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Maya shut the door to Lucas' red jeep- she heard him exhaled displeased by Maya's rough treatment, she wanted him to know that she was mad.
And she was beyond mad.
She felt like Lucas had violate her privacy, like he had invaded her own secrets and the way he had threw shots at her like if he knew what she had been through. Maya had been through hell and back- but she couldn't see beyond that, she was clouded by her suffering and the slight fear that she was trying to leave back but still hold on to her like if it was sewed to her soul.
But instead of blowing up, like she would usually do. She rather stayed quiet because she knew if they got to the topic then something might escape her lips, maybe she would say a little too much about New York and if she was being honest, she was still glued to the idea that she couldn't tell Lucas, not just yet.
"So, I guess I'm driving you home?" Lucas muttered as his sea-foam eyes observed her quietly.
Maya opened her mouth but then shut it again, she glowered at Lucas irritated. She simply nodded and quickly moved her gaze towards the window- trying to avoid Lucas' persistent gaze that drove her insane.
Lucas quietly turned on the radio, country music sounding and snickered because he knew how much Maya hated country music. Maya felt Lucas' gazed over her and groaned- fuck, really?
She glowered at Lucas, that still had a band over his eyebrow and his knuckles purple, who was looking at her with a brooding expression- like waiting for her to talk or say something aggressive that could initiate a conversation.
Maya knew it, but then she looked away, wordless, her legs and arms crossed.
Lucas inhaled uneasily as he took in Maya's reaction, but there was something odd, something lingered in that action that Maya couldn't quite decipher it- but she swiftly brushed it off from her thoughts and continue with the silent treatment. She felt how Lucas turned off the music in a swift and hostile movement, Maya jumped a bit by the sudden action but refused to turn around to face him. He turned the car on and drive off the school parking lot without any word escaping his lips.
There was a change in the air, a new tension that was making the air harder to breathe…
For Maya's infortune, she didn't live really close to school- this meant that she was going to be stuck a long time with Lucas in that car. It was usually really enjoyable, Maya loved talking to Lucas and they could actually talk about everything and even maybe had a little make-out session before getting out of the car for school or when he dropped her off on her house. But today? It was a nightmare.
Maya felt anxious and the tension in the car wasn't going away- she began to fidget with her hands as she beg for time to pass faster. She would've been on her phone but it had died after waiting for Lucas to be released from the nurse's office. She had thought this would be a perfect way to please Lucas and be a good girlfriend but that plan had been literally her worst decision. First, she was harassed by those cheerleaders on the stairs where she had to take her New York Maya Hart out and then she had to stand there and deal with another asshole that thought he had the right to literally sexually harass Maya and then tell her it was a game. Then she had to deal with the airhead of her boyfriend that decided to almost kill the guy- not that she didn't wanted to do it herself- and then completely violate her secrets.
It was getting darker as time passed silently in the car, Maya's gaze traveled to Lucas from time to time but the only thing she could see without being too obvious was Lucas burning gaze watching the road and his jaw clenched a bit. Maya then got back again to see out of the window, the long fields of grass that surrounded her and she begged for this to be over so she could simply get home.
Suddenly without prelude, Lucas' turned the wheel to the right and he drove off the road to the edge of dirt besides the fields without alerting Maya in any way. Lucas was driving at 80 KMPH, too fast and so fast that he even nearly tripped the car over the process. Maya's body bump helplessly against the door, she lost her breathe for one second and then she saw the lights that were coming from the cars on the other side of the road and she was sure they were going to crash, she shut down her eyes as she thought that they were going to collide in any moment- she was just waiting for the impact. There was a loud roar and a howl that came from Lucas' jeep as it fell on the dirt that surrounded the road, the cars behind him honking at him for his little maneuver. Maya yelped helplessly, she was sure that her heart was going to leave her chest as it beat so rapidly and she simply hold on to her dear life to the door and Lucas' strong arms.
After a second or two, Maya opened her eyes carefully as she tried to breathe uneasily- now she was mad.
She turned around a glowered at Lucas who still had his gaze looking forward but before Maya could speak in the colorful language she wanted to, she realized Lucas' state. His eyes narrowed, his gaze was cold but dripping rage as well- a rage Maya had seen on Halloween, the first night Maya went out and that very same day with Andy. Maya gulped and with a glazed look she tried to figure out what Lucas was going to do. Suddenly, Lucas took a deep breath and with no warm or whatsoever in his movements he opened the door of the driver and shut it down with such a strong grip that made Maya jump, scared by the rage that was lingered to his actions.
