lit up when Coach Madison complimented you and I thought it was because you wanted to go to the Olympics but it wasn't, was it? It's because no one ever tells you how good you are - not the way you need to be told."

Edd's fingers dig into his back and he lets out a muffled sob; Kevin's heart feels like it's being slowly torn straight from his chest. He begins peppering Edd's temple and head with kisses.

"Edd, you're so talented. You're so amazing," he breathes, all of the words now rushing out, as he runs his fingers all the way down to the base of his spine. He kisses his temple, presses his mouth to Edd's ear, "You work so hard all of the time. It's like what I said before: you've been through so much but you still never give up, you always do your best and don't let anything bring you down. It's amazing - you're amazing. You deserve to be told every day how great you are."

"Pumpkin…" he mumbles, clearly embarrassed and squirming slightly.

"You're so brave - the way you stand up to people who are bigger than you, the way you stood up against that bastard today - Edd, you're such an amazing person," he insists breathlessly and presses a kiss to Edd's head. "You're so beautiful - inside and out. You deserve so much. You're the one that deserves the world. Look at me," he directs and pushes at Edd's shoulders weakly. The boy shakes his head sharply but Kevin feels emboldened by his reaction and only pushes harder. "Look at me. It's okay - never alone-"

"Kevin…" he growls pathetically and tries to hold Kevin still but the boy wriggles in hopes of drawing away, getting free enough to twist around, bracing himself on Edd's shoulders to move his leg in the tight space between them, and slide so he's practically straddling Edd. But when he moves to return, to wrap his arms around Edd and kiss his head and sit in his lap, Edd grabs his hip. Kevin meets his pleading eyes, frowns at the light blush on his cheek, but still curls his leg behind Edd, dropping himself into the boy's lap-

He freezes. "Oh."

Edd stiffens until Kevin thinks he must be literally frozen, eyes like saucers. "It's cool," he chokes out. "Like you said: it's natural."

Suddenly Kevin is shoved from his lap and Edd is stumbling off the bed. He barks out a shocked noise and tries to crawl after him, grabbing at his shorts.

"Edd!" he cries but the boy doesn't leave, only turns his back and hides his face in his hands. "Edd," he sighs. "It's not like we haven't… done this - fuck, I mean- we-we- in the car-," he chokes out helplessly, scrambling to find something to say. "I felt you and you felt me-"

"That was natural," he bites back.

Kevin draws back, jaw clenching. "What? What the hell?"

"I… that was natural… we were kissing. Bodies respond…"

"Yeah, okay? I was kissing you now."

"But-"

"And touching your back. Your bare back."

"It wasn't that," he snaps hoarsely.

"I don't understand what's wrong. You got a boner - it fucking happens. It's not even the first time this has happened! What's the problem?"

"I…" he peeks over his shoulder at Kevin, shoulders hunched. "I think it's from…" he gulps.

Kevin licks his lips and reaches out to him. "Come on, get in bed."

Edd stiffly returns to bed and kneels in front of Kevin, not objecting when the boy grasps his elbows but also not uncrossing his arms or meeting Kevin's eyes.

"Is it because of what happened today? Did the… Eddy…"

"No," he croaks. "Not at all."

Kevin takes a deep breath and rubs the back of his neck nervously. "Hey, would you… would you like to - cuddle?" he coughs. "Or whatever you want to call it. While we talk."

"I don't want to make you uncomfortable."

"What the fuck? I don't care. You didn't care earlier today! In the car! And… I was hard, like, five minutes ago, if that makes you feel any better," he mutters embarrassedly.

Edd peeks at him curiously. "What? Why?"

Kevin blushes furiously. "Um," he shrugs, throat clicking as he swallows, "your bed smells nice and we're here, alone, and… I was thinking about you. Being-" he coughs again, "naked."

Edd's cheeks are red but he actually snorts, lips pressed together as if to hold back a smile. "Oh… Well, that's different."

