Stefan's pov

"Dear Diary,

Elena Gilbert must be the most wonderful girl I've ever met . She's so sweet , warm and caring . She has the most beautiful smile I've ever seen in my entire vampire life...Four days ago, I was about to kiss her before Caroline and Bonnie interrupted us , since then all I can think about is kissing those pink lips , whenever we're talking , reading my journals or even walking down the streets all can think about is how much she's turning me on . But I should be careful .. we broke up there must have been a good reason. I shouldn't let myself care too much..."

As i closed my diary , Elena knocked at my door

"Come in" I said as she opened the door and entered the room .

I looked at her, she was lovely in her white sundress , she walked towards me and opened her mouth hesitantly: "Look..There's this party tonight, and I had a date but he..cancelled .So ..I was wondering if..you would like to come with me?"

"It'd be a pleasure Miss Gilbert" I said with a smile

"The pleasure's all mine " she said with a smile but I saw something turn off in her eyes.

"Something that I said?" I asked worried.

She gave me a little smile before answering: "No, It's just that you told me the exact same thing the first time I invited you to dance."

And for a small amount of time, we stared at each other and there's this intensity in her eyes that just makes me melt inside.

"Anyway I'm crashing at Caroline's to get ready so .. pick me up around 8?" She said as her lips curled into a tiny smile .

"Yeah sure !" I answered

Elena's pov

I took my car and drove to Caroline's house

"Elena you made it!" She said before pulling me into a hug

"Yeah I wanted some girl advices to get ready" I answered laughing

Bonnie smiled at me and took my hand leading me to Caroline's room.

"This is the dress I'm wearing tonight" said Caroline while showing me a beautiful amethyst satin dress which showcased her long legs and porcelain skin.

"It's wonderful ! Tyler will totally be drooling " I said smirking

Her smile disappeared suddenly

"He won't be able to come .. you know because of Klaus" she said looking at her feet.

I really am an idiot ..

"I'm sorry Care.." I said with a sad smile

She regained her usual cheerfulness and smiled widely :

"Bonnie found a wonderful dress as well"

Bonnie smiled shyly and showed me her dress for the party , a red velvet sleeveless dress , simple and elegant , this dress was literally made for Bonnie.

"Jeremy would have lost his mind seeing you in this dress, it's a shame he can't come" I said with a little smile and she thanked me.

"Let's talk seriously show us your dress!" said Caroline clapping

I opened my bag and showed her the side cut ruby red dress that I chose for tonight

"Oh my god Elena! You will be the hottest girl at this party " she said with excitement in her eyes

"Damon won't be able to restrain himself" said Bonnie with an unreadable expression on her face.

"Actually.. he's not coming he has to help Jeremy" I said while folding my dress

"Then it will be a girls night out!" Said Caroline squealing and clapping

"Well actually…"

They looked at me with a clueless expression on their faces.

I looked at the wall to avoid their look : "I'm going with Stefan"

"Excuse me!?" Said Caroline as her blue eyes widened

"Are you sure it's a good idea?" Asked Bonnie with worry in her voice

"There's nothing to worry about , everything is purely platonic between Stefan and I" I said rolling my eyes

"If you say so.."said Caroline seemingly not convinced

I was about to reassure them again when my phone rang

"Hello" I said picking up

"Hey Elena"

"Damon how are you ?How Jeremy is doing?" I asked a little worried about my brother

"Let's just say he's not that useless" he said and I could almost see him smirking

"Take care of him okay?" I said in a soft voice

"Don't worry about that! Oh and I'm sorry that I couldn't make it for tonight"

"It's okay, Caroline and Bonnie will keep me company " I said deciding mentioning Stefan would bring useless tension between us

"Have fun , Love you "

"Me too" I said before I hung up

"Did you just lied to him about going to the party with Stefan?" Said Caroline frowning

"I did not ! I just don't see the use in telling him I'm going at a party with my ex boyfriend. Damon can be quite insecure . And going with Stefan doesn't mean anything okay? We are friends." I said in a rush

"If you hid it from Damon then maybe just maybe it means more than you can admit" said Bonnie with a serious look

Taken aback by their accusations I rolled my eyes and simply suggested them to start getting ready .

