hey everyone...

with this post, i have some not so fun news. the entire process of the smell of old books, for me, has been kind of rocky. it's hard to juggle school along with friends whilst posting 2,000 words of a fanfiction every other day. i never had a clear plot outline set up when i first started nor did i plan to have almost eighty-thousand words in a little more than four months. i've gone through some major depression throughout writing this story and it's helped me in ways that counseling and venting couldn't.

it's been such an amazing, amazing experience just to have met and gotten to know some of you guys. i've cried multiple times hearing and listening to your guys' experiences and that i helped even if it was just a miniscule amount... because holy damn, all ive wanted to do ever was to help someone who needed it and the thought that i've helped so many of you just makes me want to cry all over again? in a good way, i swear!

and to have fanart drawn? like. seriously amazing fanart? that blows me away. it makes me squeal when someone sends me a message with a photo attached like holyyyyyyyyyyyy. ahhh. that's an author's dream right there.

but, and this is what i don't want to say.
i don't like writing this story anymore. it's difficult and it's gotten to the point where it feels like work more than actual writing. i don't know what that means for the future of this story anymore because i believed i could just push past it but... i can't. undertale hasn't been fun for me anymore, i feel just so drained on it... i don't even do anything related to the fandom anymore because it's just no fun to me. i haven't even replayed the game in forever.

i'm taking an indefinite hiatus from this moment on.
an indefinite hiatus means that you are leaving it and you don't know when you are coming back, but that you have not officially quit and therefore may return. (but, sadly, the likelyhood is more that i will not be returning to this story.)

i don't know if i'll ever feel the need or the want or the drive to get back onto this story, and this reason i didn't stop it around chapter 20 was because of you guys. but i need to do this for myself? im so sorry for everyone who was looking forward to the end and more chapters but... i just can't anymore. i am so sorry.

this story is a great reminder to myself that i can write and people enjoy it, but it is also a reminder that i need to think and delve into the plot completely before setting my mind to a project i might loose motivation to finish.

it's also means so much to me too. i've met one of my greatest friends because of this and i've met a lot of other friends and just down right lovely people because of the smell of old books. i'd never regret writing this story ever because it led me to so many great things.

with this story being on hiatus, i still am going to be working on my other fanfiction. i wish i could rewrite this story and make it more deserving of everyone's praise but... i don't know.

i love you all and thank you so much for staying with this fanfiction for so long.
and know that i'll always be here if anyone needs me or wishes to talk. i'm always at my tumblr and here as well.

just... thank you. from the bottom of my heart. this means more than any words can describe and im so so sorry that i just cant finish it.

if you wish to read more undertale related fanfictions, one of my really good friends/beta reader is writing one right here: /works/6482422/chapters/14837593