Kevin scoffs. "What? How?"

"I…" he looks away, cheeks darkening further. "I believe… your words may have done this to me." Kevin blinks at him and he immediately scowls, ducking his head. "I don't know. This has never happened before. I-I- the way you- I don't know," he snaps, obviously frustrated with himself. "No one has spoken of me in such a manner and- you- you were touching me like you meant it, like you really want me-"

"Of-of course! I mean, I wouldn't date you if I didn't want you."

Edd's neck visibly strains and his hands jerk down to cover his crotch. "I'm so sorry about this. If you wish I can set up the guest room-"

"Do you want me to give you a handjob?" Kevin asks in a quiet rush.

Edd's eyes are fucking huge. "What?"

"I-I mean- we just started dating and I've never done it before but- like, I-I'd like to- if you'd like to! Only if you'd like to! Uhm, uh, I mean - you don't have to return it! I don't mind! Seriously it would just be for-"

"You're drunk," Edd snaps and rears back, horror dawning on his face. "You wanted to go slower in the car-"

Kevin, jaw set, grabs Edd's wrist and drags him back in. "I am not drunk. I had one beer. It's been at least an hour. I'm fine. And I want to do this. Just like you said: I wanted to go slower in the car. We were out in the open and it was out of nowhere. Now-" his voice cracks and his cheeks burn even hotter, "I-I feel safe here, okay? If- this is the first time and it's not like- it's not like I've never done this before just because I didn't have the chance - it's because I never really wanted to or I wasn't ready. I," he gulps, voice softening, "I want to. It feels right."

Edd stares at him for a moment. Kevin realizes he's still gripping his wrist and drops it with an awkward smile.

"Could we start smaller?" Edd finally chokes out.

Kevin freezes for a moment, mouth hanging open, completely shocked because a part of him didn't believe he'd ever agree. "'Smaller'?"

"We could…" Edd's voice cracks and he looks away. "Uh… frot. Frottage."

"You mean… like, dry humping…?"

Edd's blush spreads all the way to his ears and he looks absolutely mortified. "Well… yes."

"Uh… I-I hate to bring this up-"

"No- if you need something please don't hesitate to ask."

Kevin licks his lips, forcing himself to lock eyes with Edd. "This is still sort of… sudden and I couldn't live with myself if I did something- I just- Are you comfortable with this?"

Edd blinks at him, shocked. "What?"

"I mean - shit, it's just - you've had a very bad experience with… fuck, what happened to you wasn't even sex I just mean-"

"You have been so good to me, Kevin," he breaks in gently and finally reaches out to him, cupping his face in his hands. "I trust you. You-you let me touch you and you reciprocate my affection and-and you've never ridiculed or mocked me for my needs. I… I trust you. And, this may sound strange, but your size makes me feel safer, too…" He winces, "Okay, that came out wrong-"

"It's okay. You could snap me like a twig if you needed to, I get it," he murmurs and shuffles closer, bracing himself on Edd's shoulders. Edd's broad hands slide from his face, down his throat- Kevin sucks in a breath, shuddering and Edd looks at him with wonder, like he's the most beautiful thing Edd has ever seen. He hesitantly meets his eyes and it's like a shock to his heart, a shiver trailing down his spine. He's able to watch as Edd's pupils grow with his desire and if that's not the most thrilling thing he's ever experienced he doesn't know what is.

"The dilation of a person's pupils is a signal of stimulation and attraction," Edd nearly whispers.

"Talk dirty to me," Kevin croaks.

Edd's tongue flickers across his lips and Kevin's stomach flips. "I'm sorry. I'm nervous."

"It's okay. So am I…"

"My pupils…?"

"Yeah…"

"So 're yours."

"I can imagine…"

That shocks a nervous laugh out of Kevin. Edd's tense expression melts into a small smile, his expression tender; Kevin's stomach flips again. "You're sure?"

