A/N: Here is chapter 30 and it's the last chapter of this story. Sorry for not updating yesterday, but I had a lot of trouble with getting to my university and back with the trains and busses, so I didn't feel like writing after all of that. Anyway, please enjoy reading the last chapter and please review and tell me what you thought about the story.

Summary: Izaya has been having headaches lately and when more symptoms appear he decides to go to the hospital. There he gets to hear that he has brain cancer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara!

It had taken a few more months before Izaya had been able to walk properly again. Running was still not going too well, but he was doing it a bit every day and he was getting better with the day.

He had slowly started working too, but he was only doing small jobs and was careful when he did them, since he was still not able to outrun his clients if they got angry with him. Shiki had wanted to give him a bodyguard, but Izaya had refused him, saying he was able to take care of himself, but that didn't mean that he was actually fine. He was just doing what he could right now.

His relationship with Shizuo had gotten more intimate too and Shizuo was still living with him, but Izaya doubted that it was still as his suicide watch. Everytime they went out together people would still look like it was the end of the world, but Izaya had learned to not care about what other people thought about him.

It had been hard for him at first, since he still remembered what people really thought, but Shizuo helped him and now he was able to tolerate it.

The nightmares and panic attacks were slowly getting less too, which he was glad for, since the nightmares would disturb his sleep and the panic attacks weren't good for him either.

He had needed to go to the hospital a few times for checkups and everything was fine. He had been going for therapy too and he was still going, but it was only because it helped him a bit.

Right now it was the end of the year and today Shinra was giving a new years party. It would be the first time he would be in a big group again since before everything happened and he was honestly a bit nervous, since he knew Shinra also invited people who didn't know about what had happened to him.

"Izaya, I'm home." Izaya looked up from his computer to see Shizuo walking into the apartment.

"Welcome home, Shizu-chan." Izaya said and shut his computer down before making his way over to the blonde. Once there he stood on his tiptoes to kiss the blonde on his lips.

"Are you ready to go to Shinra's party?" The blonde asked and Izaya shook his head almost unnoticeable. "Not? What's wrong?"

"I don't want to go." Izaya said softly and buried his face in Shizuo's shirt. He heard the blonde sigh a little, but ignored it, while he wrapped his arms around the blonde.

"Why?" Was all the blonde asked him.

"I'm afraid of seeing everyone." Izaya mumbled softly and he could feel Shizuo chuckle for a bit. Izaya looked up to glare at him, he really didn't like the fact that Shizuo seemed to be laughing at him. "Don't laugh at me."

"I'm not." Shizuo said and looked down at the raven with a smile. "It will be fine, so let's just go, alright?" Shizuo said and looked down at Izaya waiting for an answer.

"Fine, I just hope that nothing will go wrong." Izaya sighed and then turned to grab his jacket, before putting it on.

"It won't, I will make sure of it." Shizuo said and then the two of them left the apartment and headed to Shinra's.

xxx

Once there, Shizuo knocked on the door and the both of them waited for Shinra to open the door. They were on time, so luckily there would not be that many people yet.

It took a bit of time, but then the door finally opened to reveal Shinra. "Shizuo, Izaya you two are early." The doctor said and let the two of them in. "You're the first to arrive, so feel free to take a seat anywhere you like."

They did just that and sat down on the couch together. Izaya still felt nervous, but he tried not to show it, even though he was keeping Shizuo's hand in his own, seeking some comfort.

"Would you like something to drink?" Shizuo suddenly asked and Izaya nodded.

"Just water please." He wasn't planning on drinking tonight, since he couldn't hold his liquor. He didn't know if Shizuo would drink, but he would find out later tonight.

Izaya looked up when he saw Shinra had disappeared to the door once more and more voices sounded from down the hall.

Shizuo was still not back when the three high schoolers walked in and Izaya couldn't help but feel more nervous when the three of them looked at him.

"Izaya was here already?" Kida asked and Izaya could clearly see the blonde kid narrow his eyes at him, as if he was suspicious.

"Don't be like that Masaomi." Mikado said and Izaya remembered that the kid knew about his suicide attempt.

"Mikado, why are you defending him?" Kida asked the other to which Izaya sighed audibly.

"Don't fight, this is supposed to be a party." Izaya slowly said and watched Kida calmly. The kid was clearly surprised to have heard Izaya say that.

"Izaya, I got you your water." Shizuo said while he walked back into the room and saw that there were other now. "Ah, you three are here already." Shizuo said and then went over to the couch and gave Izaya his water before sitting down beside the raven.

