Chapter One Successfully Edited! Sorry for the inconvenience!

Amidst of the cold harsh rain, I looked at you who was wearing the ring I worked hard to obtain. I was unhappy, unhappy to see you smile with another girl who I thought was to be my best friend. Even though I tried to tell myself that it was nothing and everything is normal, my heart has been completely shattered the moment you shared a kiss with her.

"Liam…"

Both of you looked at me in pure shock. I know you will say it's nothing but a misunderstanding, everything you tell me is always predictable. But it's always the same lie you tell to me. A lie whenever I see you together with her…

"Xenon… I—"

"Xenon, it is what it looks like. I know you already noticed it… But please understand. Liam and I had been in love for a month now. Please accept that he doesn't love you anymore…"

I know about that… but what about my love? What about my feelings that I held unto all the time? Was it all for nothing at all?

… I guess this is what people call bitter reality. Even though how much I try to change everything, it will always end up to one result…

"Liam… that ring…"

As soon as I mentioned the ring he is wearing, Katie took it from his and threw it in the middle of the streets then looked at me.

"He… won't be needing it anymore..! Xenon..! Wake up..! This is not like the books that you always read. Just accept it, you Otaku trash..!"

Ahhh… so that's how they view me all along… an Otaku trash..? Funny, I never was so affected by it before. But coming from my only best friend, it sounded like multiple arrows shooting towards me.

As they slowly left me in the middle of the cold rain, I dropped my umbrella and looked at the street where she have thrown the ring I gave to him. It was like a star, shinning in the middle of the darkened path, so easy to find. But right now, it just a piece of metal that has deemed to be no value anymore.

Not minding the busy streets, I went over to the ring and took it from the ground. It was already cold from the rain, but I was also cold too. I just stood there and stared at the ring, not minding the sound of the Truck honking on me before everything else in the world disappeared in the pitch black darkness.

The only thing that I know of, was the coldness of the ring on my hand and the painful pain on the chest. Before I knew about it, I wasn't killed from this accident at all… the thing that killed be was the broken heart that refused to beat anymore…

Chapter One

Reality is a nightmare that only the unfortunate can obtain. Though I had awakened from such dream, the pain and emptiness I feel inside still lingers with the broken memories that had been shattered for the sake of my own sanity. I died… but this cruel fate that I carry still chose to let my meaningless life continue.

The cold sensation on my hand and finger made me slowly open my eyes with tears streaming down on its own. It made me remember many things that seemed to be mixed together making everything so confusing and sad.

"If you are awake then get up. It's been four months since you were sleeping, I'm quite surprised that you are even alive. So, have you been enjoying your four months in heaven? Or did you get forcefully dragged to hell?" my eyes tiredly looked for the source of that deep voice. My sight landed at the single man sitting next to the burning fireplace with the clay pot boiling with weird smelling food.

"Would it have been better… if everything in my life is a disposable dream? So that I could wake up… like it was nothing." his sharp eyes meeting my tired ones made me feel the differences with both of our worlds. He was strong… and I was broken. He seemed to have noticed it too while looking at me.

"…" I shifted my gaze that my hand and saw the ring that was supposedly the symbol of my love and happiness. And that symbol was just thrown away like a trash.

"Do you… want to die..?" the sound of pity on his voice made me feel relaxed and at ease. To die once again… I know how lonesome and terrifying death is. But right now, it feels as if it's the only way to end everything else. A painful smile was carved on my face.

"…yes… please…" a sigh left from the man's lips. He took the gigantic hammer on the ground and dragged it to where I was. Right now, all I felt is the pleasant silence which made me close both of my eyes. He had already lifted the hammer of judgment.

'It would've been great… to just disappear…'

"Don't take death so lightly… boia!" a strong impact struck at my side breaking most of my rib on purpose. The impact sent me crashing to many trees and landed to the shore. There was no pain but my body stopped responding at the moment. But it didn't matter… I didn't die… more like he didn't kill me.

"I don't… need your mercy… I'm a trash that has nothing left. If you even want my gratitude then I have nothing to offer you. You can just sell off my organs once I'm dead, I don't need them anyway." this enraged the man even further.

"I've met many people and even seen how their lives ended. This is the first time I saw someone as despicable as you are. Value your life kid, many people wants to have a life the same as you have and here you are trying to end it like it was nothing…" he dropped his hammer on the sandy ground and sat beside me while looking at the seas.

"…there is still many things in this world that we couldn't understand. Those wounds on your wrists and that mark on your neck had already given me a hint about what you have been going through. It's alright now kid… it's already over." over? How can everything be over if I'm still alive?

"From now on, you will become my son. You will take on my will and survive the tides of this era." so I am still at his mercy… huh? I'm really pitiful…

"But… is it really okay if someone like me lives? I am… an eyesore… a waste of living space… so it would be better off if I'm—"

"Dying will not solve anything at all. Dying is lonely, it's really dark in there… really painful… I myself saw a glimpse of it…" the last thing I saw was a shooting star passing through the skies before he could cover both of my eyes with his hand. It was cold, but a little warmer than I was. This made me cry silently again.

'I will be living in this cruel world once more…'

"Tomorrow you will be waking up as Kuroi D. Shonzou. I am Kuroi D. Leon, a weapon smith that lives in this little island… sleep now, my son. The world of tomorrow is waiting for your appearance." doing what I was told, I slowly drifted to this lonely sleep even though that the world inside my mind is nothing but an unacceptable nightmare. Praying to whoever God who can hear my voice to give me another reason why to live in this rotten world once more.