"Yes. I'm sure. Are you?"

"Yes."

"If I do something you don't like, please don't hesitate to stop me," Kevin tells him. "Like, even if you need to just shove me off the fucking bed, do it. I won't be upset. I would want you to, to be safe and I would hate myself for doing something like that to you."

"Okay… but the same goes for you… I know I said not to lay a hand on me again but of course you can push me away. All you need to do is say 'no' and I will stop immediately, but I understand your initial response may be physical."

"O-okay…" he murmurs breathlessly, heart picking up speed in his chest.

"And… may I… lead?"

Kevin snorts. "You want to be on top or whatever?"

"Yeah, I do. I don't want to be… pinned down."

Guilt twists in his gut. "I'm sorry-"

"Don't be. Kevin, you have nothing to apologize for," he says firmly. "Is it okay?"

"Fuck, yeah - of course. That-that sounds hot."

Edd blushes like mad. "I'm-I'm glad?"

Kevin can't help but laugh at that, tipping forward in order to press a quick kiss to Edd's lips, feeling his soft skin, brushing his own lips across his cheek. "So… you want to?"

"Very much so. Do you?"

"Definitely."

"Frottage, I will… top, and… is it alright if I remain in my shorts?"

"Uh-huh."

"But I would like it if you removed your shirt."

Kevin smiles at him lopsidedly and draws back, sighing softly as Edd's hands ghost down his chest to rest on his hips. He tugs it off hastily, not caring if he seems like an eager virgin, and tosses it into the floor. "Better?"

Edd's blue eyes flicker across the bared skin. "Much…" he breathes. "And… if you would like to take the rest off, I wouldn't mind, I just… I'm not sure I'm ready to do that myself."

"How about we start like this?"

"Sounds good to me."

Edd can't seem to take his eyes off his skin, licking his lips and shifting slightly. "I cannot have hickeys. Due to swimming."

Kevin feels lightheaded. Does that mean he's thinking about giving Kevin hickeys? Christ, of course he is - this is Eddward, the kid who puts fucking labels on everything.

"Ok-ay," he rasps and flinches when his voice cracks. "I would prefer not to have them, at least not anywhere they're obvious… Like, not on my neck but you can-can give me some other places…"

Edd takes a deep breath through his nose and heat seems to trickle from Kevin's chest into the pit of his stomach. He just about shuts down when Edd drags his teeth over his bottom lip and whispers, "I would like that."

"I would too," he murmurs, fidgeting under Edd's intense gaze, shocked by how true that statement really is. "Do you like to have your… your-" he motions to his chest awkwardly.

Edd quirks a brow at him, small smirk curling his lips. "My nipples? I don't really know."

"It never did anything for me," he mumbles, face burning, "until the other day when you accidentally touched one. So, um, maybe it's different with someone else?"

Edd chuckles and grins at the memory of Kevin's little whimper. "We can experiment."

Kevin can't help but laugh. "Even sex is an experiment to Eddward Vincent."

Edd laughs softly. "Of course."

"Uh… would you like me to keep talking through it? Like, the way I was."

Edd gulps and looks away. "You don't have to-"

"I would like to if, um, could you like…" he takes in a deep breath and squirms awkwardly. "I sort of… like when you picked me up."

Edd raises his eyebrows. "Oh?"

"Ye-ah. I- it's weird but-"

"No! No, it's okay. Maybe… maybe sometime I could…" he licks his lips, very slowly dragging his tongue across his bottom lip, and looks at him through his thick lashes, "hold you up against the wall?"

Kevin nearly falls off the bed when he jerks back. "I- uh- I- ye-yeah, I would- yeah," he sputters. "So-sorry, just- yes. Yes. I'd like that."