Maya stay still for a second- but then she had no intentions on keeping the silent treatment on, she quickly took off her belt and open the door and slam it just as hard as Lucas had recently. Maya felt the cold wind on her face and she quickly cursed that she had decided to wear a stupid skirt that day- she desperately looked around trying to see where Lucas was so she could finally say everything on her mind.
When her gaze found him by the blue shirt he had decided to wear that day, she didn't really know what to think about it.
Lucas was walking alone through the fields, getting deeper and deeper into the meadow but not too fast or too slow- just at a constant rhythm.
"Lucas!" Maya screamed at him with all the air she had- there was no answer as he kept getting farther. "Lucas! What the actual fuck?" she screamed again.
He didn't even turn around to see if Maya was behind him, he just kept walking and Maya surely didn't know what to do. Maya cursed to herself as she looked around, it was getting darker and she was cold, she was sure Lucas had taken the keys and so she couldn't just get back to the jeep. Therefor she had no other option than to follow Lucas' shady road and so she did.
Maya began to walk and jump through the large grass on those fields, she crossed her arms in the hope she could get warmer but she was unsuccessful- she had no idea what Lucas was trying to pull off but she still decided to follow him and they actually walked for a really long time- it wasn't that Maya was aware of the time but she could see how the red jeep was turning smaller as she advanced behind Lucas through the fields. Her breathe was uneasy, she could see vapor coming out of her mouth because of the cold as she tried to catch up with Lucas that was getting closer. Maya tried not to think too much about it, she simply followed him in silence, she was still mad off course but a fight couldn't take away the fact that she was simply in love with this guy and she would follow him anywhere.
Abruptly when Maya was an arm-length away from Lucas and she was really going to curse in a few seconds if they didn't stopped walking- he stopped. Maya almost collides against him if it hadn't been for her quickly reflexes- nevertheless she gasped. She raised her head and saw they had reached a beautiful meadow between some trees- it was almost night and Maya was sure that she could see the stars like never before. Maya watched Lucas carefully as he sat down, he finally turned around and gazed at her with those sea-foam green eyes that drove her insane although they uttered an unspoken hardness and ire.
"Sit down" Lucas spoke without much prelude, his voice with a disdain tone that Maya hadn't heard before towards her.
It got her even more angry.
"What the hell are we doing here Lucas?" Maya growled at Lucas, her baby-grey blue eyes dripping fury as well. "And what were you thinking back there? Huh? Were you trying to get us killed?" Maya asked again, the rage on her voice was tangible but there was no reaction from Lucas except for a disappointed sighed.
"She speaks, it didn't seem that way on the car." Lucas scoffed. "Can you please just sit down?" Lucas growled back at her.
"Whatever"
Maya incredibly listen this time- she had no time to waste now, she was here and she couldn't simply go back. Therefore, she sat next to him in silence but facing him away. Lucas passed a hand through his sandy blonde hair and breathe deeply- like was struggling to get something out of his chest.
"I know something happened to you in New York." Lucas finally spoke as he watched at Maya carefully.
Maya swore her heart had stopped and she wasn't breathing anymore- she felt a shock throughout her whole body, a shock of fear. Maya's mind began to rumble, how on earth he found out about this? He hates me? Was he torturing me on the nurse's office? She shook her head and tears began to pool on her eyes, her eyes completely open as plates and she was sure that she was pale- she felt like she was going to throw up, her body trembling and she knew she had this miserable expression because when she turned around Lucas' gaze was completely shattered.
Without much prelude, in one swift motion, Lucas pushed Maya next to him- he dragged her, lay her down and placed her on his lap as he hold on to her with his strong arms- Maya felt dizzy as she quickly felt Lucas' scent invading her and his strong arms holding her- she had this knot in her throat that wouldn't let her talk.
She had to breathe in a few times before a sound escape her lips.
"H-how?" Maya stuttered as she gazed into space-reminiscing every second of the fight with Trent and even more how could've Lucas known.
But as unexpected as Lucas had entered Maya's life- he placed a finger on her lips and Maya felt confused- why wasn't he letting her talk?
"Shh, Shortstack, wait. "Lucas muttered as he held her tighter to his body, Maya could feel Lucas warm through their clothes." I don't know what." Lucas cleared and Maya felt like she could breathe again, she quickly wiped the tears that had begun to fall on her cheeks and turned around to see Lucas.
"So, how do you know?" Maya mumbled in a barely inaudible voice as she contemplated Lucas' and there she saw that warm on his sea-foam eyes that melt her, he was so worried about her, she knew by the way he was looking at her and Maya remembered why she was with him.