Before another conversation could be started they heard Shinra opening the door again and all looked to see the van gang walking inside.

Kadota was the first to walk inside and looked surprised to see both Izaya and Shizuo sitting beside each other. "So it's true you're not fighting anymore?" Was the first thing he asked and Izaya couldn't help but smirk at that and watched as the other three walked in and stared at the two of them too.

"Yeah, we are in a sort of relationship now." Shizuo said and Izaya glared at him after those words.

"You shouldn't have told them." Izaya growled, but Shizuo only smiled at that.

"Why not? It would be pretty clear from our actions anyways." Izaya gave a small huff at that and turned to face the other way. "Don't be like that." Shizuo said and wrapped his arms around the raven.

Izaya wanted to keep ignoring the blonde, but decided against it and turned around to lay his head on the blonde's shoulder.

xxx

Other people arrived and soon the room was pretty full with people. Izaya was still sitting beside Shizuo on the couch and was leaning into the blonde. He felt like everyone together like this was becoming a bit much for him.

They had gotten a lot of questions about them being together, but luckily nothing about his disappearance for more than a year.

Still he felt like everyone was way too loud and noisy and his head was pounding slightly, clearly not used to so many people at once anymore. "Shizu-chan?" He said softly and saw the blonde turn to look at him.

"What is it?" Shizuo asked and looked the raven over for a bit. He had thought that the raven had been really quiet tonight and now that he looked at him he looked a bit pale and even a bit tired.

"Can we go somewhere a bit more quiet?" Izaya asked and looked hopefully at the blonde. He saw Shizuo looking around and then standing up slowly before pulling the raven after him.

He went over to Celty and asked her something, but Izaya didn't really register it. He felt like there was too much noise and he couldn't separate the sounds that well. He just reacted to Shizuo dragging him through the apartment and when the sound died down a bit he noticed that they were probably in Shinra's bedroom.

"Are you alright?" The blonde asked and looked concerned at the raven.

"I feel a bit better now that it's not so loud." Izaya mumbled and walked over to the bed before laying down on it and closing his eyes for a bit.

"Are you tired?" He heard Shizuo asked and he slowly nodded. "I asked Celty if you could rest, so if you want to sleep for a bit, it's fine, I will wake you up before midnight." Shizuo said and Izaya opened his eyes at him for those words.

"Are you really fine with that?" Izaya asked him, but his eyes were already falling closed again.

"Yes, just get under the blankets alright?" Shizuo said and took the blankets from under the raven before placing them on top of him and then he headed out the door, leaving the raven to sleep.

xxx

Izaya felt himself get shaken out of his sleep and he opened his eyes slowly to see that Shizuo was the one shaking him. "Is it time?" He mumbled softly and wanted to close his eyes again, since he still felt tired.

"Don't go back to sleep, it's almost midnight." Izaya only hummed as a response, but soon opened his eyes and pushed the blankets off of him before sliding out of the bed. He wobbled for a bit, since he still felt tired, but Shizuo steadied him and helped him out of the room.

Izaya was a bit more awake when he walked into the room and everyone looked at him. He wanted to hide behind Shizuo, but he knew that wouldn't be possible.

[Are you feeling better now?] Celty was the first to ask him something and Izaya nodded at the question.

"Yeah, I'm feeling better." He said and then let Shizuo take him to the couch. He still felt tired, but he knew it wouldn't be long till midnight.

"Can I get everyone's attention?" Shinra asked when he was finally settled on the couch. "Since the year is almost over let's start counting down." Shinra said and then started counting down, followed by the rest of the group.

"Happy new year!" Everyone said as soon as it was midnight and Izaya smiled a little at that. He had lived to see another year, at the start of last year it felt like he wouldn't make it till the end, but he had gotten stronger and slowly he was recovering the last bit. He knew it would take a bit more time, but it would be fine, he would be getting his life back.

Suddenly he heard someone gasp and he looked up to see the others look at him. "Izaya, you're crying?" Someone asked and Izaya brought his hand up to touch his cheek where he could indeed feel tears streaming down.

"Is something wrong?" This voice he recognized as Shizuo's and he shook his head slowly.

"Just happy that I got to live another year." He said with a small smile. Not everyone there knew what he meant, but the ones who did smiled too. Izaya had gone through a lot over the past year and all of them hoped that this year would be better for the raven. Hopefully with no setbacks.