Edd grins at him wolfishly. "I would too…"

"Oh my god, uh, yeah… holy shit," he mumbles, ducking his head to rub at the back of his neck. His cock is so hard it's honestly embarrassing. "Uh… okay, so… is there anything else we need to talk about? Frottage, you'll top. We're keeping our pants on. No hickeys on you but you can give me some. We're going to see about nipples. If anyone says no we'll stop immediately. Sometime you're going to-to pin me to the wall, and I'm going to keep talking… Is that everything?"

Edd laughs nervously and rubs his jaw. "I… I guess? Oh, if-if you're- um, just don't call me names," he mumbles, suddenly embarrassed. "Don't call me Double D or-or anything humiliating…"

Kevin's heart aches for him. He reaches out to cup his cheek in his hand and leans in to give him a quick kiss. "Of course not."

"Thank you. Uh, also, please don't make fun of me or anything I might do or say."

"I'd never."

He heaves a sigh of relief and nuzzles into his palm. "Can I speak to you in French?"

Kevin laughs. "Yeah, sure."

"Okay," he smiles, eyes warm. "Please tell me what you like, while we're doing this."

"Tell me, too. And if there's anything you don't like."

"Thank you…" he breathes and kisses the boy's pale palm. "Same goes for you. Would you like to start with kissing?"

"Mm, I'd like that," he whispers, heart picking up speed.

"Ah, I just thought of one more thing. May I, perhaps, touch you under your shorts? I-I would not remove them just…" he gulps, blush creeping down his chest. "I would like to feel you."

"Okay… uhm, but I can't touch you? I mean, that's okay, I just want to make sure."

"I… Can we just see where it goes?"

"Uh-huh, that's okay… Yeah, you can… you can touch me."

Edd licks his lips, eyes roving over Kevin once more. "You're beautiful…"

Kevin gulps and squirms, suddenly embarrassed to be shirtless next to beautiful, muscular Edd. "Hardly."

"Gorgeous," Edd insists and rises to his knees before shifting closer, looming over Kevin with his eyes dark and lips parted. "Tell me if you don't like this."

"O-okay…"

Edd's hands, strong and warm, lock around his hips and the taller boy picks him up with ease, drawing him to his knees as well then further, like he's nothing more than a doll. Kevin gasps, stomach swooping as he clutches at Edd's shoulders. Edd bites his lips, looking at Kevin like he wants to eat him up. "You're so small…"

Kevin blushes and looks away. "You like it though, right?"

He hums softly and draws Kevin closer, tilting his head up to kiss his lips. "Love it. I think I'll enjoy being able to pick you up, too…"

Edd turns slightly and sets Kevin down in the center of the bed, so, so gentle yet strong it makes pleasure curl in his stomach. Kevin feels protected and precious, being held like this, and it's honestly a shock. He never thought he'd like to be with someone so much more dominant and bigger in every way but here he is, enjoying the contrast of his thin arms and Edd's strong, muscular ones as they are stretched out side by side.

Edd kneels over him, shins bracketing his thighs. His hands smooth up Kevin's chest as he crawls over him, urging him to lay down. Kevin shivers softly, gasping at the feeling of Edd's skin against his as the boy's fingers graze his stomach.

"Oh…" he murmurs breathlessly, muscles twitching under Edd's ministrations.

"Good?"

"Yeah…" he croaks, shuddering as Edd bows over him, so big suddenly Kevin feels like he missed something. Every curve of muscle seems larger when he's over Kevin, both of their chests bared so it's clear how very small Kevin is in comparison. Kevin is practically dizzy with pleasure from being surrounded by Edd, being tucked away and safe; he feels protected. Edd ducks his head to kiss Kevin's stomach, right above his bellybutton. "Re-ally nice. I like it…" Hesitant but eager, Kevin cards his fingers through Edd's hair and murmurs, "You're perfect. You deserve the world."

Edd visibly shivers and rests his head against Kevin's breastbone for a moment, hands stilling on his hips. Kevin continues to pet his hair but gives him a moment to ground himself. "Yeah?" he rasps. "I'm doing okay?"