We put on our dresses and Caroline did my make up she applied some grey eyeshadow and put some lipgloss on my lips and I asked her to put a little bit of blush on my cheeks . I was pretty satisfied with the result and started to curl my hair and put them on my right shoulder .

"So what do you think" I asked while posing

"You look gorgeous" said Caroline with a wide smile

"Yeah you look beautiful really" said Bonnie halfsmiling

"Thank you both of you look gorgeous as well " I said smiling back

The doorbell rang and I went to open the door

Stefan was standing in front of me , my heart skipped a beat when his

leaf green eyes found mine.

I wanted to speak but I felt like the air was sucked away from my lungs

"You look stunning Elena " he said while his eyes were wandering up and down my body making me wanna blush.

Stefan's pov

She truly looked amazing the dress hugged her body in all the right places her thin pink lips were covered with a little bit of lip gloss and her chestnut hair were curled which made her look like Katherine.

However her smile couldn't be mistaken with Katherine's.

Elena's smile was like sunshine , warm and bright , honest.

Her endless brown eyes were staring at his and he just couldn't think straight anymore.

"Thank you Salvatore. You're not too bad yourself " she finally answered "Come in , I need to get my things before we leave" she added taking my hand into hers .
"You always look hot in a tux it's unfair!" Said Caroline before planting a kiss on my cheek

"And you always look wonderful in a dress Care" I said giggling

"I'm ready to go " said Elena when she got back from Caroline's room with her purse .

The ball took place in the community park , when we arrived music was already playing, they were serving champagne and appetizers.

"We're gonna have so much fun" squealed Caroline

It's incredible how Caroline is a bundle of positive energy, it's almost contagious.

I looked at Elena and she was smiling widely her big brown eyes were glimmering and my heart skipped a beat again , I really like her , I know It's ridiculous but It's like my soul remembers her while my brain doesn't.

"You're staring again " she said with a light chuckle

"No no no ! Correction, I'm gazing again."

"And why are you gazing at me ?" she said with a seductive smile

"The view is breathtaking" i whispered in her ear and I think I felt her shivering.

"You know how to talk to a woman " she said blushing

And I think I saw Caroline rolling her eyes in annoyance , I wonder why

"Am I making you blush?" I said laughing

"No absolutely not !" She answered hitting my chest playfully

"If you say so" I said chuckling

"Instead of talking nonsense , dance with me!" She said taking me by the arm

At first we were dancing with some distance between us to Marron 5's "Misery" we were laughing and singing out loud we danced during an hour to pop music when a slower music started to play

"May I?" I asked her while reaching out for her hand

"Of course" she said while putting her hand into mine

Elena's pov

Our fingers intertwined and his free hand found my hip sending shivers down my body .

'Something always brings me back to you, It never takes too long..'

His touch seems so familiar yet foreign at the same time , It's almost like entering an unknown house and knowing that you're home

'No matter what I say or do ,

I'll still feel you here til the moment I'm gone'

I'm looking at his face , observing every detail , from his sandy hair, to his chiseled nose and finally to his heart-shaped mouth . His voice brings me back to reality

"Who's staring now?" he said jokingly

I'm taken aback by the sight of his leaf green eyes , I feel like I'm hypnotized by those emerald marbles. The only thing I can manage to do is smile .

'Set me free, Leave me be ,

I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity'

It seems like this song has been written for us . I feel something pushing me towards him, but I don't want to feel it , I shouldn't feel it . This gravity pulling me to Stefan. I feel like I'm emotionally cheating on Damon and the worst part of it all is that whatever is going on between Stefan and I , I can't stop it and honestly .. I don't even want to .

'Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me'

I can feel him pulling me closer to him , we're chest to chest and he whispers something in my ear

"You're quite cute when you're blushing"

And here I am , giggling like a 13 years old girl.

"Stop laughing at me " I said while staring deep into his eyes

I felt like I was about to blush again so I buried my face in his neck while we continued our dance .

'Oh, you loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone.'

He smells like cinnamon and soap.

He smells like Stefan , no one else smell like him .

The mere scent of his skin sucks the strength out of me , I feel weak and vulnerable and it feels so good and so wrong at the same time .

My free hand is now playing with the hair on his nape . And his hand is travelling up and down my spine making me quiver .

And I'm getting lost in his arms and soon nobody else is around , we're alone in our own world.

He bent me down , his gorgeous eyes locked into mines and when he lifts me up our mouths are only a few inches apart . And I'm staring at his perfectly shaped lips , I'm hungry for his kiss , I want to get lost in the taste of his lips .

But instead of that we pulled away and he went to get us some drinks.

I see Caroline and Bonnie coming my way and I know I'm in trouble .

"What the fuck did just happened Elena?" Said Caroline angrily

"You were all over him !" said a frowning Bonnie

"Purely platonic huh? Yeah like that was going to happen!" said Caroline sarcastically

"I got lost in the moment okay! I know I acted weird and.."

"And extremely flirty" said Caroline

interrupting me

"Yeah I know I've made a mistake but this situation is not easy to handle, we broke up not too long ago and.."

"And your hormones are still reacting to him" said Caroline like it was the most common thing in the world

"Care! " said Bonnie shocked

"What? I'm just saying"

"I'm gonna be more careful Care , everything is gonna be alright" I said wanting to sound confident but miserably failing.

"I hope so" she said with a concerned expression on her face.

Stefan's pov

Damn how I wanted to kiss her, I still don't know why or how I didn't.

It's like my head keeps getting in the way I can hear my brain telling me

"Stay away from her , she broke your heart so much that you preferred to erase her from me "

And my heart is saying

"You like her , so go for it"

My heart doesn't care about the damages, should I?

I'm coming back to her with a glass of champagne

"Thank you " she said quietly

I think the intensity of our dance made her a little bit shy

Elena's pov

I drank my glass of champagne in one gulp

"Wow are you okay?" he asked jokingly

"I was very thirsty I guess" I lied

"You're a vampire Lena. Seriously what's wrong?"

Lena , I loved when he called me like that , he was the only one to do it since my dad died. He knows I'm lying "great" I thought to myself

"Oh I just needed to calm my nerves" I said looking away from him and his sweet smile that gave me goosebumps.

"Take my hand" he said not really asking for my permission.

I turned to face him as my eyes widened

"Why?" I asked chuckling

"Because we're going to dance until your pretty little mind is free from your worries so I can see this beautiful smile of yours again " he said taking my hand and leading me to the dance floor .

I found myself smiling when we danced to some pop song I didn't even recognized. If only he knew that he was the only thing bothering me right now. Well, not exactly what was really bothering me is the way I smile whenever he's by my side and how my body and my heart reacts to his touch and how I can't think properly when his beautiful eyes are on mine .

Stop thinking Elena, you're thinking nonsense . You two have been in love with each other and spending time with him reminds you of how it used to be but it's in the past and you know it . You love Damon , Stefan belongs to the past.

"Why are Bonnie and Care staring at us?" he whispered to me even though he knew Caroline could still hear us if she wanted to

"Stefan Salvatore in a suit is quite a sight to see " I said smirking

Did I just flirt with him?

"Well thank you Miss Gilbert glad to know you like what's in front of you" he said while his green eyes were staring intensely into mine.

Focus Elena, focus.

We kept dancing and teasing each other for another twenty minutes when stepped closer to me , his lips were getting closer to my ear and I could know feel his hot breath on my skin .