"Because I have been through that too." Lucas finally slipped out- so easily that Maya didn't know how to react and she was confused because Lucas didn't seem fearful on his diverse actions like in the club or that very same day.
"But you- you are not afraid." Maya said again as she held onto him, she was trying to understand how someone that was detonating every once in a while, could be somehow okay- couldn't be fearful of what he could do or cause.
"Maya…" Lucas breathe out as he took a hold of her cheek and their gazes linked together. "I've been through hell and back because of my bad temper and behavior. I feel fear every time I do something like I did today."
Maya gazed at him strangely, like she barely registers what he was speaking- she didn't believe what he was saying to her and to be completely honest she didn't- why could he keep doing it if he knew he was being bad?
"But you never seemed terrified of what you could do to someone." Maya replied. "You just act and you don't think?"
Lucas scoffed.
"Do you really think I'm like that?" Lucas asked her but Maya didn't move as her gaze looked down at his lips and then again to his eyes. "I did something that I'm not proud of but now, if I fight someone or simply explode, I know I do it for the right reasons."
Maya had a puzzle look on her face like she was having a hard time registering anything that Lucas was saying.
"Look, I have a bad temper sometimes but I know it's because I'm defending someone I care about. I'm not saying, it's an appropriate reaction because I know it's not an excuse but I've learned to embrace that. I'm more afraid of losing myself by avoiding who I am." Lucas breathe out.
There was something that Maya saw in that second that astonished her, Lucas wasn't an airhead at all and he was even more mature in this topic than she was- his words resonated not only in her mind but in her heart. She felt like what he had said, applied in every manner to her life, she still felt the burns like she did when she went to New York, the wounds wide opening and still trying to close them.
"I know how to fight, I know how hard to do it, do you even think for a second I couldn't have broken Andy's nose today? I know what I did and exactly how." Lucas explained. "I know that I shouldn't fight too much and I've been trying to work on it for a while but whilst it happens I know that I'm under control and if I fight I have a good reason to do it."
Maya's breathe uneasy as she gazed, she could still see that band on his eyebrows and she chuckled at him and he gazed down at her and his one line lips turned into a smirk. He caressed her cheek and then began to place sweet pecks on her face, all over it. Maya began to smile and laugh, Lucas was kissing her non-stop until she fell again on his laps as she tried to push him away to make him stop. Lucas stayed still as he gazed down at her and Maya was sure her heart beating rose in a second- she was mesmerized by Lucas: those sea-foam green eyes that seemed taken out from the beach, some freckles under his eyes, his sandy blonde hair that she loved, his strong arms holding her pulling her body closer to him- everything about that moment felt perfect. Maya felt a rush of confidence, fire in her chest and she knew that she was in a safe place- Lucas felt a little like a safe place.
She breathed deeply and stood from Lucas' lap, she gazed down at him and turned around, unsure about if she should do it. But she felt like he might understand her, still there was something holding her back, if she told him what she did then he would never see her the same way, she had barely kill a person.
Should I just say it? No, he would hate me Maya thought and she decided to remain quiet about all her experience.
"I had a really bad temper on New York." Maya stuttered as she gazed down at Lucas who gazed at her quietly, he quickly stood up. "It's been really hard on me and I've been trying to suppress it."
Maya finally said it- a part of it at least and Lucas smiled a bit. She began to fidget with her hands, waiting for an answer, she felt like her heart was sinking because it had been just too. Lucas pulled back a strand of hair that was falling on her face.
"You can't simply shut it down Maya, I know by experience it's not that easy." Lucas replied as his hand began to travel down her arm and took a hold of her hand. "You can't hide something that's part of you because if you simply try to suppress it then you'll never know how to control it."
Maya gazed at Lucas- he was looking at her like every girl wanted to be look at. She saw in him someone that didn't judge her after so many people had done it back in New York, she felt like she gave her that liberty to be who she was.
"You can't hide who you are Maya Hart. You just need to embrace it and learn from it, if you hide it is going to do more harm than good." Lucas said with a smile as he took a step closer towards her. "I love everything about you and respect who you are because you're the greatest thing that has ever happened to me."
Maya began to feel that shock of heat she felt with Lucas besides her, that fire that she wasn't able to control when she was with him.
"Lucas…" Maya said as she held on to his shirt.
"Besides, bad behavior or temper, you are still my Shortstack of Pancakes." Lucas intervene and then placed a peck on her forehead- he was indeed in love with Maya and she was sure that no one had ever loved her like he did.
Maya looked up to him and without any notice, he pulled Lucas down as their lips crashed together hungrily.
In that second all her body was love, she didn't had space to feel afraid anymore.