God, he sounds so soft and hopeful that Kevin wants to gather him up and keep him safe. "Perfect - feels so good. To be touched by you."

Edd looks up at him with so much hope in his eyes Kevin could just melt. "May I continue?"

"God - yes, please," he mutters eagerly and tugs on Edd's hair slightly, guiding him up his body.

Kevin shivers, skin riddled with goosebumps as Edd's hands slide up his sides before settling around his ribs. Edd eagerly kisses Kevin's pale stomach, creating a path from just above his bellybutton to the center of his breastbone. Sucking in a breath, Kevin shifts to hold onto his shoulders.

"Still okay?"

"Yeah," Kevin says quickly, "more than okay."

His thumbs draw circles on his ribs, slowly easing upwards. "May I?"

Cheeks flushed, Kevin squeezes his eyes shut and nods sharply. "Ye-yeah, 's okay."

Edd takes a deep breath and his thumbs very carefully drag across his nipples. Kevin gasps, making this tight, high whimper and his hips stutter upwards. "Holy-"

"Beautiful," Eddward whispers, eyes huge as he takes in Kevin's flushed face and dilated pupils.

He continues, circling the delicate spots, and Kevin's hips thrust in earnest, a hiccuping mewl escaping his lips. He jerks his hand away from Edd and stuffs a knuckle between his teeth in an attempt to silence himself.

"Oh, oh no, please don't…" Edd murmurs gently and stops for a moment to draw Kevin's hand from his lips and back to Edd's shoulder. "I want to hear you."

"Mm," Kevin hums and nods jerkily. "Kay."

"Thank you… Does it feel good then?"

"Yeah, yeah it does- feels really good. But you-"

His hands jerk away and he sits up, eyes wide and fearful. "What's wrong?" he asks breathlessly.

"No! No, no, no!" Kevin cries and reaches out to grasp his wrists. "I'm okay! I was just going to say I want to-to make you feel good, too."

Edd stares down at him for a moment, looking confused and so innocent it's like a punch to the chest. "You could talk some more…" he suggests hesitantly.

Kevin smiles. "Could I try…?" he asks quietly, very slowly reaching out to Edd as to give him a chance to stop him.

Edd bites his lip as he cups his hand around the back of Kevin's, carefully guiding it to his chest, pressing it directly over his heart. Kevin's own heart stutters in his chest as his hand is slid down the smooth plane of Edd's muscle. "Feel free to touch me. If I need you to stop I'll tell you."

Kevin nods and quickly reaches out with his other hand to trace over the lines of muscle on Edd's abdomen. "You're so fucking fit, dude."

That shocks a laugh out of him. "Jeez, don't call me 'dude' while we're having sex," he mutters with a lopsided smile.

"Oh shit, I'm sorry. I forgot about the-"

"Hush, just keep touching me."

Kevin licks his lips and continues, carefully drifting down to the waist of Edd's shorts where he traces the edge, gently pets through the curls of dark hair that trail down from his bellybutton. Edd releases a shuddering sigh, chin tucked so he can watch with lidded eyes. The look on his face is fucking erotic: intense yet dazed with pleasure; Kevin can't believe Eddward Vincent is looking at him like that.

The redhead takes a deep breath and brushes his hands back up Edd's abs, marvelling at the feel of soft skin, the movement of his muscles as he shivers. "You're beautiful. You're so perfect. Perfect in every way."

Edd squeezes his eyes shut and his teeth dig into his lip. "I-I…"

"What do you need…?" he breathes.

"Please keep talking."

"Anything you need. I want to make sure you feel good."

Edd actually keens, soft and sweet, when Kevin's fingers brush his nipples. "Fu-fuck!" he gasps as his hips automatically roll against Kevin's, making the boy's hips stutter upwards, stomach clenching.