"Can we go somewhere quieter so we can talk?"he whispered in a raspy voice

I felt like the had been sucked from my lungs for thé hundredth time tonight. Think Elena,think.

I looked around to see if Caroline and Bonnie were still watching us but luckily they weren't paying attention to us anymore.

"Yeah of course " I said in one breath

He took my hand and we quit the park .

We were now walking on a sidewalk in the empty streets of Mystic Falls. Oh my…is this for real? Am I really walking underneath the moonlight with my ex boyfriend who happens to be my current boyfriend's brother?

Suddenly I felt guilty , I felt like I was emotionally cheating on Damon for the second time tonight.

"A penny for you thoughts" he said jokingly.

I chuckled lightly : "I wanted to thank you for coming with me even though you hate parties" It wasn't completely a lie .

"Anything for you" he said winking at me.

I smiled , what else could I do anyway?

"You know Elena" he said as he stopped walking "I like being with you a lot. It's so good to know that someone cares a little about me" he said with a shy smile

"I care a hell lot about you" I said truthfully as my hand reached instinctively for his shoulder.

"I know Lena " he said as his fingers intertwined with mines, it's crazy how our hands fit so well together as if our fingers were meant to be intertwined.

"You're such a great girl I hope you know that" Stefan said as he looked into my eyes

I didn't knew how to talk anymore so I left his question unanswered.

"You're so smart and funny and you're not afraid of anything" he continued as I felt my cheeks turning red.

"And you're kind , patient , caring. And you believe in me"

His free hand was now on my cheek , his thumb rubbing it gently, he used to do it all the time when we were together , most of the time to soothe me.

"Nobody ever believed in me before , well , except from Lexi and Care but it's different."

"I will always believe in you" Really? That's the only thing you can manage to say in this already ambiguous situation? It should feel awkward or at least uncomfortable but it feel right, familiar and exciting.

"Everything feels good when I'm around you and I'm tired of pretending that I don't feel anything for you when I'm obviously failing anyway"

Oh my god , he shouldn't say those kind of things. Elena you have to stop him , why don't you move? I wish I could find the strength to pull away but I'm paralyzed by those burning emerald eyes of his.

And suddenly he's giving me the "I'm about to kiss you right now" look and I want this. I want his lips on mine so badly. This is so wrong. I should run away but I just can't . He's leaning towards me , his perfectly shaped lips are only inches away from mines. I can't think properly anymore. I close my eyes and finally his lips find mines and before I know it I'm kissing him back . His lips are soft and he tastes like happiness , everything feels so familiar and incredible. His hands are on my waist and mines are wrapped around his neck and I'm melting into his arms. I wish this moment could last forever. Unfortunately , reality came rushing back to me. I'm with Damon . Stefan is betraying his brother without even knowing it. This is so wrong.

"Stefan we can't " I said pulling away from him my lips still burning from his kisses . He was now looking at me with those lost puppy eyes .

"Stefan.. you wanted to know why we broke up?" I said quietly knowing everything would change once he'll know.

"Yeah but I thought you didn't wanted to.."he said before I interrupted him

"You have to know. You deserve to know. I should have told you about it right from the start "

We stared at each other for a few seconds before I said the words that would change everything between us .

"I fell in love with your brother. I'm kind of.. dating him right now " I said looking away from him so I wouldn't see his reaction.

"You what?" He said his eyes full of anger "And you let me kiss you? And none of you thought I should know about it?" he was screaming now

"Stefan listen , I.." I tried to speak but he wouldn't let me

"No Elena, don't even bother .. You know what? I can see now why I wanted to forget you " he said , his voice filled with hurt. He walked away from me and I was too damaged by his words to try to follow him. Instead , I sat on the sidewalk and cried . Why did I always end up by hurting him?

I can't really remember the rest of the night , all I know is that It was full of salty tears and loud sobs.

A/N: Leave me some reviews to tell me what you thought about it it makes me really happy and it gives me strenght to continue when I don't have any inspiration.