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Chase POV

I was eating breakfast and on my laptop doing whatever. I was actually looking at articles talking about how girls throw food up in order to lose weight or throw up after eating large amounts of food to prevent weight gain.

"Hey Chase, we're going to the movies!" I heard my sister say.

It was Saturday so my siblings usually go out to watch a movie, but I never go with them because I don't like the films they like. I kept reading what I was reading. I thought it was a little interesting, I also thought I could lose a little weight...

But I would never do that. I closed my laptop and decided to go out for a walk.

It was nice out. I went to the library since I had nothing else to do and read a little.

When I was scrolling through the books on the shelves something caught my eye... A book... On eating disorders. At first I was wondering whether or not I should look through it or not but I ended up doing so anyway.

I was reading how it starts off as a little thought in your mind and then it becomes a part of your life that you just can't let go of.

There were also stories of other peoples experiences with eating disorders and how they overcame it.

I don't know why but when I left I took the book with me. I had to take it. I was reading it the whole way home. I just couldn't stop reading it, I couldn't let go of it.

When I got home it was lunch time. I was still reading.

"Hey Chase where were you?" Leo asked me.

"The library." I said without taking my eyes off of the book.

"Really? What are you reading?"

I quickly closed the book and hid it behind my back.

"Uh... What are you hiding...?" Leo asked curiously.

I didn't want them to know I was reading this and give them the indication that I had an eating disorder, so I changed the subject.

"I think i'll make a sandwhich." I said as I walked to the refrigerator.

I made a sandwhich but I was still thinking about the book.

"I wonder if it works?" I thought to myself as I finished the last bite of my lunch.

I just kept thinking about the book and my weight. I could stand to lose a couple of pounds. I got up from my seat and ran to the bathroom.

I can't believe what I was about to do. I turned on the water and let it run before kneeling down in front of the toilet. I slowly slid my fingers down my throat and suddenly started gagging. And then food came up.

I kept doing it until almost all of the food came up. Yeah it was a little uncomfortable but I powered through it.

I rinsed my mouth out, washed my hands, and splashed my face with cold water. I looked at myself in the mirror.

"Never do that again." I said to myself.

I went downstairs and just sat there, thinking. I didn't know what to think of myself, I was a little dissapointed.

"Hey Chase, is this yours?" I saw Tasha hold up the book. Oh no I forgot I had left it on the counter!

"Uh... No. Where did you find it?"

I was a little nervous. I really wouldn't know how they would react.

"On the counter. Well if nobody wants to claim it I guess I'll just throw it on the shelf." She said while placing the book on the shelf in the living room.

When she left I grabbed the book and hid it in my room. I didn't have a pillow so I hid it in my dresser. I guess I was a little embaressed about it. I decided to take a nap.

I woke up around 3:00. I am always bored on the weekends since I have no friends.

I went downstairs and my brothers were playing video games, figures.

"No you totally cheated Leo! No fair!" Adam pouted.

I chuckled a little and went on a walk. I went to the park and sat on a bench, reading my book of course... But then...

I reached the end. I felt as if my heart had stopped right there. I didn't want it to be over, I thought of the book as a... Oh I don't know... A comfort. I felt like I had just died a little, everything was in black and white. I didn't know what to think.

I just went home and sulked on the floor until dinner.

I felt a little sick after eating, like I shouldn't have. I decided that I would go purge my guts out again, and I did. It seemed slightly easier this time, weird. I felt horrible. I knew I shouldn't have done that but I did and it's too late. So I went downstairs to watch a movie.

After the movie I was feeling tired so I went to bed. I was still upset about my book, even knowing I could read it again it wouldn't be the same.

I woke up at 2:00 AM feeling kind of hungry. I ignored it at first but a few minutes later I knew I wouldn't get to sleep without eating anything so I went downstairs for a snack.

I looked in the fridge and the pantry.

"So many options." I very quietly said to myself.

I was sort of very hungry so I made three sandwhiches grabbed a few bags of chips and a chocolate bar and ate it all quietly in my room.

After I was finished I felt so guilty, not to mention bloated, and then I thought of a solution.

I knew it was wrong and I could damage my body badly but this was only my third time, what could go wrong?

I read in my book that some bullimics find it easier to use a tooth brush to throw up and chugged a glass of salt water. I did that and I was very surprised at how much came up. I kept shoving the end of the tooth brush down my throat until nothing but stomach acid and water came up.

I was very pleased at how well I did. I flushed the toilet and cleaned myself up and went back to my capsule. My throat hurt but I felt really good after doing that.

The next morning my stomach fell to my feet as Tasha asked me

"Chase are you feeling okay? I heard you throw up last night."

I was freaking out! She heard me! I didn't know what to say, I couldn't say anything but

"Yes I wasn't feeling well and I got sick last night, but i'm better I promise!"

It wasn't a total lie, I felt terrible after eating all that food last night so I made myself sick. Anyway she seemed to believe me so I was okay. She felt my head and said

"Alright but If you start to feel bad again tell me and I will give you some medicine."

I nodded and walked off. I didn't feel like eating anything since my little "session" so I just skipped breakfast.

I didn't eat lunch that day either. I was sort of hungry but I had no desire to eat. I kind of just did whatever and forgot about my book until I saw it in my dresser looking for a shirt. Then I had an idea!

I figured that maybe there is another book like this at the library! I got excited, I didn't know what drew me towards books like these but whatever it was, it was kind of taking over my mind.

I went back to the library and found two other books like it! I immediatley started reading one of the books and it was when I was about halfway in when I realized how late it was. Wow this day went fast, it was already 6:00 oclock.

I went home and I really didn't wanna eat but everyone sat at the table so I had no choice.

"Hey Chase, don't tell me you spent half the day at the library again! You can only read so much you know that?" Leo laughed.

"I just like books. Books for me is like pigzombie for you." I told him.

"What do you read anyway?" Bree asked.

"Probably geeky science stuff!" Adam teased.

"Quiet kids the the game's on." Davenport told us. I laughed a bit before realizing I had finished my plate. I should've felt satisfied, full. But I didn't I threw my plate in the sink and ran upstairs.

I turned the water on and purged again. It hurt, it was horrible, but it was good. I tried my best to throw everything up but I couldn't get the last bit out. I flushed and washed up and looked in the mirror. I thought

"What is happening to me?"

I went to my room and cried myself to sleep.