This - this is the most erotic moment of Kevin's life, with Eddward Vincent making little noises of pleasure, grabbing his wrists to keep his hands on Edd's skin, physically guiding Kevin's fingers across his nipples himself. Their hips meet, inexperienced and hesitant yet eager, the friction causing the heat in Kevin's stomach to build and his muscles to tighten.

Kevin thinks he could come in his pants any minute.

This beautiful boy is using Kevin for his pleasure and there is something about that which is so sexy he feels as if his head it shutting down.

"Feels ni-ice," Edd whispers.

"You look fucking amazing…" Kevin tells him, completely awed by his pink lips and lidded, fierce eyes. "You look… gorgeous… Holy fuck, Edd… So gorgeous… I'm so fuckin' lucky…"

Edd releases his hands in favor of grasping his hips. Kevin gasps as Edd grinds against him, head falling back as he is overwhelmed by a rush of pleasure. His hands scrabble helplessly, clutching Edd's shoulders and digging in his thick hair. Edd's thrusts are slow, measured, and he stares down at Kevin as if studying him, testing each movement to see how Kevin responds.

"Kiss?" Kevin gasps.

Edd keeps one hand on his hip, holding him just right, as he braces the other over Kevin's shoulder. Their eyes meet and Kevin feels as if he's falling into him, surrounded by Edd's scent, his body.

"You're… mon monde… es mon monde…" he whispers, quiet and warm, laden with emotion; little does he know, he's quickly becoming Kevin's world in turn.

Kevin's eyes sting, his heart swelling. He locks his fingers behind Edd's neck and draws him into a kiss. Edd hums, low and rumbling, and eagerly licks his way into the small boy's mouth, tongue slipping along his teeth, curling with his own. Kevin moans quietly and eagerly wraps his arms around him, clutching him close. Their hips jerk and Edd groans in approval, squeezing his hip before sliding his hand down Kevin's thigh, drawing the boy's leg over his waist. The new angle makes Kevin break the kiss, a pitiful cry escaping his lips, his jaw slack and eyes squeezed shut.

"Beautiful…" Edd mumbles and bites Kevin's bottom lip gently. "Beautiful,mon coeur…"

Kevin bucks his hips when Edd takes his lip between his teeth and sucks. He's making all of these embarrassing, ragged noises while Edd only gasps and groans softly.

"Is-is- you- are you okay?" Kevin barely manages to choke out.

Edd laughs and rests his forehead against Kevin's shoulder. "Better than o-ok-ay."

"'s good," Kevin slurs. "Can you… ah, fuck! 's real good…"

Edd laughs breathlessly. "Good- that's good. I want to-to make sure you enjoy it. Make it nice."

Kevin tugs his hair, drawing him back into a kiss. This time Kevin takes control, tongue teasing across his lips. He's not really thinking when he locks his leg around Edd's waist before hitching his other over his opposite hip to pull him against him. Edd gasps before groaning, low and desperate.

"That-that okay?"

Edd thrusts his hips against Kevin's hard and nips his lip. "Fuckin' perfect… like it a lot…"

"Yeah?" Kevin asks and smiles crookedly into their next kiss.

"Always suspected my little Pumpkin's got a dominant side in there somewhere…"

Kevin bites his lip in retaliation, giggling and tugging on his hair again. "Feels real good… Why weren't we doing this instead of-of all that other bullshit?"

Edd laughs and nuzzles against his cheek, now rolling his hips against Kevin's almost lazily. "I'm… so happy… Never been this happy…"

Kevin gasps quietly, hips stuttering forward. He smooths his hands down Edd's chest somewhat awkwardly due to lack of space, brushing his thumbs across Edd's nipples so his breath hitches. "So glad I stole your hat."

Edd smiles at him and laughs, shaky but so honestly happy it makes heat curl in Kevin's stomach. "So am I." He releases Kevin's hip and teases his fingers up his side so he shivers. "What can I do to make it better?"

Kevin giggles deliriously. "'m really close. If-if you make it any better it will be over."

"'s okay," he mutters and presses messy kisses along Kevin's jaw. "So am I."

Edd ducks his head, shifting his weight to his other arm so he can bow over Kevin's chest, covering his nipple with his mouth. Kevin gasps and threads his fingers through Edd's hair as he mouths at the soft flesh. He can't stop the strained, small noises escaping his throat when Edd thrusts at the same time he carefully rolls Kevin's nipple between his teeth.

"Edd…" he whines before stuffing a knuckle between his teeth once more. Pleasure is beginning to build up in the pit of his stomach to the point that it aches, his head growing light.

"Come - it's okay to come," Edd pants against his damp skin, lips brushing the tender spot. He shifts to the side and catches some of the skin between his teeth, biting and sucking experimentally.

"Edd!" Kevin chokes out, clutching his shoulders, hips snapping forward as he begins to fall apart. He can't hold in the whine building up in his throat and his whole body shakes. Edd is all around him, his scent, his body, his breath, those big, beautiful eyes; it's too much and he loves it. He's making these tiny, choked-out noises as the heat finally snaps, the pleasure crashing through him like a wave.

"Beautiful," Edd croaks, and manages to slide his arms beneath Kevin's bowed back, holding him close and burying his face in the crook of Kevin's neck. He moans softly, thrusts beginning to peter out.

Kevin is wracked with shivers from the aftershocks, body limp and eyelids heavy, but he keeps his arms locked around Edd though he shows no signs of wanting to get up. "Fe-felt so good…" he gasps, voice remarkably tiny and soft. God, he feels so small beneath Edd but it feels good for once, to be so thin and slight. "I… you're okay?"

"Yeah," he mumbles against his skin. "Very okay. Are you? Am I too heavy?"

Kevin immediately tugs Edd until he collapses on top of him entirely, making a huff of air burst from his lips but still worth it. "If you move, I'll kill you."

"Wow. Okay then," he grumbles but actually sounds very pleased.

"Good."

Edd laughs and gives him a tight squeeze, nuzzling against his throat. "We'll need to shower again."

Kevin groans. "Tomorrow."

"Disgusting. I'm not going to allow this cum to dry."

"Just relax for once."

"When your underwear grows stuck to your skin you'll wish we had showered."

Kevin is quiet for a moment, slowly petting his hair. "Would you… want to showertogether?"

Edd raises his head to give Kevin a blank look. "You… did see me nude…"

"That I did…"

"Maybe… I mean, it's only fair if I see you nude as well."

"That sounds perfectly logical."

"Mhm."

"Very reasonable."

"I thought so too."

"Still can't touch, though, right?"

"Let's just… look…" he says slowly, blue eyes roving across Kevin's bare chest. "If that's okay."

"Let's go do that, then."

"Maybe… do you think you would want to… again?"

"Give me ten minutes," Kevin laughs, "and I'll be ready."

Edd blushes thickly and hides his face in Kevin's shoulder. "We… god, we just had sex."

"Uh…" Kevin gulps, guilt suddenly coiling in his stomach. "Too fast?"

"No. All I can think about is how beautiful you looked… I sort of expected to regret it or feel nervous but…"

"It felt right."

"It felt… freeing… nothing bad happened. It just felt good."

"That's how it's supposed to be," Kevin murmurs, crushing down the nausea the words bring to his stomach, the thoughts of Edd expecting pain or humiliation.

Edd raises himself up once more and peers down at Kevin, face unreadable. Kevin opens his mouth to speak but no words come out, throat tight with the pain he feels for this unbelievable boy. A small smile curls Edd's lips and he ducks his head, kissing Kevin softly. "You're beautiful… Thank you… I wouldn't have wanted it to be anyone else."

Kevin, eyes prickling with tears once more, fists his hands in Edd's hair and kisses him until they're both breathless.

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